Jannes

A few months ago we had this opportunity to chat alone after impro. I once used the opportunity and then back to back didnt take the second opportunity because I didnt know how I would end the conversation if it came to it. .. That is so typical that in the last moment I suddenly change me mind. She is changing her home multiple hours away.

After impro today a girl in our group told us that she would go on a date with someone. I previously indirectly rejected her but still that triggered me somehow. So I spoke about my last experience on friday to get on an even playing field I thought to myself. But really it was really unequal BECAUSE I rejected her before. I am just not grounded enough in that. And as a result I am in a way pretty brutal.

An error isnt seen as something bad in Starlink, its reinterpreted as an opportunity to learn. Thats special to this companies philosophy. What I mean is that this could explain why he just said Oops sorry, when Grok admired Hitler at the beginning. It is possible that it wasnt racism but just his approach. I think many of his companies advance humankind a lot. We need electric cars for example and Tesla accelerated that transition. THAT is racist

I find it fascinating how messed up charismatic people can be. But thats because charisma is part of survival. Before you go out you overcome fear and develop charisma to get social support. Some people seem so boring, I feel like they would need help to not drown in their insufferable boredem, but oftentimes they are the healthiest ones because evidently they never really got pushed. Making very strong generalizations of course.

I really freaked up the last time at my social spot I feel like. When I sat next to that girl all her friends left us two alone. And generally it seemed like a lot of people were in on it that I could take her. Well I stopped at some point because I just couldnt find something to talk about with her. I once sat next to her, said nothing and that was it. Thats where all your imaginations about a person crumble, you ACTUALLY need to talk to her 1 on 1 without expectation and IF something nice happens like attraction thats good but you cant expect that. Thats why overthinking about someone is stupid, because your thoughts are never reality.

When you think about someone practically, what they practically could be in your life you are going in the wrong direction. The right direction would be the question if you want to "eat a cake, kick a ball, lay there in silence" with them RIGHT NOW and organically a solid structure will follow from that. Although the practical aspect isnt wrong either, who nows where passion leads you .. Maybe I differ there a bit from Alan Watts.

Pretty sexy style .. but the amount of time it would take to think about your appearence .. not so sexy ...

Wanted to enjoy some me time today and am currently binging Rick & Morty but it sucks, I am bored. Would rather do something.

And I feel really alive, holy shit.

Men I have some masochistic tendencies it seems like .. I wanted to epilate parts of my inner thigh for a cleaner look. I bought some creme which reduces the pain but I was sceptical that it would have side effects so I wanted to see if I can push through it raw. It was very painful but accepting that kinda put me into a drunk state where I could face pain and just in a way accepted it. I ended up epilating my whole ass. Wanted that anyway but shyed away from it because of pain. I will have a smooth but for the next month and WILL enjoy touching myself.

To be fair failure is seen as part of the creation process by Elon Musks. Rocket blew up "great we learned something new."

My experience is this: when I havent used the site for some time, maybe an hour or so, it loads very slow the first time. Afterwards its very fast.

Musk recently finally disconnected the internet of russian troops through his satelite there which gave ukranians a big advantage and they made territory gains. If Musk isnt influenced as much by dark side forces anymore maybe he comes to his senses more. I would like to think that at least. How is Musks social media looking besides that post? Any notable vibechange?

Much thanks!!

Went out again today. The energy just continues to be that good. I really stumbled upon a key there.