Applegarden8

Let's go then.

It cannot be. It's a product. You can obly use it to the extent that you can and try to.

Guys, guys. Let me tell you a motivational speech. I know life gets hard, and you feel like its time to rub one out. But not rubbing one out can make you the hardest guy on the planet. Those round cheeks though, that beautiful voice, especially when she is singing. The beautiful hair she has, the quality of softness a woman has, the maternal instincs she has. The emotional connection you can have. All of that is beautiful, but you may not even need it. But if you are young, sexuality is something you are fighing with, me too. If you do rub one out, at least really go into it and enjoy it, don't hurry too much, you know.

absolute open mindedness is total inner sielence

Don't worry. I also got rejected, because i am too slow. Or too autistic that I only want to focus on music. I don't care acctually. I am a hermit. I don't want a relationship, it will definately make me slow on doing the things I really want to do. It may not be the same for you, but don't go too hard on yourself. If you want, get better at it, if you don't, let it go.

First of all you are not those unfortunate people (like your bullies) who project their insecurities and fear of getting rejected. Because they absolutely get rejected. And mald over it.

Cool man, i am very happy for you!

Other pursuits in life, especially for hardcore spiritual people, very creative people or people that just view life differently or are on the spectrum.

Has general body/neck stretch or yoga helped you, does humming hurt? I would try to hum very softly for like 15 minutes a day and see if it helps. If that didn't help i would try to honey fast for a week. I know, quite extreme. Hope you will find a solution.

Long story short; to pay the bills.

A good man contemplates his answers before replying to topics on forums. Def not what I do. Basically any time when there is a "real man" discussion, i want to answer i am neither a good or real man, because i feel this is a pointless discussion to have and is a "only you have to think how to improve, not me".

I am an unhealthy man. I am a hermit. I don't give a shit about pretty much anyone but me. This is a truth most of us live in. Regardless of gender.

Can you recall your past lives?

Greetings, Ever since I have found and implemented some spiritual practices in my life, I have developed a pattern. One suffering comes my way, I will close up and reflect on it. It will take time energy to chew it, but I will always come blissfull on top of it, at the end of the day. I feel like my life is on fast forward. I am in a sea of desires and fears, so persistent, so large, yet so temporary and nonexistent. I underestand how to play with desire and fear a bit, mainly to relieve myself from them when needed. Yet, everything feels so intense, agitations become so amplified as well as pleasures. On top of that, whatever I experience, there is a layer of bliss behind it, but the feelings feel very real aswell, but not as real as they used to feel. It feels like I am on to something. But I have to keep going further. I also feel that mt values drift away further and further from the people I see everyday. But I trust myself more and more. I underestand more and more experientially that suffering is not your nature. I am very tempted to go deeper, to go to some point of no return. I want to do a vipassana retreat or a practice like that. I want to really get along with physical, emotional pain and existential dread. I want to experience the common beliefs society has (which pushes and pulls you to do certain things) for what they are. Outside nothing much has to change, but internally it would be a catasrophic difference. I want to establish a system or pattern of actions or way of being that just works. Your praise or blame does not affect it. Just living for it's sake is enough. It's acctually incomperhandable that reality exists. I don't want to be the bundle of toughts and emotions and think I am something great, I do not resonate with these ideas. Maybe it sounds egostic, but my whole life is egoistic. Living to justify my existence. That i am or am not something and that I do something ot the latter. Or to do what you do or to strive what you are striving for. I am married to my practice. It's all I want to do, there is nothing better to do after your survival needs have been met. My biggest wish for my life is to give me the highest freedom it can give. And here I am. It goes very deep guys. Your life will change with this. Hopefully for the better. There are things you will find on the way which I can't really talk about, and I am not even there yet. But I can be more intuitive, blissfull. Developed more trust in yourself and the world. Your life is less personal. Your past suffering doesn't mean basically anything to you. You have a reliable mechanism to relax and fight your depressions. Simple things feel more genuine. You feel a bit more romantic about death, and there is generally less fear about it. And you will for sure KNOW that you are something different (distinctly) than the body, mind or personality that you think you are. You will become more sielent, more self-sufficient. Less materialistic and more loving (most people.) Anger and boredom will reduce drastically, but you will feel it many times. It is also dangerous as you are flirting with solipsism. Your meanings and life-purpose will suffer, your relationships and sense of sekf worth will suffer. But these things anyway are a sinking ship. Better to come out earlier than later. Also you can go trough terrible experiences in being in cults etc. be careful of those. I almost went to India at one point. If you go alone and do it somewhat right, you will go very far. You can basically forget about what your peers are struggling (at least internally). The more you will grow the more you can grow and more possibilities are open to you. This means complete self-transformation in some sense. I see this is possible in a lifetime. I wish you to live abd become smarter and happier, leading to an ecstatic death experience as your last one. Best of luck.

time to become breatharian guys

Sigma? Male? We only give greek alphabet names for analytical equipment and some concepts in math and physics and that kind of stuff.

It is not. I see we have a little disagreement. Let's have debate, vote and prepare 100 page document for world health organization for review.

Reality, basically.

Gigachad, take it as a compliment and don't take it too personally I guess.

I am so much of a narcissist that I don't think my narcissism can be measured by any method invented as of now, so I refuse to take this test.

Ok, Leo, so can you delete @Applegarden. I forgot my password to that one, so therefore I made this one. Or maybe you could delete @Applegarden8 aswell, just as a farewell. I am ok if you ban me for good, just please, delete my accounts. Thanks.

I found the Leo's colour model on peoples mental states very entertaining. I just lost him after this comment.

Metal is not the greatest form of music my guy. I will do you a service and provide everything but tharsh and dm.