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I am year into not beating my meat. The urge for sexual pleasure has drastically reduced. :) I wonder what will happen on 10 years time, because I am not planning to ever beat my meat ever again.

@Davino since you listen to Nithyananda, what kind of kundalini yoga you do? Have you done Nithyananda yoga? From Nithyananda I have really benefited from akashik readings, third eye meditation, completion process and I enjoy his older satsangs on Kapila’s teachings, baghvad gita, vedic scriptures, shiva sutras etc., but I never did Nithyanada yoga. Only yoga I have ever done is Sadhguru's upa yoga and it does it's job to keep you sharp and lubricated (it's only 20 mins) and I have done Isha kriya for few months. I rather prefer Nithyananda's kriya yoga (yoga related to mind like shadow work not with asanas) and self-reflection techniques than one's presented by Sadhguru, but I never really got into Hatha yoga. Following Sadhguru is totally fine too as he will bring you Mukthi in my opinion and if you learn his yoga, you will live a great life also. There are other gurus like Sri M, Mooji, Osho who have their derivatives of the teachings, but I don't think any of them teach yoga publicly, especially kundalini yoga. It's almost like a taboo. I also don't know any people who have practiced kundalini yoga.

Save it for future medical expenses if you are in USA. I would spend like 2k for something like a travel or retreat or just take vacation and do a retreat in your home, if you feel you are mentally able to. If you can't, do therapy.

I work in a QC lab in pharma industry.

There has always been Nada Yoga, chanting and singing mantras, asanas and sutras before practicing them make the practices a more complete experience. All the sounds you may need are acctually in your body in the form of AUM. Overtone singing and bowl singing, in also born out of Nada yoga. Separate point. There was a sage in Hinduism named Kapila. The essence of his life is - you are the words you utter to you, or you are what you believe about life. And he went on to change it and refine it. It's all just sound, yet we internalize the sounds other people say and what we regurgitate in our mind. We have ability to alter that. And alter that by reminding yourself of the greater truths about life. Another thing about music. The most resonant music mathematically is just intonation music. I recommend experimenting with listening that and seeing the impact of it as it is mathematically more aligned that the tuning systems we use.

What is a high quality woman depends on the individual. The woman that would qualify for me is that she is artistic, musical, creative and we can interact and underestand each other trough music and have a power couple synergy and become very good at what we do. I feel those women have the qualities I am looking for but I can't explain. They are refined in some way that is kinda rare acctually these days, it's almost like they radiate it; those who have or develop it ofc., and their mindset usually is the opposite of the herd. I like it! They can live and feel for themselves and appreciate life for what it is in it's many aspects, despite the judgement from society. In general creative people have more complex and nuanced reward system, because they had identity crisis for a long time and they accepted it. The refinement of that just shines trough if I see them. If I would want a woman in my life right now I would like that she is very creative and expressive in her creativity and I would support that, because she will get very wise in that process.

Yes! Politics is everywhere. If you don't do politics, politics does you wether you like it or not, if you start doing politics, you try to get away with a little bit more and more...

Thank You all for coming together. Otherwise I will get insane with all these "materialist American dream family climbing the corporate ladder myopia" and based on fear of missing out values I am being vomited to every day. I value the Truth and I see You do too to the point you are willing and able to. I wish nothing less than Mukti to all of You!

Went to a local healer (not the first one in my life, the first one I remember was crazy experience, she did something with a candle and hand movements and I was vomiting afterwards) and he showed me Osho. While he was not particularly effective he made me aware of somatic work, energy work and self-reflection. And he is looks great for his age and himself is healthy.

I am also practicing this. The results are mixed, but overall positive and expresses in different dimensions even if it does not soothe the pain completely after practice.

This might resonate with you, it has happened to some extent with me also with different disorder.

Soon!!!

Crystals are used for various rituals and installed in temples and in deities to amplify the quality of the deity or add other qualities. Even if you pour sodium chloride (tough I recommend sodium chloride as different salts may have different qualities and don't use that salt later for cooking) or other common salt crystals in various different rooms in different dishes in your home, the charge/energy of the room will feel different (it has a cleansing quality), I have experienced this once when my father showed me this.

I am 1 year in. I am alone in every definition, yet I don't. This doesn't mean I don't have ceavings, but I do have a support systems like meditation. Why it's incompatible? I either spend my weekends doing music if I can or I spend this time with a girlfriend, since I don't do music as my job. Very simple. She will want to travel, spend time with her, kids and so on. I am honest enough to not even start.

I am never going to quit Nofap. That's at least one area of life I improved. Ofc I have a way to go if I want to be a celibate and I have to figure a routine! If I want to live a lone. Otherwise it's easy to fall off. I want to be healthy for example and committed to spirituality and music.

Putting continuous effort into something. @Davino I think it's to be healthy and stay healthy by lifestyle choices is the top tip.

I was sick for a few times and I had vertigo during the nighttime. During that I also had expanded sense of consciousness which I identified much later in life when it kept reoccurring when I meditated usually. I also had dreadful dreams about missing stairs. I couldn't jump to the next stairs, because they were missing. Also the stairs led into different directions, therefore I had this dreaded, dark night of the soul feeling, utter confusion and feeling of being totally lost in life and this feeling came later in life also. Compared to other dreams, those very intense in my early childhood.

