Jannes

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wtf !?!? I am doing this for almost a year now with appearently close to no results.

Went out and socialized a bit. Gosh I feel so much better now, I really need more socializing/ I need to recognize more if there is a lack thereoff.

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Jaaaayyy I did something productive !!

If everything works out I can put 39 credits of my old math studying into my new degree. This way I would have the option to do some math teaching if I want to.

I am wondering if I prefer people to sleep with I dont have feelings for because I am scared of actual intimacy.

If freezing to death is muss less painful then burning to death, the ability to think that while you are in the freezing cold is ... intelligent/ abstract?

Okay lets simplify: goal of today is to get into a body doubling call and regulate myself.

I think part of the anxiety can be explained that I feel like I lost a bunch of social skills because I played so much videogames the last couple of days.

I dont even know how, but I am in a super low energy and pretty high anxiety mode. I dont even want to leave my room.

I dont feel good right now at all. That I missed the social opportunity yesterday stings, it was a pretty big group building thing. And there are all writing about the experience from yesterday. I am wondering if this is a pattern of avoiding certain events to not face the possibility of connecting with people.

I feel like all the light podcasts I just tried are equally okay. They all relax somewhat.