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what? You can reach 5% body fat in that time but is it sustainable? Most diets fail outright or end in a rebound. You can translate step by step into a more healthy diet with whole foods, this alone is difficult and will make you loose weight. This is the sustainable way, you dont want to think of your diet as a diet but rather your new defeault way of eating, if you cant eat this way for the rest of your life its not sustainable. You already integrated some healthy new foods and had success, so good job with that!

I am so uncomfortable in these hugging games, today one guy I was comfortable with fist bumping went for a hug opener and I was agreeable and went for it. But this is such a status game now everyone else expects a hug and in reality I am comfortable hugging maybe my 3 closest people but thats not the meta in socializing. I wonder why this is even so hard for me. For one because I am socializing relatively late, second I am very agreeable so I am not the one intiating and idk what else. It didnt feel good at my spot, its the same soup every time and I dont really feel free. I feel free when I am in state and with new people where I have a challenge. Berlin almost becomes a necessity at this point. One guy gamed a few girls there and he seemed sucessful with the one girl I found really attractive. Thats the rough reality of survival. Tomorrow is Paintball. I left the spot a lot earlier to get more sleep. That was also a beneficial experience as I set a boundary there.

They do look jummy indeed.

What a roast. Perfect!

Did Elvanse again and it gives me heaps of energy and confidence. I make some careless mistakes though. Flew through my RV session today, well 37 min. The results were shitty. I really need some tips I think or at least reassurance that this is normal in the process, if this is not in my realm of possibility then I need to accept that.

I sometimes eat some mandarines in the evening and out of convenience I eat many of them and you do really connect to mandarines at this point. Had the same thing with apples. But you also get sick of them at some point.

That would imply massively different viewpoints about how fundamental things function to the point that I dont think a discussion can be had until we made a deep dive to get to some basic common ground. In your direct experience you rarely ever see the earth as flat, its a simple first conceptual understanding of the world. But if you go in that direction the earth being round is a more developed concept.

Okay most people wouldnt consume just one food a day so that information could be hidden a bit better but even that would contradict SO much body of knowledge. And getting sick from malnutrition is a thing you know, not just from junk but too little diversity of healthy foods. It would even contradict that you need proteins and fats if one fruit would be enough for example. I lost the plot, are you saying the earth is flat? But even your enlightent Yogis biology is not so different from the one of an average Joe. The Yogi will also age, have the same kind of biological apparatus for moving etc. Sure he will have less stress hormones which can be measured and some differences like that, but on a whole he isnt a different species.

Subjectively you only ever saw a chunk of earth. Subjectively when you put your smartphone in front of your face the whole universe is a couple of app logos at this moment in time. The pink monster is science saying you need this amount of calories a day, calories in calories out etc. Its not a pink monster out there in another stratosphere which we cant proof or disproof, every human on earth tests the caloric thesis every single day.

I vibe with eating huge amounts of the same fruit though. There is something about it.

Picture the scale of people who would need to be fooled by this. Every human on earth needs to eat to survive and therefore comes in contact with these bio-chemical realities, so its not empty theory which most people can never prove or disprove, you come in contact with it every single day.

But the science of calorie processing is as fundamental as the earth being round.

If Sadghuru is right that is.

I had kind of disturbing dreams this night. Dont even want to get into detail but I basically negotiated precautions/ a safety net to fall back to to not get raped and in the end they didnt give a shit and took the little they could get away with.

@SimpleGuy Have you eaten more calories before? Have you recently lost weight? But honestly I call BS on this. You can hit your calorie intake in one sitting, that type of diet is normal for some people. And after weighing everything you found out that you do in fact only eat 1000 kcal a day then you you are a genetic freak who should be studied.

Because its all fatty proteins. You need lean proteins. In your case whey could come in handy.

The main thing is that I am always passive. I orient myself on other people. I dont look to greet someone, I look for their eye contact, their approval, so that they innitiate. This brings about so many problems. But to be more innitiative also heavily depends on how I feel about myself.

It felt like such a long socializing night. It started off really good. Even though I had some fear, I went into the place more confident then ever before, starting with innitiative and a chill confidence. Shortly after though I had kind of a crash, felt pretty bad, almost trip like. I wondered if its a side effect of the medication. The artist girl gave me her voice cancelling headphones and I sat there in the corner. I shared that with a few other people relatively casually, so the confidence to be vulnerable was there but I still didnt feel good. It still felt a bit akward after some time and so I put the headphones off as it was pretty managable. However just that I shared that in that moment kind of gave me a confidence boost. Also met my hero-friend again. I thought he kind of didnt want to see me but I think it was pretty unavoidable and it was just as comfortable and warm as before. At some point the side effects also subsides, I was likely at my adhd neutral state there. There were two instances where I really wanted to talk to a girl but didnt. Felt a bit like a looser for that. Especially in combination with another instance. There was a hippie cuddle coach with a few people I knew and I joined in. The artist girl on my right. She crawled my back and arm a bit. I thought it was wrong as there were some feeling between us but it wasnt a good idea to allow that but I just sat there and let it happen because I couldnt stop it. I didnt even really know how to leave the situation as it would have felt disrespectful. This is just all my adhd sensitivity full force back again. Anyway I feel pretty pathetic for writing this today. I cant even conceive how I had such confidence hours ago. Maybe tomorrow it swings back into the other direction.

Goal this week was to get to my social spot earlier. This paid off big yesterday. I am a bit late already and not feeling it at all though but that could just be fear clouding my vision as usual.

RV went terrible judging by the results. I definitely need advice, luckily this was session 26, after 30 sessions I wll have a session with my trainer. My notes from the session today: Maybe because I havent manifested myself in different areas, the is a bigger need to be successful in theory as in practice much of it will be taken off. Not just flirting but also intelligence for example. Somehow I got super horny last night like the last time. It just came over me like with the other girl. Its just that I felt a conection. As if I was apethetic before. I might have found an error in my technque. focusing on the category or on anything like not finding the same AOL again puts me into a thinking state which I need to avoid. deosnt make it work though auf reddit nach remote viewing und adhd suchen

I just had the CONCEPTION of what it would mean to actually feel free socially. I am so enboxed.

Convenience and more options food wise. Protein Oats for example.

Airing out a huge chuck of devilry in myself. I love the idea of airing out the devil, it fits so perfectly.