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Hey man, wishing the strength! I am on vacation and I have a lot I would like to do musically. The only problem really what I had was computer games. I have spent a lot of time in there. Even now sometimes I can spent 12 hours without eating to script a warcraft III custom map, but somehow I have to teak breaks or cheese doing music and I only somehow do it while being frustrated. And all of the work I have done in the past 3 years is to get in place to do music. I can't forget that. Music is what I want to do, otherwise I am just always coping after a working day. And about judgemental people. I have a few neighbohrs who judge me for not having what they have or not doing anything. I don't want to have children for example. Somehow their brain just freezes and they can't self reflect, but end up projecting to others. Well, at least I have ability to self-reflect and you have too! It maybe not seem like it but it's all you need to live a wonderful life. You have ability for self-alignment. Otherwise you will be like those judgemental people where it's their routine and entertainment to care and expose whatever gossip to you like a hyena. They have the brain rot not you. You have the ability to enjoy life without anything acctually. Meanwhile they have all these things they supposedly wanted (somebody else told that they should have it) and yet they are sitting and thinking about me who doesn't have it. Strange, isn't it, what does freedom mean then. The most popular insult they will give is that you are idiot/stupid. And my response is why is it bad to be an idiot or stupid? It's not illegal and it's not even. Ad, because you are self-honest. They are just high on ideology which makes them guilty in the entirety of their life. Sorry for my pep talk. Good luck!

Yeah, it was my tranquilizer for a long time to cope with what was happening at the time. BUT! It promotes pretty intense levels of creativity and problem solving, especially in creating games with good mechanics, good stories and way of telling them. There are still good games versus bad games. The problem is they are a coping mechanism. But so is making kids, running a business or whatever the most "purposeful" thing you can think of in the realm of doing and having. It's just that some delusions seem to be better than others or just more popular and accepted in society? Huh...

Up to you, it's just pros and cons at the end of the day. I assume You can embrace and master either, but it requires different approaches and skills.

I would vote for Biden because of the principles of his campaign. Trump just points fingers at somebody else, makes impossible claims and blatantly lies.

From some my neighbors I hear gossip and passive aggressive abuse which is literally hate. I am not talking about anything less, that I don't care about. I live in quite conservative country. If you don't strive for what they strive like family etc. you get a lot of "what are you doing" and "why are you doing nothing" that "you are just not grown up", tell me, just curious, is that not hate?

Yeah, I plan to do that. Completely on my own. Will see how it goes. I get hate for that though for some reason.

When you do sadhana, you are increasing the speed at which you digest your karma. Life starts happening quicker and the things you would normally change after 10 years you will change in one. The Negative is that you will go trough a lot a lust and it's acctually hard to pinpoint how to deal with it. There are techniques for sure, one example is to keep doing sadhana which stimulates your vishuddi, anja or sahasrara chakra. Then your lust doesn't just build up and get trapped and find expression in the ways you have known before but to experience distance between you and the body so that you are energetic, yet lighter and in restful awareness so that you don't feel you have to go into some lust to feel some moments of bliss. In reality this rarely goes perfectly, so some abstinence and struggle is needed as our society is largely built on exploiting your needs and pleasures.

No. Leo has modeled and implemented principles in his life that allow him to see the truth at the level he does.

Let's acctually think about it: The idea of the ownership of the other Have you heard conservative people using this as an insult that they can and will fuck your wife or that other dudes probably fuck your wife or whatever. I think they associate that being one of the worst things happening to them because of their masculine identity that it's an insult to them if they fail in this area. Emotions and Expectations Sex creates emotional connection and your mind starts to identify and associate with other people much more intensely. We are unable to manage (due to lack of self discovery) our emotions to a large extent and this could be the catalyst to be even more fantasy, pleasure driven life where of course you will make blunders. Lack of understanding about human sexuality due to repression and exploitation of the human sexuality People don't talk about it. Isn't it interesting? Maybe some progressives do, but how much backlash they are getting is also very interesting. Same as being gay, people will endlessly criticize those people and will never accept them, but the reason is literally invisible! How about that, hahaha. Addiction Well, trying to solve life's existential problems trough the same action. It has not worked and will never work. One is easier I think managing one relationship is much more inclusive and if you communicate well, you will probably be sexually satisfied. To manage multiple people is ALWAYS harder because they have to cross communicate and naturally their own negativities and assumptions will be a part of that, which will needs constant clarification. Function of sex Is to do it once to create children, just keep that in mind whoever you do it with, if at all. You are doing it for sport or entertainment, that is something else... nothing wrong with it, or is it? Up to you to discover... Now rubbing it off with someone else's wife is nothing that wrong technically, but it's pretty unwise to do since you will not be able to deal with the emotional drawbacks and the people around you definitely won't be able to process it. I think I takes intelligence to be a successfully cuck ironically. If you can manage that I think it's amazing, but in reality it never really happens. Whatever you do, do your sadhana first.

Somewhere around 6 months on no-relapse. Bootsts your meditation gains. Gives confidence to change your life. Feel less dependant on women and relationships. Planning on never doing it again.

The solution is 20 years of some form of kriya yoga, dhyana or tantra based meditation practice, practiced regularly.

Dangerous assumption as we are yet to know our potential while being heavily repressed ideologically and financially. Though you are more likely to fail, yes.

