Jannes

Do you have direct insight about death or only theory? Is your uncle open to psychedelics?

Where else are you really safe on earth? Europe? China? Inside America you are probably still relatively safe, I mean no country can invade the US.

And I thought I already woke up to the danger of whats to come.

Republic representatives now critique the idea of taking Greenland. Of course they dont critique Trump directly but they critique the shit out of Miller for openly speaking about taking Greenland.

Lol, that he actually wrote that she drove over an ICE agent omg, hopefully that shakes up a few Trump fanboys. But people think that a smaller stick is bigger with enough peer pressure so..

Its working perfectly. Pretty much just as good as 1 on 1 it feels like. Holy shit this is fantastic, its so much more comfortable to do this way.

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

And everyone is just muted as well.

I hate getting into body doubling. You meet a complete stranger, its always such a jump into the cold water. Found a Discord channel though with a big lobby that I can just join. That feels more managable.

I have got a bunch of memories from kindergarden but I dont know if self awareness was happening.

You gotta watch it a couple of times. She was clearly trying to get away and was turning away from the ICE agent who shot her. She seemed pretty bold and probably got on the ICE agents nerves but that doesnt justify shooting her in the slightest. Its like someone sticks ones tongue out and makes a funny face, "okay I guess we need to cut the tongue out".

@Leo Gura Are you contemplating the current political situation? Would like to hear your perspective on it.

Why is this not in the Politics Subforum? I hope that is true. Does it save us though? Maybe JD Vance would be as corrupt but not so stupid to invade Greenland.

I was at my social spot again after about two weeks. Was pretty nervous about it. It was better then before though because I was refreshed. Usually hugging lots of people feels to much for me but now it was super okay. And that was kind of key to my socializing success or that socializing felt easy. I was very little internally as well, much more extroverted feeling.

Having with a discussion with another person on WhatsApp about a lecture in university. I put some own thoughts into it and get some (in my opinion) unreflected and shallow pushback. My blood is boiling. There were so many times in my life when I had thoughts about something and people called me something that wasnt true.

My one friend seems to break up with his gf in the near future. I am not sure how much of a role I played in that. It puts the whole dynamic in my old theatre club into question again, I see them both as relatively mature adults ...

Oh yeah, thats the spirit. Its also just the night that boosts my mind.

Edit: I would like to discuss at which point it would be reasonable to kill the leader of a country if he goes too far. Its obviously a theoretical discussion. Is that compatible with forum guidelines "dont incite violence" ? Lol when you become so vague, it makes it like its super real. Like when you suddenly become quit during a conversation, everyone turns their ears.

And now I feel good for whatever reason I cant explain. As if I got my hormones. Adhd perhaps.

God, I really hope he isnt bringing Europe into that dilemna. Poor Europe, what are they supposed to do? I guess a lot of signaling that Greenland is integrated is important but beyond that you cant risk escalating with the US.

I am not feeling good and I dont really know why and cant locate the source. Tried meditation and that barely did anything. A bit of sleep helped. Partially I think its that I am all alone right now. Being with my parents helped me more then I realized probably.

Putting a limit on reality feels like closing and ego, not putting a limit on reality feels like opening and selflessness.