Applegarden8

I am making this post since I couldn't find a good source of advice and I have literally nobody to ask, so I became back to this place. I have decided to become a public person. That means I will share pretty vulnerable stuff, mostly musicianship/"how and why to be an artist" related, in a format of video essays that I have contemplated and fermented over a period of time and can be a subject to anybody self-reflection, meaning anything I share has weight to impact somebody listening. And I feel I have something to say, but I am always quiet about it. That means becoming vulnerable to anybody I know personally and on the internet. What is your advice on being a public person, who has some audience who trusts you, how do you deal with attachment to fame and haters and so on? Do you have any good sources on it? I feel that this decision will ultimately benefit me as I see there are people around me that want to enter my life and hear what I have to say. People recognize me in where I live that I live differently and that I do music and they start singing for some reason when they see me. I have received hate for being truly who I am when I show it. I feel I already have that polarizing effect that some people with orders of magnitude larger audience and recognition have, so why not just to open up and really expand. I feel responsibility to share rather to criticize somebody else. I feel the values I hold and my way of explaining or even merely sharing my empirical experience will greatly benefit a handful of people at least. Thank you.

Damn, I don't have a very good quality product. I have types of product that I think are good, however nothing that really stands out. And I feel whatever products I have there is something better, so nothing amazing.

Thank you, I want to be smart about it and set up a good foundation, so I have a lot of work to do even to begin.

@Emerald @Leo Gura @Yimpa @puporing Thank you for giving your valuable ideas and insights. Right now as I am refining the content I am going to share, I have some time to think about these topics.

Nonono, we didn't guess the correct advice he wants to hear. My bad. Our bad. Doesn't matter if it's rooted in reality or not.

Why did I even come back to this forum... I gave you not just this suggestion. I gave you something that I would my self do, because maybe that's the only best thing IN A WHILE i will get. If you are scared of dying then move to heaven. You may or may not know why the guy got his spleen removed. You didn't see his diagnosis or didn't live his life. That could be one of the options why he got. Are you ready to receive and implement any advice that you are asking? Sounds like being homeless is no big deal to you and you could waste time arguing here at the cost of you being homeless. Then leave the forum, what's the problem? Why to ask at all? "My gut hurts, it must be cancer. It's toxic because I believe it and project it into the rest of my life." Bro you don't know if I will or you will live tomorrow. And a fucking invisible virus can kill you or invisible toxins in your tap water. What are you arguing about? Are you trolling? Ok, search for other things instead of that kiosk, stop wasting time here.

Once again. Please, evaluate the following. Being homeless will ruin your life anyway. Due to lack of hygiene, rodents where you sleep, bad habits like alcohol and drugs if you start coping with them. Bad people on the street who can rob and stab you, policeman and property guards who beat you if you sleep in the wrong public place or property like a store or a bench can ruin your life. No funds for your own personal healthcare and lack of work guarantees for health will ruin your health and definitely mental health. Irregular meals and no choice of your food habits will ruin your life. What if you start smoking yourself because you just give up. Think about this in the contrast of having some kind of autonomy by having your own income, space to reflect and implement something even while working in a "fucked up" environment. I was exposed to a lot of passive smoking, so what, it's really not that bad. Can you get cancer from that, probably, but whataboutism is a waste of time when you need to make choices that can fundementally save you from a lifetime of complete poverty and misery. These are the few bucks you might really need. If you have those bucks, why are you not renting. I can only help you if you are open to be helped. I am again sorry for your situation. Peace. Applegarden.

