Esilda

Visuals that are speaking to me

When I observe my love, is the observer the loved, lover or both?

Q'ns I'm quietly asking myself that anyone can feel free to share their connections with: What is love but the expression of what we think love is? So how can we broaden and deepen our understanding of love to further our expression? How can we use our deeper understanding to deepen our forgiveness, heal our misunderstandings and see the presence of love throughout all of our past history? How has the understanding of love of everyone around us impacted the way they have related to us? How has it enhanced and how has it taken away? How do we bring everything back to the womb of Mother Nature’s spirit and grace? Wishing everyone a beautiful wherever you are . As life sends more to me, I'll release more. This is all... So no-destination from me, I'm letting natures intuition guide me where she pleases.

.... I have no idea if I should title them or whatever... Just going to let them flow and .... be... purely as they are, to as much as possible exist in the purity without any names to give to them. Feeling a lot of forgiveness well up in me in this moment for some reason...

@Marcel Gratitude! It makes me feel so warm that I have this support I'm motivated to share by the end of the night now as soon as I get back!

@RickyFitts thanks ricky that's so kind and sweet of you I really appreciate your support!

@Gabith Time to find a drug dealer on the street j/k, I've honestly never had any drugs before basically all of my friends though have at least has a little bit of pot! I don't even drink either because its so sensitive to my nervous system, I would only be a social drinker and if that I'd just be pretending to drink it lol. I would like to try it though, I just totally wouldn't know who to speak to where I am.

@RickyFitts thx I was thinking about just putting it up again but I'll just follow what makes me feel most comfortable, I can see this becoming an important self actualisation project for me

@RickyFitts

@assx95 Focus on your feelings first as much as you can, make sure they don't get the better of your by processing them well. Second is introspect on where you want to be in the future and all the ways in which it could work and not work, afterwards go with your gut, like tell her how you feel darl . How long have you known her? What is stopping you from still learning about other girls (as it doesn't mean you have to pursue them)? What do you really want from her more than anything else and what makes you think she could provide that more than another woman from where you are? Wishing you the best

@RickyFitts So much stress today which created enough doubt to just kill my first response after contemplating all night on it . I just wrote it spontaneously and then I was like 'no i've got to feel about this more!!!".

Had to delete my previous entry, still super nervous about all of this... I want my first entry to truly reflect me. I need more time for reflection.

@IAmReallyImportant It seems a little attention seeking to be honest, a bit much... but I've never heard of him so I'll do some research! However just in general... Go trees!

@RendHeaven thank you so much! Right now I'm compiling a list of all the experiences I wish to write about, its just going to be a longer than expected process for me to put everything into words and not just in relation to people. The feelings I've experienced of the Earth, mother nature, the beautiful trees including where I'm now from, the feeling of different vibrations and energies, all of the pets I've had, the affinity I have with other animals, the experience of the night sky and the morning rising glow of the sun...

@Ferretab just checking up on you I hope you're doing well (this is my second comment here!)

@EntheogenTruthSeeker do you like sport? If you found one that forced you to exercise your focus and attention I'm sure this would have a positive impact on you especially the more exciting you find it!

@RickyFitts @Zeroguy You hope that I get it? How do you carry this idea out in practical life anyhow?

@charlie cho doesn't this just equal "not narcissism"? If we're only attracted to narcissism then the world becomes a very shallow place. Not.... Quite at that extreme yet, plus its mostly a societal trend than something with historical permanence.

@Raptorsin7 What is one of your earliest experiences of loving someone/something outside yourself? For me it was my pet bird and I know this because of how much I was crying when she died. Love is generally connected to what we can feel empathy for, sometimes we like to hide our empathy though.

So nervous.... That's why I deleted my other entry and restarted it here

Wow you certainly have some talent, keep sharing progress overtime!

@Ferretab My favourite book at the moment! Whenever I'm feeling down or I'm re-experiencing my own anxieties I just simply find a calm place to rest if I'm not too preoccupied, ideally lay down and then drift off into the world of zen .

@integral such a beautiful act! I hope they sincerely appreciate your efforts!