Cesar Alba

How can I know where to begin with? It seems like a road too far away, just thinking about all the areas I have to work in me, it’s hard to know where to start!

Snorted Is the one that will last long. Synthetic and smoked 5 meo Will last the same as the toad... which one to choose?... Would you rather die slowly with no way out, or die quick with no way out? Jaja... I would recomend to try the fast one first, its easier when its something that you dont see coming. Easier but, still, you may resist and in that case, youll suffer. If not, It will be the Best experience of your life. You just need to commit to yourself, to just surrender and let happen what needs to happen, its simpler than It sounds, not quite easy for everyone since you dont really have a point of comparison with any other substance out there. Youll only know if youre ready to die when youre dying with the 5 meo. Also, dont confuse yourself before even tryng 5 meo... THERES IS NO TOAD SPIRIT. Not with bufo, not with synthetic 5 meo, not with ayahuasca, not with peyote, not with any medicine, thats just a projection of the ego, nothing is separate from you since You are god and You are the only thing that really exist. You are all that youll see on your trip. The shaman thing is just a show that the ego likes so It thinks its doing things "right". All the rituals, the chants, etc. Are cool, artístic, cultural or whatever, but still, its just ego. Ive tried 5 meo dmt labmade and also the natural secretion. Its the same thing. The only real difference maybe its the smell, natural 5 meo smells like a mix of beer and... A bufalo's fart lol. Ive done 5 meo dmt solo. In my experience its the best way to work your energy so that you feel free to really express what ever Energy thay needs to be purged. Its like youre practicing dieing week after week, or month after month, you enter the nondual state one Time after another and slowly, with practice and a lot of hard work in everyday life (like meditating, selfinquiry, etc) youll start to see clearer and clearer the diferente between your true self amd the ego. Now... You say that you dont have experience with the medicine, in that case, I would not recomend you do it alone at the begining since you dont know what amount of purging youll need and also the reactions youll have. You could die with your own vomit, you could stand up in the middle of the trip and run to the street and have an accident, you could get a serious PTSD from the experience, so, I recomend that you have a "facilitator/shaman" or a sitter that Is experienced with the medicine, that knows a lot of diferent kind of reactions someone can have with the medicine. After you see that your ego doesnt over react from the experience, then you can consider doing it solo. I recomend you to read Martin W. Ball's book: Entheogenic Liberation. It has some deep insights for doing elightenment work with 5 meo and other medicines. I hope my opinion helps you. Hello from Mexico! ❤️

Youre gonna think exactly the same thing the 4th, the 5th, the 20th time you do it. Try not to understand or look for an insight, dont try nothin, just smoke and let what needs to be manifested express itself. Youll be surprised of what comes out Glad you did the toad <3

That woman could really get a lot of understanding by taking some psychedelics. She's too traped in her mind, I dont think any explanation from Spira could help, you need to experience directly this stuff hes talking about. It may help though.

Hi! Im 24 years old and I want to learn what to eat to be healthy and work on detox my body for spiritual work. Im not looking for any strict diets, at least not now. Im starting my transition from eating a regular (shity) mainstream, high sugar, meat, weats diet, to a more conscious and healthy one. I want to learn whats up with our body, how does it process certain foods, what do I need for my type of body, etc. I want to learn how to eat, not somebody else telling me what to eat, I want to understand the process. Can Anyone help with some books, videos or blogs where I can start and develope this knowledge?

Ok, so now that the author has given the first 8 excercices to start your routine, does that mean that you dont have to do savasana, ujjya and nadi sodhana anymore? Or do you have to add them to the routine? I think its abvious that these excercices are like a training for the complete 8 routine. But hey! maybe im wrong Also, how many do you allready found your Ishta Devata?

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On may im planning to do a vision quest for 4 days and 3 nights, Ive been thinking a lot about it and on how can I take the most of it, I want to do Kriya from Leos book recomendations during the vision quest retreat, and other techniques, also Im thinking on maybe taking 5 meo dmt on the peak experience of the vision quest, im sayng maybe to all of this, becuase maybe the vision quest by itslef is allready really hard. What do you guys think, any simillar experiences? Thank you!

I forgot Leo is in hes retreat

Yes, we arrive to the "base camp", where a certain amount of peoples job is to pray for you, 4 days straight around a fire taking turns with other people in the same camp, when you arrive you and a couple of guides lead you to a remote place, draw a circle on the floor and then leave, so, im really going to be alone but its organized by this group. They dont check your bag to see if you have water, food or drugs, its your responsability if you dont get a breakthrough by cheating in some way or another.

