Jannes

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

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I once made a chocolate with a ton of coconut oil a couple of times when I was like 18 because I thought cocounut oil was a healthy oil. Maybe the only times in my life when I really felt like my heart health was in danger. That much saturated fat isnt good for you, a 18 year old shouldnt feel like he is close before a heart attack. That was my bodies signal.

Yeah fatty meat can be quite filling. Some carb sources can be as or even more filling though. Cheese and Eggs arent that filling per calorie, Steak is pretty good. There should be more studies on this: https://jarrellweightmanagementspecialists.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/11/Satiety-Index-of-Foods.pdf

It looks like it has 7 portions of veggies and 7 portions of fruit. Thats really solid. If you added more fibre, people would complain that they need to poo 3 times a day.

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Plant protein sources arent nesseccary but there are also a valid option which isnt represented at all. Its not better to get all of the protein exclusively from animal sources, quite the contrary as legumes in particular are packed with secundary plant compounds. Especially if the doctrine is to consume that much animal protein anyway, the bioavailability will be very high through combination with animal proteins. If you prepare legumes well and change them up the antinutrients arent a big deal. They actually have positive effects on health as well.

Fiber is empasized as vegetables and fruits are the base of the diet. I think LEAN proteins should be emphasized for satiety.

Whats that food at the buttom left above the line which seperates the grain ? Looks like rice pudding with sour cherry.

The standard in Germany for as long as I can remember. Adaptations have been made to 2 servings now.

Categorically I am not a fan of such pyramids because they are forced to simplify. But I generally quite like it purely from a health standpoint. (ethics, costs and environmental impact aside) I would critique that there is no plant protein source in the Protein section like legumes or soy. Meat is fine but this suggests that its only possible to get protein from meats. Also I dont get why there are all these fatty meats, full fat milk, butter etc. For weight reduction and health you want leaner proteins and fats from plant sources. A bit of fatty meat is okay but it shouldnt be the standard choice as seems to be suggested here. And I would add a tiny section at the buttom with junk food. No one is perfect and little treats are nesseccary to not crash with healthy eating.

Wrote a pretty giant Email to my RV-trainer. After we clashed a little as he didnt provide any evidence that RV works but just reasons he cant give evidence I was a little distant. I was close from leaving RV behind so I didnt feel like engaging with him anymore. The Discord server gave me more evidence then anything. Anyway I asked him now if he has a trainee of him who would RV a target of mine. Lets see where that goes. And I asked him a bunch of other questions.

I "let myself go" a little bit and regularely buy brown lentil soup and baked beans. The ingredients list is minimal. The flavour and convenience is so much better though. Put half the lentil Soup in a glass bowl, smash an egg in it, microwave for 5 minutes and you have a solid meal. Ofc cooking it fresh would be better but I know I wouldnt do it as often then. Is it a big deal? How well regulated are cans nowadays?

Not relevant anymore I think. I was very horny tonight and am still a bit. Its just hard to find someone to vibe with, thats the only gate.

Yeah yeah .. did all that .. have an instant pot but this is still too much hassle for me. Gradually I did it less and less. I never got the spices as good as I have them with my store bought lentil soup. And I can choose daily what I want to cook, instead of needing to go through the pre cooked batches. In Europe regulation on food is better then in the US, many canns are laminated with non BPA material on the inside. So maybe thats not so bad is my rationale.

A counterintuitive move for China to expand it power right now would be to stay completly peaceful in this Trump era and not invade Taiwan. It would give China massive amounts of trust and soft power globally.

After a certain quantity of lentils I feel like my stomach cant handle it well anymore. Maybe 1k calories of red lentils in one sitting or something like that. The bigger problem is farting in my experience which is why I go for smaller portions. How long have you tried lentils? Your stomach needs time to adabt. Why are they so healthy?

Haha, not quite. Maybe I am 80 - 90 % there. Had this super clean phase though and it wasnt good for me.

I did a decent amount of psylocibin trips and some they warm, insightful for my personal life but I never really reached mystical experiences. I always wanted to direct my intention to it but emotions and unfocus carried me away, especially because my survival situation isnt perfect. I also have adhd. The story was pretty different at a festival though where I was making out with a girl who gave me psyloibin chocolate. Maybe it was just because of the stimulation, but I was contemplating massively what truth is, how living without truth would feel like and all that wonderful stuff. I am wondering if I just always need a trip sitter, I basically always trip alone. Or if its just that my survival situation seemed handled at that moment so that I could relax into the spiritual domain.

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Well you have to hope you will get there safely and then integrate the experience safely. I could just have a horror trip without any insight.

I was always very afraid of exactly that story about death even though I logically knew there wouldnt be a reason to be afraid about it. I dont think the ego can make sense of it. The ego fears it. I recently had a dream about this nothingness though which was a bit insightful.

Yeah .. I hope my mental health allows for it at some point.

You have to ask yourself though if this actually takes away your fear of death or if it is just a story thats supposed to take the fear of death away which makes you think that you conquered your fear of death when you really havent.