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I dont know how failed states are managed internationally tbh. But I cant even imagine that because the US is so immensely powerful, everyone would be interested to shape it in their liking. That thought is just bonkers. What exactly do you have in mind when you say the US should be abolished, like what should society do?

I feel like I am in a bit of a crisis emotionally. Its so hard to feel anything for people. I had emotions for many girls in my old theatre club but they were pretty much all cheaters. But they were lovely people. Whenever I encounter another lovely girl she will likely be just the same. So I dont know which standard I should have. The most powerful/ socially clever people are often not the best choice. More unintrusive girls are better I feel. I am learning about myself that I am not happy with simple hookups. And my mind is working hard to profile what kind of girl I like. I think I am on the right track just talking with different girls. And if feelings do arise spontaniously, thats good.

That it fails hard. The US isnt perfect but what could emerge from total chaos could be much worse.

But kids often suffer in school a lot when they have adhd. Its quite the predicament for parents.

Hehe, I needed to teach my family hugging. My dad is quite akward at it. No a hug is definitely way more intimate for me then a handshake, fistbump or something like that. Its only part that I dont know who is comfortable with it, most are and I know that. Its too much for me.

Men ... I am really kind off in pain emotionally/ socially. I need a break.

Oh God this is so painful to listen to I thought he had a real talk with him but the solution seemed to be to get to level two of sucking up to him.

Lol, "Trump isnt perfect and he knows it" Trump: I myself ended 8 wars, I deserve the peace price, I did this and that ... Well he is not pretending to be humble.

It is unfair and I understand that the EU doesnt want to go back in time. Not everyone will be happy in such a trade deal though, there are just too many actors involved, its about benefitting the majority. Farming in many European countries is more for possible self sustainability in the case of a war, the speciality is moreso on exporting high quality products. You could maybe make a co2 tax, which finds a compromise between the interest to get this trade deal through with the South American Countries and also to protect the farmers a bit. But the deal was 25 years in the making, wouldnt that be considered? Maybe it was considered but was just not acceptable for the South American Countries.

I am feeling the same feeling of exhausting/ blockage which I felt yesterday as well but much stronger now. Too much people, I cant take it all. Maybe I need more breaks. Or maybe more perceived freedom. Oftentimes I feel like I just go along, all the paths are made for me to take but they arent really my own.

Interesting dreams today. Questioning my decision yesterday to not go through it but I think I was right. Also people yesterday looked at me a bit weird. Almost like they were integrated into my backstory. Which could very well be the case, I talked to the ex-theatre friend of mine a few days ago and asked him if he knew two people there who are also mathematicians, one of them being a girl who I kinda flirted with and who seemed very interested. So if he brought that up then its likely they talked. She looked much more interesting yesterday then usual. Cant really decide. Yesterday she was girlfriend material.

That one girl basically asked me to smash. Not directly but its also not super subtle. I really didnt feel it though, the connection just wasnt there. Feels a bit insane though, she looks good. But its the emotionally better choice.

Men tonight was rough. I think I was overloaded from the previous day. I went to the social spot and didnt greet anyone and went straight to the round. I just didnt had it in me and needed to warm up first. This seemed pretty weird to other people. There were like 2 or 3 moments where this was really noticeable. Told a friend that I am thinking why I have these autistic-ish moments sometimes. It was a good feeling to just straight up get it out. It forced me to think more about it. Adhd cant be autistic-ish be ause with adhd assertion is less possible so you have to be more strategic about what you do. This makes it less free and organic which is autistic-ish. And of course many negative experiences I have had. Went outside and talked to another friend of mine. It was pretty nice. We played a little dart. We had an actual conversation, not just chit chat and it was just him and me and I felt how I was freeing up especially in my belly. With that I went back inside and it went better. Its interesting that this guy was like a super hetero cis men. Coming from Russia. I like my queer friends but maybe its just a bit much at times. Thats not how I woud wish to feel about it, but I have to name the reality to work with it. Also when I flirted successfully with that one girl, the queerness didnt bother me much at all. Its all just survival forces pulling.

The Audiobook ADHD 2.0 was quite helpful. I gathered a lot of information from different sources though. Youtube, self help groups, Audiobooks and of course your creative intelligence has to put it to good use.

On point. The european parlament voted with a small majority that the EU and Mercosur trade deal should be examined by the european court of justice. Damnit, thats tragic in these times. On the other hand inner conflict in the EU because of a trade deal that feels unfair to some countries would be terrible as EU needs to stick together.

Learning about adhd and coping mechanisms helped me a ton, thats for sure. If I can solve every problem through knowing about adhd mechanisms I dont know.

ADD is ND for sure Nowadays you speak of different ADHD types

Saw the wpmi-girl today and I catched her in an unusual situation. She couldnt really filter her stimulations at all. She left pretty early and told me she just started taking anti-depressants and is experiencing sensory overload.

No, because I would guess that people who are ND are more likely to click on it which would bias the results.

Thats kinda what the Not Sure category is for. But if you are really sure about it you can put it in Yes as well.

Okay we really need a Poll edit: I started a Poll

Mostly 🟡, secondary: 🔵🟠

Its worth it to watch it a second time, now I feel like I really understand everything he is saying. So when middle powers choose their trading partners they practice power because they can make countries weaker or stronger with their choices. When rules based values dictate which partners they choose they channel the force of the international based order in that direction with their economic power. Just because some countries are military and economic bullies doesnt force you into your own shelf if you want to keep integrity to your rules, the answer is to find a wide range of partners. You take those with the same values as yours but are pragmatic when when that isnt fully possible. This creates a network of partners which makes countries more resilient, they cant be pushed around by bullies. When they get bullied economically from one country they have a backbone of a lot of other partners. This is their strength. And with that they win the self confidence to select the right countries they want to partner with. Thats exactly what I am seeing in Germany right now, with the EU wanting to do a trade deal with South America, a trade deal between Germany and India and now I am hearing Africa.

Willpower is a very limited ressource. You need to create structures which will automatically put you in the right direction where you dont need willpower and then use the willpower where its still needed. I watched this video back in the video from the channel what I have learned. Cant open the Youtube link right now bc I blocked Youtube for the exact reason that it would drain me from all my willpower to restrain myself from indulging in it. https://www.lingq.com/en/learn-english-online/courses/688839/willpower-is-for-losers-4839254/