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LSD didn't distort any of my sensual perseptions. Vision was as it always looks like, sound sounded like it always sounds like, smell / taste was as usual, there where no hallucinations. But still, everything was so different.. Just the same stuff seen from another perspective.

it felt as though meaning is inherent in reality. Simply that. No reason, no because, no logic.

@flyingwhalee thank you sooo much for your really helpful comments and instructions. For my first trip I used your comment on my other post as guidence and I think it really helped my trip to become a good one. Especially the "loving intent" helped me to just open up and let myself fall into the experience. The steps you layed out here to continue my journey look like very good advice to me. For my next trip I will definitely take these as guidence. I will contemplate in my next trip what reality is made of (consciousness?) as you said. I think that there might still have been subtle concepts and rationalizations that I added on top of my direct experience in the first trip. One deep problem that I have with the trip is that I can literally NOT REMEMBER THE EXPERIENCE. Is this normal? It is due to the fact that the state of consciousness that I'm in right now is not capable of imagining the radically different state of consciousness I was in on LSD. Don't know how to explain it differently. Am I making sense? Is it normal to not be able to remember the experience? Isn't this a problem? I am even doubting weather or not I even HAD the experience simply because I can't remember it (although I obviously had it). It would be awesome if somebody could help me with this.

@Loving Radiance it felt as though meaning is inherent in reality. Reality was not just the "outside" world to speak from my everyday state of consciousness. Reality included my body and my thoughts.

143 eggs a day is too much.

@Lazertazer Thanks, that is good to know and honestly unbelievable. I mean my trip felt so fucking deep, I can't imagine how it could go even deeper. But I of course intellectually understand that you're probably right about that

Hey guys, Tomorrow I want to try psychedelics for the first time. I think I'll do it with mushrooms (I also have LSD but heard that mushrooms are better to start, what do you think?) Set: I consider myself to be an emotionally stable person, feeling good atm. I want to use psychedelics to find truth (if truth exists, don't know that yet), want to use tomorrow's trip to get started, get a first glimpse into what psychedelics could do for me / with me. Setting: My Appartment, Solo trip. Will buy food / water for the whole day tomorrow. What starting dose would you chose for the first trip? Should I take care of anything else, except food? Would you do mushrooms or acid? any other tips? Thx a lot for the help, I really appreciate it:)

@funkychunkymonkey thx for that tip, if you're interested I already wrote a trip report: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/72818-first-time-psychedelics-incredible-beauty-and-perfection/

@Tim R Thank you for that advice which really helps me:))

Happy to hear that:) Yes, the present moment felt utterly perfect, beautiful and complete

Why do you think it is NOT a good idea? God created the most perfect and beautiful thing it could. You don't like certain aspects of reality because they don't serve your personal agenda / survival. Then you call them bad/evil/suffering and wonder what is wrong with reality. Problem is not reality. Problem is the state of conciousness you look at it from. Become more concious and questions as the one you just asked won't even come up anymore. You will just see reality as it is. Perfect and beautiful. But for that you'll have to lose your self agenda.

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Hey guys, my trip ended and I'm utterly shocked. I mean, intellectually I kind of "knew" that before but no, I truly had no idea how radically 100ug LSD could change my state of conciousness, NO IDEA. The peak of my experience is not in any way speakable. Everything felt like pure beauty and pure perfection and I mean EVERYTHING. At the peak of my experience all concepts and all logic flew out of the window. Time flew out of the window, my idea of "who I am" flew out of the window. I looked at my hands and I looked at my toilet paper and I couldn't say that I am my hand and not the toilet paper. The toilet paper felt AS MEANINGFUL and AS ALIVE as my hand and there was no concept of myself anymore. I filmed myself during the experience and tried to speek into my camera. This is how I remember some of the things I experienced. The peak of the experience was so intense and so radically beyond my usual state of conciousness that my mind can't imagine it, I am even doubting weather or not this even was "real" or "even happened" During the trip I felt like I recieved the most perfect and beautiful gift one could recieve. That perfection and beauty was EVERYTHING there is. Yeah I know, doesn't make sense to the normal perspective. Unimaginable. I have no idea what to make of all this. I guess I'll need a while to integrate some of the lessons I learned today. The main lesson is: I am right now in a STATE OF CONCIOUSNESS. What I believed is "NORMAL REALITY" is simply a STATE OF CONCIOUSNESS. If I take some LSD or something changes my state of conciousness, everything I thought was "normal" and "understood" will fligh out the window. This trip was perfect in that I didn't pressure myself to reach some truth or get some meaningful insights but simply let the psychedelic show me what it could do with my everyday state of conciousness. For future sessions with LSD and other Psychedelics I think I'll be better of with making plans beforehead. Before future trips I plan to make plans on what I want to learn from my trip / discover within the trip. Questions I want to contemplate, etc. etc. If any of you guys have experiences with psychedelics and could give me some tips on how to integrate the "highest states" I'd really appreciate it. I can't even remember the peak really, because it was so utterly beyond anything I knew. No concepts, no words, pure beauty. What do I make of this? @Leo Gura @The0Self @flyingwhalee @Tim R @NoSelfSelf EDIT: I had ZERO visual distortions throughout the whole trip.

