Jannes

Love isn’t about being nice and soft all the time. Of course it’s also that but it’s also about being hard when you have to be. If you love yourself you would want to protect yourself and even if you love these other people you would want to be hard to them because otherwise they learn that they can get away with manipulative shit and wont grow. That’s hard to except as a soft person. It certainly is for me. Edit: If this is a recurring struggle for you you might want to go to the gym and build some muscle. You don’t have to become huge, just being better build then your normie is an easy way to gain some respect and it’s also healthy.

Yeah automatically through trial and error, that makes sense. Language is a symbolic representation of reality. If we hear the word cat every time we see an actual cat we will connect the dots at some point unconsciously. But words like "therefore, but, ..“ are a bit more complicated. They seem to represent energetic movements. Damn that whole topic is a lot deeper then I thought. I am German and learned English through YouTube videos btw. Before that I always sucked at english because I was unable to learn vocabularies. But by just watching yt videos in english I learned it without much conscious effort although my english could still be better.

I experienced a baby version of it on magic truffles. My consciousness just wanted to be insane for a while so I didn’t fight it and went insane for a few minutes. Of course I didn’t know how long I would stay insane. It was a bit terrifying but also relieving. When I went uninsane I realized how much energy I put into being sane.

Only Hydrogenated/ refined oils is "objectively unhealthy“. @Michael569 said it perfectly, if you have a healthy diet as a base and don’t have any allergies against any of these foods you can eat all of them lol. Worry more about what you can add to your diet rather then what you should take out.

I got them at a turkish food store in Germany. They have a light sweetness and super nice crunchy like mouth feeling to it.

Forgot about that one ☝️

Not the undried versions.

So you have a handsome face and not good looking hair. yeah touching the hair on the head when it’s that short is super exciting ? yes Don’t agree.

I see unattractive and overweight people all day and never judged them or thought anything of it really but I did recognize that they will have problems attracting other people.

It’s not like you are doomed when you are balding and women also have different taste but in general it takes a decent chunk away from your attractiveness. ?? I heard women talk about it often. Given that you shave all or almost all of your hair off since 2019 maybe women don’t talk about it to you because they feel like they would offend you.

No what I meant to say is that balding is unattractive. (doesnt mean you are unattractive, you can make up with other traits) So super short hair or long hair doesn’t really matter as long as you can see that you aren’t balding.

But you don’t shave it so much that it looks like you are bald right? That makes all the difference.

Yeah you do too much. As a beginner you will get optimal results if you do just enough. If you do much more effort you won’t get more gains, you will actually get less. The first two years of me working out (I was 15) I did like 30 sets of chest and back per week always beyond fatigue and a bit of biceps and triceps. I made some gains but really nothing significant. Then I asked a personal trainer for advice. He put me on 3 times per week full body training where I always rotated between training A and training B. Day A: 3x squats, 3x bench press, 3x rows and Day B: 3x deadlift, 3x Overhead press, 3x, 3x pull ups. And he said that I should up my calories and protein. Idk how much of an effect increased calories but I blew up in size in a few months. It was way more significant then what I archieved in the last two years of working my ass off. Can highly recommended this YouTube channel if you look for quality information around training and diet.

Little note I wrote yesterday which fits here: The gym got my little safe place. I feel more comfortable there then in my own home. Sometimes I do little unobstrusive dances after sets for fun. It further developed in the past days. I wasn’t just dancing a little for my own entertaining, my inner being got carried away also for just a second. I threw my head back and then flirted with myself in a playful way in the mirror. Authentically playful, dramatic, strange, whacky, beautiful, loving. It was a brief moment into something I always did as a child. Like a short second my inner authentic being stretched all the way out and I remembered that that’s how I survived being lonely and rejected as a child. I developed an inner joy for myself that was so beautiful that it provided me energy to take on pretty much any challenge. I often hummed myself to that place as well. I saw people around me looking strange at me and I feared to stay authentic and crawled into my shell again.

For how long have you been working out? If you just start your whole body will be wrecked like crazy after a bit of work. Haha I miss that feeling. You might overtrain. You could reduce the load which would reduce fatigue and stimulus (still enough if you are a beginner) and you could still improve your technique.

Crying happens spontaneously at least for me. When I am beautifully gripped by a thought on how I could change the world for the better for example. But then it’s often at a public space and I am not comfortable crying there. At home I can try to get into the mood with something beautifully sad but it’s never as good as when it happens spontaneously and tears aren’t guaranteed. But I feel like you can get better at it with practice.

It’s not like it would stop me from taking them. If it takes a decade from my life but for that I get profound awakenings that’s very well worthed imo. But I am just curious how damaging they actually are for the body and if there are substances that are more damaging then others.

You look at the world through your traumas. I don’t know what your friends did to you but you can have genuinely good friends. It’s just that it takes a lot of emotional energy if you really want to understand someone. If the first thing you try to do is to tell them about your traumas, fears and bad experiences then they will just want to run away because that’s a one sided relationship. And also most people don’t have that much of a need to express all of their worries because they already have ways to let some steam go. You can tell people about that in small chunks and that’s also important for a deep friendship but you have to do it in a matter where it doesn’t come across that you would just want them as a personal therapist.

I feel like if you had at least one very close female friend everything would be simpler for you. For one she would know you and could give you advice and second you would have a shoulder to cry on if stuff like this happens. We can try to help you here but a physical shoulder is a lot more comforting. Maybe find some kind of social group where you can find people to connect with. Could be something as simple as yoga class. Some stage green activity where you can find people who have a lot of compassion. A lot of people look for and find friends through these activities. Even if you fear socializing you need to expose yourself. You can make radical improvements if you just do it. Just start with something simple. If it doesn’t work right away that’s fine, you will learn regardless. A self help group could also be an idea. You could also use dating apps to find friends. I see a lot of people there that write in their bio that they are just looking for friends. Maybe these people aren’t well socialized as well but maybe it makes connecting with these people easier for you.

What do you mean by „consumed properly“?

Have you taken MDMA just by itself or with a psychedelic?

That guy is literally insane lmao. You can feel tired at the beginning of a vegan diet because your gut bacteria has to adapt and you might not be skilled enough yet to cook meals that have the same calories as before. Calorie restriction makes you tired of course. Here is a short video that compares the diets. The guy eats meat so it’s not pro vegan. He basically says that healthy vegan diets are on the same health level as healthy omnivores diets. But healthy vegan diets are for sure more healthy then omnivores "eat whatever I want diets“ @KH2

I think your thinking is that an omnivorous diet is a superset of a vegan diet. And so it has to be at least as healthy as a vegan diet but probably healthier. But that’s a bad way of looking at things because if you eat animal products you take calories away which could be filled with vegan food. So it very well can be the case that veganism is healthier then an omnivore diet.

Source: Gigachad That sounds like such a conspiracy theory. Don’t you think they could also be just stage yellow thinker and recognize that we won’t sustain the human race with meat consumption and because veganism is healthy and sustainable it should be supported? In what?