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Of course some girls can overdo it with their arrogance but you should have pity for them because they aren’t happy. "You can’t hit a nail in empty space“. Somehow this really triggers you. If it were just "an objective discovery“ you wouldn’t be angry about it. Somehow you are involved in that which triggers your feelings towards beautiful women.

Yes women who identify with their beauty in younger years will suffer immensely for it when they age. I wouldn’t want to be in their position. They can seem kind of arrogant but it’s just their survival mechanism. They have so many options that they have to filter it’s nothing personal. Imagine you were a popular film star and you could get pretty much any girl, would you give all the less attractive girls the same love and attention? They might think then that they have a chance to be your gf and then you have to avoid all kinds of cringe. Although I am not a popular film star I stopped giving girls I wasn’t into lovely dovely energy because they misunderstood. If you want attention from beautiful girls you can increase your value. Girls are way more limited in that.

I had mixed feelings before that trip. I had like a 10 second awakening the last trip and that shocked me to the core but that was it. But it was probably more then all of the previous trips. So I had to process that probably. But also I kinda felt ready and a part of me really wanted to rush it. Should have been more sensitive to my inner voice.

Fantastic!! Leo the way you frame some things it sounds like these insights are only decently accessed on the highest possible way and below that it’s just shallow. Although that could very well be just me but I don’t have really any mystical experience as a comparison so I look for authority figures and take their word for it. It’s super understandable that you want to get people to the highest awakening possible but if you constantly tell them how radical that is and how much their mind will have to suffer to access it they maybe won’t be motivated to start at all. How can they if they never got a taste on what they could get from it. Again, that’s my way of thinking it could very well be different for other people. I want to reach the highest levels of awakening of course but I would be so fucking happy with some small awakenings to start with.

Hard to describe. Maybe like I got intoxicated, pushed down, my brain cells are etching away. Something like that. That wasn’t really possible anymore. My focus was gone too much. I took 225ug actually but it’s worth 100ug because I did it two days prior. That isn’t a super small dose for me. Ooh I wasn’t aware of that. I just thought you have to take a higher dose to compensate for the reduced effectiveness but not that it changes your trip experience if you do it in short time intervals.

@Leo Gura Yeah I wanted to contemplate that on truffles or lsd. You speak about degrees of awakening. Can you realize immortality on a lesser degree? Because the other member that commented here seemed to have an insight into immortality although it’s unlikely that they all had a full awakening although I don’t want to exclude that possibility. Not sure if I can access a full awakening on my small-mid doses of lsd or truffles right now but death and love are the facets I want to access the most.

@Loba ????

You could be a teacher or professor in philosophy. That’s pretty well paid.

I disagree. Philosophy is so incredible diverse like nothing else that you can definetly specialize. There are big philosopher who didn’t read much from other philosopher. Nietzsche for example he only read the old greeks and Kant if I remember correctly and he is a big name. But to be well rounded is of course pretty cool.

@Verg0 All tickets are sold out now. Please report if you got 5meo malt there ??

@Loba That sounds like a pretty advanced way to contemplate. Like you need a lot of concentration to pull it off correctly. But it does sound like it could work. Did you have success with this exact approach ?

Although that’s true I don’t think you can rationalize yourself out of the fear of death. My belief that I will die and then have to face eternal darkness is too deep I need a direct insight/mystical experience to crush that.

I also did that in my last trip. Somehow I completely forgot that I did that. I was super confused in dizzy the next 8 hours. Maybe I was at the right path thanks I will try it out.

I don’t think Kant was much of a mystic, he was a hardcore rationalist. So nothingness as the noumenal part of something probably wouldn’t be his first idea. But it’s an interesting idea.

Yeah from a spiritual point of view this is all mental masturbation. But sharpening the concept of an "objective world“ can have its practical uses. Science isnt right but science helps you live in a cauchy place.

Kant would probably say that that would never happen because the subject doesn’t have access to the objective reality. hmm do you want to say that in this logic it’s basically pointless to try to get closer to the thing in itself because no matter what you come up with, as soon as you have it, it’s part of your experience and so it’s impossible to be the thing in itself? I mean there a different levels of being wrong probably, so could try to be as little wrong as you can although you can never be right. The body soul dualism. It’s a big question in philosophy how you could merge the physical world with the mental world. Nobody succeeded in it. In spirituality the physical world is a concept and an experience in the mental world. So there is only the mental world. Do you mean the self referring problem? Alan Watts says it in this way, you can’t burn fire with fire, you can’t hear your own ears, you can’t taste your own tongue and you can’t touch the tip of this finger with the tip of this finger. yeah like what is an apple without somebody experiencing it. Is the Apple even existing then? In first order truth no, in second order truth yes. Yeah I am tired now ?

I am not sure if Kant says that it has to exist or if we merely says that it can potentially exist. Yep exactly.

Thoughts are also a direct experience just their meaning second order truth. Do you mean that? Yes. Imagine an apple. I see the different from you because maybe I see slightly different colors because of my biology and somebody else might see it in higher resolution because he has better eyesight and a bat might see it in waves and an eagle also completely different. So there infinitely many ways to see that one object. Kant says that there is potentially one objective way on what the Apple actually is but no subject can ever access that. But of course that’s all just concept and not directly provable. We have no choice, we can only access noumena. I believe Kant says that we should at least keep in mind that noumena isn’t objectively true and shouldn’t be fooled by it. Haven’t read Hegel yet.

Exactly! Direct experience is first order truth, concept is second order truth. Rationalist value second order truth more then first order truth so they mix it up.

I want to do a heavy metal test. The problem is I have a wire in my mouth which is left from my clamp. It is made out of around 99.85% titanium and 0.15% as far as metals go. Heavy metal tests don’t track titanium and iron but I am still worried that the titanium or iron might change the result of the other metals. Is that possible or can I do the test with the wire in my mouth ?

They have been fake for so long that they aren’t aware of it anymore. They think they are being authentic. They don’t know what they do ?

@Sugarcoat ?

What about healthy cooking courses? Maybe there are things that you kinda like or would like to try out? Haha I get you ?? I hated the process of first getting psychedelics as well and now I hate the process of getting the "more advanced psychedelics“. Where do you live? Magic truffles and certain lsd Derivats are legally available in many countries.

Reality has distractions everywhere. Where ever I look there are things that trigger me in some kind of way. Like flowers that spread an inviting smell. They want to pull me into a dream. That’s how I lived almost my whole life, jumping from dream to dream. Yesterday I spent 5 hours on YouTube just listening to music coming off the afterglow of a lsd trip. I could have clicked on so many videos just like I usually do but I didn’t feel the need to, I just listened to music.

Are there things you are passionate about in terms of hobbies ? Making friendships while doing some activity is a lot easier especially if you are more introverted because there is always something going on that you can talk about. And you can find people who are more similar to you. I couldn’t really see myself finding friends in a job for example. You could also try out microdosing. It can bring you into a more confident and extroverted mindset.