Jannes

Hmm, I come to philosphy in very difficult decisions. Or at least in this situation minimum

Mystery to ourselves This is very mysterious when you think about it. You are something, yet you dont really know what it is that you are. (For example you have interests, character and so forth but you only get to know these things about yourself through life experience) How can a thing exist that is something but doesnt know what it is? Even more mysterious how can a thing exist, that doesnt what it is but is conscious of the fact that it doesnt know what it is while being something. How weird is that!?

I am realizing more now that I dont think I find her all that attractive. WHAT THE HELL I was so sure about it that one day. And I invested quite a lot of feelings into it already. And it seems like she is invested as well. If it really is like that, I know what I need to do but I dont know if I have the strength to do it. Especially because we are meeting tommorrow and for real on friday. AAAAaaaahhhhhh

So with this girl I am getting to know the only thing I am unsure about is her looks. She looks okay to good, not hot. No makeup whatsoever though. Would love to know how she looks with makeup. I am just noticing that my mind is making it a pretty big deal, I feel like I could get someone "hotter". I follwed my heart and got to her though but looks are part of what triggers emotions. Basically I like her character but my mind is making out, if the deal is acceptable or not and its pretty uncomfortable. And basically every other aspect she seems like a green flag though.

Yep https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007/s10508-024-02943-0 Many individuals belonging to this population would seek (median = 42.3%), or have sought (median = 46.5%), treatment to cope with their sexual interest or with potential related mental health repercussions.

I am reading something about 50% of pedophiles seek professional help. That number could get higher if people treated pedophiles more nuanced, so in a way where they saw pedophilia strictly as a sickness and appreciated pedophiles when they took professional help. But that takes sooo much openmindedness HOLY ...

The equivalent would be hitler going to theraphy: "Hi, I have got a lot of built up rage because I feel unfairly treated because of ... , not getting into art school, ... I have got a lot potential energy in me to harm people like I could become a dictator and start a war and shit, can you help me deal with my emotions so that aint gonna happen? 😇

What an act of love and selflessness that would be! But it could get a lot better. Imagine a place where pedos get professional help. I believe those exist, heard an advertisement once "no one needs to become an offender, seek help." Imagine a born pedo seeking professional help because he doesnt want to harm kids and through the combination of his effort and the effort of very openminded professionals he lives his life never remotely doing anything inappropriately. Aint that real spirituality?

A pedo who lives out his fantasies Being born with pedo tendencies is freakin bad luck

Destroying his family with 10 years of prison because of it though? Love is rough I can even remember that the women were split between empathy for him as a family men and revenge.

I think guys tend to underestimate the damage rape can do to a women. Many people put it on roughly the same level as murder. ( https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/38267597/ ) Makes sense, if you are really damaged for the rest of your life afterwards and dont find joy in life anymore it can be the same or worse. I cant completly relate, thats a task for further development for me.

Perfect time to meditate yourself to enlightenment, No?

Simply from the fact that I opened up emotionally to this one girl to the point where I really want to have intimacy, I kind of look for it at other places as well now. Like at my social spot yesterday.

This wood background is super minimalistic but a bit more interesting then black yet very calming. Just found it and feel like sharing it. https://external-content.duckduckgo.com/iu/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fwallpapercave.com%2Fwp%2Fwp4792785.jpg&f=1&nofb=1&ipt=d3ace8df869e7ff96c88ac4ec81d5517dec3d6fff51826c1be70c870badab226&ipo=images

This is a genious move to gain control over your social media usage. I cant stress the impact that this can have on your life enough.