Jannes

Was shopping with a friend today. Men I always feel so grounded around him. Also saw one of the ghosts who controlled, uh confronted me at the social spot. I looked away, built some eye contact, looked away again. He wasnt completly ignoring or confronting me. I would have expected avoidance though as I stood there with my friend. He looked emotionally loaded. I didnt speak to him in this situation and that was a huge mistake. Best possible situation. Even my friend asked if we wanted to follow him. Men I could have talked to him, maybe gotten in contact with a friend of his as well. Could have gotten a lot of heavy load from my shoulders.

What is so fucking weird is that after I shaved most of my beard when I look around and see people unshaved with a three day beard it suddenly looks unkempt to me. Just because my identity and bias isnt in the beard market anymore the world suddenly looks so different. Thats wild.

The crazy girl in my university just had a concussion. Men I am so sensitive to anyhing that could remotely damage my PR. I see the rumors flashing before my eyes that I hurt her or something.

I connect very much through sharing psychological insights.

I was on fire at impro today. Likely due to my adhd medication medicinet. Concentration isnt good, never was with medicinet. Energy is good though.

My explanation was a little short and oversimplistic, but I am not talking out of my arse, its a thing: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Resource_curse

Hehe and that strategy itself is selfish. Yeah good point.

Lol a girl from the old theatre club I had a clash with (not the most recent one) shared a WhatsApp Status with me. All good now, or a mistake!? It gives me a bit of comfort though.

I think society would run much better if people were actually selfless. Selfishness can be beneficial for the whole or damaging. Scamming people for money, delivering fake products, lying, cheating are all selfish things which dont benefit the whole. If I develop a great product with the intention of making lots of money, thats beneficial to the whole. Higher forms of selfishness include more parts of others.

Its beneficial for the elites to give society good living standard as that will make them more productive. In countries where the economy runs on natural resources living standards are usually very low, as it doesnt help or even hinders the elites, as a strong population could overthrow the government.

A great idea for a movie would be the plot that feminist women created a magic pill which cured all men of toxic masculinity. ONLY NICE GUYS HURRAY!! And then see what would happen to that society, to relationships, to attraction. Who could predict what would happen though..

I see it like drunk driving. You are responsible for a crash because it is to be expected that you wont drive well intoxicated. But the alcohol also has autonomy in this situation. I see your point. But also even if the alcohol has autonomy, when the bottle clearly has dark triad printed on it you take a risk. This is pretty complicated. I think responsibility comes down to who has power. And women do have a lot of choosing power, so thats their part of the responsibility. Oh yeah Yeah its true that dark triad traits attract not the highest quality girls but also some kind of power display is required for basically every girl. I dont know a girl who is attracted to Mr. Nice Guy who wouldnt hurt a fly. I hope I am proven wrong some day though. This is a deep struggle of being a men btw. , keep up with the bad men in power (confidence, competence) but then not use that power in a bad way. This is interesting.

I just commented on the good style a girl has. I said that she looks stylish and her friends look stylish and her boyfriend looks stylish. I wanted to figure out if they are still together. If I had no information I could have said and I bet your boyfriend looks stylish too. Sneaky ehehehe

Dont have any time left to do the body doubling and chill.. This sucks, I made it quick in the gym but with cooking, cleaning and so on time was flying. Well tomorrow is another chance.

Quoting this here. I think its a bit much to ask to click on the link and then to go back here again. But girls are partially responsible for the schemes existance. If they turned down toxic men then there would be far fewer of them. Of course men could decide not to be toxic at all .. but then they wouldnt get a partner ..