The person who told me about the experience said that no drugs where allowed, and of course, no food or water. The people doing this retreat are nahuas, so theyre approach to the experience is very ritualistic, and this group of nahuas/aztecs/mexicas in special think that the use of psychedelics is "cheating" I dont want to be disrespectfull to their beliefs of anoying the spirits, I just want to make the best out of it. I think that not drinking water nor eating food is something I have to do in order to get closer to getting a breakthrough, also I want to, But the 5 meo is something im not that sure. The experience itself may be allready too much, or maybe, not... @Leo Gura what do you think? Have you done this yet?

Guys, at Nodhi Sudhana and Ujjyia do you recomend to listen to alpha binaural Beats? Also, when sitting, I have 3 problems... 1: I start falling alseep even when i'm not listening to binaural Beats. 2: when i'm with my legs crossed one of them always start to numb and that distracts me a lot! 3: My back also distracts me because it starts to hurt, not like a bad posture but like the muscle that has never been excerciced xd. What would you recomend for this 3 problems and what do you think about the alpha Beats? Thank you!!

Have ever thought about go living to a gurus comuna, for example Isha Foundation, so you could be closer to an enlightened person and away from all the distractions of society as a faster way to get enlightened? If that’s the case, why do you stay? Or why don’t you go? Is there pros and cons? thank you @Leo Gura

Do you remember the moment where you decided that enlightenment was going to be your number one goal? And what had to happen so you could stop procrastinating, and getting stuck from doing it because of fears and inhibitions?

I think I’m having some problems with experiencing non duality at the moment of living life. Its hard for me trying to achieve things knowing that at the end nothing that I do really matters. maybe because all this time I was doing this “things” for others or for my ego. how can you consistently pursue a goal that at the end will kill you, the idea of you, how do you convince that drunk monkey to work with you in this journey that ultimately will take control?

I’m having some problems to determine where on the spiral could I be and therefor I don’t know where the hell to begin working on. From one hand I’m still trapped en a very blue sense of guilt because of a lot of thing I’ve done in the past, but in a lot of things I’ve also trascended blues guilt. I think I’m mostly in orange, but in a kind of inward orange or a low stage orange because I’ve being very depressed for around three years ive had an intempted suicide a couple months ago, I am very disinterested in accomplishing anything with small lapses of entrepreneurism. Because I don’t have any money I started to attend to AA meetings (Ive never had problems with any substances or so, but I’ve found a place to empty my self of those thoughts) but even in AA I see a lot of delusion as Leo has explained. There is something inside of me that knows that what Leo is teaching is the way, but at the same time I know I have so many things to work on my self first. It’s strange! It’s like I understand everything that Leo is saying (I know that “believing” doesn’t matter at all) but my reality is so basic, and every time I plan to work on stage Orange to fully embody my stage, Thoughts of “Why even try if it’s delusion?” Comes to my head. You can see in my writing that it’s so confusing, but that’s how I feel right now. I really really hope you can help me and that I’m ready for the help.

I know that believing does not serve me at all, I can see it, if that weren’t the case I wouldn’t be depressed. I don’t want to know where am I so I can feel superior, I just want to know what the fuck is happening to me and what is the next step because not knowing what to do with all this noise inside my head keeps me in a vegetative state of being where nothing is happening. I just want to stop suffering.

I’ve been watching every video Leo has uploaded three years from now, I have to admite I haven’t put any action on it, on one way I feel that my current consciousness is so far from what Leo propose that his videos are in a way, very interesting to me but also very stressful, I’m in a depression every since I remember and which is the main reason that I started and I keep watching his videos. I feel very deep in my heart that Enlightenment must be the ultimate goal, but everything seems so advanced to me that makes feel overwhelmed, but on the other hand I think most of coaches aim more for a material kind of growth or a very light spiritual grow. Anyway, in my current reality, I don’t meditate, I smoke a pack cigarettes a day, eat like I’m trying to get a fucking heart atack... living my life doing auto destructive shit. so I think that my question is, Where do I begin?

Everybody says: Just check what would you do without recieving a pay for doing it, just check what you can be hours and hours doing and you dont even notice. But in my case a like a lot of things, I like acting, Making videos, Comedy, Music, Martial Arts, Teaching, Personal Development... but how to decide? How can I know in wich one to specialize? Cause I think nobody will be interested in hiring a Martial arts teacher musician comedian that likes making videos and personal development!! All my life ive been jumping from one thing to another and each time I do it I really think thats going to be my passion in life but later I discover its not, and I find something more interesting or as interesting as the last one, Ive drop out College 2 times and now im studying Business administration. My parents say that this is the last time they will suport me in another career and I understand. This kind of indecisive behaviour makes me feel very lost in my life and the people that where there for me arent anymore because I dont keep doing what in the first place I told them and I really believed was my passion. I also began a taco business 5 months ago (Im mexican living in the center of México) but it didnt work well because of my lack of administratión (Ironic isnt it? LOL) I started teaching basic english in a local school but as you know, the minimum salary is very low $80.04MXN per day, wich is like 4.27USD per day, so, please dont tell me to buy Leo,s curse, because in this precise moment i dont have the money. Something more practical. Man, I was so calm and just writing about this made me react so angry with my self. Thank you all, and thanks for reading. By the way, im 22 years old.

