Harmine

It was probably not written about enlightenment but this song tremendously reminds me of my 5MeO-DMT experiences Move slowly through drowning waves, going away on a strange day And then everything is gone forever ... But this one... Dawn of light lying between a silence and sold sources Chased amid fusions of wonder In moments hardly seen forgotten Coloured in pastures of chance dancing leaves cast spells of challenge Amused but real in thought, we fled from the sea whole Dawn of thought transferred through moments of days undersearching earth Revealing corridors of time provoking memories Disjointed but with purpose Craving penetrations offer links with the self instructors sharp and tender love As we took to the air a picture of distance Dawn of our power we amuse redescending as fast as misused expression As only to teach love as to reveal passion chasing late into corners And we danced from the ocean Dawn of love sent within us colours of awakening among the many wont to follow Only tunes of a different age As the links span our endless caresses for the freedom of life everlasting Talk to the sunlight caller Soft summer mover distance mine Called out a tune but I never saw the face Heard but not replaced I ventured to talk but I never lost my place Cast out a spell rendered for the light of day Lost in lights array I ventured to see as the sound began to play What happened to this song we once knew so well Signed promise for moments caught within the spell I must have waited all my life for this Moment moment The future poised with the splendour just begun The light we were as one And crowded through the curtains of liquid into sun And for a moment when our world had filled the skies Magic turned our eyes To feast on the treasure set for our strange device What happened to wonders we once knew so well Did we forget what happened, surely we can tell We must have waited all our lives for this Moment moment moment Starlight movement Reasons Release forward Tallest rainbow Sun shower seasons Life flower reasons They move fast, they tell me But I just can't believe that I can feel it There's someone to tell you Amid the challenge we look around in unison with you Getting over overhanging trees, let them rape the forest Thoughts would send our fusion clearly to be home Getting over wars we do not mean, or so it seems so clearly Sheltered with our passion clearly to be home They move fast, they tell me But I just can't believe they really mean to There's someone to tell you And I just can't believe our song will leave you Skyline teacher Warland seeker Send out poison Cast iron leader And through the rhythm of moving slowly Sent through the rhythm work out the story Move over glory to sons of old fighters past Young Christians see it from the beginning Old people feel it, that's what they're saying Move over glory to sons of old fighters past They move fast, they tell me But I just can't believe they really mean to There's someone to tell you A course towards a universal season Getting over overhanging trees, let them rape the forest They might stand and leave them clearly to be home Getting over wars they do not mean, we charm the movement suffers Call out all our memories clearly to be home We've moved fast, we need love A part we offer is our only freedom What happened to this song we once knew so well Signed promise for moments caught within the spell We must have waited all our lives for this Moment moment Past present movers moments we'll process the future But only through Him we know Send flowered rainbows A piece apart chased flowers of the dark and lights of songs To follow and show all we feel for and know of Cast round You seekers of the truth aceepting that reason will relive And breathe and hope and chase and love For you and you and you

It sucks how our society puts so much pressure on the appearance of aging women especially women . Western cultures are really tough and inhuman to the elders while in other societies they are respected for their knowledge and experience . Considering your self confidence issues, I wish you the best, I would say old women can be beautiful even looking tired and all... I'm still young so I'm not thinking too much about it yet but indeed... everything is fleeting, nothing ever stays still...

Oh, I am sorry to read this how much did you do to get to the point to loosing consciousness / blacking out ? Maybe you had a very intense breaktrhough ego death experience but your mindset wasn't ready so your mind decided to black it out . From personal experience, long acting psychedelics such as Lysergamides are more helpful in the range of 20 to 200 micrograms, and non breakthrough doses with meditation intention and breathing exercices can be very useful . To me, LSD-like drug are too long to decently breakthrough easily, I had best results with short acting Tryptamines (DMT, DPT, 5 MeO DMT...) . I wish you to integrate this experience and in a sense, less is more with LSD and spirituality Don't guilt yourself, you did it, it's ok, you just learned a painful lesson

