Gregory1

You should not "convince" yourself. Just do things that feel good to you. Do things that make you feel amazing. Your feeling will show you that you deserve it. What feels great is great.

Sometimes happy (when I'm on drugs / psychedelics), sometimes not happy (when I'm not on drugs / psychedelics) Please don't take everything I say seriously, thanks guys:)

Take LSD. It's healthy.

@Gabith Well, 20-40 minutes are still very good! Any observations / anything you'd like to share about it? Keep me updated on how it goes for you!:) @Knowledge Hoarder Going strong luckily;) hope I can mantain it, shared my experience above. You are meditating 30 minutes a day? For how long are you doing it so far? Anything you have discovered from meditation / any improvements in your life?

Week #1 First of all, sorry for the late update. Unfortunately I got a 1 week ban last week, so I couldn't post anything until now. In the future I will always make my updates on Sunday, if possible. Now, lets see how the first week went... First of all, I will share my mediation structure. - the way how I structured my meditation this first week, and the way I plan to do it in the coming weeks and months. To complete 1 hour sits I used a nice tool @Consilience recommended to me. I split my 1 hour sits up in 6 consecutive 10 minute sessions. This makes the meditation more tasty and also helps you to deal with the time. Every 10 minutes you know at which time mark you are now. In each 10 minute-session I did slightly different observation techniques. The 6 sessions are: 1. Focus on the breath around the nose area without loosing track of the other sensations that happen around me (Concentration / Contraction practice) 2. Expanding my awareness / conciousness and make it as inclusive as possible, be open and spacious (Expansion) 3. Focus on my feelings, try to locate them in my body and feel them, without loosing track of other sensations (Concentration/Contraction oriented) 4. Again 1. 5. Again 2. 6. Again 3. but now try to feel gratitude and compassion for having made it so far and for having almost completed a 1 hour sit If you want to know how exactly to do it, look at the following guided meditation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BQ1VBz819HY&list=PLg9-4gMa3rESLGvlKdrjkIpnYK-LIttW4&ab_channel=EthanSchaltegger This is exactly how I did it / aimed to do it, and how I plan to do it in the coming weeks / months. Last structural thing: I always did my sits in the morning right after waking up. If I wouldn't do it that way I'm afraid that I might push it away from me til' the evening and maybe end up not doing it. First thing right after waking up. Before I share my insights from the first week, happy news first: I managed to complete a 1 hour sit every single day. 1 day I felt very very bad, that day I did a 40 minute sit in the morning and a 20 minute sit in the evening. Not as good as 1 hour straight, but still good. I am proud that I did it. Hope I'll continue that way. Insights (my subjective observations, not absolute truths in any way): From this first week I feel like it is important to be as determined and as rigorous as you possibly can in order to make progress. I had sessions where I wasted lots of time because I did not have enough intention and will power to stay concentrated. When I was focused and concentrated, time was used best. Concentration seems to be a key. In my sessions when I managed to stay concentrated and focused I felt like I was "making progress." It is very easy to get lost in thoughts and suddenly lose lots of time without even realizing it. After 5 minutes of being caught up in thoughts I suddenly realized: Oh shit, I got lost. However, when I managed to be focused it felt like the time was really being utilized. From my 1 hour sits I think there where maybe 5 minutes in avarage of good focus. That time was the important time. The 1 hour is necessary to get those five minutes. If I only meditated for 20 minutes I would have only gotten 1 minute maybe of good focus For good concentration and high will power / intention, a good posture seems to be important. I sat elevated on a pillow, straight back (as straight as possible) and legs crossed. This is important to stay alert and awake and to stay focused. Keeping that posture without moving for the 1 hour seems to be almost impossible. I allowed myself to move if I felt the need to do so. Sometimes pain arises and sometimes it just feels like keeping the posture is hurting in some places. This is why I sometimes changed the position of my legs, sometimes I even had to get up for a second or two because I couldn't sit any longer. However, I felt that movement of the body breaks my concentration. The less I moved my body around, the longer I could stay focused. However, I still allowed myself to move around because otherwise meditation would become too hard for now and I would simply quit doing it. It is important to be wise here. I want to establish a habit and I am just getting started. If it is too hard, I won't be able to pull it off Sometimes I got up to go to the toilet. This really felt like good entertainment because I was so little stimulated. Going to the toilet was very exciting - so many sensations... I feel like I sometimes abused going to the toilet as an excuse to make a break and stop doing the hard work of meditating. I plan to stop this behaviour. Toilet should happen before meditating and while I am meditating it should only happen if it is really necessary Sometimes (happened very rarely but still happend sometimes) short periods appeared where I could really enjoy the meditation. I felt spacious, I felt unaffected and I felt like the room in which everything appears. I think constantly being that „space“ could lead to very powerful experiences. Perhaps it could also enhance the experience of everyday life, because as that „space“ you are not affected by any apperance any longer. However, I only got this feeling very rarely and could never „hold onto it“ for any longer. I had no control over when it came or when it went away. Well, the more focused I was, the more likely I was to get it, that’s what I believe. Got my covid booster shot this week. After the booster I was mentally foggy. Meditation got really hard and it felt like it "didn't work" Chemicals and your health seem to greatly affect the ability to meditate. I believe that good sleep and good eating habits can improve the meditations. Also LSD-Microdosing greatly helped my Meditation session (did it two times). I don't think it is a bad thing to meditate with Microdosing occasionally because by getting help from the microdose, your brain sees new ways to meditate more effectively which it can then also use when it is not on a microdose anymore I realized that I suffer a lot. And I realized that I never suffer the present moment. I always suffer my imagination of the future/ my thoughts about the present moment and my addiction to control what happens. This seems to be a really important realization to me. It is literally true. I am very stressed sometimes, but never really because of what happens. My own imagination and my own thoughts about the future create the stress. Not sure how to solve that problem, hope it will get better in the long term with meditation Improvements in everyday life I noticed, that I could be "spacious/the observer" while playing table tennis. I am training/playing table tennis quite professionally for 5 years now and really felt an improvement. The more spacious I was, the easier it was to see the crucial points and to observe the important stuff. Also easier to not get emotional and play intelligently that way. However, that improvement was small, nothing grandious. No other improvements noticed so far That's my experience so far. Feel free to ask questions if you want to know something and also let me know what you think. I hope I can inspire some other people as well to do some meditation!:)

