Jannes

I think my new Lassi recipe is becoming a staple.

Big Task 1/3 done.. Wohoo !!

I am letting my sides grow a little. I am getting more accustomed to more then my super thin 5mm sides. Maybe I cutting a transition again, havent done that in a long time, mostly because a straight cut takes way less time.

I managed to nap with medication today. Not sure if I should be worried, that kind of indicates that their effect isnt as strong anymore. On the other hand a nap is nice. I can substitute a bit with coffeine the coming days if I need to.

Yesterday I saw a few more angry looking men with short hair and in red joggers then usual. That event might have brough some of them into the sunlight.

I loved myself at impro today because of the medication boost. (The good one, not the elvanse shit) A friend of mine said that I was completly normal though. Idk about that .. maybe he says it because he feels threatened ... that would be my likely explanation but that would be the first time he would lie to me like that but that I am actually just normal also doesnt seem likely to me. Hrmpf..

Hmm Mango Soy Joghurt with Protein milk make for somewhat of a Lassi.

I am so tired. Am half done with one project. I am actually kind of motivated to do more but I think I need some rest.

Maybe I should run to places and that let it go when I am there..

I am functional but not really happy on adhd medication. I feel like I am constantly on the run.

She just ate a banana, I cant ...

I have giant dark circles around my eyes, people will probably tell me I look worked up.

God she is hot. Wearing just a white shirt with underwear. And my camera doesnt reveal when I look into the rv lounge.. which was originally inended to reduce akwardness which is a tiny bit creepy but in this scenario makes it a lot more creepy. Hmm I wonder if she ever gets the feeling that she is uninteresting when I seem to look away all the time. I am the only other person in the launge who has a turned on camera. At least that makes me uncreepy. I wish there was an obligation to turn on your camera.

I am still thinking about the old theatre club like every single day. And it makes me feel hurt and angry every time. Gosh I feel like I need a romance to wash it all away.

Got an artist in my RV group right now. Cant tell if she is feeling herself or if she is pretending to feel herself. Mmmh what a negative tone of mine..