Hey guys! Thought I might share my own story with mental health/self-development with you all to possibly give someone else that’s struggling a glims of hope.
So I grew up being a very nervous child with authoritarian parents that later became an angry resentful teenager, and for a long time as a young adult I thought that my value as a person was performance based and based on how other people saw me. I thought that life was suppose to be a struggle and that joy, love and wealth just happened to people that were lucky. I was also taught as a child that ”Rest and recovery is for weak people”.
I was completely disconnected from my own feelings and the signals my body was trying to send me. I faked a smile and a bubbly personality on the outside but on the inside I was exhausted and felt like absolute shit.
I thought extremely low of myself and that nobody could ever accept or love me for who I was. I also thought that I wasn’t worthy of anything good in life; like my dream job, a respectful loving partner, money, and somedays even rest and food.
One day I had enough, and after reading every psychology and self-development book I could find I realised that what dictated my feeling was primarily my brain, and that my brain basically was a computer that someone else once programmed with their personal beliefs and thoughts about the world (Mainly my parents and the toxic environment I grew up in).
This made me the think that; if my brain works like a programmed computer, wouldn’t that mean that I should be able to re-program it? This realisation was honestly what save my life.
This was barely 3 years ago and since the day I made the decision to truly start working on myself and my mindset I have;
- Moved to a different country (Can't even believe it)
- Started my business doing something I really enjoy
- AND I also found a guy so good I didn’t think people like him even existed!
I guess my point is - To anyone reading this that feel like absolute shit inside, PLEASE keep going! I know it feels impossible to get out of that dark hole, but it IS possible! And you DESERVE to live the life of your dreams and to be happy!
You are hanging out in these communities for a reason, because you deep down want something better for yourself!
If I can do it, SO CAN YOU!!