@vizual I am not homo you little pig. Nothing against homos, but I do not like it when stage blue poopheads spread misinformation about me.

@Khan 0 are you enlightened?

I am proud of you man. This is something not many people could do. Great achivement!

This is a great great point. Yes. Everything is you. Embarassment happens only when you're not aware of that. I had a period where I was pretty concious. I just looked at random people because I found myself beautiful. Other example: Very small children are never embarassed. They're not identified with anything yet, so what to be ashamed about:)

Leo, I love you.

Because words are never literal and always misleading. Words are empty and simply point to something that cannot be pointed to. You are the body and simalteneously you aren't the body. You are everything and simalteneously you are nothing. We're talking about the unspeakable here. Non duality. And now I have to shit. Thanks for appologizing my abecence

@Someone here have you tried it? Easier said than done, masturbation feels kind of good

Depends on your genetics. I personally am fine with 2-3 times a week.

His words are not to be understood literally.. nuance is asked here.

@Someone here just look at how they dress their women...

@Fearless_Bum happy to hear. Your risk of complications should be low then. Duration is about 1 week. I wish you good luck, hope you'll get better soon.

Do NOT do that. I just researched, huperzine is highly toxic if you take to much of it.

Same thought hahah. Most guys do it daily.

Are you vaxxed?

I hate islam. Islam suppresses and denys our humanity. However, it wouldn't exist if it didn't have an important role to play in society... It's the bridge frum brutal stage red into the beginnings of dogmatic stage blue in the arabic cultures... Of course there also are kernels of truth in islam... For good, Allah exists.

@Preety_India Which keyboard warriors are you talking about? I hope not about me because I didn't intend to hurt people or say anything that might be hurtful. However, I admit that I sometimes tend to say things without having thought a lot about them and sometimes I tend to enjoy it a bit when people get triggered. This is nothing I am proud about but also nothing I can easily change, working on it. If you feel hurt please tell me, it was not my intention to do so. I try to better myself. Nice Yt channel by the way:)

My body is my slave.

@RMQualtrough you don't know what you're talking about, lol.

Indian films are poop in my opinion.

The pain of living...