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Non-dual bypassing is officially the best cope! I just saw this girl I went to school with has a new bf, pretty ugly guy tbh. I felt a pang of jealousy, then realized she is me, and the world is a dream. She never existed, nobody ever looked out from her eyes. Only I will get to enjoy existence. Nobody else. Another guy a while ago who used to bully me and beat me in a competition that I intensely wanted to win is another example. He's my most hated person. But guess what? He's just a dream character, a figment of my imagination. He never got to feel the sensations of winning. Only me. These feelings are reserved for me, always.

There's nobody to help. This is just a dream. Once you realize that you're already whole and complete all that's left to do is exist. Get nice and comfy and enjoy your lucidity.

I'm sorry but you haven't awoken to absolute solipsism. There are no 2 bubbles, that would be a duality. Leo has already beaten this topic to death. I already said in the previous comment that I live my life more morally than ever before. I was more of a devil pre-awakening and would always trying to make others feel jealous of me. Murdering somebody would be completely impossible for me, it would be much easier to take my own life because I'm curious what is waiting on the other side so to speak. Yep I'm thinking, I like thinking. I had a no-self awakening and did not enjoy the disappearance of the ego in the slightest. The ego is a blessing. And anyway, every night when I go to sleep I get to enjoy time without the ego. It's perfect. Maybe you can enlighten me what the root problem is? I'm happier/more content than ever purely existing. To me there is no problem and it does not seem such a "dark path". Where is the delusion exactly? I'm finally awake to the truth that everything is me.

Agree You are coping hard. Solipsism is real and much truer than fleeting emotions. I'm much happier in general since becoming aware of how much I suffered for illusory 'others'. My suffering has been reduced by 90%. My goal now is just to live a comfy existence until my next incarnation/memory-wipe. There is no problem my friend, I'm immortal. I've become directly aware experientially that my bubble of experience is the only thing that exists. All 'others' within it are simply dream characters. I know this logically as well, it just makes perfect sense compared with alternative ontologies. Solipsism is truly the only game in town. Why would it get me into trouble? Moral consequences still exist, so I would never hurt other people. I'm actually a more ethical person since realizing absolute solipsism, it's weird. I just have less ego, barely speak, and listen to people more. It's like I know they aren't listening to me, so I may as well keep my thoughts to myself and listen to them instead.

This is the only logical thing to do. There will be plenty of time to 'love' in your next incarnations. That's the genius of God's creation. While you are asleep you can go through the suffering/relief cycle which is desiring and fulfillment. The only motivation in slept life is finitude and fear of missing out. We are told "one day you'll die, and that's it" so we run around in a rush to experience everything, ignoring our own suffering because "it's only temporary". Once you realize your own immortality, suffering becomes a lot more serious. All the most horrible things you experienced you are now aware you will experience them again for eternity. The only thing left to do is avoid painful and traumatic experiences and bad trips. If there are positive facets I'm missing then they can be unveiled at the moment of my death. Until then, ignorance is bliss.

Kael you have the free will to say no to those things you hate. Just say no, it's easy. You are perpetuating your own suffering by doing activities that you hate. Quit that. Yes we have barely any free will, maybe none, but it takes no effort at all to say no to stuff. Give it a try, avoid your suffering in this lifetime.

Yep. I fear the mind of God. Fear will always exist. I already tried that before awakening. It doesn't work. I have social anxiety and it didn't matter how many girls I approached or how much socializing I did, the anxiety NEVER went away. Facing danger is idiotic, what if you end up disabled? Difficulty isn't fun at all either. School and college were difficult, working at a restaurant was difficult, the difficulty never goes away. Smarter to just avoid it altogether. I've never been so relaxed, care-free, and content since realizing life is a dream and to chill out and avoid suffering, pain, danger, difficulty. Cheers to that! Wrong. I'm finally free. Lol exactly. The purpose of life is whatever I want it to be. You don't know me. I'm suffering less than ever. Solipsism is whatever I make it to be. That's the beauty of reality. In my waking life I can enjoy being a victim and looked after and cared for, in my dreams I can be free from fear. It's the perfect balance.

Leo says again and again I fear death and losing my identity the most. Nah. What I fear is the dying process and the pain I'm gonna have to go through again and again for infinity. I fear coming back as someone who gets tortured. I fear pain even in this life, I quit all sports because I realized they were a form of suffering. My tolerance for pain now is super low. I fear sunburn, I fear intense cardio, I fear constipation and anal fissures. I fear these things because they are unpleasant and painful. All fears stem from fear of the pain itself. Even the feeling of embarrassment is painful. It's more subtle but it's still pain. Pain sucks. End of.

This is the ultimate mindfuck. How can something have always existed? If that is the case then the answer is yes. I'm just here doing the rounds.

That's a hypothetical question. You can't turn off existence so there's no point thinking what I would or wouldn't have a problem with.

I care what he says because he is like the only living human who tells the truth in this dream. It's weird when he's wrong about stuff, it makes me doubt all the things he's said which I haven't yet confirmed as true for myself.

