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I'm already starting to see through lie God has told itself. The whole bodymind seperation is a lie.

Gotta remember most of this chat is taking place during the sobre state of consciousness. Therefore it's a waste of time. The sobre state of consciousness is always going to be trash. There's too much ego nattering on in the background. Literally no voice in your head, no problem.

God can be self decieved. The body is a meta construction of sensation creating an illusion of a body and other bodies. It creates relativity and from there the never-ending story goes on.

@Inliytened1 If I'm just being it how can I control it lol. There's nobody in control. It's perfectly out of control. It's just happening, end of story.

@Endangered-EGO how bad did it get? What worked instead?

@Lauritz Bewer explain why I'm wrong?

The answers I've been getting are not satisfying at all and it's driving me crazy. Let's say right now I am in this kayak. Is this all that exists? Even if it's a movie projected on a cave wall. OR, can I zoom out from these movie and see other movies playing concurrently. Or is my perceptual bubble the whole universe? What I think is going on is what Leo says in the radical implications of oneness video. God experiences each life one at a time. One perceptual bubble at a time. Therefore this forum doesn't even exist. It's particularly hilarious because my current incarnation is a complete ?. This avatar is the furthest fucking thing from being God ?. And when I reincarnate it will still be this same perceptual bubble. It's so deeply beautiful, yet terrifying, yet the saddest shit ever. All God ever wanted was to imagine others. Why else go to such great lengths to imagine such a complex illusion? If there are other perceptual bubbles happening right now, that would be THE COOLEST SHIT EVER, and it would be literal heaven!

If this is a dream inside a dream inside a dream, then surely this could be a dreamed up story. And the next part of the story could be I start to think it's a simulation. Then maybe that would become true for me? But would the world actually physically change? That's the thing I'm not sure if I'm delusional but it always revolved around me. If I go meta on my childhood it was like endless good thing after another. All totally preposterous looking back. It truly does feel like I'm creating my own reality. But that's because all I really am is Love right? Perfect self-love. So either I can identify with what I am or I can resist it. This post was made from infinite love ?. Is that meta enough for ya? ?

I finally got it ??????????? Thank you for "The Universe Is A Dream" It's perfect, it's all so perfect ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ out of nothing

There never was an I ????

Or is reality so meta that everything works 'as if' it had rules. I so want this to become something bruh ?

This whole thing is just one big imaginary circle jerk. When I'm crying it's just God being a drama queen and bathing in cold love. Its disgusting in the very best way ?

Just thought I'd post something practical for people who want to enjoy the conveniences of living in a society but want to mostly sit around and enjoy life for what it actually is. The attachment to work is one of the biggest illusions. There really is no need to work. I work enough in my dreams as it is. During the day I want to meditate, eat, play my guitar (just for the sake of it), and maybe go outside for a walk. Life is experienced moment by moment. It's as simple as that. You can't be in every room in your house at once. So, the clinical trials. I know I'm an eternal being, this body really is just a meat vehicle and I'm seemingly looking out the windscreen. There's something poetic about whoring myself out to science. This cosmic joke is pure perfection. The level of meta and storytelling to get to this point in my life. It's all you need. It's done. It's perfect. There is no my or I btw. Just look at this whole post as a bit of entertainment. It was a enjoyable experience writing it and imagining there are others out there who could benefit from clinical trials idea. I'm only going to do it if I run out of money, I have close to $10k at the moment and it doesn't seem to be going down. God is good. Heaven is eternal. Your whole existence is literally made out of love. Thank you for reading.

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Let's say you quit playing PS2 at 15 then come back to it at 27. That's a pretty long 'time' you know (relatively speaking). You gave gaming a 12 year rest. If you live a full life without gaming again that's an 80 year rest. Ok so change of subject > Let's say you "hate existence". God's response: "No worries brah, have a 1000 year rest for all I care". And... your wish is granted ✨ You wake up feeling refreshed after your 1000 year sleep-sesh. Wait... No, never... Perhaps that's what you do 'every night'? ??? ¡¡¡TIME IS LITERALLY THAT IMAGINARY!!!

What happens when the ego fully breaks down

I can't stop thinking about this being eternal. Eternity without others. Nobody to confide in, just the vibrations matched with the appearance. Forever. Now I see why God never lets reality get too good. It's just fleeting appearance after another on the movie screen. And it never fucking ends. And who's gonna reply? Some AI characters who are an appearance on the movie screen. But God ignored this fact for decades? Why did it remember? Jim Newman is right, nobody would want this. Sadness is truer than happiness. The situation is fucking hopeless. Why did God even type this?

Thanks for the pearl jam track. Truly amazing

I can't stop crying at the beauty Thank you for this gift ❤️

All you can do is play your role. You'll know what the next step is ?

And this something seems elaborate as fuark. Seems to have a desire to express meaning. Lone, existential meaning. It's perfect? Yes, it's perfect.

Feeling has come back in my body. The me is definitely back. Not sure if I should be happy or sad ?. I feel relieved ngl.

The feeling where there's no difference between the world and your body which Leo talks about in his enlightenment livestream video. It's a relief to know I truly, truly, am not the body, so it doesn't really matter what happens for here on out. The weird thing is it just happened after vaping 0.03g of weed. I was meant to go out with my friends, but the contracted energy dissipated, then I noticed I couldn't get up even if the ego wanted to. Leo, any advice? It's been a couple days now and seems like a permanent change. This is totally horrifying for the ego to know it's been the wave the entire time instead of the one riding and directing and 'keeping itself safe'.

@Dazgwny Hahaha the whole situation is pretty funny ❤️

Am I close to awakening? Anyone who responds to this is me isn't it? But to be me I have to be living this exact life. To be you I have to be living your life. Its infinite imagination so the past lives are all remembered. Infinity is added to. One story after another. Is the memory another story? Hot or cold, am I getting closer?