Jannes

No dream expert here, but do you worry about that your mother might not approve of your boyfriends choice? In your dream, were you afraid that your mother noticed your boyfriend ? We always interpret things in our childhood as our own fault. So maybe there is an aspect in your boyfriend that you can connect to unconsciously but have hidden it yourself in your subconsciousnis because you thought it was wrong, because of your mothers reaction. If your mother saw your boyfriend he would reveal that part of you that you have hidden and you expect the same traumatizing reaction form her. Just speculating …

No, I mean it’s possible to inhale a whole cake all at once which would be above maintenance calories. So it’s still important to eat good. Maybe a bit less though. Interesting I think most professional bikers eat a shitton of sugar throughout their day to fuel their workout/marathons and they are still shredded because they burn so many calories. I experimented with it also with like an 6 hour eating window. After some time the hunger is just gone until it’s time to eat. I didn’t continue it though because it didn’t feel flexible enough for me. I want to socialize and feel free and not have a tight schedule in the evening with my one enormous feeding and knock out tiredness after that. Also sugar isn’t that bad if you have a healthy bodyweight. It’s more important what you eat and not what you not eat.

Magic truffles were my first psychedelic and I feel like they are easier then lsd in small to moderate doses. Magic truffles feel warm and erotic while lsd seems to be more clear but also a bit cold and not that ego friendly.

Protein shake is like 50g of protein Legumes and whole grains is like 34g of protein With the snacks with low-fat quark or bread with cheese I guess I usually get at least 30g of protein. That’s like 114g of protein minimum. I am like 77kg so that’s like 1,48g of protein/ kg of bodyweight (0.745g/pound of bodyweight) Could be better for sure though.

I feel like everything has trade offs and so does modern feminism. I hope that at one point there is just a turning point where it is so clear for everyone that yes females can be just as hard working as men and yes men can be just as emotional as women. So lets just do what makes us happy without having to prove anything anymore. The "strong female“ isn’t only strongly demanded by feminism but sometimes in terribly unrealistic ways which is actually disempowering. This is a picture of an Asterix and Obelix Comic which I read some time ago. It seems like they want to show that they encourage females so they changed history and created a village where the social structure is that there are female warriors and men who stay home and take care of cooking and the kids. I told that to a young feminist and she said that that’s a great idea to implement ??. And I see that in all kinds of shows nowadays where there are females who are made artificially stronger then they actually are just so the show stays on the liberal train. I miss the old days when actually strong female characters like Princess Leia from Star Wars were involved and I am only 23 ?. These "strong female“ characters nowadays are disempowering to females because they send the message that you can only be a strong female character with physical strength and not with female traits. So they make femininity look weak and they also show an unrealistic picture of female strength in movies which doesn’t reflect our natural abilities. I want to see a film with two tough women overpowering a strong men. That would actually be empowering because that would be real.

Super interesting thread so far. I wanted to comment here: I think mr_engineer takes a spiritual approach in explaining what male/female are. For example you don’t know what big is without the contrast of small. You don’t know what strong is without the contrast of weak. You don’t know what warm is without the contrast of cold. You don’t know what a female is without the contrast of a male. It’s just that these thoughts of male and female are just so baked into our psyche that we can’t unsee them. So when you say I am still a women even without the presence of a men. Yeah not direct presence but unconsciously the contrast to a men is still there. You might say that even if you never heard about male and female you would still be a female because you have a female body and female hormones. But seriously what makes curves and breasts "femaleish“. Female isn’t printed on your breasts it’s a concept that you hold to make sense of reality. Or there is nothing "maleish“ about growing a beard and cutting wood if you remove all concepts.

Idk about that. If you eat cake and all kinds of treats in that period you can definitely gain weight. But I agree that it’s a lot harder to eat the same food in a short time Intervall then throughout the day so most people who want to loose weight can benefit from it. A bit of fasting has a lot of health benefits but isn’t that a bit extreme on your digestion?

I eat really similar every day. I am not the best in making shit look good but that was fun. Looking at this I could add some more leafy greens and healthy fats. I have 400ml of soy milk in my protein shake but that’s not enough.

Some people get nothing out of weed and other people trip super hard. When I used it I didn’t get much out of it most of the time but one time with around 0.2g edibles I had an awakening into absolute romance or something. I ate pasta and at one moment got really fascinated by a noodle on my fork. So I closely watched it for like 5 minutes. The longer I looked at it the more interesting and and lovely it appeared. The way it tenderly trembled through my hand which I couldn’t hold 100% steadily… I fell into a little romance and realized that every moment is a little romance like that. I reached incredible states of romantic love with tears running down my face while still holding the noodle for at least an hour. All kinds of other crazy stuff happened after that which hold me awake the whole night.

That’s like saying when I shame Trump I am only jealous that he managed to become president and I didn’t. If people hurt society it’s good and necessary to call that out and many rich people are only interested to increase their wealth no matter the cost. But of course I agree with you that you should feel into yourself if that criticism comes from an authentic source or just jealousy.

Very interesting, thanks for sharing! Maybe one day I will awake to the fact that inside and outside are relative ?

