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@Gesundheit2ahahaha yes this is it, i thought "teleferik" had different name in English, yeah that's what i got on lol. the beginning is scary, but the rest is fun (sort of). i enjoyed it.

@Gesundheit2your replies are always positive and motivating to read! i get your point, it's probably true, but im still not at the stage where i can have high awareness during my daily life, it happened a few times when i had my meditation go very well, i spent the whole day afterwards in a magical bliss. im trying to not get attached to such states tho. so in like 10 minutes we are going to some cool mountain (one of the highest here) with a tourist place, and there's something on top, idk what's its caled, but it's basically a small glass cart that moves between two super high mountains hanging from cables or wires (it's pretty safe) i have heights phobia tho, so ahahahhahaha I'm scarred as fuck. but imma have fun i suppose!

sorry for not being able to update, i am on a trip to Northern Iraq with a tourist group of families. my diet currently sucks (lots of chips and candy) since we're buying and eating local foods or at restaurants so nothing healthy, i am not able to Meditate since either im out since the early morning, or very tired at night (right now). i am not able to read, or do life purpose course of course. i feel guilty, but i will let myself enjoy it mindfully. also im scared lol, tomorrow we will go on a kind of cart that moves between two large mountains very slowly to "enjoy the view". imma return on 15 june, until then, im taking a break.

well, another day has passed. i didn't game a lot, but started very late so hehe. Life Purpose revised my values for last time, can't choose between ranking of 1st and second value, feel like switching them. also im so perfectionistic since a long time ago, that it would fit as a zone of genius. Diet clean. Reading The talk talked about "productive meditation" basically its a technique where you think about some project or some thought and don't go to another thought, seems cool but not for me. Meditation im still happy i overcame the plateau im having, im back to getting results from meditation, i just need to increase time, my goal is 1 hour, also my concentration practice has gotten much better. Physics i only watched two lectures, because i was busy choosing which course to learn from. though it's cool, im figuring it out.

so Leo has been generalizing since he has autoimmune disease . i might just switch to whole wheat bread.

@Superfluo this is the problem, choosing the subset lol. i want my life purpose to be stage Yellow spiral dynamics since im fascinated by stage Yellow, stage Yellow is very integral and systematic so that's how i am kinda thinking about it. maybe i might need to identify what makes yellow yellow, and focus on that thing.

ok, time for this time of the day. today was great, and i am now decided that instead of abstaining from video games, i will continue, not "gaming", but playing gamet from time to time, like i will only play games that are worth it, maybe once or twice a year, and within limit, 2 - 4 hours a day max, while also doing "awareness alone is curative" method. today i played for 2.5 hours, it was great, and i actually did something productive (more on that below) during the day instead of meditating then doing lp, then doing whatever and reading as breaks, until night comes and play a bit of video-games. Life Purpose I completely reworked my values, the top ones are almost the same, the last 3 or 4 changed, it feels more like me now. and since i- well downloaded a pirated version of the course (i told leo btw in the beginning of this journal, he didn't respond so idk what to make of that lol) since i live in iraq and my parents are divorced and our financial situation is not that great, i had no choice, but i will make up for it when i grow up, i promise, i already gained so much from this and from leo, it's amazing, thank you. so my whole point was, in this pirated version i have no link to the strengths assessment, and from my searching of the forum its either https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.viacharacter.org/&ved=2ahUKEwj5sM6oqJz4AhXdJMUKHWtYCZMQFnoECBAQAQ&usg=AOvVaw2eOcVU0P3B7KSFrKegv6Rl or https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.authentichappiness.sas.upenn.edu/&ved=2ahUKEwixwtaeqJz4AhVRiqQKHTVIA3MQFnoECBMQAQ&usg=AOvVaw11dr5B0jLleA28CIz3-5LI i did them both, and i did the children test (from 13 - 17), since i originally done the normal one, i also bought strength finder 2.0 book, which was supposed to have an acess code but didn't lol, which i will use to second check my strengths, by reading detailed description of the strengths. i also sat down with a physical journal and contemplated my impact statement, it used to be "make people reach the highest level of wisdom". and now it is "make people reach their full human potential" which i really feel strongly, and yes i am having uncertainty between them, but i will go with the new one and see where it takes me as @Michael569said. what i mean by my statement is that i want to make someone go from zero to say for example the maximum amount of personal growth possible for that person, so it will be custom to each person, and i will help them through the process. so i imagine i want my work to be 1 on 1 or maybe small groups or maybe hosting seminars, writing also seems like something i would like, i gotta experiment. And my zone of genius is still mystery, thankfully i bought the book "the big leap", i will do all exercises there when i get to it. Diet well, all clean. @Michael569sorry for being annoying but since this is your thing, is wheat as bad as leo claims? i currently eat special type of bread made from corn. Reading well today i got very carried on with reading, i read like 26 pages, which is a lot for me i usually read about 10 - 15 a day, maybe maximum 20. the book talked about lots of stuff but something that stayed in my mind is that instead of scheduling time for focus, schedule timk for distraction. Meditation i got back to mindfulness with labeling, its working again, i applied what i learned from letting go, im still attached to the cool experiences i get but its ok, for now. Physics lol i give up on quantum physics, it's way beyond my level, i am currently relearning physics from ground zero again, even though i studied at school but all of it was for exams, i am also taking notes using Feynman technique at my commonplace book. it will help when i start school year. i am following a guide on YouTube to self- learn physics that has bunch of courses and practice problems. i plan after physics to do chemistry then biology. and programming too but idk where to fit it, maybe when i complete LP finding and it becomes less finding more doing LP.

