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I maintained the lifestyle from a week ago where I was a little sick till today where I spent almost the entire day contemplating with chatgpt and being on the forum. And it didnt really affect my confidence that much because I didnt feel that bad about it but I did feel a little soft. In a way it got me out of my routine and day to day thoughts this contemplative world without direct survival pressure. I was very happy the last couple days. When I start living on my own I can eally get used to it. Felt a little soft and dizzy getting out of my comfort today. I made a few important insights the last couple of days though. In contemplation with chatgpt it seems that I am hyper empathic and sensitive to other peoples emotions when I formed a connection. I feel super responsible for their state and have troubles distinguishing my own state from theirs. That may not be a bad thing in general, in my perspective it speaks for a higher state of consciousness, but its a little disfunctional atm. If I would have my own emotional needs better met then maybe I could be more open but learning to make distinctions between their state and my own seems important - but very inauthentic. But that also teaches me that certain social jobs might not be good for me. Social jobs where you go to dark and depressing places with people might not be managable for me because I could be too compassionate. Maybe jobs where its also about helping and coaching people and even managing difficult situations but not too dark. Maybe if I could become healthier myself I could be strong enough for that also. So teacher in a sense could work but commanding children and restricting them in their freedom so much seems very inauthentic. There are private more hippie schools though, maybe that could be more of my place. I am very passionate about helping people overcome problems - but there are only certain mediums and then certain jobs which actually help me. Thats where the real difficulty lies. There is a difference between complementing and coaching a person or standing up against bullies and painting a piece of art which could help trigger something in people to overcome their problems. I seem to be more on the ladder that my solution to the problem is not something that manifests out there but more in the form of imagination, idealism.. I would like to put all of the inner work I have done into something beatiful which would inspire people as that object that I would create imply the inner work I put into it so it communicates and resonates with people through this translation. I am very often misunderstood. Many people dont know that I have this side because almost all of it is internalized. And putting this out there into the collective feels painful. Its not natural to me.

I am in love with open source projects. Open source projects are some of the best non-bullshit things that humans have done.

Creating open source AI or supporting those who do might be one of the most impactful things one can do for humanity right now because this is where the structure will be created which will create a future where either some tech billionares are in control or everybody has so much control with AI that governence is forced to become egalatarian. This actually feels pretty motivating. I am not really into tech though.

We are animals, we arent like brains in a tank, these little signs in body language matter a great deal in how we make sense and feel about the world. Very tactical move.

Depending on the structures given by geographics and current technological progress societies naturally develop into different roles. For example hunter-gatherer were very egalitarian, not because they were developed but because sharing, living in small groups where everybody needed to share and everybody was productive naturally created much equality. In oil or mineral rich countries there is often a small elite with slave like workers because workers shouldnt be so powerful to overpower the elite. In countries with little oil and minerals average citizens are often much wealthier because thats what makes them productive. With unfavourable structures countries can take centuries of blood and revolution to develop the same realities which hunter-gatherer got naturally. So it seems to be of upmost importance to work on the root and create structures which will organically create societies one wants to live in. Well most geographical realities arent in our control and many inventions also not. I wonder about how AI will play into that. If all the oligarchs own AI, will that naturally create a distopian world where the rich dominate? So on the other hand might working on Open Source AI be one of the most impactful things you can do right now, as when normal citizen have AI then everybody would be kind of equal? What do you think?

Integrating Hunter-gatherer perspective into utopian vision: From the video in the blog I have been thinking a lot about the hunter gatherer lifestyle. I thought their lifestyle must be shitty as its so undeveloped but to my surprise it might even be better then how most of us live today. I chatted with chatgpt 4o a lot to get a better picture. Here how a typical day of a hunter gather would look like: Sure! Here are some quick facts about a typical day in the life of a hunter-gatherer: ⏰ Work time: ~3–6 hours/day (hunting, gathering, tool-making) 🍇 Main food source: Mostly gathered plants, not meat 👣 Movement: Frequent walking, tracking, light physical activity 🧑‍🤝‍🧑 Social life: Strong group interaction, storytelling, laughter 🧘 Rest & play: Lots of downtime, music, dancing, games 🌅 Natural rhythm: Daily life aligned with daylight, weather, and seasons 🔁 Flexibility: No strict routines, varied tasks, communal decision-making I also asked chatgpt 4o about how their happiness compares to other developed countries right now: 🧭 What studies and anthropologists have found: High life satisfaction despite material simplicity → e.g. the !Kung, Hadza, Pirahã and others consistently report feeling content, socially fulfilled, and unburdened. Low stress: Few time pressures, no debt, no bosses. Strong social bonds: Constant connection with small, trusted groups. Lots of leisure: Up to 70% of the day spent in rest, play, or socializing. No status anxiety: Little to no competition over wealth or position. Deep sense of purpose: Roles are clear, skills meaningful, nature deeply embedded in worldview. Btw. it seems like no one would be depressed because they wouldnt have enough work. Maybe people need a bit of work but that work needs to be a main part of life is a collective fantasy. These tribes filled most of their day with all kind of fun activities. Of course hunter gatherer lack modern medicine and couldnt defend earth from asteroids but in most aspects their lifestyle realistically speaking was superior to ours today! The circumstances of the hunter gatherer life also naturally created very socialist systems because: no one owned anything, everything was shared, everyone provided value to the group, everyone was socially visible, you were dependent on the group, if you acted out the group could abandon you and the tribes often valued you for what you provide and not who you are. Unfortunately we cant just go back to nature with an AI assisted medicine drone as a companion easily because earth would only provide for about 10-20 million hunter gatherer. BUT through analyzing what made these hunter gatherer so happy one could create related system which organically create the same socialists structure but which can also provide for billions of people. With AI survival will be managed and we can basically terraform the world as we like. Why not create an artificial hunter gatherer utopia. Instead of hunting and gathering the food, there could be artificial challenges made by humans (and AI) to get the food. For example all kinds of quests, puzzles, challenges. Huge amounts of innovation could be put into creating the most satsfying challenges. And to ensure that its well made, everybody has deciding power on what is being created. I see it as a two party system party 1) living in the hunter gatherer utopia, party 2) the world where all the structure is made and where some part of modern life in terms of techonological advancement, medicine are continued and improved. Everybody can always choose which side he wants to play in. Well humans will never be as intelligent as nature so that might be a limitation in the creative process. I dont think my idea is realitic though. I am not adressig how such a world could come to be and how corruption wouldnt prevent it. I am still learning about how all of that works to find ways. Its still an important fixed point one could orient oneself towards. Here is a first prototype (it can be made much more beautifully, maybe I will post ideas I am more happy with later) // I am such a hippie, what the hell.