It destroys your own ability to imagine hot stuff. Also once you get used to it you want to watch stronger and stronger content. Bigger ass/tits, bigger dildo, faster, deeper, … because the old stuff doesnt do it anymore. That makes real life sex look pretty boring in comparison.

I did a mid dose of lsd once after work and with half an hour of sleep. It was ... interesting. Like super aware sometimes and then just gone the next second out of exhaustion. I couldn’t really contemplate on anything. At the end of the trip I still had to go to the supermarket to buy flowers, chocolate (and toilet paper) for my moms birthday the next day. Me standing there completely gone with flowers, chocolate and toilet paper in the hand at the cash register must have looked pretty cinematic ?? All in all tripping sleeping deprived is dumb af. There is no good reason to do it.

From what little I read it seems to me like you use your intellectual knowledge to avoid facing your shadow. It’s hard to work through topics where you feel vulnerable, maybe you have to face fear, pain, sadness, hopelessness. Of course you try to avoid that. Talking about something in theory isn’t the same as actually going through your own pity problems. Your problems probably arent that deep or heroic and that can be hard to accept especially if you build an intellectual ego because you can feel like you are above pity human problems. There was a famous psychologist (maybe Jung or Freud I am not sure) who could brilliantly analyze his patients psyche and developed a whole system about it but he was way to scared to ever get analyzed himself because it would have revealed his human weaknesses. If your avoidance tactic with books is so strong then I would agree with your psychologist that you should avoid reading them, at least until you can become real and actually face your own problems. Of course you hate her for that because you don’t want to face your own problems. Meditation is great ??

That’s the kind of stuff that truly inspires me.

Integrated some shadow manliness: Last friday I was in a bar with like 5 female friends from theatre. It was just about hanging out. Two overweight guys in their late 40s who were kinda drunk sat next to us and started talking. We were kind of annoyed by them but we didn’t confront them. Then this one guy started to touch one of the girls at the shoulder who I sat parallel to and shortly after that proceeded to pull her to him first with her opposite shoulder and then with her neck. It was quite obvious that she wasn’t happy about it but also she didn’t make an effort to really show it. I don’t know when the last time was when I defended someone. Mostly because I couldn’t because I was a victim myself. So there were no paths and no reflexes that I could access to manage the situation with experience. I starred in the girls eyes for a good 5 seconds. I kind of wanted a signal like "Should I help you? Please show me with your eyes if I should help you.“ I couldn’t really make out anything. If anything she looked kind of intrigued by my intense stare. But from earlier experiences I knew that you can’t rely on eye contact or at least I wasn’t good enough at detecting the message so I made a rational decision. I said calmly with decent strength in my voice, eye contact and decent loudness „There is no problem with you sitting here and talking to us but it’s not okay to become physical.“ Luckily his friend was pretty understanding defending the situation in our favor. The guy confronted me and basically wanted to provoke me so he asked something like: „What is the problem with me being here“. I answered calmy „Your friend explained that pretty well to you.“ All the girls had the courage now to start to speak up. The guy confronted me again basically saying that he wants to fight me but the girls deascelated the situation pretty well. The girl that was sitting next to me at the outside said that she was to scared to go to the bartender and asked me if I can go and I jumped off immediately, got him there and he pulled the two guys away from our desk. All the girls said they were shaking in fear and thanked me for jumping in. At no point did I feel any fear which I found interesting. It was more that I calculated constantly how I could manage the situation if it actually got to a fight. The next day I had a few shakes. I am almost grateful that this situation happened because it helped me build a first building block for my "defender“ aspect of my personality which I can’t really build in my everyday safe life.

Yes and I would add "instant, panic“ to it. It doesn’t really have a buildup, at least for me. But it doesn’t have to be extremely high. I can have moderate phobia for spiders which is obsessive, instant, panic.

There is phobia and there is fear. Phobia is a special kind of fear. I fear a lion for obvious reasons but I don’t have phobia. Having a strong phobia can just be annoying. If you also do psychedelics phobia can potentially be a danger. I got confronted with inner images of spiders and crabs quite frequently on psychedelics because it seems like that phobia wants to be transcended.

If you could legally buy the spores around the globe that would give the possibility for many people to try a strong substance.

There are degrees of acceptance. ??

The instant humbleness ?? Cool that you take it with a sense of humor though ??

The closest thing to yellow is green. So if you go there you might find people who have already evolved out of it a bit and have some yellow values. I recently started doing theatre and this place is super stage green dominant but I see a bit of stage yellow also, especially this one leadership guy here comes to mind. Also I don’t mind that this place is stage green dominant because there is a lot of stage green for me to integrate and it’s definetly healthier for my mind then stage orange.

Chad, Gigachad, Alpha Male, Sigma Male, … all the same. It’s the pictured masculine men who gets bitches. I think with old gender roles dissolving people renew old identities. Might be a way to preserve values that were loosing importance, might be an ego backlash, might be a mix out of these two. I feel like most people cringe nowadays when they hear alpha male because people took it to seriously. And gigachad is already a meme. Sure there are insecure guy NPCs who will take literally everything serious.

Not to ass crawl but yes!

Would you force them to do 5meo dmt with you to see if they are worthy to be your daughters lover ? ?