Jannes

I jerked off every day 3 times a day and then did it for 400 days first try. After a few months it became pretty easy, jerking off just wasnt on the table anymore and that was fine. I had a wet dream every month or so though. I didnt even stop because I could continue anymore, I just didnt see the point in it. I cant recall that I got any kind of energy boost from it. It was a psychological milestone though.

When I jerk off regularely I never have wet dreams but when you dont it would be unusual. There will also be carnivore groups and who knows what else who will all say the same. I think eating a bunch of fruit is fine, but only fruit is limiting. Every protein is made out of amino acids and vegetable protein (amino acids) has less of the essential ones then animal protein (amino acids). With avocado you can get good fat. Omega 3 is lacking though. The diet is just really restricted which makes it more difficult to get everything. I would be most sceptical about protein.

One psychological shift that helped me a lot was to notice the difference between being horny primarily physiologically and being horny primarily psychologically. Sometimes I just got a super boner for no reason and a very short job got me to finish. No porn needed. Thats primarily physiologically, my body is designed to release a load sometimes. Doing it feels clean, no unmotivation/ energy drop/ psychological hit afterwards. But oftentimes I was emotionally in a difficult place, maybe had a hard task ahead of me and used porn to escape that reality by emotionally stimulating myself with porn. Usually my body wasnt even ready to jerk off, I needed to built my boner. It takes more time and without porn I couldnt finish or even wanted to jerk off. You feel a psychological hit afterwards, less motivation and energy and so on.. I realized that fapping is damaging to me to the degree that it is a coping mechanism as the more I stimulated myself with porn and the less my body was physiologically in the mood (no boner) the more damaging it felt.

How long was this phase? Took me weeks until my first wet dream occured. A whole fruit diet lacks fats, proteins and other minerals. Your body cant function properly on it so thats why the period doesnt come. When you exercise for several hours your body directs resources into the recovery of the body, so thats why the period might not occur.

At some point your body makes you ejaculate in your dreams. You dream that you take the greatest piss on earth. At some point I even learned about that trick of my mind and could sometimes even block myself from ejaculating in dreams. MADNESS

I cringed pretty hard from the title but you are describing a real struggle you have in your life that should be adressed. I am reading it like you dont feel confident, assertive, capable .. ? If you feel overly taken care of then going on your own and not working at your families business is a good first step. Do something on your own, that will built some confident. Travel the world on your own and that will really give you a boost. If you struggle with socializing the only way to improve is by going out, you can make a lot of improvement if you are not that skilled at it. Consider learning pick up ..

I am wondering how adhd folk even survive.

Today at a seminar a girl looked at me for guidance. I established some of that the dates prior through adhd medication, but not today. Men I didnt even know that this is something I wanted, or well yes I knew but I kind of buried it.

Men I feel kind of sick. Maybe it was a bit much this week.

Just had an interesting idea. That women have a vagina and are physically weaker then men is kind of a bad combination, because the vagina is more prone to abuse then the dick, because the vagina is used for birth. So what if women we genetically engineered women to be as or stronger then men physically. Then they would have the more abusable sex organ but also the muscle to defend themselves. So rape would probably be less of a thing because it would make less sense.

Btw. Sam has adhd right!? It seems so obvious, he always notices shit first, can only be productive when he does something he is really interested in, is creative ...

Just binge watched the whole thing. It says stereotypes arent real and its true that both groups managed to power through and did similiar things, but I still see clear differences even in a situation where they are forced to take the same roles. The men had more ingenuity (built a boat, under water net, trapping the canine) The men took more risks The men built more The men got more survival stuff done The women had better moral The women had less conflict The women cared more about vibes and beauty (look at their place) The women cared more about balance

Whenever I wake up my thoughts are why I havent slept with two girls in my social circle who were open to it. They would have opened the door to the f*boy lifestyle. Now these doors are half closed. But idk if I would have enjoyed that even.

Men I just feel flatened despite taking medication. A lot of uni stuff. I need to get used to that level of effort.

Just listened to typical hollow male drinking music. I always feel a sense of cringe and shame/ outsiderness when I listen to it. But also, I kinda changed teams recently so I am more open to it.

"Look up contact improv workshops in your area. That should help you become more comfortable with touching strangers " ______________

HAH and I have a hard time learning it because of rejection sensitivity. Sensitivity in general. Well maybe thats an excuse. Somewhere I already got tipps for hugging seminars and physical game.

I can talk to women though. I cant physically escalate. Thats my blind spot.

Yeah, I dont actually know how to escalate things, even though I have girl being interested in me/ chase me. And I say that I just want an actual relationsip. This lack of ability is a bit of a blind spot which can and probably is filled with self deception. Although I really dont feel like sleeping with some, but even that can be part of self deception. I need to meditate and game on that to sandvich that self deception.

Will take medication today again. Want to isolate how sleeping long affects my productivity.

I see time and time again that women/ people dont follow rules, they follow their feelings. And I just cant get in because I dont.

I had weird ass dreams today. Reunited with many people of the old theatre club and .. kissed a girl there finally. Although I am not sure if she kissed me first. No she kissed me first and I said something like I was about to kiss you as well. I had feelings for her back then but she had a boyfriend so I stopped myself. Oh men.