Jannes

A lot of unproductive thoughts come up as soon as I dont take my adhd medication.

Also I partially dont have a Plan B. I am too old to get accepted to an acting school.

I checked out the WhatsApp Group of my old theatre club yesterday, in particular the pictures of the members. I am finally taken out. The old theatre club still has such a massive grip on me emotionally though. I have so much anger. I knew I couldnt look at the emotional pain of the loss of the old theatre club straight because I needed to protect myself emotionally. I had so much love for this place, looking at the reality that all my dreams crashed and that I will never have it is just too much to accept. Maybe thats why I cant let go off my anger.

Its raining. Maybe a blessing in disguise .. LESS PEOPLE

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RV feels pretty hard, maybe because of that. Whenever I have something on my mind it makes spiritual practice very hard to impossible.

Going to the social spot will be though today. Chances arent low someone will confront me. But I need to fight for my spot there.

I am fascinated by the ways people can finesse themselves out of a really bad position. I want to find the common patterns accross different activities from sport, fighting, debating, economy, dating, whatever .. so post freely if you have examples.

@Yimpa Nice to have you back! I hope you sorted some of that stuff out in your time off. ----- Lets continue to chat on PM or another thread if you like.

@Yimpa You are back! You hop on and off ...

I have got a bunch of anxiety, WOW