I have tought quite a bit about getting homeless. Do you have a red cross in your country? You can stay there for some time or for a very low payment, can you? You should look for such options Do you have friends that you can couch surf? Don't be afraid to ask, what do you have to lose, you will find out who your actual friends are. You will have internet access to look for job and some time to look for it. The jobs you found may be toxic, but please, consider taking them. Pollution is not an excuse for gettingva 6 month stable income and finding a apartment to rent. You can survive that. What is the alternative I may ask you? You can substitute that work for something better you may find. But after probation period do you get some health guarantees and stuff? Also I would disown and cut all contact with my family if they did this to you. I would treat them as a stranger if I came out of this situation well. But it's up to you. Also doing bottle deposits and stuff like that is an option to generate some income. Church staff can also guide you. Are there unemployed courses or guarantees people can recieve? I don't wish anybody to have this situation and I have been very fortunate in this regard, however that may change on the second part of my life as I will have literally nobody, but by that time I hope I will be reflecting enough that I don't care wether I am alive or not.

Then leave once for all. All this SD bullshit discussion is about nothing. We are just throwing poop at each other. There is nothing of substance going on...

and you are waiting to disagree with me which proves my point. A "nice guy" won't challenge you. I am a nice guy in real life and I laugh (internally) at the doormat treatment I sometimes receive.

I will never stop laughing at this kind of "self development" which arrives at absolutely nothing.

Authenticity and not being boring

@Schizophonia we will appoint you.

Tip. Don't have 10k + posts unless you are Leo. Don't play a serial victim, make multiple accounts to reply to your own posts, become unbearable, get banned and make more accounts and keep playing the victim and being here aginst the forum guidelines. Then you have a chance to grow.

Watching these videos make me genuinely desire and think to approach women, I think a lot of guys need to watch this if you feel like family values and companionship is for you. But the problem is that my desires for something else are stronger, so maybe it's not for me. But it will help you if you watch how to get laid series, as corny as it sounds. I think it's good analysis of the current dating environment and male psyche.

If you have erectile dysfunction, doesn’t it mean you are on the way on heart problems and you need to consider that? Then, how often can you use it?

There are some fake profiles in different degrees and it's not being moderated unfortunately. There are people who use two accounts to reply to themselves. This is nothing in comparison.

You know, I sometimes really think so. You have the freedom to contemplate the luxury of sielence and the potential to change your life in a big way.

Isn't it paradoxical that seemingly logical, rational and moral people do the opposite of these three things all the time. Life is not something you can put into a box of rationality. I am happy that I got that some time ago.

Maybe you prefer Nithyananda instead? Want to spend some time to talk about akashik readings maybe?

Maybe it's that gurubhakti tradition has always worked. Idk.

I will show you the Guru and you can go to his Ahshram, you just need a plane ticket. Will you drop everything and go? He is very effective.

And it will be a video about nothing. Just like me speaking about Kardashev's type civilization 3. It's pure speculation.

All of this is my honest opinion, as honest as I can be. I am sorry, it will be hurtful, but I will say it. I will tell you why it bothers me. And it really does, it pains me to see. It shows to me that personal development mostly is bullshit and talk, obsession about nothing tangible, based on what I see you expressing on this forum. It's micromanaging a mental diarrhea. Maybe I should stop posting instead. I have been a fool. My reply to your topic will have no impact whatsoever. Nothing will be refined, improved or developed. Spiritual practice is the most practical self-development I have known and Leo has built a brand on it to help people with it. What I found in google: "Personal development or self-improvement consists of activities that develop a person's capabilities and potential, build human capital, facilitate employability, enhance quality of life, and facilitate the realization of dreams and aspirations." Now, you probably would argue why I am incorrect and so on, so forth. And here we are, ten thousand posts later. Was a single technique implemented, diet adopted, unusual challenge accepted, life purpose looked or was there any seeking? I don't know, only you truly and honestly know. I just sincerely hope you realize to stop, and I hope that your quality of life improves from what you are facing. The worst thing is that people will also think what you are discussing (and I mean the content of 10000 posts) is self-development. But after thousands of posts, what has really worked? If you want to hang out, hang out, chat, discuss, but don't tell me this is personal development.

I will get warning points if I say this, but I will. I think you are @Tyler Robinson and @Preety_India. Spiritual practice (any form) is what you can always do, even if you are poor.