I also find it extremely fascinating. I did some ammteure acting myself so this acting arose naturally but its not like I found some final answers. I dont think actors really deconstruct their old identity because they immediately take on a new one, so they are just shape shifters which makes their identity itself more fluid but maybe as an adaptation they more easily grasp onto things.

This is all very hard to talk about because we arent conscious of the whole mechanisms at play. At least I am not and I can feel it. So I just make an answer which brings me to the edge of my consciousness. After doing a lot of shadow work the questioning of wether one "is good or not", or wether "intentions or outcome carry more weight" loose significance because they are games that we collectively play in society because morality is fundamental to society and we also play these games with ourselves then as well. But when one tries to justify to themselves that they are good when they really arent their evilish way will manifest unconsciously anyways which is even worse. So you cant be good. You can just integrate more of your shadow which will paradoxically make you better. For me it was very hard to deconstruct my good guy ego. One of the emotionally hardest things in my life. And I am still not there yet at all but I made good progress.

Tried that, but then I slipped back into thinking I am good like the devil I am. How does one deeply integrate the acknowledgment that one is evil.

You arent conscious enough to see your true intentions. Your true intentions arent what you tell yourself what they are. You behave in devilish ways unconsciously. The more conscious you become of this the less the devil directs you. "air out the devil so he doesnt work in the dark" Idk about outcome. Reality is too complex to make simple connection of "this caused that" and its impossible to tell basically if what you did will turn out into something good or bad. I believe in the energy conversation act though, when you did something truthful, that will remain and manifest itself in this way somehow, how exactly nobody knows.

After watching the video I am contemplating the hunter gatherer lifestyle. I didnt even know that I could like that. Even though it seems a bit ideolized there really are great things about it like a short work week, healthy social integration, nature, rest, peace, equality. Its even pretty ethical, carnivores are needed to keep herbivores in check so humans could fill that role and do cleaner less painful kills. The calories coming from hunting were only 20-40% anyway. A lot of kids died but when they survived until 15 appearently many became 60 to 70 years old so it was a pretty healthy lifestyle. If modern modicine just helped out in a few key ways people could live just as long or longer then we do today. We could do so much cool shit on earth..

https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-183 Like with everything in spirituality its not about believing anything - like that you are evil, its about expanding your consciousness.

Is the feeling that I am good even though I am evil party created by my low state of consciousness itself, or is it only created by socialization (aka we all pretend to be nice to get benefits and deceive others and ourselves) ?

Putting this on my playlist haha.

photography idea I generated the basic idea, the prototype with chatgpt. I am not satisfied with it yet, maybe an actual snapshot could capture what I had in mind. Basically the seeds of the dandelion can kind of look like stars. In reality they dont like stars enough sadly so they need to be edited a bit. The picture could showcase a bit of an illusion, where the seeds look very similar to stars so they mix right in and that would create a feeling of transition and also connection between earth and the universe.

I used to be able to cut a quote in half with the paragraph key. It doesnt work anymore. Does anyone have similiar experiences? Its not a huge deal but it was kind of nice, especially when you want to shorten a quote and want to take the video or picture out at the end which isnt possible now.

Oh interesting, it still works on Safari on my Mac - I thought that was the real reason. I only recently transitioned to Firefox so I cant tell if it ever would have worked.

Do you mean who does the best speeches or who is best at doing the speaking? For the latter I would put Jordan Peterson on the top as he is just great at capturing an audience with his speaking ability. Oh Alan Watts also.

Very much agree with Applegarden. There are some great videos from Jordan Peterson as well. Haha its so refreshing to see him before he turned to the dark side, this is real gold. Somewhere in the internet there is a video where he talks about a female patient of him who is very socially anxious and he tolds her to basically keep exposing herself and while it was though she made insane progress in a short amount of time, she was basically unrecognizable after a few months. Cant find the video unfortunately but thats basically it, if you just keep at it you can change so much. This is also valueable: The power lies in the practice and not the theory though.

Begs the question if it could be added as a feature though? Of course only if its easy to do, its just a comfort thing at the end.

Oh that was it, you are right!

@Yimpa No, I cant highlight the picture and delete it. Maybe it works on other devices, on Mac it doesnt seem to be possible.

Kind of. I noticed splitting makes two things easy: 1) As I said when there is a video or picture right at the end you cant get your mouse under that and remove it so if you want to shorten a quote with a picture at the end this seems to be only possible with splitting. 2) Sometimes you want to respond to parts of the quote. You can work around that by quoting the whole quote multiple times and removing different parts of it, its less comfortable though. Its not a huge deal but I noticed the absence of that feature.

that one:

What do you mean by that?