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I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

I am fascinated by the ways people can finesse themselves out of a really bad position. I want to find the common patterns accross different activities from sport, fighting, debating, economy, dating, whatever .. so post freely if you have examples.

Its raining. Maybe a blessing in disguise .. LESS PEOPLE

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RV feels pretty hard, maybe because of that. Whenever I have something on my mind it makes spiritual practice very hard to impossible.

Going to the social spot will be though today. Chances arent low someone will confront me. But I need to fight for my spot there.

@Yimpa Nice to have you back! I hope you sorted some of that stuff out in your time off. ----- Lets continue to chat on PM or another thread if you like.

@Yimpa You are back! You hop on and off ...

I have got a bunch of anxiety, WOW

I am MUCH more nervous going out today then usual. I think it has to do with not having a university partner I am constantly in touch with.

In this ranking of how complex an object actually is, where would you put a clockwork? I think there is a point to be made to put it anywhere — no manmade object comes even close to the intelligence to natural things like a biological thing like a leaf (when you look at the cellular level) or maybe even a rock. So that could be reason to put it very low. On the other hand it expresses a kind of meta intelligence — the object in a way is an expression of awareness of reality. But is this moreso a secondary attribute, or is it somehow backed into an object in an actual way? edit: I put the pure materials of the clockwork next to the rock as a guess. Is the whole clockwork put together more complex then just the material by itself because it is a machine which is created through a relationship with/ a consciousness of reality? Its a real practical question btw. I want to view targets for remote viewing and this is one question I want to ask "how complex is the target?".

If I created a super advanced machine which would rule over a natural ecosystem, lets say I created a super AI on earth which should rule over all organic beings and would leave the planet, I think at some point organic beings will always win over machines if machines dont get new input because organic beings can always adapt in unforseeable natural ways.

Yes. But can a clear line be made? Even if I created the mouse trap and then leave it, the intelligence continues to work on its own. Where does a human begin and end? A part of human is his making.

And yet "infinitely less complex" things can beat infinitely more complex things.

Thats not what I am asking. The materials of the clockwork dont matter. Of course if a clockwork is made out of more complex material it is on the whole more complex. But what I am asking is, is a clockwork more complex because it is a clockwork aka is a machine? Or you could say it like this, are all the materials of the clockwork put together more complex then the materials of the clockwork lying there by themselves? The idea being that a clockwork captures reality in a way. People experience the day and night cycle on the planet and then built a watch capturing that process. You need to be pretty conscious to experience the night and day cycle and a clock expresses that higher level of consciousness. All machines express higher consciousness in a way. A fork expresses consciousness of reality because the design is created in relation to the outside world. Same for a machine gun, a table, etc. ... Does that expression of higher consciousness make the watch or any machine inherently more complex then just the material alone or is is just us giving meaning to it? If it does make the thing inherently more complex by how much? Materials have all kind of complex and amazing traits, a cell is more complex then anything humans built. But also despite that humans dominate the earth with their unholy machines, because their machines are formed with a lot of consciousness of reality in mind. A clock captures the day and night cycle on earth as a complex trait vs lets say the bending properties of a tree trunk. The machinery behind the bending properties of the tree trunk is probably more complex then the machinery in the clock, but they capture completly different levels of consciousness of reality. If that counts for anything.

It seems to me that you use a bunch of clever sounding words to make your point seem more valid. I would partially agree to your point that your consciousness affects your body. When you are relaxed you can detect less stress in the body, you age slower etc. But there are hard limits on that. Even if you live in bliss and belief you dont need food and can live off the sun, you will still starve if you eat nothing. And I belief such a basic survival function of the body like the renewal of semen cant be changed by doing nofap. Humans are tool users. We hunt with traps, spears and other tools and then cook the meat. From this of course its not a natural instinct for us to bite a sheep in its neck There never was a period in human evolution where we only ate plants. Arguing for a mostly fruit based diet vs a complete fruit based diet is a big difference Just because some of the modern foods werent natural for us doesnt nesseccarily mean they arent good for us now. We adapted to cooked food. Dogs are carni-omnivores now, they can digest plants pretty well because they needed to adapt Btw. modern fruit is anything but natural. We breeded the shit out of it Are there any tribes or villages who only consume fruit and are health nuts? What I take away so far is that fruit has quite a lot of nutrients and is one option for the bulk of your calories. And also there might be something to living/ vibrating food over dead processed food which western science cant capture and fruit seems to be the best option to get that. Only fruit seems pretty risky though and people fall for all kind of ideologie, they can starve with a smile on their face, thinking they are living healthy.

Men also expire after a certain age.

Just binge watched the whole thing. Great show actually!

Part of the explanation is that I unblocked youtube for the channel What is politics and found out that new Mega Pokemons were released.

Part of the explanation is that I unblocked youtube for the channel What is politics and found out that new Mega Pokemons were released.

Part of the explanation is that I unblocked youtube for the channel What is politics and found out that new Mega Pokemons were released.

ironic.. NOW I can start my block again. Men I watched so much nonsense the last couple of days. Dont know why I did that. And I always realize that youtube isnt really satsfying.

ironic .. NOW I can start my block again. Men I watched so much nonsense the last couple of days. Dont know why I did that. And I always realize that youtube isnt really satsfying.