Ayham

lol woke up even later. this is a worrying trend. so today is the last day updating daily here, here is how it will look like from now on: each Saturday I set intentions for the next week and do a weekly review. of course i would have a private journal on my commonplace book where i will get my private emotions and thoughts out my intentions for this week Complete LP course have enough knowledge about Kriya yoga to see if i want to try it the week after this one Complete my physics self study course, start chemistry. next week. complete programming book (code: hidden language) and start CS50 Life Purpose STILL PROCRASTINATING THE LAST COUPLE EPISODES. Diet i think ive been off wheat for a long time now, i never felt a positive effect, i will continue like this tho because why not. Reading Ayy. finally got Meditations and Mastery. and im still reading the big leap, about half way done, had lots of insights from it today. Meditation my session itself was normal, 28 minutes, higher concentration. but when i was at the barber i started doing noting and labeling then had a huge awareness leap, i became fascinated with everything, i also got an insight on how i can optimize the technique. Programming AMAZING, i got a grasp on HTML in freecodecamp and i am continuing with CSS, and also reading: "Code: Hidden language" Physics ehh, its kinda a chore but i am doing it to understand science more and to get used to studying to do in school. and goodbye daily journal

woke up late, i don't do much on Fridays tho. also i am thinking of having a private journal instead, and updating this one on a weekly basis, because i don't have a problem with commitment, and in a private journal i can write personal stuff and get it out, so it would be more about getting things out, and i would have this one as weekly review, great! i will do that, tomorrow last day updating this daily, also means i will open forum only once a week. i would also set intentions for the next week here. Life Purpose still havent finished it. Diet i ate baked goods (wheat) and drank quarter soda bottle, i went with my mother and sister to a relatives house and they offered, it wouldve been rude to say no. Reading great. Meditation 33 minutes because my mom thought it would be funny to try to make me laugh in my session (it was lol) and i will start reading about kriya until i have enough knowledge to do it, will try it for some time then decide whether to do it or meditation

try: seminars, meditaon retreats, university maybe, stage Yellow places, etc.

woke up a bit late, great day overall though. Life purpose well, didnt do that, i have like a couple of videos to finish, i will finish them then sit and think about how to start implementing. Diet clean. Reading read a lot today. Meditation only 20 minutes, it was a normal session, i am thinking of switching to kriya, though i think it is hard to get started on. also I am sick of these doubts im having ever since day 1 of meditation about whether am i meditating right. Gym did great today, very great. Programming super great, i currently do 2 hours of programming, 1 hour of freecodecamp training, the second one varies, currently it is reading a programming book, then i will watch cs50 in that hour, then yeah two more books.

wisdom personal growth integrity understanding creativity independence Openmindedness spirituality leadership nature i kinda had a problem deciding whether to put Integrity or understanding first, but decided to put intngrity.

so ahahaaha, i woke up late, ate, meditated only 20 minutes, didnt do anything productive afterwards , i took it as a vacation.

OK, so your problem is phone addiction? been there, here is how to solve it, step by step first you need to know that even if you get rid of your phone, you will replace the addiction with something else, so you need to tackle the problem from the inside and the outside. step 1: The inside so here we will attempt to tackle your addiction from the inside, here is what you need: Meditation (1 hour, whatever technique you like but you have to combine that technique with strong determination sitting, so basically you have to not move an inch, start with 20 minutes, increase 5 minutes each month.) Mindfulness when using phone (see Leo`s video "awareness alone is curative") have a vision of where you want to be, immerse it in yourself, in your subconscious, make it your primary concern step 2: the outside this will NOT work if you don't have the inside basis, but you can do it immediately and continue working on the inside slowly since it is long term Remove: go through your phone, ask yourself about each single app "does this app serve me?" if it does not, delete it, and dont keep the "just in case" apps. Replace: anything you use that can be switched to desktop, delete it from phone and keep it on desktop Rearrange: keep distracting apps out of the home screen. Reclaim: learn to use the "don't disturb mode" block almost all notification and lastly you need a habit to replace your phone with, so whenever the urge to check your phone comes, do this habit, it should be a healthy habit, like reading for example.

