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Imagine being mature and hot, the romantic potential.. But in reality you probably stay immature for longer as you rely more on looks for attraction and satisfaction which wont fulfill you.

Yes. Big changes in recommendation dont seem to happen that often.

Its actually an argument I use, I find it ridiculous that people dont take big health organizations serious and think they know better after watching a few youtube videos even though big health organizations arent perfect of course. Critiques that come to mind are that even large health organizations are paradigm locked. They look at biomarker, things like how a food makes you feel energetically are unscientific. There is much woo woo out there but probably not everything is. Giant health organizations can also be corrupted. Either by giant companies will lots of money or to archieve a national goal. In germany for example food recommendations arent solely based on health, environemental impact is also taken into consideration, so less meat is recommended. And of course you gotta listen to your body, everyone reacts different to different foods, what is good for most people might not be good for you.

Well the semen needs to be renewed physiologically, so if you dont do it, its forced out somehow and healthy. In my wet dreams I dreamed about taking a piss, it wasnt even erotic lol. Or are you arguing that you change your physiology? I didnt know Seeds and Nuts were allowed. That makes the diet much more reasonable of course. Only B12 and EPA/ DHA omega 3s and salt are missing it seems. Easy supplements. Cant think of a critique of this diet implemented in this way on the getko tbh. And pretty mindblowing that you get a decent amount of protein from just fruit. However why do you think humans are frugivores? We can clearly digest both plants and meat. Archeologists will tell you that depending on the environement we would rely sometimes more on meat and sometimes more on plants, whatever we found basically. When we invented the fire and cooking our digestive tracks and teeth adapted massively to cooked food. So thats the weird origin of our guts which doesnt point to frugivore at all, moreso uniquely to a cooked omnivore diet.

Oh and also I got an email from the leadership of my thursday social spot ( the most important one ) that they didnt get any information and so there is no need for a talk. And there also made an extra explicit line that I can come to the spot. ( I didnt dare to go ) I dont know or cant yet grasp what that means, but it smells a bit like victory.

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

I dont know why I dont feel like writing in my journal as much the last days. I was doing a presentation with a co-student the last week, maybe that helped with emotional regulation a bit. There are two things I really want to write about though. So a couple of days ago this one guy at the tennis group was pretty friendly to me. Well we fistbumped a couple of times before, he even in a way of celebration hugged me shortly after a table tennis match. I dont know what the fuck that was, especially because we are kind of competing over the same girls, although I showcased quite clearly that I wouldnt take anyones girl so maybe he thought thats because of our connection and wanted to strengthen that with it. Well he got a bit physical last time, like he kind of snuggled on me with his shoulder, not in a weird way, but maybe so that I would notice him and greet him which I forgot. That was kind of too much for me though and so I froze and kind of beat myself up for it. Maybe he is in an open relationship as well and wants to integrate me. Previously he was compedetive. I am so confused.

I jerked off every day 3 times a day and then did it for 400 days first try. After a few months it became pretty easy, jerking off just wasnt on the table anymore and that was fine. I had a wet dream every month or so though. I didnt even stop because I could continue anymore, I just didnt see the point in it. I cant recall that I got any kind of energy boost from it. It was a psychological milestone though.

When I jerk off regularely I never have wet dreams but when you dont it would be unusual. There will also be carnivore groups and who knows what else who will all say the same. I think eating a bunch of fruit is fine, but only fruit is limiting. Every protein is made out of amino acids and vegetable protein (amino acids) has less of the essential ones then animal protein (amino acids). With avocado you can get good fat. Omega 3 is lacking though. The diet is just really restricted which makes it more difficult to get everything. I would be most sceptical about protein.

One psychological shift that helped me a lot was to notice the difference between being horny primarily physiologically and being horny primarily psychologically. Sometimes I just got a super boner for no reason and a very short job got me to finish. No porn needed. Thats primarily physiologically, my body is designed to release a load sometimes. Doing it feels clean, no unmotivation/ energy drop/ psychological hit afterwards. But oftentimes I was emotionally in a difficult place, maybe had a hard task ahead of me and used porn to escape that reality by emotionally stimulating myself with porn. Usually my body wasnt even ready to jerk off, I needed to built my boner. It takes more time and without porn I couldnt finish or even wanted to jerk off. You feel a psychological hit afterwards, less motivation and energy and so on.. I realized that fapping is damaging to me to the degree that it is a coping mechanism as the more I stimulated myself with porn and the less my body was physiologically in the mood (no boner) the more damaging it felt.

How long was this phase? Took me weeks until my first wet dream occured. A whole fruit diet lacks fats, proteins and other minerals. Your body cant function properly on it so thats why the period doesnt come. When you exercise for several hours your body directs resources into the recovery of the body, so thats why the period might not occur.

At some point your body makes you ejaculate in your dreams. You dream that you take the greatest piss on earth. At some point I even learned about that trick of my mind and could sometimes even block myself from ejaculating in dreams. MADNESS

I cringed pretty hard from the title but you are describing a real struggle you have in your life that should be adressed. I am reading it like you dont feel confident, assertive, capable .. ? If you feel overly taken care of then going on your own and not working at your families business is a good first step. Do something on your own, that will built some confident. Travel the world on your own and that will really give you a boost. If you struggle with socializing the only way to improve is by going out, you can make a lot of improvement if you are not that skilled at it. Consider learning pick up ..

I am wondering how adhd folk even survive.

Today at a seminar a girl looked at me for guidance. I established some of that the dates prior through adhd medication, but not today. Men I didnt even know that this is something I wanted, or well yes I knew but I kind of buried it.

Men I feel kind of sick. Maybe it was a bit much this week.

Just had an interesting idea. That women have a vagina and are physically weaker then men is kind of a bad combination, because the vagina is more prone to abuse then the dick, because the vagina is used for birth. So what if women we genetically engineered women to be as or stronger then men physically. Then they would have the more abusable sex organ but also the muscle to defend themselves. So rape would probably be less of a thing because it would make less sense.

Btw. Sam has adhd right!? It seems so obvious, he always notices shit first, can only be productive when he does something he is really interested in, is creative ...

Just binge watched the whole thing. It says stereotypes arent real and its true that both groups managed to power through and did similiar things, but I still see clear differences even in a situation where they are forced to take the same roles. The men had more ingenuity (built a boat, under water net, trapping the canine) The men took more risks The men built more The men got more survival stuff done The women had better moral The women had less conflict The women cared more about vibes and beauty (look at their place) The women cared more about balance

Whenever I wake up my thoughts are why I havent slept with two girls in my social circle who were open to it. They would have opened the door to the f*boy lifestyle. Now these doors are half closed. But idk if I would have enjoyed that even.

Men I just feel flatened despite taking medication. A lot of uni stuff. I need to get used to that level of effort.

Just listened to typical hollow male drinking music. I always feel a sense of cringe and shame/ outsiderness when I listen to it. But also, I kinda changed teams recently so I am more open to it.