I have had a similar path with youtube and film being my fantasy world. In the past, simply moralising myself with statements like "just don't do it because LP and grinding and be a good boy" or whatever would keep me off it for long periods, but whenever I got into phases of existential fear from spiritual growth all those self imposed rules would fly out the window and I would dive right back into old habits. So I try not to work with shoulds and shouldn'ts anymore. I now let myself indulge when I feel like indulging, but combine it with a small visualisation excercise of foresight. When I can imagine embedding a day of watching movies into the dream structure of the next 10 years, without really damaging my long term trajectory, I go for it, and if the idea of it seems so gut wrenchenly forced and out of place, I will be intrinsically motivated to keep grinding at my purpose instead. For me, guilt only comes around after slipping into extended phases of shortsightedness.
