Yh true i have been thinking for the last hour or so about this i guess another issue that i have is this question of "Am i doing the right thing?" and that question i feel has haunted me because i think i use it on everything especially when im trying to live a beautiful life but im trying to do it the right way which even i dont know what is the right way or i never have. And with this i use this question on a lot of things and i think it doesnt allow me to enjoy the moment as much also i think aswell when i think about this question i think i try to do what would leo do and so thats another issue as i think he is this god or some shit like that.