@Michael569 yeah i see what you mean, i guess the whole point is in specialization, or maybe specialization and having knowledge in stuff related or similar to your niche, that could work too. thank you michael person .

@Michael569 hey no worries, i just chose some random members that i know and like from being here for some time yes, this is like what Leo called as committing to your one thing and your domain of mastery, but cant my one thing be something like "holistic understanding of everything", i like the idea of being a jack of all trades. i see, so its really about choosing something and saying to no to everything else. I KNEW IT! ohhhhh, i see, this solves everything! so all i have to do is to keep experimenting, but at the same time not become a dabbler. i am definitely getting the way of the superior man after i finish my current books. 100% agree, this alone is a good reason to do life purpose course. Ayyyy, this is nice to hear! i am currently reworking my values btw, stopped on the course and now returning back to values and strengths stuff, then will redo life purpose statement. that seems about the right way to do it! appreciate your efforts and your reply. so i will just commit to whatever i find, trusting that in due time, my life purpose will refine and become more accurate. thank you and good luck with your LP man

Oh, i forgot to write here yesterday lol. anyways, today i woke up normally, i bought myself some clothes, and yes Life Purpose i fully reworked my values, working on reworking my strengths now. Diet all clean Reading more of the same, but my reading effectiveness has improved a lot, btw here's how i read: 1. when i get the book i skim it, read about the author, read the introduction. 2. then i will start at the first chapter, i would read the first sentence of every paragraph of each chapter to get the big picture. 3. read the first chapter normally, tracking with a pencil and underlining things that give me "aha" moments, and writing my thought process next to them. 4. occasionally i would open my commonplace book and convert what's underlined as bullet points and my thoughts about it as sub bullet points. Meditation TODAY WAS FUCKING EXCEPTIONAL, so instead of doing it like everyday, i did leo's guided meditation, and i got into the same state i used to get into months ago (vivid colors, hand tingling, sense of peace and bliss, laughing for no reason) it was great, very different from usual. and i learned something, the element of letting go to be in a specific state, to enjoy meditation and not let it become mechanical, from now on, i commit to having an intent to sit for the sake of it and not for the cool states. Physics so like at 10 pm today i decided to learn quantum physics because why not, i downloaded Richard Feynman's lecture textbook volume 3 as recommended by this video. well it's super hard and i understood nothing but imma continue.

Well, well, well. i would say today was interesting, it was very hot, 47 Celsius and air conditioning is not always activated since, well it's iraq. anyway, my gaming was less than 2 hours today, the only reason i did it was because of my friend. also this friend (and actually all my friends) don't like the things I'm doing, they probably think im being hard on myself and not enjoying life, but to me this is much more meaningful and enjoyable. they also think im stupid since even though they think i am Muslim, i don't hate shia Muslims, and i don't consider sunni Islam the ultimate truth, and because i am not hateful towards israel (i think they're treating Palestinians wrong but they're still human and normal people, it's just that their government is bad like most governments) one of my friends likes personal development stuff, but doesn't do practice, just theory from videos, which is cool, i tried to push him a couple of times but i guess it's not the time, he's also very stage blue. in fact the main reason i disconnected from my friends is that they're very stage blue Muslims. Life purpose well i revisited my values, leo said to do a quarterly review of values so like every three months, and i completely forgot about it this month but anyways i did it and i see some change in my values, the top ones are the same, the last 3 or 4 changed. and i thought a lot about domain of mastery today, maybe personal development is a good one, but i want something more holistic, the whole point of my life purpose statement is holistic understanding. Diet well i ate ice cream because it was deadly hot, felt weird afterwards. Reading well, more of the same, i actually find the rhythmic philosophy of deep work much more applicable to me, and maybe journalistic one too but it requires hard discipline and focus ability. Meditation well i did what @Gesundheit2said, i first begun with 2 minutes concentration then switched to labeling technique and every time some thought pops i would note, label and savor, during savoring i would spark this curiosity in me about the source of thoughts, which actually stayed with me the whole day so thanks for that. the meditation itself went very fast but i still failed at 25 minutes, even though i put the timer for an hour lol (i tried to see how long i could go). though when i was at the barber waiting for my turn, i mediated there, and got an insight that all sounds are the same, the only difference is the frequency which makes it sound different, but all sounds are really one sound. i know it sounds weird written out but its legit.