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if she does a musical project with me over a long period of time I will try my best to do that

Go spend some time outdoors everyday. Don't jerk off. Do something creative that you enjoy doing. Meditate to the extent you are able to. Do some physical activities. Connect to some people that you can talk with from time to time. Spend time accepting that they can't accept you for who you are. Don't be to overly suspicious of them also. There is a possibility that they are reflecting also and what they think might not be what you think they think.

Buy a house in a city and become a full time musician and audio engineer.

Even "proven" advice can damage you. Because of the vaeguness of the study wrong conclusions of the study or deliberate bias of the study. Even if the proven advice is good, you can still abuse it. How many people know what is their problem in their behavior and still abuse themselves. On the contrary. Internet advice has helped my life. Advice from books that is not even scientific has helped me, although there is a risk for taking that advice. Leo's advice has helped me, that is why I am here. And I am pretty sure I have taken some advices on the forum over the years, but I can't recall any at the moment. But generally your point is correct. I am very unlikely to absorb and internalize any other point than to project my own which is what everyone does.

I am good, thank you. BTW it's the way you wrote is shaming him (and no, you just didn't only ask a question) and that's moronic to do, as if you do shame him, he will not be so likely open to new perspectives. Why can't you think of yourself is an insult when obviously person can't control his sexual desire and this is a tabu subject in society. If you connect these things, it becomes more evident. I am having a sense of humility, I don’t have a problem saying sorry if I offended you, but I think it's moronic. That's all. Where did I expressed that my advice is an absolute truth? BTW, I can get angry when I want and it's my business, because I want to be stupid too sometimes. "Nothing you say he will do or work for him" Maybe that's a projection of the summary of conclusions you have drawn about the advice you have given. I don't have such conclusions.

I could send you over some past life regression sources I have found. I have not tried it my self but I have been edging this concept. Regarding the dreams, if you had similar events as the fears you are re-dreaming, like if you forgot something (particular thing) in your life and it really sucked and you are from time to time dreaming that you forgot and experience the fear of forgetting in different scenarios, I think it's 100 % from this life, however. I have at least one dream experience that is not related to any particular event in my life and it happened when I was very young, but then it stopped. I series of dreams of missing unconnected series of stairs where I couldn't go up and down. While reflecting on that I see that there is more to it than a re-occouring fear, but I am yet to dig into it further. It feels more like a dark night of the soul experience that I lost the connection with life and what I want to do with taking this birth. From the comtemporary Gurus I listen to Osho and Nithyananda were the only two whom I know that gave techniques for recalling past lives for people who are not enlightened. Maybe the Sanskrit Channel on YouTube also has some info on that. Every spiritual master who has talked about this topic have in some way expressed that upon enlightenment you know all your past lives. From their perspective the problem is that we are very affected by the karmas of this life. Remembering how we died and lived could make it worse. Some gurus also say that past lives are of no significance to you like Sadhguru for example, but other gurus do not say that. I would also be very interested to find out some of the details of my past lives as I think it's acctually powerful and it acctually could free your cognition from the conditioning of society. Now, that would be dangerous for the current form of governance though, haha.

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do you have any music?

You are a moron (i know what I will get warning points). Stop insulting people. Guilt will not help and your gaslighing for sure will not help him, this is very irresponsible and sounds like you have to do some reflection on this topic as well to stop shaming other people for asking!!! If someone should stop posting on here it's you. Now, the actual reply from my experience: Neither I do any sex with women, so how to deal with it? There is no short-term solution for you to stop masturbating just like that. Many people will say that it’s normal, some will say it's not, it's up to you, I think it's not normal because it messes with your perception of the world/reality and most of your life energy will be spent fantasizing about the opposite sex and desperation, defeat and loneliness of never getting any. If you stop doing (i haven't done for a few months now), I feel more mentally and emotionally alone, I can enjoy my company a lot more and my meditation is just more intense and I feel more grounded and active physically. Now, to get from the place I did do it a few times a week to not do it at all, you have to find YOUR reason. Mine was that a guru told me that I took this birth with certain desires, overenjoying some pleasure alters the outcome of your initial desires and what you acctually want to express does NOT express in this lifetime. So it just clicked something within me and it made me stop. I still have cravings, but I will just never touch it, because there is no point. I don't want to venture into this mental/emotional instability and fantasy for no gain. I can live without it, and much better. Also I underestand that I will not have it all. I will have some things like maybe a spouse, maybe a career, maybe a music career, or maybe I will be a yogi and I will have nothing else or any single of these things. I rather adapt to any one thing as I have to survive at the end of the day and I will not have it all. And it's fine, maybe life is about something totally different than what I have. Quitting sexuality (and I have not quit it, i just don't fap) is #2 hardest thing for a human being and I think the #1 is food addiction, meaning that for your whole life you will eat some foods that are bad for you, can't quut them and because of that you can't be healthy, energetic and can't reach a certain intensity in your meditation and never reach anywhere. Practical solution could be practicing some form of kriya yoga like Isha kriya by sadhguru, doing some strong determination sitting if it helps for you or practicing intent and visualization of either "I want to have a girlfriend in my life" or "I want to get rid of my sexual fantasies and transform some aspect of my life" this regular practicing of wanting your desires will inspire you to act towards what you want.

What about just having a functional anti virus software and keeping windows 10? For everything worth stealing in companies, isn't there like a remote desktop or local server kind of thing going on?

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