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For the whey example, milk is getting filtered to seperate the small whey protein part which is like 0.7% of the milk from all the other parts like fats, carbs, casein protein. So thats why all the gallons of milk are needed. But unless all the impurities are concentrated in the whey part, most of them will be swept away with the other parts they are bound to.

Looking to invest into a formal training and would like it to be not fake lol. I did quite a lot of research and will do more but maybe I am biased or overlook something so if you have any compelling reasons for why you think remote viewing is real or not please post them here, thanks.

Socializing went pretty incredible today. The new confidence was a game changer. There are so many instances where I made some progress. Most notably was probably with the proud girl. Saw here right at the beginning and had a perfect opening chat. Later across the table she held eye contact for a few seconds as an obvious sign. It was a really intimate sign all of the sudden actually. I think I just communicated myself so clearly this day that it reastablished a bit of a bond. Later another opportunity for chatting occured, I sat on the side and she just came from the round turning around and dropping her table tennis bat. Not sure if it was me or random. She talked to her friends though instead of giving me some attention. Later I played another game and when passed by I went for eye contact which she matched but she also played and regulated it a bit, opening her eyes a lot. Same thing happened when she walked into the other direction. It was a bit much of me all of a sudden I think, also I talked to other girls which likely makes her careful and maybe she just cant open up so fast. But that gesture was definitely out of my area of experience. I also had bad feelings about another girl which I am friends with and who seemed to want more but I didnt go for it. Then she seemed a bit hit off guard when I flirted with this girl two weeks ago. I really didnt know how she would react, I thought it would be hard for her, but it was just as always, she was even super friendly. Before medication I would have been so so worried. But this shows me I can just do my thing, have my own will and people will adapt to that. As long as I am honest about everything, its all good.

Elvanse is incredible. Way more concentration then with medicinet and my emotions arent all over the place. I feel like I can control them a lot more, it feels lighter and have way more confidence. Nothing bad so far.

My attempts at remote viewing feel like continuely failing to light up a match.

RV - session went relatively smooth when it came to the experience but the results were shit again Some notes: whenever i am confident that i am conscious i am not Oh my god, as a kid i always wanted a mountainbike, or a cart or something the mind cant help itself but to put itself above spiritual truths. meaning it always needs and wants the authority, it cant let go and let intuitive stuff come through. I am fighting the human condition/ socialization.

Those two are my favourites.

I find it interesting that in studies the affirmation towards live rose in those with psychedelic experiences. Are spiritual flames slwowly extinguishing as we manifest in the atmosphere? .. Stole that from Jim Carrey. He drew how one reenters the atmosphere after a breakup though.

I feel like I am exactly right with my LP, I do want to express a spiritual message, a deep sense of emotional truth, love, authenticity, insight that makes other people like "I get it" and not in I take something practical away from this or this was entertining but to hit a specific nerve.

My old theatre club didnt just give me the potential for friends and community but a sense of purpose. I had such happy moments in the middle of a production. This can really pull you out of some shit. No wonder I PANICKED when I left the club. Its not like this but I am not really happy with my life. I didnt even know how good life could be without the theotre club. I dont have enough love to accept that I left this place and that it couldnt work out. ... take me away ...

I feel like cold wind hits my body and whooshes along my face while I stand there in the dark. I dared to open my eyes. I dont know when I opened them the last time. I would rather close them again but that doesnt change my situation.

I feel like I am making quite a lot of struggle conscious at once, want something to calm and regenerate me without regress.

Damn I got some inner game, that thing I am not good at shows that I am intelligent.

I did some Geo Quiz. On one I needed to write down as many country names as I knew. I got 40 and got tired after 7 Minutes. Which is quite pathetic as I only beat like 8% of the user base there. Thats my mind, I cant remember details which dont interest me. Always was that way, I look more at the big picture.

Because I get the mandatory things done atm I am contemplating how I really want to spent my time. The whole field of spirituality and exploring consciousness is a super priority for me but somehow I am avoidind it. Well its also antithetical to survival in some ways. But men, I still havent realized god yet, what am I doing.

I kind of thought about applying to acting schools again. Not for logical reasons but I just had so much fun at impro I feel drawn to it. I clearly want to creatively express myself in some form. If remote viewing aint it, I dont really know what to do with my life. I am studying for something but if I am honest with myself, I have no idea if I want to go in that direction. But acting doesnt pay either. I guess more RV practice is good as this determines if I can do it faster. Because if I can do remote viewing, then I can express myself creatively anyway

The To-Do list app jumped back to a past stage today. I got super angry, as this is the base of my planning, without it I got no direction. I should really drop this app and get to a more solid one but I already searched through most of the apps and none give me an acceptable widget so I am giving it another shot.

Did a second RV session today for planning purposes. The results were shitty. Trying RV when I am fresh again is vital, I am not making much progress atm. And whenever I think I got the hang of RV this is exactly when I am deadwrong. I have no clue. Maybe my mind needs to surrender to that.

A friend o fmine said that another guy in the impro group has birthday today. My mind is working through it for hours, on the one hand this is an obvious sign to socialize and a bit of a duty, on the other hand I am not that close to the guy yet, I dont even have his number so its feels inauthentic. I cant believe this is so hard for me to decide, this is ridiculous.

This topic comes up again and again, but I guess new products come out so you gotta update. I thought I started this topic a year ago or so. I am feeling old.

The RV session didnt go well. Took about 1 hour and I was mostly wrong. The times I was most sucessful were quick sessions in the morning I think. At the top I always write how I am feeling and I am rarely in good condition to RV.

I am getting Elvanse as my new medication now. I havent yet figured out what the right dose of medicinet would be but before that I would rather try Elvanse. Its longer lasting with more gentle come up and down. Had a lot of time today and spent contemplating just a bit about a Pokemon team which turned into 3 hours of immense concentration. Without even needing to play, simply from what I know. I was able to turn it off for my RV session though surprisingly. I think I never really learned to use will power to control my mind/ or maybe I did it even more then usual. Not sure, I am definitely not sucessful at it without medication so maybe my mind doesnt even fight it, or it fights to exhaustion and fails until now where I am overpowered.

Have you visited the average farm with cheap meat though? Did you know the price of the meat that came from the farms you visited? It would be worse for humans for sure, but animals also have basic needs like stretching, moving, not constant stress, etc. which will likely feel similiarly bad to how humans feel bad about not having these needs met. I you freed the pigs and cows they could still function in nature. Especially pigs. They arent really different creatures.

I have weird ice cream cravings again. Getting some Ben & Jerries now.

Its not a typical life with ups and downs, tragedies but also some good, its being enboxed with basically no space to move, constant stress etc. Its a life of only suffering. Talking about industrial livestock of course. Have you watched these documentaries or pictures from Peta? At least in germany there are certain standards that need to be met for a given label. Chicken arent as smart but have such little meat compared to a pig or a cow that the later would probably be more ethical. Imagine breeding a dumbass whale which feeds on alge for that purpose. Why are pigs or cows taken better care of then chicken?