Jannes

The strategy to get the link of a video fast works awfully well..

Men oh men. I have pretty good sleep discipline still. Going to bed at 1pm yesterday but I slept about 11 hours. There is little that habit can do then.

Why is it bad that people are selfish? that people only care about their survival agenda? that they twist reality to fit their needs, that they are opportunistic, that they lie? why is survival "bad" ? Because its a lower form of love

Nice indeed

Although I find it stimulating to help I dont want to be a soil for her to rely on. I can help here and there though. Thats where a professional nearness distance relationship is important.

Forgot to put that in yesterday: Great socializing evening today. I am trying harder again and it shows. I feel more confident/ funny/ energetic. Sat next to a few new people and that was really nice. But oh men some dynamics tear me apart. I have a nice dynamic with two of them. With one I built up some trust. Another I don't know as long but I find her more attractive, she is a bit older (more mature hopefully) and so on. So potentially a better match. They collided a bit today and that sucks. I kind of need to give some direction to it. I was in this situation before and because I didn't choose I didn't take anyone of them, even though I liked them both. And later a friend of mine came late to the social spot. She seemed pretty emotionally unstable. I think I put her at ease though. And this was quite stimulating as well. Later on I think she longed for a bit more. I really would have liked

I finally made it to my body doubling launge again. Something I notice though is that I am always looking directly in the camera when I look at the other people in the launge. The camera decive and the screen on which I see other people body double would need to be seperated. So I would need my laptop to be the camera, or my iPad to use an external camera.

I lacked a lot of energy and confidence today. I also stood up a lot later so my routine was out of balance but still ..

Oh no, I found a new way to indulge in watching youtube videos. If I remember the title I can type it in, switch to video, click on the video and then the blocker sets in. But I will have the link in time to copy in here.

I have a complete hyperfocus on this video game right now. My thoughts always drift to it. I could give it a go.