@FlyingLotusthanks!

so, idk nothing special. played monopoly with my sister tho. Life purpose i am kind of confused, i will do the getting it in your subconscious mind exercises, i don't know about building skills, you know what, i will do that in holidays, so right now, but not yet, i am kind of overwhelmed from doing so much stuff, my priority is to complete the course, will see how to do organize it afterwards. also, I AM SO PASSIONATE ABOUT MY LIFE PURPOSE. Diet clean. Reading 13 pages, more about upper limit problem, the part today was insightful. Meditation so i basically got used to 35 minutes, i am using see hear feel technique again, with trying to get to access concentration in the beginning, if i can get myself to access concentration then do see hear feel, i think my meditation will be ideal for me, all i need is to continue increasing 5 minutes a month afterwards. i might do the thing in the video "going from abstract to concrete" to get to access concentration. Gym today was the running only day, not weight lifting, i ran too fast and my waist killed me, hehehe. also i am actually too skinny, i don't know why i am running, i mean it is healthy but still, maybe it might be harmful to me. Physics I actually did study today, it was actually fun. I proved to myself that i can study when i commit to, now i need to continue the habit so that i get used to studying school subjects so i can study when school comes.

check this out : https://learn-anything.xyz/ this website has literally routes and trees about resources to learn lots of subjects and skills try searching: programming, mindfulness, systems theory, history, quantum mechanics, stoicism, biology, etc. there is very good trees on a lot of subjects, some trees are not very deep, but this has potential to be an amazing resource.

I am, hope you are too. yo, i am actually Arabic (i guess you are too) from Iraq, so that is a cool resource, will check it out. well, my plan is to learn HTML then CSS then JavaScript then PHP, in that order, i am currently doing HTML. yeah i saw people talking about it when i searched threads about it. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLhQjrBD2T382_R182iC2gNZI9HzWFMC_8here it is. you know what i might actually watch it, i dismissed it first. Thanks well, i don't really know, i mean i love learning on my own, but studying for school has been a pain the ass, so i don't know about college. and if somehow i fail to get out of Iraq, to live well here I need a college degree. and i also need more time to build a better foundation. plus my parents are not very soft in stuff related to college, they are more like forcing me into it. anyways tysm bro.

yo! you are doing programming too?? can you share resources for a total beginner? i started with freecodecamp its starting to snow ball! congrats. also i have the same plan, get medical or engineering degree (just cuz my parents lol) then do life purpose. good luck for you man!

ok.. so i woke up late, and yeah.. nothing special also like 4 months ago i read Shinzen book called the science of enlightenment (except two last chapters) so i completed one today and will see when I can complete the second, it feels weird to have it left finished but not completely. Life Purpose WELL, I want to cry, well not really, more like I want to bury myself. so I went to printing place, I was literally dying out of embarrassment, anyways printer guy looked at me smiling or laughing but didn't say anything, and there's the other part that my family are seeing my vision board and me sheet, my mom liked the idea, though she doesn't know what the me sheet actually is, because few people are able to speak English beyond basic stuff taught in school here (btw i learned English by accident by watching gaming vids on YouTube when i was 12 in English) and i have put the me sheet in English so, they might understand words but not everything which is exactly what I want, it feels to cringe and embarrassing to have people see my me sheet) I actually thought about printing it in some secret code lol. also I did fear visualization, was great, and the limiting beliefs exercise and watched two more vids. I can complete the course after tomorrow. Diet clean Reading well, my reading method involves that before reading each chapter, I read the first sentence of each chapter to get the big picture, but the chapter was very long so just doing that took a long time. Meditation yo, I checked timer when 2 minutes was left, and that's the only time I moved. my next step in meditation: access concentration. also I did shit ton of practice in daily life which skyrocketed my sensory clarity to an observable degree, colors got super intense, just like when I first started meditation, but remember! detachment from states, and I will also enjoy them while they last. Gym I lifted higher weights today, improvement! ah I'm so happy, everything I'm doing is starting to snowball! Physics welp, didn't do it, listened to a lecture about Buddhist philosopher and the path of the middle way. I also busted the limiting belief about procrastinating about formal studying things, so that will change tomorrow, I will prove it to myself! its now or never. Programming hell yes, new thing, well I am starting with HTML since i want web development, I was unsure whether to start with the Odin project or free code camp. ended up starting with FCC. I will learn HTML, CSS, JavaScript, then PHP.

I use "DF tube" (distraction free YouTube extension) https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/df-tube-distraction-free/mjdepdfccjgcndkmemponafgioodelna?hl=en

