Jannes

There is still time for the festival though ..

Need better sleeping habits, its so late in the day now. And it doesnt even make sense, I woke up at about 12. How can 4 hours go by which are just filled with breakfast, showering, RV and lunch ..

With my newfound confidence and competence I find myself considering new possibilites to how I conduct my social life. Imagine I can just everywhere, be charismatic and well liked without much effort..

I had a weird dream today that there was a giant police or firefighting operation at one of my social spots going on. Well not the spot in particular but all around. And I walked right into it. Whenever I dream of something like this happens to a place of mine that feels like home my alarm bells ring.

Sounds fun! Well not to me at this point in time but generally so.. I guess there will be a lot of outfits?

Tomorrow is a badass beach festival. I really need a break from all my shitty university work, this will be cool.

Still havent that girl .. Although interestingly with stimulation I would probably forget about it. Men this is so akward, I should stop doing stuff out of impulse period .. ? .. idk maybe I also realized in this situation ... or maybe I was just emotional and impulsive and ... and so both kind of have a point ... AAAaaaaahhhhh

I have this dude on WhatsApp because I studied with him in a group 6 years ago LOL

On wednesday I was in such an intense mood, I could have really needed it to calm down.

Smoked some weed lol Well the good kind that makes you sleepy, not the trippy one that causes brain damage. I had a gram of weed in my kitchen all this time lol

It still sits in my bones. This is just a dimension where a smile fades.

I am actually scared as shit because of that encounter.

Saw a dude who is friends with the girl I clashed with at the social spot. He was with a dudes group. I was packing my stuff and he or someone in the group was like "PACK FASTER". Not sure if they are just natural assholes or if they knew who I was. Anyway it left a bit of a shock.

Whenever I am really engaged and even stimulated with university work I am also a bit numbed. Just a tiny bit though.

I remember yesterday when I talked to my friend about it, I talked about it super openly. Like I just told my friend my feelings for her and didnt even hide it that much when someone else came into the group. I mean there is nothing to be ashamed about about having feelings for someone .. holy chad ..