@Gesundheit2Heyy, thank you for your very motivating answer! the thing you said about meditation, i will try that, it seemed that my practice have become mechanical, i also remember my best results came when i started noting in daily life, not just in sitting. (i use shinzen's see hear feel technique). and yes i have time about life purpose which is great. today i canceled my gym membership because i will be going to the north of Iraq ( it's still the same country, but the northern part is really developed, or at least more) for 5 days from 6/10 to 6/15, i know it's early now but since my membership is new they accepted to cancel it, if i waited im pretty sure they would've refused. and finally, i used the technique from "awareness alone is curative" and from using it a lot, i decided to stop playing this video game! my life before it was really much happier and filled with meaning, and the more i play, the more it starts to take over my time. now there's a problem lol, in the game im playing, me and my friend made a server, and we're playing for the first time so we're like progressing together, and yeah idk how to tell my friend i don't want to play anymore, but i can't let something as simple stop me, so i will do something about it, gradually. i will keep using curative awareness method for now. Life purpose well lol, i didn't do anything today, my body hurt all day because of first day at the gym, but i thought about it a lot through out the day, there's an element missing in my statement, i can't put my hands on it exactly, but it's there. so besides wisdom and understanding, i have a thing for planning and architecturing, not necessarily in the academic sense, but the element of architecturing and planning, in everything i always want to plan and find out the best way to do it, architecturing methods, etc. i know the way i cite it is weird, but its there, not sure how it fits into this. Diet lol my mom told me when we go to the north i should be free about my eating and i refused, used joking tone so it became a funny thing. Reading since i didn't do the course, i read much more, the book talked about philosophies of deep work and i think the bimodial one fits me. Meditation so when summer came, i switched my meditation from ground to chair since i was scared of maybe a cockroach getting on me during meditation and ground without carpet is uncomfortable, so i will switch to couch and do sidhassana posture again. And today my meditation was 27 minutes, i failed to hit it again lol, and the quality was bad too. i think i am experiencing backlash, two months ago i could easily do 35 minutes with high quality meditation, the mindfulness would last the whole day. i also wanna do deliberate practice, idk how ti apply it, it seems there's lots of theory about it with little "how to". but tomorrow i will do what @Gesundheit2 said.

i woke up frustrated because late, but it was ok today. Life Purpose well i am doubting if everything i came to is wrong, i will revise the whole process tomorrow then create a vision and a vision board. Diet clean. Gym first day, it was tough because first day is always tough, though i had lunch two hours before gym and I ate a lot so my stomach killed me, i came back to take a cold shower but water is hot since it's affected by weather. Reading finally started the "how to" part of the book. meditation since i woke up late, I decided to do it after gym, but my stomach was hurting so i couldn't do et effectively.

ok, so today was really great, i woke up late, but meditation was so good that it had an effect the whole day and i also signed up at the gym, will start going tomorrow, and i will set gaming time after gym, and i do all my stuff before gym, so i guarantee that everything will be done. Life purpose so i did the "bringing it all together" and "the me sheet", it was great, but LOTS of doubts, i keep second guessing myself, so my life purpose statement (understanding the world deeply and holistically to make people wise and developed) creates an emotional response in me, but its not that big, also i don't think the course went through how to find your ideal medium, so i wrote two mediums which are seminars and books, i just put them on a whim, and as the domain of mastery, i put "changing the way people think" i could also put "lecturing", idk this is really hard work, and i am doubting if my purpose is the right one. @Husseinisdoingfine@itachi uchiha@Leo Gura@Michael569 How am i supposed to deal with doubts regarding life purpose? i guess just go with something and see if it works? i just needing some guidance lol. Diet clean Reading well the book talked about why deep work is meaningful taking example of someone who lives passionately doing deep work, also the book presented neurological, psychological and philosophical arguments for depth, its dope. meditation so, rather than struggling like everyday to hit 35 minutes and falling, i did something else, i lowered time back to where i was few months ago (25 minutes), so the quality increased, and effects of meditation were obvious the whole day, i think i will increase a minute a day, then continue at 30 for a week, then also increase a minute a day until 35, but these days i have to make sure that i don't check the timer, or give up even if only 10 seconds are left for the timer.