Hey guys, thanks for all your suggestions. Tomorrow I'll do my first psychedelic trip ever, 100ug LSD. Everything is prepared, I've got time tomorrow and the day afterwards. I have food for the whole day. I'm alone without distractions in my appartment. I'm optimistic and in a good mood. Lets see how it goes. I'll perhaps post an update with my experience after I've had it. Until then; peace out

@JohnnyAb Don't forget to read the book. Your doctor will be very closed minded to the idea of taking high amounts of D3. It's not what he has been taught when studying medicine, what today's doctors "know" about Vitamine D is largely outdated and not based on the newest discoveries/science on the vitamine. @undeather Sorry but you're simply being closed minded here. If you truly care about understanding D3 open your mind to the possibility that you don't know everything yet. Then read the book and eveluate it with healthy scepticism. I do NOT advise to take 100k IU. I just said you COULD. Before you do that though get an understanding about Vitamine D3 (not the outdated understanding from your doctor, but what actual science knows about D3). To get that understanding, read the book.

Great! Don't forget to read the book;) And please update us with further information when things get better / worse Cheers!

actually I'd disagree. Big picture will give you better grades, at least that was the case for me. Big picture understanding means knowing the world and systems you're moving inside of. If you know what systems you're using, what the general ideas behind them are and are having a broad understanding of how they work, your actions will be a lot more accurate and intelligent. This will then lead to better grades as well.

@Jacob Morres This is so fucking true I'm crying

@Zakaria Nice to see so young people here:) My advice for you would be not to see the grades in school as too important. Set a goal for you like having a good grade. But don't try to write the BEST grade possible. Ever heard of the 80/20 principle? This is what you have to apply when it comes to school. Trying to get the best grades will actually slower your personal growth cause you will waste too much time that way. Most of the stuff you learn in school is actually unimportant and you won't need it in the future. What I would try to do with school is, learn to see the big picture. In all the courses you have, try to see what the course is about and what the main ideas are. Try to get into the teachers / the systems head. What is the meaning behind what we learn here? What does the teacher / the school system actually want us to UNDERSTAND? (Understanding≠knowing. Knowledge isn't important these days. Schools tend to fetishize knowledge. Try to minimize the knowledge you need to remember and maximize your understanding. Understanding=knowing the purpose behind all the knowledge, how it all makes sense together and why it is important) If you see the big picture without getting caught up in the details you should be able to write good grades without wasting too much time learning for school. Study Leo's teachings - the old videos, not the new ones. They will enable you to get into big picture thinking and to learn some basics you need to learn to mature into a healthy adult. Merely watching Leo's old videos 1 vid or more every week will improve your ability to think big picture and over time improve your ability to understand how humans think / society works. This will help you in your school courses as well, at least it really helped me when I was back in school. Apart from that, I'd advise you to search for a hobby outside of school. Some sports where you can chill and have fun with ppl at your age 2-3 times a week. Also try to use chances life gives to you to try out new stuff. Try out relationship. Try out sex. Try out what it's like to party. Try out to make a presentation in front of your class. Try out whatever you can think of. This last part is actually a lot more important than getting good grades. Good grades won't help you in any way to live a good life. Most important thing is getting life experience. Hope this can help you. Wish you all the best, you have a great future in front of you. P.S. I had pretty good grades back in school without wasting too much time. If you want some personal advice from me feel free to send me a private message:) Lastly: I'd say that there is 1 important subject in school. You shouldn't miss out on having a good understanding of MATH. This actually will be pretty important for your future. Try to master school math. To get understanding search your topics on YouTube, there are great videos explaining it out there! Peace out:)

@ShardMare You could take up to 100.000 IU a day. Many doctors would advise against this, I'd advise you to do your own research. The following book is a must read, if you want a better understanding of your issues. https://www.amazon.com/dp/1491243821/ref=mp_s_a_1_2?dchild=1&keywords=vitamin+d3+book&qid=1633032519&sr=8-2 By the way, your spots could very well be cured by gaining healthy amounts of vitD but I can't go into detail with that you have to read the book. Get a blood test done, it's cheap. Check your D3 levels, ideal is 90-100. For most people they are way to low, around 20-30. After blood test take d3, for exact amounts DON'T listen to your doctor. They will advice you to take way to little D3. Read the book, you could go with 20.000-60.000 a day. Author takes 25.000 IU a DAY just to MAINTAIN healthy D3 levels. Good luck and cheers! EDIT: You should always take your VitD3 with K2. for 10.000IU D3 take 100ug K2 (MK7) EDIT 2: Also I would advise you to clearly communicate with your mother. You have a serious issue that stops you from functioning normally. This is not a joke, this is serious stuff. If she doesn't get it I'd advise you not to listen to her anymore and go out on your own to get your tests done/get your problem solved. Your mom is not responsible for telling you when you should work and when you shouldn't. You should be your own boss and decide on your own when to study and when to do other stuff.

He does not take it currently. Read the innitial post. He said that taking it solves is tiredness and energy problems but gives him some pain. This is a huge sign of defficiency.

Not necessarily the problem. I feel great without eating til the afternoon. In afternoon I eat 1 meal and that's it. To me from what I've read in the initial post it's clear that there is something going on with d3... which is extremely common by the way

I can almost guarantee you that you're D3 deficient. I'm currently reading a book about taking "high" amounts of D3 for improved health and life quality. The book said that pain after taking D3 is common if you're highly deficient. It is a sign of things in your body being "repaired" and the pain could last for several months till it fades. I'd highly advise you to study vitamin d3 and start taking it in combination with your K2 again.

@Leo Gura Weren't you the guy claiming to have masturbated like 20x a day when younger?xD

brother I feel very sorry for you...