Jannes

I dont even know what I did today but somehow its night and I gotta sleep.

This would go to Off-Topic btw.

My old bike dealer had a physical calender with nakes girls as the poster so you could see it openly. Quite liked that. It had an authentic charm. It fit because he was a really nice guy.

This makes me emotional.

sex-positivity

Well yeah, you are in the midst of other well trained, somewhat naked, sweaty dudes. So in a sense you enter some kind of intimacy. But its generally handled in a sort of brotherhoody way, that sort of intimacy isnt connected to sexual thoughts I think. And this wouldnt be unique to BB, think of the soccer team taking a shower after a game or some naked people withing close with nature, is that all gay? I think its homophobia in some sense. Either A: you arent gay, so why would you care to long at another guys schlong. B: you are gay, so good for you.

I am doubting RV a lot right now. And it sabotages my practice. I wrote my trainer if he could provide evidence that RV works and that people pay for it and he hasnt answered yet. Well its sunday, but I feel a sense of unease as long as I dont have an answer.

Damn thats crazy. Would also be interested to see one of them in real life, its always different in person. Yeah body dismorphia is widespread and you also unlearn intuitive eating from all the regiment. There is really nothing healthy about it at the high level. And even if you want to archieve being as jacked as possible, thats such an immature goal, like fundamentally nothing is accomplished there I feel like. Although you can say that about most sports.

Mmmh you can do it in a healthy way which makes you age more gracefully. You need to really overtrain and take stupid shit to fuck your body up I feel like. I want to be that grandpa who can still squat, imagine the extra life quality. Whoa, you mind sharing some stories?

What I dont really want to admit to myself is that I am not really comfortable with my social circle at the clubs in my city. Simply because its a status mismatch. I am way more attractive then most of them. Well and connected to that a vibe mismatch. I was wondering why I couldnt get into it but when I am really honest with myself, I just dont think of them as longterm friends. So being around them doesnt open me up to growth. Its different to other friend groups and people. I would like to be friends with them but I dont think its fully possible. Generally people with matching looks vibe together. Its so ugly to swallow.

1 + 1 = 2 is groupthink. But thats not bad conformity. Bad conformity would be to buy into the math culture, to believe in rationalist superiority etc.

My dad lol

The message is mostly on point though, he directly tackles a huge spiritual fantasy. Leos teaching style also changed quite a bit, he didnt embrace the reality of what it means to be human in this world. So for the time this critique was even more on point.