so lol i ended up gaming for 5 hours, but the good thing is that i started at 8 pm, and did all my things before it, so i guess cool, i won't set time, but, i will make sure i do everything before it. Life Purpose: im in the making impact statement + zone op genius, its hard im having conflict between different things, i chose my zone of genius as "growing understanding life deeply and holistically", it feels very authentic, but i have lots of doubts, and my impact statement is where i was unsure between "create a stage yellow academy" or "lecture as a stage Yellow professor" or "make people reach the highest level of wisdom and growth", i chose the last one, i guess the stage Yellow thing could be the ideal medium. Diet clean Reading i read about 15 pages, very nice, the book is gonna start on the practical stuff, excited for impairmenting it. Meditation today i was super motivated, like really, so i sat down and was very focused during my session, very focused, and continued for a very long time, i was like yeah its definitely almost 35 minutes i will check times, and it turns out to be at 25 minutes! it felt like 40 minutes have passed, so yes

ok yesterday i forgot to journal lol so today was ok, i spent a lot if time gaming but i didn't ignore anything else, i ate healthy, read, meditated, did life purpose video and yeah. the thing is, i have have stopped gaming since like 7 months (it was involuntarily, i just got bored and was fascinated by this work), and now when its holiday its sucing me back in, too much time can be a curse, but its ok in moderation, tho i have a thing where i overindulge in whatever i do, whether it's healthy or unhealthy. doesn't matter tho, i will not let something as simple as this stop me! i will set a time for gaming, three hours, i shall not go beyond it, i promise, and will update tomorrow also i want to finish the "finding your life purpose" segment of the course, so i can start programming. and tomorrow or after it i will receive money so i will go to gym. Life Purpose i did zone of genius exercise, it was amazing but very hard, and my zone of genius is... to understand the world at a deep and holistic level, this is very true to me, my wish since i was a child was to know everything, and i feel like this is similar to leo's one, but i think this may be why i liked Actualized.org from the beginning. it was always there but i never noticed it as my zone of genius, though i am having doubts, i feel like I've done the exercise wrongly, maybe will redo it tomorrow. Diet all clean Reading i read around 10 pages today, maybe 15, wanted to do more but ok, the book talked about all the stuf in the modern world making deep work rare and hard to do. Meditation i am so stuck, i stopped at 25 minutes, couldn't get more time, i really want to increase my time, also i am plateauing, i am not going anywhere, results stopped like 1 or 1.5 months ago. But i have an idea, i will meditate like everyday, 2 minutes concentration practice then mindfulness then if i fail, i will do nothing as a strong determination sitting. great!

well here i am, i said i Wil start in 1.5 weeks but exams were delayed for a couple of days because of sandstorms, and holiday began yesterday, i went and bought some books, since i finished the art of war. the books i got are 1. the big leap (excited for this one, it has lots of exercises and i like that) 2. the four agreements (font is weird but ok) 3. strengthfinder 2.0 (i bought it because it said "includes the assessment", and then i Googled a little and its supposed to contain a packet that has an access code, but mine doesn't unfortunately so that's sad) 4. deep work (this is the one i started, i finished the introduction and the first chapter, i like it a lot since it tackles a problem i have which is procrastination and shallow work, well only in school, but still it would be helpful wheh learning programming) 5. indistractable (basically about how to tame the internet and phone to your advantage) 6. linchpin (well i saw it in the life purpose list, but it seems to be about business) and today, well i woke up late, at 10:40, but i very much enjoyed it today. though a couple of hours ago around 8 pm my friend insisted to play a multi-player game (terraria) and we have been playing till 10:45. well it was fun, but afterwards i feel like dizzy and lost all the meditation awareness, and it kinda took away my sense of inspiration too. well i know i shouldn't completely abstain from video-games, just limit them, but how much is too much?, this was like 3 hours, which is a good amount i think, maybe i should've taken breaks, well i don't know. Life purpose well i did the role model exercise today, i chose @Leo Gura, Marcus aurelius and Leonardo da vinci, i watched a documentary about Leonardo and i was so inspired, i felt like this is how i wanted my life to be, full of inventing, knowledge about everything, and understanding, i also answered the questions about him, tomorrow i will do the other two. i also felt very guilty, like i am wasting my time away, like how can i be like Leonardo davinci if i am not pushing myself to the edge. Diet well, my mother tried to tell me how i am supposed to have cheat days and how wheat is healthy and you can cut the rest of the stuff and i told her that i am not forcing myself into good food and wheat takes a lot of energy to digest while it has no nutritional value, and this energy can be used to other stuff, well she wasn't convinced. Reading i read like almost a whole chapter of deep work, it is amazing, and i want to implement it to the life purpose course and meditation and programming and other stuff, but it's still in the the beginning, still don't know the how to. Meditation my meditation is stuck at 35 minutes for like 1.5 months now! i can barley get to it, i mostly give up before the bell rings. also i started meditation since the end of December 2021, i first started watching thoughts then stuck to "see hear feel" technique, i got some cool results, like vivid colors, aware of thoughts as not mine, some insights, becoming unreactive (happened only once), a sense of awe, extremely hot hands (i dunno why, researched it and found out that you shouldn't think significantly of this and let it distract you), tingling and shaking in hands. well the last 2 months, it's like all of them went away except the colors part, this makes me think i am doing it wrong, 1 month ago i made the first 10 minutes concentration, then 20, it seemed to have slowed my progress, so i will do it like leo says, which is start with 2 minutes and increase slowly. I think the key to get better is to practice deliberately, so i need to (1) concentrate on increasing skill and (2) get immediate feedback when doing it wrong. well i can do the first one by setting an intention before meditation to develop my skill and the second one, maybe i will write in my notes app a review of my practice and copy paste it here at night, as a sort of feedback to myself, maybe just noticing that i am distracted during meditation is feedback. that's it for today!

