Jannes

Oh wow.

Not in a serious way. I think I would feel more akward then on a date tbh. What is your experience?

I have stopped wearing tight Shirts to show off my upper body bc I thought it was toxic. Wtf was I thinking.

Its the same with a girl I matched with on Bumble. Short connection and I retrieve. Connecting doesnt feel good. Well at least not immediately.

I knew a girl once who said if she was a dude with a big dick she would walk around with grey sweatpants so everyone could see it. I have also seen guys on Tinder presenting their package and getting massive Likes. What society deems normal and what is actually the driving force ...

In Germany its like 0 - 20 Dollars (converted from Euro). But if its to costly then there will be other options. There will be other broke people like you or not?

I was contemplating if I am autistic bc of your post, thats also why I use that wording. Its possible that I am autistic. The biggest counter argument is that I can read people intuitively. Actually I think I am really good at it. And much of it can overlap with adhd and a large body of bad social experiences in my life.

I came to the realization yesterday, that socially I am always in a state of wanting to flee. I dont really enjoy connection. Well, I learned to open up to it a bit more. Just sharing a funny moment together with eye contact and enjoying that, not just performing, is actually a pretty big step.

I woke up with the same inability to stabilize my emotions to a comfortable level. Thought about going on a train ride today. Just a train ride.

Youtube and chill tonight. I slept so much on the day, I dont think can sleep at a regular time today.

I dont know how failed states are managed internationally tbh. But I cant even imagine that because the US is so immensely powerful, everyone would be interested to shape it in their liking. That thought is just bonkers. What exactly do you have in mind when you say the US should be abolished, like what should society do?

I feel like I am in a bit of a crisis emotionally. Its so hard to feel anything for people. I had emotions for many girls in my old theatre club but they were pretty much all cheaters. But they were lovely people. Whenever I encounter another lovely girl she will likely be just the same. So I dont know which standard I should have. The most powerful/ socially clever people are often not the best choice. More unintrusive girls are better I feel. I am learning about myself that I am not happy with simple hookups. And my mind is working hard to profile what kind of girl I like. I think I am on the right track just talking with different girls. And if feelings do arise spontaniously, thats good.

That it fails hard. The US isnt perfect but what could emerge from total chaos could be much worse.

But kids often suffer in school a lot when they have adhd. Its quite the predicament for parents.