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I have some experience with people hating my success and I have dealt with a lot of feelings of jelousy towards somebody more successful than me all the time. Sometimes it's very brutal and you just have to sit with it and reason with it or just stop exposing yourself to that media as much as you can. I think it's just two sides of the same coin. The aim is to sit with yourself and find your muse and keep going with that. It's far better than feel some chronic irritation than to play somebody's game. But sometimes you have to strike, make it as surgical as possible so that the person gets the point or ignore so that they get so irritated by themselves in their self-hatred so that they are forced to think about other options and possibly leave you alone. Bonus points if they understand what they did. A good indicator is that you are feeling less and less serious even when exposed to this person hurting you. If it's you being envious, focus on envisioning what you would like to do instead.

Thank you, I appreciate your positive feedback. Also, I don't have a 300 page reference document to tell you what aspect of society I am criticizing, but I assume that you assumed that I am a misogynist or something. Anyhow, I will never know and I don't care to elaborate.

Well I remember few cases when this is true. When I had one girl find out I don't like acoustic guitars, I know she wanted to find something to disagree to have more engagement, to continune talking and bring more emotion because I was being too logical. I know some girls have talked shit about me so I can hear just so I come out and say something and I just didn't and kept quiet. I remember another case that one girl said to me that playing guitar was predictable. Sometimes I can't hold my laughter about it because I don't know what was her point, but it's her opinion and nothing to say to that. Sometimes they will get turned on that they are mad at you. It's not entirely false what I am saying there. Being polarizing is also not bad.

Ye, just oatmeal, linseed oil or a supplement, and rotate some fruits every so often.

I am bullshit, life is bullshit, death is bullshit, God is bullshit, Leo is bullshit, mankind is bullshit and definitely people who dress their dogs are bullshit.

Women don't get to explore themselves in such a masculine economy, which is also why art, music and entertainment mainly is so suffocating. Made mostly to sell and get your attention. If you see an object, how to use it, if you see a human, how to use it is why it's so masculine, where as appreciating and wondering something the way it is is femininity. I don't see a lot of that in our society. All I see is business, praise of business and identification with status, brand, wealth and possession.

The balder I get the longer my hair I want to be.

Same

Yeah man, slow down, don't forget the basics, jeep your stuff in order to stay out of the streets and be clean. Better to cry under a roof, life is not over. But it will take time. Best to rely on yourself. You don't know whether she even gives a shit about you. And even if she does and tries to play two people and gives some kind of hints, it's even worse, run.

Thank you for your advice man.

There is nothing in our education system that teaches us or shows/convinces us to live a sustainable life. On one hand you are a slave to anything that can be sold to you or any content you can potentially consume. This is one part of a problem. If you had your own set of values, priorities, then these people couldn't sell large variety of content and services and some industries would just die. Possibly some of these industries are also ran by well let's say organized bad people in groups and they will not let them die and will probably kill for it. Another is the "righteous" and "virtuous" people or people who want to turn you into their vision. If you have no vision, it's easy for it to be overriding. I think this is generally a bad thing because it ties with the first problem and you really do not know or care to check what is the actual thing you are doing. Or it may turn out that you do some irreversible thing in your life and it turns out you did not want it at all. One form is that they will try to sell you their vision or endlessly shame or guilt you that you don't do like them and assume that their way is the only correct way to live and get very angry if you resist, you know, like any healthy grown up who obviously has something you don't would do. (It's almost comical) So, there has to be some core, something from which motivation, values, behavior itself can be triggered, changed etc. Some kind of emotional re-wiring which is something so unheard of since nobody does it. I am after that. So this is why I am here. I want to find a permanent and systemic solution to live a sustainable life materially and spiritually. Or even if I fail the material part, it's OK. The spiritual aspect is enough. Imagine if you went to sleep and in that experience you don't experience sleep but something else that answers most critical questions about reality. If you really understood what infinite, eternal, temporary really mean, how would you live? What could trigger you?

Maybe, but first I will take Leo's word for it, and still take some good amount of time to look for what practically makes me happier, it is not that simple and I will listen to him because of where he is in life. Life has beaten me for oversimplified things before, it all turns back to delusion. I have to understand what will even bring the most value or some practically relative value, wether I even want to provide any value (assuming that providing value makes me happy, since it's just a popularity/evolutionary argument) and is it even meaningful or is there any meaning to meaning.

Good point. But it also has to be something unique to what I can give also. I will need some time to think about this.

Not bad if you have nothing going on at the moment. If I was not doing music, I would be interested in Isha hatha yoga teacher training but it's 10 k

Well, I cannot agree with you. Playing an instrument is cool and all but a monk looking at you and raising sensations I never felt before is something else. A guy explaining and mapping an ancient scripture and these words having such an impact on your system is something else. Just thinking about doing the tapas and sadhana they do and the lifestyles they commit for reasons not underestandable by us is something else man. Just feel this guy, even after his death that presence is there.

It was a sponsored video I think, and then he posted a vid saying he's depressed, I am not kidding.

Osho was one of those people who pointed out many flaws in our society. And he did it so brutally, not like us that we hide what we think others shouldn't see.

No, mystics and yogis are the wokest. BTW, it's not even that interesting to listen to them imo. Knowing that you and me could have done the same or even better if world would have acctually have been less corrupt... you could have done it all, I could have done it all, some fair amount if people also could do it. Doing music is a luxury very few people can afford to do, I don't think praising them is necessary. And to do music in a way that is acctually interesting and exploring something radically new is even more harder, but that would be something woke than playing on three necks in some modes of a scale which is already a beaten horse to death so an idiot like me could relate "ohh, this is lydian, wow it has that #4, i can even hear it myself"...

To play heroes of might and magic 3.5

Do you update your computer, just curious?

If a girl likes you she will try to argue with you for the most meaningless shit so she can relate to you emotionally.