DPT The Dying Bird and the Light A week before, I had started to test very low doses of DPT in plug, then 30mg . Nothing abnormal with the very low doses, and the 30mg had directly put me in confidence, the experience had been intense, I felt extremely relaxed, euphoric and with a very marked effect on the mood and consciousness expansion . A few days later, I had to see a very good friend's house, she likes psychedelics too, We both took about 250mg of DPT orally and we slept together. I wouldn't have the words to describe it, it was magic, the impression of confusing our two bodies, but that's another story. The Trip I first weigh 25mg and snort it. Contrary to the oral route or the plug, the come up is quite brutal, my heart races a bit, my thoughts fly... I have an anxiety attack. One of these panic attacks as I lived thousands of them. I sit in a meditation position on the music of Klaus Schulze and decide to analyze each physical symptom, and to accept it. Yes my heart and breathing are particularly prominent in my perceptions, yes it is disturbing but it has happened to me so many times and I have always pulled myself out. As soon as this train of thought appears, the discomfort disappears and I find myself in a kind of psychedelic cocoon. Everything is beautiful, I am incredibly serene, I see rainbows with my eyes open and intense lights with my eyes closed, I meditate for an hour on the music and then I go to shower, cook and eat a small meal, always in this state that I would describe as similar to 1-1.5g of mushrooms, I felt absolutely no incapacity if I decided to move, but lying down remained the most comfortable. After this introduction, the night begins to fall so I sink into my comforter, prepare some music ( dub, psybiant, hightech, darkpsy) and weigh 100mg of DPT that I separate in two lines . After the first 50mg, the usual anxiety attack that I manage with even more ease than the first one. A bit like under DMT, my body is crossed by extremely pleasant electric sensations, I find erotic sensations while the psychedelic wave arrives. As the visions start to grow, I rush to smoke a big joint and then collapse in ecstasy under my comforter, still with music. I live then an incredible synthesis, my 5 senses seem to interact between them and with my room in a cosmic dance. I could spend pages and pages describing galleries of multicolored fractals, fantastic creatures like elves, spaceships of an incredibly sophisticated technology, monsters worthy of Lovecraft and architectures with Escher. I felt extremely serene, happy, my vital signs seemed normal and I told myself that if I had to be there, I might as well push myself to a possible breakthrough. Still feeling a bit scared about my heart and my epilepsy, I waited for an hour for the storm to pass and took 9mg of bromazepam. I weigh again between 100 and 150mg of DPT, and I smoke a very loaded joint. Besides the psychedelic Lovecraftian science fiction type of vision festival that is increasing, I definitely feel like dying. I don't feel like a human anymore, and I have a lot of physical sensations, I feel every heartbeat, every breath, every drop of blood in my veins or saliva in my mouth. I am no longer here, I feel like a dying bird, I see this bird on the verge of death, I have a bullet in my heart and the impression that my blood is spreading in a great whole, to return to dust, and to be a fertile ground for new life forms. I am not afraid. I am at peace, in total acceptance of what is happening to me and I feel strong waves of love. I come back to myself little by little, with my eyes closed, I see now roots, insects and all kinds of strange life forms, sometimes, more than a figure, it is a landscape that takes shape, always in a surrealist style. I spend the whole night slowly coming down and thinking. I think a lot about my impulsive personality, and my hedonism that pushes me to addiction as opposed to more demanding and longer term gratifications . I have the impression that there is a void in me that I have never been able to fill because I feel socially inadequate, weird and anxious with a low self-esteem. I tell myself that this feeling of strangeness towards the external and social world has closed doors for me, and that the more I isolate myself in comfort, the more I feel empty and need hedonistic pleasures. But even though I have a lot of shame and little self-esteem, people love me, they are there for me, they accept me, I want to spend more time with these people and I should make love and cuddle more often too ^^