Hi there, I have struggled with this myself and I think an episode like Leo’s how to stop caring what other people think might be helpful. If you enjoy writing, why not say, I’m going to pause what I’m doing now and try something new. You can always go back to what makes you feel “safe” like the job, the partner. Instead of sitting and watching Netflix, walk into the other room and do something that makes you happy, like just reflecting on yourself or the universe, even if it means taking a walk around the block or just sitting in the shower for an extended period of time, whichever small outlets you can find for yourself. If your partner loves you, she’ll understand if not, then that may give you some answers but It sounds like you have a good relationship. Perhaps you should to continue to try to focus on loving yourself first. All just my perspective. Much love.