Jannes

Maybe thats why people often look for eye contact, things are more connected to their essence there.

Things seem so disconnected from their essence. When people argue about something, they have to do it through their meatsuit, through time and space, through a limited vision, through limited processing power, through a survival agenda. The challenge is to somehow move the original thing through all these practical challenges. How much is getten lost in this way.

Found a new route for a walk. That was good. Thought about some good things.

The mind gets corrupted in two ways. When it doesnt have power and competence it finds excuses and miscredits the powerful. When it has to much power it also gets corrupted because it needs some sort of resistance, its not built to hold together on its own. Will formulate that better at some point. ... Power should be proportional to love.

The artist girl is gonna leave the city. She has a place to become an ergo therapist somewhere else and wants to get kids with her husband as well. Men she is really kinda one of the few people I have feelings for.

I am just sitting on my ass the whole day and cant get up , wtf. Welp I am recovering a bit from yesterday and didnt take medication today but its pretty trippy. In cases like these blocking all access to technology would be magical.

There is an interesting power dynamic between masculinity and femininity. Masculinity which is characterized by an alter ego has more potential to surpress emotions in the moment. But in the end it isnt immune to it and needs feeding. So masculinity can sometimes win a short emotional fight but then loose the war at the whole.

Today an experience I made times and times again repeated. I wasnt really feeling it, not really getting into a social mood. And it felt like someone I am starting to get to know atm didnt even want to befriend me anymore. I felt pretty rejected. So I took some initiative and sat to a girl I was interested. And all of a sudden I was in a super social state. Being brave and possibly also feeling that I dont get everything handed to me. I wonder if there are strategies to get that faster. Like maybe I could deliberately do something I am usually uncomfortable with just to get into a social mood.

On Love True love is love for enemies.

@Ziran When I didnt get enough sleep at night I like to do a midday nap to recharge. That way I can get more done but can still sleep at night. I am a student at the moment so I have a lot of freedom in how I spent my time. That IS a privilege I have atm. But adding more meaning onto it then that feels like a stretch.

I appreciate the honesty I like the dudes outfit, the blue color match well

There are many open source AIs and some of them even run locally on your PC. I dont see how chatgpt and co. can get customer to pay high prices in the future when these alternatives which are almost as good exist.

Lol, why? Yeah that could play a role

Yeah maybe A nap isnt the most relaxing state though, that would be deep sleep. But in a nap your body and mind cools down from working, its still relatively active, you could get going right away. Perhaps that has anything to do with it.

Well association but is that the end of the story ? ...