Jannes

One psychological shift that helped me a lot was to notice the difference between being horny primarily physiologically and being horny primarily psychologically. Sometimes I just got a super boner for no reason and a very short job got me to finish. No porn needed. Thats primarily physiologically, my body is designed to release a load sometimes. Doing it feels clean, no unmotivation/ energy drop/ psychological hit afterwards. But oftentimes I was emotionally in a difficult place, maybe had a hard task ahead of me and used porn to escape that reality by emotionally stimulating myself with porn. Usually my body wasnt even ready to jerk off, I needed to built my boner. It takes more time and without porn I couldnt finish or even wanted to jerk off. You feel a psychological hit afterwards, less motivation and energy and so on.. I realized that fapping is damaging to me to the degree that it is a coping mechanism as the more I stimulated myself with porn and the less my body was physiologically in the mood (no boner) the more damaging it felt.

How long was this phase? Took me weeks until my first wet dream occured. A whole fruit diet lacks fats, proteins and other minerals. Your body cant function properly on it so thats why the period doesnt come. When you exercise for several hours your body directs resources into the recovery of the body, so thats why the period might not occur.

At some point your body makes you ejaculate in your dreams. You dream that you take the greatest piss on earth. At some point I even learned about that trick of my mind and could sometimes even block myself from ejaculating in dreams. MADNESS

I cringed pretty hard from the title but you are describing a real struggle you have in your life that should be adressed. I am reading it like you dont feel confident, assertive, capable .. ? If you feel overly taken care of then going on your own and not working at your families business is a good first step. Do something on your own, that will built some confident. Travel the world on your own and that will really give you a boost. If you struggle with socializing the only way to improve is by going out, you can make a lot of improvement if you are not that skilled at it. Consider learning pick up ..

I am wondering how adhd folk even survive.

Today at a seminar a girl looked at me for guidance. I established some of that the dates prior through adhd medication, but not today. Men I didnt even know that this is something I wanted, or well yes I knew but I kind of buried it.

Men I feel kind of sick. Maybe it was a bit much this week.

Just had an interesting idea. That women have a vagina and are physically weaker then men is kind of a bad combination, because the vagina is more prone to abuse then the dick, because the vagina is used for birth. So what if women we genetically engineered women to be as or stronger then men physically. Then they would have the more abusable sex organ but also the muscle to defend themselves. So rape would probably be less of a thing because it would make less sense.

@ladelle How did spirituality get in your way?

Btw. Sam has adhd right!? It seems so obvious, he always notices shit first, can only be productive when he does something he is really interested in, is creative ...

Just binge watched the whole thing. It says stereotypes arent real and its true that both groups managed to power through and did similiar things, but I still see clear differences even in a situation where they are forced to take the same roles. The men had more ingenuity (built a boat, under water net, trapping the canine) The men took more risks The men built more The men got more survival stuff done The women had better moral The women had less conflict The women cared more about vibes and beauty (look at their place) The women cared more about balance

Whenever I wake up my thoughts are why I havent slept with two girls in my social circle who were open to it. They would have opened the door to the f*boy lifestyle. Now these doors are half closed. But idk if I would have enjoyed that even.