It seems to me like fake...

If the mind has the tendency to complicate everything making unhappy all the people, why does exist? I don’t know if there’s more life in outer space, supposing that’s not the case and we are the only “thinking” beings in the universe, why? Why us? Why “God”, “Existence”, or however you wanna call it, gave us that gift/curse?

@MIA.RIVEL thank you. I know Leo's life purpose videos must be great, i've been watching his videos 3 years ago.

@kwax What should I do then? How to make finfding my purpose my purpose and be very efective on it? Should I schedulle specific hours of studyng diferent areas that may interest me? Should I try and try diferent things untill I find the one?

I mean, if anything is posible in this infinite universe, is there a possibility for this things to be real? My girlfriend tends to say she’s very open minded and she claims all this things to be real, she also has told me about direct experiences of this kind... another example is in sex, she has almost no experience in sex in compare with me, and once she told me that she was scared about me transmitting her some kind of energy eating worm through sexual acts, emmm I dunno, a lot of what she says, most of it, it seems to me like child stories taken tooooo far, when she talks about drugs, she said once she took peyote and it did nothing to her because when you’re higher state of concious this drugs do nothing to you, sincerely I don’t believe that at all, not because I think that’s imposible but because of the way she satanises all kinds of psicodelics, it’s like a kind o fanatism spirituality if you ask me, but... what if not? I don’t want to loose any kind of opportunity to learn something big because of my “Rational Mind” (that’s what she says, and I know that’s what the ego tends to do)... but also I don’t want to loose my way believing in child stories, or not? Is there a possibility that all this things like unicorns, anunakkis, and beings from other dimensions exist? (I’m being literal with those examples). im scared of getting into a no end speculative vicious circle which may have nothing good for my personal development and make me loose my mind and time.

Well I meet this nice girl 6 months ago, at the beginning she was ok with my addiction, only once, she got mad in the first three weeks of our relationship, but I told her really calmed: I'm telling you now, and I want to be very clear with you, long time before I met you I was smoking, When you met me I was smoking, and yes, i do know it's bad for me and some day I may quit smoking, but, you have to make yourself the idea, that that may happen in a year, in five, ten, or maybe I'll die and I'll never stop smoking, so think really good if despite all I said you still want something with me. She said it was OK. this girl is always so worried about her health, she doesn't eat any red meat, milk, cheese, she works out, etc. so I don't make this too long, I would say she's the total opposite from me. Despite she said it was ok, she won't stop bitching about the cigarette, my whole family smokes, so when she's with my family she starts doing like she haves a horrible headache because of the cigarette and starts acting rude with everybody. I understand that if she's uncomfortable with the smoke it's okay, now when I smoke i do it away from her (not hiding from her) so she won't breath the smoke, but I can't do anything if my family does it, and I don't want to eather. Today she started teasing me because of my addiction, and we starting debating, of course I know I'll never win because there's nothing to defend about the cigar, AND SHE KNOWS IT, and I asked her why she does that, she says she haves to remind me how bad it is and make me feel uncomfortable so it anoyes me and then I will stop smoking... that's the most stupid thing I've ever heard! I never asked her to be the voice inside and outside my head, I never asked her to me watching me how much do I or don't smoke, actually I've asked her to stop fucking with the same subject and if she doesn't like go fuck of! If I'll stop smoking it will be because i want to, not because of her teasing on me. She even thinks that telling me that my breath smells like an Asher, that my skin, my hair and my clothes smell like cigar will make me stop smoking, it's not, it's a pain in the ass listening that, it even wants to make me be away of her so she stops fucking with me. She also starts saying that my addiction is because I'm to aprehensive, that I don't let go of past and so and so... and she's right! but obviously she's not perfect, she has a lot of emotional problems too and I try to find the moment and the words to say it to her, but she thinks it's okay to be all day depressed because dolphins are being killed, she thinks that it's okay not socializing with any person that drinks, smokes, gets high, or that simply doesn't share the same ideas of what's right and wrong to her, anybody who doesn't share that, she thinks they are idiots. she need to open her fucking mind! What you guys think? What do I have to say to her or do, cause I've told her directly how I feel but her way of view is first.