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A lack of love

I will be going to check my kidneys through a x-ray in the next coming days hopefully but i do want to find out what it is so wouldn't mind doing a urine test. Also very creative idea with AI wouldnt never have thought of that.

Ngl idk what is going on but maybe it could be the basic of not getting enough vitamins or maybe not enough potassium with the weakness or could be that there maybe a problem in terms of condition sorry or not being of no help but i would check everything plus your diet plus your environment to the detergents your using or any signs of heavy metals anywhere but again sorry for not knowing the situation more.

so couple of days ago ive been having a stomach virus/infection/idk what it is. It was very annoying but now feeling ok but ive been noticing my kidneys have been hurting more than usual. Ive been noticing kidney pain for at least a year or so the reason why i think it happen was because before i would wake up and drink around a litre of water first thing then wait to pee. I then started to notice pain there and started to drink a lot less water bit i think the damage has been done as i was doing this for a long period of time i would say 2 years or so every day. Anyways today i drink like barely a glass of water at the start of my day but recently with the kidney pain i think that my pee may have blood in it. Im not 100 percent sure but my pee has been more darker and almost like theres something in it that spreads around dont know how to explain it. Anyways i wanna know what to do about i will try and go to the hospital to get checked out through a potential x-ray or mri or ultra sound. But in general i want to improve my a lot through my diet. I dont know where to start however thought about going on low carb diet with high protein or fat but ofcourse i dont know much about it as the info i get on health is dr berg. I know that people are suspect of him about his information so i wouldn't mind learning stuff from others to if you have any recommendation. Overall i want to improve my health ofcourse it wont be easy cause one thing i would say is in my way is money but hopefully i can start making some bigger changes with my diet. When i was growing up didnt have the greatest diet or pretty much was malnuriust so it did hinder my grow a little with poor sleep and mental health. I just wanna try and improve my life quite a bit and i think one of doing that is through my diet.

@NoSelfSelf dojo to the moon to saturn to the solar system the limps wont even know we exists baby

From glory Britannia Birmingham God save our king and our souls ofcourse

I have multiple things i could say but if you want to continue this path on dating then listen to Tykwondoe one of the most experience but also one of the only guys that breaks down everything in game not many like him.

To be honest do both work on yourself and talk to her but up to you.

The bottom line is give it a try and talk honestly with her what you want out of an relationship from both point of views and communicate what you two want and make it clear. please just give it a go you got nothing to lose if you accepted that she is gone from your life. ?

Im not gonna lie i feel like she still really wants you now i dont know what happen recently but i feel like just everything you said that she change her requirements for dating because of you because she cant let you go but i dont know the situation but all i would say is try to talk to each other in person and just talk honestly. I know she is still dating other men but again like she said she has doubts or that she wants you or is missing you. Another thing is that you want her and you make that very clear. All i would say is that try to communicate better within the relationship and with each other. I know that it might seem lost but the sooner you act now the better the chances and if you need me to tell you i think she still wants you and you want her whats wrong with that.

@Leo Gura Appreciate the response i felt like i have done that quite a bit but never really got to understand how to find a way or to keep on going. Tbh i may have done it too much where like now i dont really know what to do where now i feel like i cant really think for myself cause maybe i dont really trust my self anymore i dont really how to explain it myself but i feel like ive tried a lot to make my life better and more meaningful but kinda just gave up on it. So im left like wtf am i doing right now and i dont know its like this weird feeling of nothing and hopelessness i know i shouldnt feel this or think it or believe but its kinda hows it been for a bit. To be honest even i dont know what im saying right now but yh just the feeling of lost bored and tiredness and regret and anger is what i feel for whats like been like a year or so something like that.

@Ajax To keep trying and failing but to not doubt everything about yourself and to not stop trying to find a way a problem that i have dealt with like all my life so it doesnt allow me to enjoy the journey and doesnt allow me to get started with other journeys and goals. To be honest i know this belief is a huge problem like a lot of beliefs that are in my mind every day so to be honest i feel like getting therapy will be the best solution i hope just to become more aware how much i sabotage myself i dont know where to start to understand what type of therapy i need but if anyone knows different types of therapy it appreciate if you can share with me some information and key factors to them.

With losing or trying and trying but you have no results (which is what i feel like with a lot of projects or learning and trying new things) i do feel i cant really figure how to keep on going and to fall into traps of not trying again or just not trying other things cause i know how differcult the journey would be and the same other results from the past . I do want keep trying and try to i guess experience things where it will need patience and trial and error for example of going like 0-80 or some shit with trying to get girls on discord (but to be fair discord is a very odd place is something i notice). My question would be how do i get rid of this pattern of thinking because i feel like thats been an issue when it comes to questioning myself and seeing the reason upon why it happens and how to get rid of it. I do think that it has been a problem for a long time and the best i can do patiently is learn things very slowly like what leo said about having passions that only grow slowly but continuous throughout a long period of time to understand it. This may have a link between my other forum post that i did couple of days ago about life purpose. Thanks for the time

With losing or trying and trying but you have no results (which is what i feel like with a lot of projects or learning and trying new things) i do feel i cant really figure how to keep on going and to fall into traps of not trying again or just not trying other things cause i know how differcult the journey would be and the same other results from the past . I do want keep trying and try to i guess experience things where it will need patience and trial and error for example of going like 0-80 or some shit with trying to get girls on discord (but to be fair discord is a very odd place is something i notice). My question would be how do i get rid of this pattern of thinking because i feel like thats been an issue when it comes to questioning myself and seeing the reason upon why it happens and how to get rid of it. I do think that it has been a problem for a long time and the best i can do patiently is learn things very slowly like what leo said about having passions that only grow slowly but continuous throughout a long period of time to understand it. This may have a link between my other forum post that i did couple of days ago about life purpose. Thanks for the time

@Michael569 apappreciate that