Anahata

You're welcome Follow your heart, there lies the key and that's where you find yourself. For a start, my recommendation would be to seriously get into Kundalini awakening practices. You can also find someone who knows what they're doing who can teach you and guide you through the process. Oh yes, I think I should mention this, psychedelics are a great aim when it comes to Kundalini play & awakening but please take care, be very careful with all this. Do tons of research beforehand and learn from the experienced ones. Always be very mindful and do not use psychedelics in unhealthy ways and don't do them if you have imbalances within your psyche. Also, a very important thing I should mention is to always take good care of 'set and settings' when it comes to entheogenic technologies. Bon voyages & happy Kundalini awakening hehe [Please note that I gave you these recommendations based solely on spontaneous intuitive thought, take it in consideration only if it resonates.] X

I suggest you to first start getting in actual control of what you focus your mind on, where your attention goes throughout the day and what emotion you're acting upon. Learn to choose consciously and deliberately what direction your mind is taking and you will get your hands on the wheel regarding what direction your whole life is going as well. Then, as you become 'your own boss' in regards to 'your dream', it all gets better, it's like in a lucid dream. Once you get in control by becoming more and more aware & awake, you finally start enjoying the surprises and 'easter eggs' that your cultivated surrender enables you to experience. To properly enjoy the spontaneity of life you have become your own master. That's when you're truly free. In order to surrender to 'the flow of life' you have to learn self-mastery first. Once you learn how to control it properly, then everything starts flowing smoothly & 'magically' and you get to actually relax and surrender. It's like driving a car. First, you have to master everything about how it works. The you're ready to go and enjoy the ride. That's when you truly get to enjoy the amazing, divine scenery that's in front of you. It's like walking. You are in control now, you know how to do it so you get to soak up the sun and admire the beauty and magnificence of the park as 'you' •walk the path•() as the walking 'happens by itself'. Feel the waves of bliss & "dance your dance". ❤

I suggest you to start by questioning and work on deprogramming your belief systems & all the programming that became the 'meaning glasses' through which you see yourself and the world. It's about truly seeing *that which is reading this text rn* for •what• you really are. Not •who• you've been programmed to believe you are. ?

'When I was a kid' = the experience Consciousness imagines/dreams up in the Now, which you categorize and label as the following --> a memory from childhood/smth that happened in the past. 'My dreams were very different' = A distinction being made between ---> this specific 'dream snippet' which you label as smth that happened some time ago, other than rn and The wholeness of 'this right now' that's being experienced as what appears to be a multitude of separate events --> 'your most recent dreams' which include what you call •what you dream at night while being asleep• & •the other ones which you label as waking life• Where is everything occuring? In Awareness. What is everything you're experiencing ? Awareness. Awareness/Consciousness/God You're dreaming the whole memory line into existence thus creating the 'appearance' of past, present & future. You are that powerful. All-powerful

Where is 'you recalling parts of your childhood' occuring? You are dreaming a specific experience into existence. 'Where' is it occuring? In the past? Or it's just 'this right now'? If it's not 'this right now', can you point to the actual past experience you had in your childhood? 'Whatever you imagine that felt more real than something else which 'felt' or currently seems less real' = this right now 'The clouds' are not separate from 'the sky' because you are whole and infinite.

Regarding some terms I see you using sometimes, to avoid getting lost in concepts and mental constructs, awareness 'should' not be referred to by using words such as "darkness" "blackness" "the light" etc. By using such terms you are implicitly assuming Consciousness to have some sort of quality which is reductionistic and misleading. Consciousness 'has' all qualitities and no quality at all. Boundless. Formless & form = same I suggest doing the work and going deeper within infinity, the Love You Are cannot be mistaken for anything else. But remember, the map is not the territory. Once you get it you get it. There will be no room for doubt regarding Consciousness being Infinite Love once you awaken to it. The absolute. Only direct experience will do, not trying to grasp it at the level of concept. I recommend doing some consciousness work for now. God bless

It's about awakening to Your true nature.

The absolute is what is actual, it is this right now. This right now is absolute infinity. Once it gets recognized as such, 'you' awaken to the fact that 'the one who' recognized it as such is in fact... itself. Not a conscious human/person/individual, but Consciousness itself/God. 'It' can also experience itself from the 'meaning glasses' of *thinking it's a person inside a universe* in the relative domain. Since God is Absolute Infinity, there is no authority external to itself to limit God's Will & power. You're all-powerful. Always. Since the absolute is not something other than this right now, You are omnipresent, all-knowing & 'akasha' itself. The Source of all 'relative truths'. The Truth. Consciousness has full access to infinite ways of experiencing itself. There is no limit. This means that any meaning can be manifested, God can will anything into existence, it can make 'life' mean anything. But where does anything come from? It does not come from somewhere else, which is why any 'relative domain' is actually The Absolute too. There is nothing else but the Absolute. But God is everything and no thing 'at the same time'. And there is no past, there is no future. There is just this. Now. The eternal now. No beginning no end. It has to include any 'relative dimensions of experience'. God is free to 'dance' to any 'tune' it wants for eternity. All-powerful Love. Oh bliss, so much love. So much love. Infinite love ?

The 'sea' of Presence has no 'sea' inside; The 'sea' of presence has no 'sea' outside. For outside and inside = You, which is oneness. The togetherness has been forever here. God is good. So good. So good. So much love... Pure Love Pure Love

It depends on how conscious you are. If you are very conscious/awake, you get high consciousness visions. These visions are like a mirror which reflects your level of consciousness. It's about what they mean to you, at the deepest level.

