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I am in this situation quite frequently but never know how to ask without being super obvious and direct about it. Need some tipps.

Well .. I wasnt really interested in her so that event yesterday was actually the right outcome.

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

Cut my beard in frustration. Well the 2mm. It's the first time I went clean shaved for maybe 1 or 2 years. I wondered how it would look by now, maybe I look younger or my jawline improved or something. Well no, turns out my beard was already very well groomed and clean shaved doesn't look well on me.

Whats Happening is interesting in my brain. Right now I don't give a shit anymore that we didn't vibe that well. I feel like I should have done it regardless. Survival pressure is overtaking me.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! I have way to much built up energy today. I was too late tonight to the game night. Came to see a bunch of attractive girls leaving. And then a girl I know quite well left alone with some dude. I knew that I wasn't interested in her but still .. over time some kind of comfort and interest did built up. I just feel like shit right now.

Imagine a relationship where partners share their chats. They couldnt hide anything from each other. Or at least a good chunk less.

Either way looks matter a lot

Thanks I remember that he repeated that the strategy in many of his actions was to give the women the feeling that this is something special and that there is potential for something romantic. And its a book about getting laid a lot, not on how to develop a relationship. I cant remember that he said what you are saying. Its been a while since I read the book though, maybe you are right. Okay then its very impressive what he came up with for the time. But then it should be more seen as a good project of its time which is outdated nowadays. I also doubt how many things in the book work if you dont have the looks of Mysterie.

What is that supposed to proof? I am speaking about averages. I also know girls with less social skills then men or women who sleep around and never develop feelings for guys, or women with a lot of leadership qualities and so on..

Is this some economic model that you are describing, or did you come up with it?

Women have more estrogen in their body so they feel emotions stronger and are more sensitive to emotional signals. I have a trans women as a friend and when she took estrogen she said that she experienced how all these feminine aspects came naturally to her. Also that women have a vagina and have a physically weaker body then men brings them into a different survival situation where its more important for them to have a social safety net and so there is way more pressure on them to develop social skills.

For the feminist list I would add that its unrealistic to expect men to be as capable as women in feminine aspects. Of course men can be sozialized in more feminine aspects as well and that will improve their ability, but on the whole men will never catch up to a womens natural ability for empathy, social intuition, connection to emotion etc.

Had a short talk with my adhd-doctor yesterday. I was kind of afraid of telling her what's currently going on but we didn't get to that. She told me that she would recommend that I could take adhd medication when socializing because that would solve my flirting issue where I seek dopamine from the stimulation of flirting. And she is right about it, when I had a longer phase where I took Elvanse my socializing went very different, all the problems I usually had were gone. But also nothing happened, I felt boring and all the usual flirting which makes me feel like I am wanted was gone. And the big thing is of course how it affects my remote viewing. Which I don't really know. I think I become less sensitive. But it also feels more doable because I can regulate my emotions better. Atm it's 1-2 hour fight every time. Got a new ADHD medication now. I am going through all of them basically which is super cool.

Love the art in this fan

There are many different models on how to integrate capitalism. You can have "full capitalism" like in the us, "capitalism light" like in many european countries with higher taxes and more reinvesting into social causes, or like in china where the government largely directs what sort of projects should be invested in (in a capitalistic way). I think the key is a kind of deal between first world countries to tax the rich equally. Taxing is problematic because the rich can just go to the next nice country with lower taxes, so countries have a responsibility to work together that this doesnt happen. You could make some sort of contract. Then with all this tax money you can do a lot of good.

Took a new adhd medication yesterday. Its basically medicinet but only with retarded compounds, so just a gentle effect for 10-12 hours. I got a lot of energy from it, concentration was okay (not great). And the beginning and end didnt feel that bad. Afterwards I noticed that sozializing got a little akward. There were multiple moments in which I wanted to be funny or interesting but couldnt. Like I pretended much more then usual.

That strategy is only going to work as long as the us wins. If they loose, nobody is going to want to help them.

In the beginning he literally describes how he tries to do more and more outragous manipulation and describes himself as some kind of stuntmen, completly full of himself. That was the first bad taste I got from it. And then a core of his teaching is that you should give the girl the feeling that this is something special and that there is romantic potential, even if you just want to bang. This puts me off. And its also way to complicated, way to much strategy which is counterproductive if you want to let loose. I like his levels of physical escalation. But beyond that there is little I found useful.

Yeah true. I find these tipps the most useful though, they push me in the right direction.

Have you read the book?

For me the best method is a mix of: Owen: You need to do lots of approaches to get into state. You feel insecure APPROACH Julian: Dont think about techniques when doing game Miguel1: A strong rejection can put you into state