Jannes

He just told me he did sexual harassment. Oh my fucking God what is going on. I am not aware of any crimes that I did. This becomes very apparent when the freedom to confess them opens up and nothing follows. Aaaaaah I don't know what to think of my friend now.

I asked if he did anything wrong or did anything that could even be interpreted wrong but he didnt reply yet. I guess he fucked up a little at least.

Whenever I speak my mind and get a pure conscience I feel an even bigger inpurity because I start to believe that I am not evil anymore.

RV notes from a few days ago which seemed fire (I should really use my Laptop for my RV targets, so I can use my phone to write them down right away) I wonder if my RV blocked when my ability to awaken is blocked as well Later yesterday I imagined my very next move and thought like I was god Frame over truth with the wpmi-girl all the way

So I talked to him about it. And he replied that he experienced the same. Multiple women there accused him of sexual harassment. I assume he implied that he didn't do shit to deserve it. I am loosing my fucking mind. This place has to be nuked with truth.

I have no real concept of what I want from my outfit but sometimes there is a spark. This is a spark. 100 Euros though..

Talked to a few yesterday about what happened which is pretty huge for me. I didnt dare to before. And it feels good. Now the boyfriend of my friend also wants to know whats up.

Saw a few stylish dudes today while shopping. I am always like I dont really need style but then I see an outfit perfectly put together like a piece of art and then I want it as well. But it costs money, is bad for the environement etc. ..

Were back baby!

I fucked up so badly with my messages. Paddled back today like a little bitch and made some critical errors along the way as well. Super 60 iq move. Well I did it and I need to live with the consequences now. I need to reground myself.

Mostly politics so meh

That I have been binging youtube for 5 hours doesnt help that case .. although idk it might even help.

There is so much inner tension going on inside me, I am constantly bumping into things and letting things fall. My system is working overtime to process.

THIS game talking about a alternate reality where you can collect yourself it helped me a lot years ago when I played it

So I found this website where people rank each others dating, business and social pictures and give advice. Its honestly pretty eye opening because I had all kind of ideas of what could make a good impression and what doesnt and this is like a direct encounter with reality. But its a bit blackpilling. You can earn your votes by rating other pictures and by doing that you develop your intelligence of what makes a good dating picture. https://www.photofeeler.com/

A good thing in my life is my stretchy belt though which I just got. It's so comfortable, even when I sit. You gotta experience the good things while they last.

Still I have a very bad feeling about it, I think I went to far, I digged to deep. Preparing for impact.

I came up with a much better answer, even made it playful. Sometimes a breather safes your skin.

She just texted back that she doesnt know what I am talking about and cant help me. Fucking gaslighting. My first instinct is to write you are terrible and I hope we never see each other again. Then I think that this is maybe an emotional reaction that doesnt solve anything. But really what can I do, she is not set on this point and there is nothing I can do.

A friend of mine needed someone to collect him from the hospital so I randomly did that. Threw my whole usual morning routine and afternoon out of order. Emotionally as well. We played video games at his place in the end. .. The girl from the old theatre club replied with what I wanted to talk about and I gave her the whole answer. Curious where this will lead to, I didnt dare to before..

Wtf what a terrible evening. So I was just chilling there and then a certain dude from the old theatre club appeared. He was an unholy peace of shit to me in some moments. Whenever he is there it feels like I am getting attacked by some agent whose whole purpose it is to take me out. I think he was open to chit chat but I consciously avoided talking to him any chance there was. I just couldn't.. When he seemingly left he gave me am angry face. That's what I like about theatre though, you can use it to self express yourself. Hours later when I eased into the social mood I was a bit more open to maybe talking to him. Then the girl I was interested in started to be much closer to a friend of her, so I guess they are making out now. I couldn't hook out fast, I wanted it slower which wasn't in her interest it seems. He was smirking a bit as well. All of this combined, the feelings of the old theatre club and the story with this girl, I am just in so much rage. I would like to fight, destroy or cause damage.. .. The wpmi-girl was also there. She seemed so happy, what a terrifying fassade.

Goodness isnt expressed in the form of sweet fluff. Rather in the form of strong and hard values.

Who knows if Biden got elected without his hair. "A critical moment in Joe Bidens life when he decided to get a hair transplant which would make him a more famous politican and ultimately president in the years to come"

I am more opened up now. Even wrote another girl from the old theatre club if we could talk. Feels like the right thing to do even if it is difficult.

I just wanna get high, which is maybe not good