Jannes

Body doubling works again. I got some things done. Wohoo Starting body doubling aint that easy though.

Cutting someone in pieces with this thing seems so uncivilized, I prefered the bomb version.

Gay people dont make me uncomfortable, but this homophobia, this expressed uncomfortableness about homosexuality makes me uncomfortable

Yeah but in a modest way. Most of what she talked about in that video was complete new territory for me.

@Miguel1 I know you dont mean me specifically, but I just didnt want to beat around the bush which is why I choose those words. I watched the video, she makes good points. But I dont really know what to add to that. She explains the female perspective as a female, as a men I dont have the authority to argue much with that.

I am literally getting nothing done atm I was doing body doubling and I don't know why I am not doing more of that atm Maybe that I unblocked YouTube is the problem even with the careful selection of channels. I mean I am learning a lot but practical things need to get done as well. I would really like to have my shit together relationship wise and then be there for other people as a free psychologist. That's what I thrive as.

It explains a little, but not that much. If you are a dude in the 18-29 range you likely dont want to wait for a gf until you are out of that range and when some of the women in that age group increase their percentage with an older partner, men can do the same with an older or younger partner. And men can date below that age range as well, like a 18 year old dude can date a 17 year old girl. It would only make sense when you say that men just need more time and emotional maturity until they can enter the dating market. I think I wanted a gf since I was like 14 though. Good that it is US specific.

One more one more round

Wait what!? 63% of men in the 18-29 age group are single while only 34% of women in that age group are single!?? So girls nowadays rather want a piece of chad then settle down with a beta for themselves? Thats what the data is suggesting. I wonder to which degree something like this affects politics.

Stole love to feed his ego, used it to became "someone" in this world and is now shaping it. All the while the victims are barely scraping by. Unattractive because they dont have any love left.

I have got a bit of a headache. When I went to sleep yesterday I really felt like shit. Emotionally that is. When I went out to eat with friends last time, this one girl started hitting on me (by continuely sort of bumping and stimulating my leg) when her boyfriend made a picture of us. I tried a diplomatic way to imply to her that I am not interested but that doesnt seem to work. I feel angry about the shamelessness not just of her but of so many women. Should I tell them that they should stop being a slut or what? Seriously!? Maybe I should built stronger barriers. But I just cant imagine shit like this so it gets me by surprise.

Dream last night: I was thinking in my dream: That the dream isn't always perfectly consistent is a feature of reality which gives the fabric away at times. That I can think like a waking person in dreams or dream in daytime is an inconsistency. Without it it would be sorta like a perfect hallucination that never has any spots which makes you question the whole thing. That you can have a sort of waking thinking consciousness (in dreams) makes you conscious of the fabric of reality. Thats a feature, not a bug! I wanted to continue philosophizing but I just couldn't maintain the dream any longer. (The dream continued) When I told that my parents in the dream they were already very upset and ready to destroy the dream. I met them both with love and so I overcame their resistance. However at the end of that effort the dream became very weak. But I salvished that as well and with the little material I had left which was the dream of me and some sort of picture of an landscape, I let myself fall into this world and it worked, I got pushed back into the dream and this new reality. So then I clearly said again what I already said before to get back to my point but that itself was seemingly too eager and the dream slipped away and I woke up.

Wild thought: If nature is evil, isnt it the moral position to destroy all of cruel nature? Whats so great about keeping the amazon where all the animals slaughter each other constantly? Are they even happy? Shouldnt humanity create a giant zoo with rules so that animals cant kill each other in the most painful ways? .. I think nature deserves its place, its just hard to imagine what the conscious existance of animals living in nature is like though.

Yeah its pretty trippy to become aware that Epstein was very intellectual. I dont know what to make of it. I got it from this interview below. I think its a got example to deepen ones understanding of self deception