@Terell Kirby i just noticed that i started focusing more outwardly instead of inwardly because of this, thanks @funkychunkymonkey guess he will develop at his own pace, thanks for answering. @Nahm good suggestions, very practical, i will try to make him develop himself into orange but i won't force it, thank you nahm. @Preety_India hello there, i always see you around here! Well you're right, I won't try to directly start conversations or talk since i need to focus on myself, but i think i can help him, but i will try to think beyond stage green which i think i am growing into. Thank you!

Hello there folks, this is something somewhat serious about my friend in school, i will tell the story in chronological order. Basically 2 years ago i met someone who became my friend, we had a lot of common, he was kinda depressed and his parents abused him. So after some time he became very religious, i guess he found comfort in belonging and feeding his ego, but he also became an extremist dogmatic person, he cut out relationship with most people who weren't "religious enough". We debated a lot but never came out with anything, another thing is that he is supported by almost everyone since here in iraq, stage blue is really dominant. i thought that wouldn't last for long and it's a phase, but he basically evolved, he became dogmatic about politics (he's conservative), hating on shia'a (basically a branch of islam) and the main thing im worried about is that he started supporting ISIS (a terrorist organization). Now for me this is pretty serious, since i am from another province which ISIS took over when i was a child and we had to start from ground zero here as a family, and because of that my father left us (he's alive but it's complicated). How can i get my friend out of this stage blue prison? I shared the start section of actualized.org but he didn't care about it, i want to share something that would open his mind, but i have no idea, just browsing through actualized.org channel might make him refuse the whole idea. I also fear that if he somehow got into this "work", he would become dogmatic about it or might put @Leo Gura on a pedestal or something.

hey actualized.org, I have started a reading habit and I summarized two books. I wanted to share them here as they might be useful to someone and also to receive some constructive criticism. A new earth.pdf Quiet.pdf And I will continue to post book summaries but not as frequently since school.

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Hmmm, in islam or mostly Arabic culture, it's always said not to look into a mirror for a long time, especially in the dark, because "jin" (beings similar to ghosts you could say) show up. But i never took the possibility of such thing happening seriously. Your experience is very interesting though.

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@gelebkiinteresting, I think my passion has something to do with psychology but not exactly psychology. I will experiment with it Good luck on your journey!

Hi, I'm new to this forum, I've been listening to leo's video and they're pretty useful. I've built the following habits : Reading (1 hour) Meditation (20 minutes 2 times a day) Exercise (2 hours, I'm not really a sporty person but it's definitely useful to build a body) Actualized.org video (https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLFyYNK0C9y0Jjz1c6pK3Thxxn0Q8ADwa0, i made this playlist of the foundational videos at the site, after watching all of them i will stop, i think it's just mental masurbation afterwards, but i will continue with the other habits) I've been doing this for 3 days and i have a lot of free time (I'm 14 and it's summer break where i live) despite doing this i think i should do more but i don't know what to do (i have a lot of free time) gaming, watching TV, etc... Is just not fulfilling anymore Sorry if it sounds like bragging about my habits lol, but i really don't know what to do with my time. So what should i add to my routine?