Jannes

Second Level

I am learning to knit right now. First steps successful.

There was one thing I was keep doing wrong for some reason. Well somehow I didnt do that anymore and I can do the whole procedure without support now. Great first lesson.

Thats what the weekend is for or do you want to do it daily?

Style in architecture

Maybe that will help:

@Something Funny Congrats!

Whats wrong with you?

I didnt plan well for today and my plans B, C, D all dont work out so I am home alone. Its all just peer pressure to do something today but I cant help but to feel left out. Anyone else in the same situation?

Left my old theatre club which was a tragedy for my social development. I kind of entered an extended adolescence, trying to fit in, connecting and building a new identity and it just didnt work out. I got blackpilled by direct experience about how girls can be in terms of cheating ... I feel like I lost so many years and opportunities and I am just too old to experience some of the things I could have experienced there. I am griefing over it every day to some degree. On the other hand I am much more emotionally stable thanks to leaving that place. I was a complete mess before. I am learning more about adhd and find ways to deal with it. I am working towards becoming a remote viewer which is either a huge hit or miss for my career path. I am also socializing a lot. I am putting so many good habits into place right now, some fruits need to come from it.

My mom talked with me about my career and I obviously couldnt take about RV. It was though as she that I should try something already besides my relatively low study demand and socializing and I just couldnt tell her.

All the hostels in Berlin are either outbooked or expensive. I could go party alone but thats too much, I need to get used to socializing at all. Its just unrealistic without drugs. It would have been perfect to go a few days to Berlin before, really get into a social state and then party my ass off today. I shouldnt pressure myself so much to do anything today. But I cant help but feel like an outsider right now. I am learning to knit at least but I am stuck at step 7. If I get it done it would be a worthy cope for missing out, because learning to knit is so important for processing emotions.

My mom speaks a lot about how much she fears death. Cant really get her to do psychedelics and if she isnt open to it, I shouldnt force herself to do it. I wonder if trip reports of other people could help her.

A person who admits a mistake is so beautiful.