If the concrete was bouncy that would be soooo depressing after a while. You'd get bored of the bouncy castle world and become suicidal but you wouldn't even be able to leap to your death. What a nightmare to be trapped in.

@Michael Jackson but the humans don't even exist so why suffer for them once you are aware of this?

Yeah honestly man, you don't want what you think you want.

@michaelcycle00 Not really. The joke is that none of this shit even matters and the orgasmic feeling you get from laughter - you ARE that feeling. Literally none of this fucking matters at all compared to a good laugh, and you'll be that eternally. You are the taste of chocolate. You are fun itself. In this life you go through unimaginable loss and suffering and at the same time it never even really happened. It's just 1 frame at a time pretending to be a whole universe. Once you realize this you can choose to decrease your suffering because you see nobody exists so why suffer more than necessary for dream characters? Solipsism is a great way to bypass everything until your next incarnation.

Hey imaginary Kael. All the limits are here for a reason. If you could fly it would be fun for like a month, then not so much. We have eternity to cope with so there needs to be actual stakes in this dream to keep it entertaining over the long term. When I awakened there was a few days where I wouldn't get tired, I didn't need to sleep and I could run infinitely. It was absolute hell. The only option which opened up was I could re-enact the film Forest Gump, but why would I? I want a normal life being cared for by people. If you want to change your life I'd recommend talking about this stuff with a trained professional, they'll give you a diagnosis of psychosis or whatever and you can get free money from the government and chill out while playing the victim. This isn't immoral, there's nobody here. My life is only bearable because I don't have to work and my parents look after me and I see therapists and can discuss spiritual ideas with them (they never listen btw, this forum is the only place that listens). Life isn't so bad, just try your best to minimize any suffering because joy doesn't really exist post-awakening and it's super fleeting anyway. My biggest advice is get comfortable playing the victim, it's the easiest role there is with zero responsibilities.

God doesn't give a shit about making others happy. I only ever made others happy for something in return. I only ever did stuff to impress people and make my parents love me so they wouldn't abandon me. It's all selfish. I've only ever been selfish. If you knew my life you'd know. I had the perfect childhood. Yes there was suffering but I only suffered for what I genuinely wanted at the time. To win competitions. To impress my friends. To be better than average but to be not so good that my parents expect too much from me. Im sorry Leo but God will never be selfless. God is intelligent enough to know there's nobody to care for. God knows the concept of selfishness is ridiculous. God knows it will always be alone. There's nobody to torture, or be tortured for. God doesn't want to cycle through the chain of being. God doesn't want to be an animal. God enjoys language and television too much. God would choose eternal recurrence over radical implications of oneness always. I'm sorry but it's too obvious, my life was chosen by God. I was always in control whether consciously or subconsciously. Holykael doesn't exist, he never suffered, he is just my entertainment. God likes playing the victim. Life is fucking fantastic, I get to suffer minimally all day long then enjoy the relief of getting into a warm bed for hours. Existence is as good as it could ever be. You guys will never understand because you don't exist. Leo's version of oneness is the ultimate goodness I agree but God is not good. God just wants to be safe.

Ego is part of God. God loves it's ego. Sleep is a rest from ego. Waking reality is where the ego can be enjoyed. It's all perfect.

@Holykael I find the Holykael partition of God to be rather refreshing. Straightforward and to the point, no bs, although a little negative, but I can get on board with hating on existence as it does suck 90% of the time. I really hope Leo is right about being able to bathe in infinite bliss once this life is over. If infinite love doesn't exist that's got to be the cruelest joke ever. Maybe you can have it but it gets old really quick, maybe existence is that terrible. I'm at the point where the best part of my day is bedtime. At least God can forget it's God, but that's where all the suffering takes place. Damned if you do, damned if you don't.

Kael read this thread it made me smile and I agree with a lot of what you are saying: In-between incarnations there is infinite bliss and you can reside there for an eternity, until you are ready to take on a form again. I don't know why Leo doesn't console people with this part of his teachings more often.

I made a thread called "here's why God won't experience everything" check it out: I reached the same conclusion as you that you get to choose your incarnations or atleast what happens in your incarnations. Do I know if I'm right? No I don't. I can only go by direct experience of my own life. If it's just me here and I'm God then it would be idiotic to subject myself to torture, but torture must always exist otherwise there would be missing dualities/fears. Really what you fear is infinity because it's infinite uncertainty and that is terrifying.

"on my own I go mental, I fall down a hole into the solipsism and nihilism" Later he says "my own solipsistic bubble". Perhaps everyone is waking up?

My bad, he doesn't say bubble he says "solipsistic self obsessiveness"

I had a dream that I'd turned in to a lightning bolt / pure electricity. Ego is the part of you that wants to say "look at me", "look how beautiful I am", "this is real, and I'm really doing this!" I burst out crying at this because ego just wants to impress. There's nobody out there to impress. Nothing is real. It blows my fucking mind.

Amazing insights