perrywinkle

I was wondering if anyone knew any good resources/speakers specifically for gay relationships, or is that even a thing?

I'm in college and usually the only time I really get to hang out with my friends is on the weekends. Problem is, the weekends are also the only time I have to be alone, rest, contemplate, and work on the art and music I'm passionate about. Although I love my friends, hanging out with them is often aimless, we kind of just mess around and drive to random places, eat fast food, go to the movies, dance, drink, etc. I don't want to become some antisocial loner who can't have fun, but at the same time if I don't pursue my personal creative projects (which I have long-term visions for), I feel like academia will suck the soul out of me. It also sucks because although I express this to them, I feel like they don't really understand where I'm coming from, and I don't want them to feel like I don't think they're worth spending time with. Also, although I'm not socially retarded, I'm aware being able to connect with people more deeply is something I need to work on. I've tried setting more rigid plans with them so that it's easier to manage both my personal and social life, however, these plans often fall apart and I feel guilty for making myself unavailable. Any advice on how to cope with needing to pursue personal goals, but also develop and maintain social skills/connections?