Jannes

Decided to give it a try. Chatgpt is kinda meh, I would really like to talk to a human instead. What AI did you use?

When will the first person create a teddy bear with AI voice?

I chat with chatgpt sometimes for emotional support and its insanely helpful. I fear that voice to voice could be too good. I had a therapist once who I talked about having a f+ and she had some kind of emotional reaction as it seemed she got abused in the past and projected that onto me or at least couldnt be non judgemental in the way she viewed me. Humans do make a lot of errors and are way more expensive. Its just if you get reliant on it what then? Do you value other humans less? Do you get spoiled?

@Majid_salih 2 loyalty points for you.

Its indeed interesting that many people dont even care when a person gets shot dead in a movie but raping is a whole nother thing. Depends on the kind of killing but usually sexual violence is messy while killing can be "clean" and short without much drama. And we are more used to it. And indeed killing CAN be reasonable for a greater good, sexual violence basically never. I watched a scene once where a girl committed suicide by cutting her pulse arteries. That was one of the toughest things I ever watched. So thats an example where its maybe on par with sexual violence in terms of how hard it is to watch. You can find other examples of killing that are long, messy, emotional as well where they will probably be as hard to watch as sexual violence.

Some rape victims would have rather been killed then getting raped. The female perspective differs from the male perspective here.

"Reality is connected through intelligence." I remember that sentence multiple times a day for months now. "Corruption is a force of nature." Also a good one.

I germany you can get into clubs when you are 16 as drinking beer is allowed at this age. At 18 all drings are allowed so you can get in most clubs no problem.

There are some big frictions within myself which I wasnt entirely conscious of. That one I knew: I hate hypocritical "moral" people. I especially need to hate it because I easily fall into the trap of using morality as a defense mechanism because I am often in weak social situations so without that thick hate wall of hate as a defense mechanism I would fall into dellusion. That one is way more hidden: I am often a bit fake to other people. I act and tell myself thart I am interested in other people but I am really not. I need to lie to others and myself about it otherwise I would be utterly lonely. I sometimes signal that I need emotional support. When I get it I often loose all interest and drop these people. Ouch thats painful to admit. But my brain just works like that, most non-adhd people become unstimulating very fast, my mind switches emotions quickly and my mind is bad at long term planning (building friendship out of reason), its all about the moment. I very much want to be more authentic to other people and more confident in my own way, the reasons for why I couldnt do it were hidden from my consciousness. If I can actually bond with other adhd friends then these problems could be solved. At least the few bonding moments with adhd people in my self help group gave me a glimpse of that vision. The next steps are clear. Lets get to know some adhd folks.

Trump looks like an altruistic INFP and Obama like an incompetent baby ffs. I looked at some other paintings of her to get a feeling for her work. None of her pictures depict anyone as strong, most portrays show the inner struggle, fragility, their longing and neurosis in my interpretation. With the exception of a picture of herself. https://www.sarahaboardman.com/collections/40403

Well I think the technical skill is nessecary to be able to express creative ideas, but the heart of art is creativity and catching important parts of reality and expressing them through the art piece. Like a mathematician needs to be able to draw numbers and signs but thats not at the heart of math at all.

They are on a very high technical level but thats not what art is about.

Purposefully not validating Trumps ego is a very interesting strategy indeed. I think Trump would have wanted to look more masculine and powerful. Here is the picture of Barack btw. It also doesnt look empowering to me as well. The artists name is Sarah Boardman.

With every decision you take which puts you into a different survival position you can feel your bias adapting.

Yesterday I had my last day working as a temporary math teacher for a fith grade class. It was quite an emotional experience. I dont think I ever experienced so much love before. As soon as I reminded them of that fact so many students expressed that they dont want to leave in such a sweet way. Even though my technical teaching skills sucked it was always very important for me to built an authentic connection maybe that was why. I always thought that the technical skills were something I could be got at but maybe not so much the social part but it is switched now although I think that I can learn the technical skills as well, its all about preparation. I also wonder if I would be as nice if I had more self confidence. Maybe if I had more self confidence I would be become arrogant which could ruin it all. Probably not but if so probably not completly, hard to tell.