Jannes

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  1. The RV session with my trainer was good. Well he told me that when I view and dont get something new and surprising then I dont actually view. I need to try as many times as it takes to get something. I got this picture in my head of continuely trying to light up a match on a matchbox but never getting it to light up. A really uncomfortable struggle. Well, thats what I am in for.
  2. Come to think of it, I never ever talked about my actual problems with the people close to me. That is that I struggle with flirting accidently. My friends at impro dont know about it. My friends girlfriend was willing to cheat with me. A deep struggle and puzzledness about the world stays with me and I cant talk about it.
  3. In this ranking of how complex an object actually is, where would you put a clockwork? I think there is a point to be made to put it anywhere — no manmade object comes even close to the intelligence to natural things like a biological thing like a leaf (when you look at the cellular level) or maybe even a rock. So that could be reason to put it very low. On the other hand it expresses a kind of meta intelligence — the object in a way is an expression of awareness of reality. But is this moreso a secondary attribute, or is it somehow backed into an object in an actual way? edit: I put the pure materials of the clockwork next to the rock as a guess. Is the whole clockwork put together more complex then just the material by itself because it is a machine which is created through a relationship with/ a consciousness of reality? Its a real practical question btw. I want to view targets for remote viewing and this is one question I want to ask "how complex is the target?".
  4. These real life war films are kind of addicting. Kind of questions my self image, oh well..
  5. Oh yeah, I always found the force strong in homeless bottle collectors.
  6. Never watched it with the translation. 4:57
  7. When I think about why I want to do acting, its because of THAT. I would have loved to play her exploding from anger. Expressing such intensity. Great voice lines, I think there is some potential to express her anger in that moment more creatively. But really I am just building on top of the foundation that this show has created, they did a good job.
  8. A lot of unproductive thoughts come up as soon as I dont take my adhd medication.
  9. Also I partially dont have a Plan B. I am too old to get accepted to an acting school.
  10. I checked out the WhatsApp Group of my old theatre club yesterday, in particular the pictures of the members. I am finally taken out. The old theatre club still has such a massive grip on me emotionally though. I have so much anger. I knew I couldnt look at the emotional pain of the loss of the old theatre club straight because I needed to protect myself emotionally. I had so much love for this place, looking at the reality that all my dreams crashed and that I will never have it is just too much to accept. Maybe thats why I cant let go off my anger.
  11. Its raining. Maybe a blessing in disguise .. LESS PEOPLE
  12. RV feels pretty hard, maybe because of that. Whenever I have something on my mind it makes spiritual practice very hard to impossible.
  13. Going to the social spot will be though today. Chances arent low someone will confront me. But I need to fight for my spot there.
  14. @Yimpa Nice to have you back! I hope you sorted some of that stuff out in your time off. ----- Lets continue to chat on PM or another thread if you like.
  15. @Yimpa You are back! You hop on and off ...
  16. I have got a bunch of anxiety, WOW
  17. I am MUCH more nervous going out today then usual. I think it has to do with not having a university partner I am constantly in touch with.
  18. If I created a super advanced machine which would rule over a natural ecosystem, lets say I created a super AI on earth which should rule over all organic beings and would leave the planet, I think at some point organic beings will always win over machines if machines dont get new input because organic beings can always adapt in unforseeable natural ways.
  19. Yes. But can a clear line be made? Even if I created the mouse trap and then leave it, the intelligence continues to work on its own. Where does a human begin and end? A part of human is his making.