Jannes

Jaaaayyy I did something productive !!

If everything works out I can put 39 credits of my old math studying into my new degree. This way I would have the option to do some math teaching if I want to.

I am wondering if I prefer people to sleep with I dont have feelings for because I am scared of actual intimacy.

If freezing to death is muss less painful then burning to death, the ability to think that while you are in the freezing cold is ... intelligent/ abstract?

Okay lets simplify: goal of today is to get into a body doubling call and regulate myself.

I think part of the anxiety can be explained that I feel like I lost a bunch of social skills because I played so much videogames the last couple of days.

I dont even know how, but I am in a super low energy and pretty high anxiety mode. I dont even want to leave my room.

I dont feel good right now at all. That I missed the social opportunity yesterday stings, it was a pretty big group building thing. And there are all writing about the experience from yesterday. I am wondering if this is a pattern of avoiding certain events to not face the possibility of connecting with people.

I feel like all the light podcasts I just tried are equally okay. They all relax somewhat.

I had the dream that at home in the garden there were very exotic cats. Then 3 or 4 greylions (a mixture of greywolf and lion) at my neighboors garden. Each one had an owner. And then another huge creature which was blind. Also this sorta mix. I thought very hard why you would mix dog genes with cat genes. This may be because I am opening up to be more sexually active which lets weird people get near me emotionally.

I CAN BLOCK EMBEDDED CONTENT HOLY SHIT !!!!!!!

Nice, the App Lock me Out seems to work fine on my phone.

I crashed watching Youtube on my smartphone. Need to find a block for my smartphone as well. I usually kept that in check..

I am really bored right now .. bad timing to introduce these blocks, I missed my opportunity to go out today.