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@Buck Edwards Not really. The confidemt ones won't puff chest because a guy is talking to their gf. Being agressive is not core masculine instinct. If you get overtly agressive then you are just a loser.

I graduated college this year with a 2nd useless degree. I cant get a 9-5 job, even though I have an internship of 2 years. I only get rejected from job interviews. I feel very pathetic. I dont have any friends. They all ghosted me this year on insta or messenger. I only have my family left, but they wont live forever. My love life is nonexistent. Since 2017 I didnt have a proper gf. The closest I came to this year was drunk sex after going out. But zero connection. All I encountered this year was rejection, unless I was drunk. My self esteem is shit, even though I visit a psychologist and take meds. On top of all this rn Im pretty sick after a trip to Turkey. I really hope it takes me away. My future looks very bleak and dark.

Thank you this puts things into perspective.

I wanted to reply sooner but Im still busy with mononucleosis lol. Yes that's a good observation. I find it really hard to accept that I create my problems. For example alcohol makes my social anxiety go away. I just dont care what others might think of me. But as soon as this bullshit illness is over I will try to take action on this.

@UnbornTao

This is why you need to stick to socializing irl as Leo always says. IT WORKS! OLD is pointless and demoralizing for most guys.

I hate doing game Im an introvert. Unfortunately Im not part of any community or social circle rn. Life happened. I started doing nightgame not so long ago with some minimal success. But it sucks I hate it. I just want a normal relationship like normal people. Last night I almost got into a fight with some loser who acused me of something I didnt do. Its a bit too much.

AI is still not human. I quote Leo from a while back.

Chatgpt can't give you real life perspectives. Chatgpt doesn't meditate and stuff. And GPT is boring. Unlike @Keryo Koffa lol

You can try to program the concepts into your mind without the course until then.

@Sugarcoat introverted, cautious, doesnt like being exposed, passive. I know the self is supposed to be an illusion but I havent experienced it yet.

@Sugarcoat My core personality makes it hard to socialize in general. Socializing and pickup is something I have to do to have a dating life. You can't get around it, especially not as a hetero guy. I always have to force it a little bit. (Unless alcohol is involved but you can't just be drunk all the time lol)

@NoSelfSelf Leo's reply was actually what I need. To make it more fun and learn more on the way. Your comments make zero sense.

Ok lil bruh

Hear what truth? You still haven't said anything bro.

@NoSelfSelf Still none of this is true. Again, you are not helping anyone on this forum based on your previous comments. Just trying to act above everyone else. I don't know how a punk like you could become a mod.

No, that's not enough to see whether I have game or not. Most of your posts on this forum is about you making egocentric comments and making unfounded assumptions.

What are you some kind of expert?

@NoSelfSelf I didn't say I don't have game. It' just hard for me to put myself into that kind of state. It's because I'm naturally not an open/high energy person.

Have you read the post?

@Sugarcoat I hate the whole initiation process. And the amount of work that needs to be put into this thing. Im not a masculine guy so I find seduction as a whole hard. Ive done it before succesfully but they never stick with me.

Being good at math and science was part of your identity. And it has died. You will not feel whole for a while it's supposed to be normal.

A few minutes ago during meditation I realised Im not looking out from my face. My face is just a concept in this field of consciousness. Just like my lamp or my hands or my bag etc. (Credit goes to Sam Harris and Robert Lang) Also, when I'm angry I imagine what an angry person is like but thats also not me. Just like my own face lol. If that makes any sense.

But Leooo when is the course coming out? Like I urgently need it. @Leo Gura

I havent done it for more than a year because of several reasons. School, work, not meeting new people etc... Recently I have become severly insecure about it, which is making me even more needy, insecure, and envious. I feel like I trapped myself. Now that I'm out of college my social life is basically nonexistent. What's even crazier is that I'm slowly starting to believe, that i'm an incel. I constantly need reasurance that I'm not and I'm comparing myself to others on social media. I was hesitant about making this post but I'm just very fearful about my future in terms of social stuff. I'm already 25