Jannes

I have got a light headache. I dont know wether it is coming from playing pokemon or the heat of the summer.

This one girl started hugging me a while back and so at some point I came to her every time to greet her with a hug. Yesterday I was like fuck that, she didnt really seem like she was into that that much the last weeks but then she came hugging me. Stupid status games.

I found out yesterday that Pokemon Champions is available for iOS and Android. Oh no, I really love that but its really hitting on an addiction of mine. Oftentimes I dont even enjoy playing or thinking about the game but I just cant stop. I played for about 2 hours yesterday. I need to be methodical about this, if I can allow myself a little bit or if I should do a hard block.

So what is important in the social context is overcoming fear and feeling seen/ heard.

I kind of need to pin the most important insights, although I probably remember them better.

For some reason socializing went pretty well yesterday. Well I think part of the reason was that I was hanging out with a friend with whom I actually talked a bit about my flirting problem/ problem with seeing to many girls willing to cheat. I didnt quite hit the nail but I hit a bit in the general direction of my problem and that felt good. For me to feel accepted I need to open up. Same thing again and again. I remember when I opened up about the wpmi-girl to the other girl, I also felt a strong boost in acceptance.

Social rules arent truth!

Its my fault that its my fault.

As long as I dont take actualize my potential/ dont take a high status position in the dating market, I will be a temptation/ seem like someone to grab for someone with less status. Atm I create a lot of confusion. But also, maybe I dont want to operate in this tightly survival negotiated place. It will confuse lots of people though.

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I like these. I just couldnt do them which isnt fun

I am kind of passionate about creating trainings spaces.

When I talked with a girl a few days ago I noticed the one time she kind of got close physically with me which was when I was in a super careless fun state. Its almost selfish to want to be in that state, at least I feel like its very much about me in that state. I can remember very well though that this specific state is the key, its only a question of how to access it. Well it has to do with daring. Doing something I am scared to do.