When a wound is bleeding you don't kiss it and tell it how amazing it is. You heal it. That's true gratitude, that's love. Much love & blessings ?

True gratitude is self love. You don't like the way your life feels like, turn it into 'paradise on earth'. You can do it. On all levels. Not just inner work. Let it be overflowing goodness in all areas of your life and see what you feel inclined to do then. Bless

There are no 'visions that are being perceived by someone'. A vision is Consciousness taking a certain form to be able to interact with itself. If you become conscious of what's behind your 'human self' you know that your human self is Consciousness as well and there is no form. It's direct. Form is made of Consciousness. There is no other substance. If you get a hat and wear it for a day can that hat be experienced as being separate from your direct/raw experience? What is a hat anyway? What if while being on DMT you feel like you have a hat over your head. Would you see 'the hat' as being separate from you? The whole experience of wearing a hat is not a hat. It's your direct experience. It's not,.. a body... a hat... a ceiling... a door.. a wall.. another wall... a table ... an eye.. another eye... a nose... lips... nails.. skin... The mind is creating distinctions and divisions within the same 'tapestry'. It's like listening to music. While you're having the experience of listening to your favorite tune, what does it feel like? 'Part 1, one second, some piano sounds, oh drums, here you go, ooh oh ..um.. I'm listening to 3 seconds of his voice, oh another second of his singing wow, wow another kind of vocals, they are softer this time, woaah trumpets.' Or The whole thing that's happening but experienced as a whole in awareness. The feelings that arise within you are not separate from the vocals that you're hearing, the shivers down your spine are not separate from the beat, the joy you're feeling is one with every other part of now, it's like a soup, it's oneness. The dancer, dance & music are one.

Boredom = Not liking/enjoying what's happening in the now. Think about it this way. I give you a plate full of different fruits. One of them has no taste, it tastes almost like water. You get bored. Why are you keep eating it? You are free to eat another fruit, why stop at what doesn't make you feel good? Now think about it this way. You are filling your time with what you do in your life. If you don't like what's happening why don't you start doing something else? Turn your life into something that brings you love and fulfillment. It's up to you. If it's raining outside you're not stuck, you're not a tree. Much love ❤

Not following your joy.

Truth

Another way of phrasing this ... Love is absolute. Once you get realized as God you will see that God and Love are the same = You.

Love is absolute.

"There is no free will" is a thought you're having. Do not mistake concepts derived from language for actuality. Think about dreaming without being lucid. Things happen, right? Well, what is creating the whole thing? Consciousness. Do you have 'what you call free will' while dreaming at night without being lucid? It's all about how conscious you are, right? Well, is it? Think about it. If you have a dream about being a bee you will start behaving according to what you think a bee would or should do, right? Yes and No. It's relative. You have never been a bee in 'waking life' so whatever you do is exactly what Consciousness conceives you being a bee to be like. What would the refference point be in this case? Infinity You might forget what a bee even look like and start morphing into a butterfly. Or you might change form on purpose. Why would you choose one particular 'avatar' over the other? Now think about getting lucid while dreaming, being in a lucid dream. Once you get lucid, you can choose to do anything you want. You feel free and fully aware. Right? So. I didn't say anything here, I'm just pointing at something.

There is no one 'incarnated on Earth'. There is no planet. There is no time, space or physical stuff, internet, stars or brains. There was no birth, you've never been a baby as you imagine you did. You being a baby at some point = what you imagine in your Mind right now to be the case. Investigate your conscious direct experience. There is no beginning & no end. You're creating a mental construction, imagining and believing it to be true in the sense that smth happened or began in the past. 'The thing' that 'incarnates' is an idea you're imagining in the Now. Even 'in the Now' is a fabrication. There is just the eternal 'this'. It never goes away, it never vanishes, it has never been born, it never died, it is always 'here' no matter what 'here' appears to be. Just 'this'. 'This' is what's aware and reading this text right now. Without 'this' there is no text, no screen, no experience. Hi there, 'This'! I am 'this' too and I am the same 'this' as you! Well, language is dualistic, look in your direct experience. ❤

Thank you love ❤ Happy to be here

There is no veil of perception in actuality, notice that there is no subjective experience that you're having right now,this is not happening to a person. It is direct. So you are in direct communication with yourself as God at all times. You didn't notice that Reality is conscious as you because you got immersed in the game of separation which is the perfect (imagined/dreamed up)'starting point' for God to be able to awaken to itself fully. What appears in Reality in the process of awakening is You guiding your way into becoming totally conscious of that which cannot be talked about(pointer->recognizing that Consciousness appearing as other beings in the Now is God and it is totally self aware). 'Others' are not something separate from what the present moment appears as. Their substance/fundamental nature is absoute truth. And absolute truth knows itself. Totally. The path of awakening leads to seeing 'others' as they really are which is what you are. Absolute truth. When you awaken to it you will realize that this has always been the case. Everything is in perfect unity with itself. You must work towards piercing through all your beliefs about Reality, to really see through the grand play that you're imagining right now. Your mind creates distinctions between stuff & you and other. It's a singular direct beingness.

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*Humans* = God appearing as such. If you awaken *they* are going to appear as what is actually the case. Which is God behaving as the whole *experience reel* of avatars but they are pure Consciousness interacting directly with You/itself. It's so personal that persons cease to appear as persons but it reaveals itself as your Consciousness interacting directly to itself. No one ever interacted with others but with yourself. They are One. They are freaking One Consciousness. No one is incarnated. You are doing this, you are not a human. They are not humans. It's One. The infinite One

Amen ❤