OHOHHOHOHO ok these reactions are getting old lol, so today lots of cool thingies, I woke up early, I made weekly schedule, I watched space movie. I also texted with friend for like hours, I also shared my life purpose, and I made him take strengths assessment and choose values (more like forced him). but it was not the same as the course, i basically did the very basics without details, we also talked about turkey (we both have a plan to study university there, it is very cheap, and for me i want to go to Canada after getting degree) i also told him about contemplation, he did not like it, and told me this philosophical stuff and personal development im into is not for him and he does not like it, i understood that. I think there's no reason to share these stuff with others unless they ask , but i am always tempted to tell others about this, and i get disappointed from them not caring or sharing the passion, embarking on this journey, i basically lost all my friends, literally, i go weeks without taking to someone except my parents and it is mostly small talk, i am naturally introverted, so its not hard, but i still get lonely from time to time, and when i talk with others i get drained so much, i am a strong introvert, but i still get lonely, but when i talk i get drained, its weird. and if i talk about these things and someone belittles these stuff, i feel like i have been robbed from. but this is my journey, it is a lonely path and i dare to walk it, and i truly have never been happier. and for me there is literally no option other than this, seeing what can be possible makes me not able to return to life of playing video games, watching anime, scrolling Instagram, etc. 24/7 also I will start learning to code tomorrow (learning web development as a skill to work as a freelancer to start saving money for my life purpose for when i grow up) Life Purpose Imma print the thingies tomorrow, and imma change Vitruvian man to a censored version. and i am going through the "making it real" part, idk if i should implement, i think making it real should happen after growing up, right now i need foundation and having a vision of where my life should go, and developing my domain of mastery so i am capable as an adult. also i think my ideal medium is either coaching or seminars, probably the latter. Diet clean. Reading read a lot. it is talking about a problem called upper limit problem and that everyone has it, I didn't see it in me though, I probably need to increase my awareness. Meditation 35 minutes is becoming easy, i think i should stop thinking of quantity and switch to quality, here is my plan: in July I continue 35 minutes in august 40 in September 45 in October 50 in November 55 and finally an hour in December, this way I will make myself used with each duration and I will increase gradually, which will allow me to focus on quality. physics bad, i don't like this anymore, but i have to train myself to be able to do it in school.

@Aaron p traps everywhere! lol great point, thanks sir. @gettoeflyo wtf how did I not notice this lol @Thought Artthis is exactlyy what i am looking for! will add it to my book list. thanks

as the title says, I find that from consuming so much stuff about spirituality, I auto reject other possibilities than spirituality, and one of my values is open mindedness. it is like a have taken a position, a stance that spirituality is true, and I do not want that. I have contemplated this question, and what I came up with is to basically consume stuff opposed to spirituality, taking different perspectives (stage yellow approach), from example: watching a Christian arguing his case against spirituality, and actually being open minded to that is challenging, so that is what I will do, I will watch other stuff and be openminded about it. I think there is also a danger with this forum if you spend most of your time here, you are in a community of people with similar ideas, that makes your ideas not challenged, but strengthened. so I would like to see what everyone thinks, how do you not turn this into dogma?

@ZzzleepingBear ah the good ol` Eckhart Tolle, it really is a great exercise. @gettoefl yeah I see, it is also always there, thank you.

i am really confused on how to do it, shinzen says "focus on the sensation", while leo says "take it in the present moment" the problem is that i can focus on it but it doesn't work well compared to savoring . savoring is hard to do since i don't how to take it in, i rarely feel like im doing it right, but when i do, it's amazing and results are immediate in my sensory clarity and equanimity. the question is: How do i take a sensation in??

seems like a great channel, will watch it and try tomorrow.

ah i see, meditation does help with this in my experience, thanks!

letss gooooo. today was cool, i contemplated "what is meaning" and had an insight that transformed how i look into life purpose, which is baiscally, life purpose is supposed to be meaningful, and what you find meaningful comes a large part from your beliefs, ex: you believe that what humanity needs is eco friendly cars, so that will meaningful for you, so baiscally after choosing a life purpose, you grow into it as you believe into it. i also started using wikipedia, it might be one of the best sources i have found, everyone knows about wikipedia, but this is the first time i actually use it. Life purpose wait, IT IS MORE THAN THE MAX FILE SIZE, I CANT PUT IT HERE. ok i will try taking a screenshot of it, idk if that helps. yes it did ok the quality is now bad, but it is good on the original one. so, it is kinda embarrassing to hang this in front of my family, but UGH, fine, will find a chance to go to printing place. Also i love this vision board so much. Diet clean, lots of fruits. Reading read lotss today, I love this book. Meditation so i went through the whole 35 minutes, very good, I SEE IMPROVEMENT, the amount of times i can get to 35 minutes is increasing. Gym I DID GREAT, lots of improvement in the amount of weights i can lift.

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@gettoefl I do not do labeling when i get distracted from the breath, i do it with no anchor, like without the breath, do you recommend doing it with the breath, why so?

@sholomar I get your point, thankfully I am not interested in crusading nor politics. and yeah I do need lots of perspectives, for now I need an information detox because I have been consuming too much, so only books and contemplation right now. @gettoefl do you mean Peter Ralston`s not knowing? this seems easier said than done. @Thought Artyo, this is super solid advice, I am currently doing meditation, reading, healthy food and gym, I also do contemplation when I feel I need it. I like the thing about saying I don`t know, it is hard, it is definitely threatening to the ego, good. I think i would like the tao te ching since i like the art of war which is the same vibe (ancient asian wisdom)