Too much doomerism. This is not really accurate. The purpose of life might be something else, at least in my experience that has little to do with my social status, wealth, job etc.

Are you bad as you are? What is there to escape from? Do you have to believe any idea, any projection somebody says? Do you have to be normal? Do you have to have what most of the people strive for? Do you have to feel guilty for who you are? Your life will end anyway, don't do it. Where will you think you will escape? Maybe you can have solve the problem here, in this realm! Look for what is worth living for, not any prop, activity and insincere stuff like that, but seek. You want to find what is worth living for, why have you taken birth. Please, look at this. It's not a small thing. Wish to be liberated from the experience of depression, confusion, suffocation, lack of meaning and even having to have a body if you mean to. Over time it can overturn completely, believe me. Please, doubt your doubt also, not just your possibility. Your inner most nature is always waiting for you.

2) Yes, only few people that are contemporaries, and the only that comes to mind is Sadhguru that showed that they can do incredible things with their body, and still, not instantly recovered. I think it takes incredible infrastructure wether that is some type of spiritual practice, developing of tantra of siddhi or a remote linga, deity or structure that can do that to people in a significant, instant way. Healing like that seems usually very gradual and you have to find the purity of your own consciousness in your psyche, or spend a lot of time refining a technique and for most people having a panic diet and traditional Indian yoga seems the most effective. Besides, if we wouldn't have to work as much and we would be more free from various ideologies, maybe people would practice that. However allopathy usually denies all of that and such studies are very scarce, if at all. And frauds in the spiritual community does not help either. Yet I tried various self-heling techniques. My body does respond to them, but I have not healed anything major or anything that I have going on chronically. But I keep trying, it makes me very meditative itself and works like samyama and the destination of the technique could be a siddhi and depth of perception I think from my experience. Also I keep abusing my body with refined sugars, irregular eating, incomplete diet, lack of exercise, caffeine, chocolate etc. All that said. It's still not productive to not engage with the innermost self and keep the doubt of you thinking you are just a body, that you can't heal something, that you can't be healthy, that life is inanimate and won't look after you if you look into it. That you can't express some siddhi or dig out further than this lifetime and so on, even at your death bed. I think while you engage in any such techniques this mindset is important, because you have been taught something, and that is, that you can't do any of what I wrote including self-healing and you are just a rat that has to always seek solutions externally. YET, we never seek them internally for any amount of time. No wonder we have no control over our faculties.

With personal dev these people change over the years. Only people like monks and spiritual teachers would be worthwhile to meet for me. Regarding musical folk, I used to have idols, but musicianship is a pyramid scheme. Those who get to do it full time get really good. And the rest of the world envies them or are unaware and are like "wow, how is this possible, this is so cool", but it's a kind of a status game by chasing recognition and audience and freedom to express yourself and yet, then there is curiosity, innovation, practice, insight, musical models, theoretical or otherwise, involvement of other senses to generate music... in other words, there is the core. Almost everyone alive can touch it, play with it, gather insights about life, but there is no time, because you are competing for places to do it full time. Selling musical gear so people who can't do it full time, chronically buy it and have no time to play it all. The best get it for free anyway, and their friends too. Some people teach music, remind themselves about musical concepts, spend time in their job playing and obviously they will have the skill to create impressive works. And then there are people who have the freedom to do their own thing, built their own instruments and shift the basic variables of music and then make it. In that sense I don't want to meet anybody. Either my ego is too big, or their ego is too big or hurt in that field of life. Any idol will sell me a signature guitar, invite my to their studio to become my client or invite me to their concert where I have to listen what they perform even if I don't really usually want to hear any of that. :]

This guy was lecturing about emotional intelligence, mindfulness, meditation and all the good stuff that makes you feel good and is a device that is supposed to drive you out from republican agenda. And he literally fell back, endorsed it completely and acts like nothing happened. There has to be immense cognitive dissonance knowing what some degree of awakening feels like and how it makes you cognize the world and embracing whatever republican party feeds you. It’s such an obvious falling back to embrace wealth, recognition etc. instead of embracing unity, wellbeing of the individual and the collective, value of truth, no matter where it is, in this case, concern for the dealing with the aggressor instead of doubling down with the Trump. What do you guys think? What a change of character ain't it? Hahaha, wow I can't believe I am witnessing this corruption.

I agree that US in a crisis right now. I live in the Baltics so, I might have other problems like invasion from the east. But yeah, USA was doing so good, even with all it's problems.

It's also important to note what Eckhart did after that experience. He secluded himself from everything and everyone as much as possible and mostly did nothing which allowed him to radiate what he is radiating today. If he had a change of mind and he went about his day he would be in our predicament - well I had a awakening, but my life's kinda shit.

@Never_give_up if you want to move to another country, do they just start paying wellfare checks? I don't know, but I don't think it's like that. People usually migrate to work abroad and then to settle down.