Applegarden8

You too man, here is some vapourwave by yours truly.

50/50 gamble, you can have amazing results or have a situation where you want to quit. I personally would not, because I would like to think about my work just as a social obligation for which I gladly take responsibility, and nothing more. The rest of my life is as valuable as that and I don't want to mix them anymore than I already have. The problem is that your coworkers ideas and suggestions about how you should live (and but the majority does something like this, why don't you) start to bleed in your life, but it's your sacred responsibility to find out how you want to live your life, you need to cultivate your own ideas.

But that's not nothing, I think you agree. To convince somebody of something in this work is nothing but great at every step.

I am not a musician, I try to grind it on my free time, believe it or not. I work in a STEM field. I know online game and content addiction is real, I used to be addicted to video games, and I am trying to find ways to quit other forms of media for a long time, actually deleted my fb some time ago. Peace man!

Well sometimes I like to listen to my music I make too for entertainment, you know. By the way, I was not talking about me only, but about you too, so what about being on useless forums arguing about things in entertainment section? You could be doing what you are saying I should do. You could be going to Mars right now, you know. I don't know why, I just do! IDK it's kinda fun and I am not the only one! People make content for this game even. So, I am interested in leaving the internet, I have thought about it etc. cause it will improve the quality of my life, but maybe let's quit together? Could you?

You are correct, the less time spent on here, the better, but maybe for different reasons like this completely useless content here which I enjoy watching. But you have to come with me to quit the internet since your post count is alarming.

Dates maybe but I know some marathon runners and sports guys in general that ate dried apricots days before competition to help with their exit so to say, and they would not have to go to toilet at the event.

But why would you assume I am he's my idol. OK, you are trying to expose me to this information and disillution me or whatever, but disillusion from what; what is my problem here that needs a solution? Then you also say I am triggered, but I am just very curious about how do you have such a strong assumption that he's my idol? I am maybe a bit confused that you are poking at me, but I don't understand why, that's all.

maybe try looking into eating more of raw fruits and vegetables (around 70 % of your diet) and reducing meats and dry foods (potatoes, pasta, flour based foods) and see if you are relieved. Do you drink coffee or eat cocholate? Do you get moderate amount of sleep? Maybe try to stop it for a while and see if it works. Maybe try foods that promote more of a wet exit like dried aprichots? Also read the instructions on mendilex to check info about side reactions, consult some pharmacists maybe and see what gives you this side reaction if it's the active ingredient.

Ok, please disprove my observation that I think that Penguinz0 is entertaining, good story teller and knowing how to handle being famous. Do I have to write a confirmation letter to you so you can review so I don't describe people in a fanboy way? Why do I have to look in his negative to tell you that he is entertaining? Him, or anyone whatsoever? I don't have to look into his negatives, it's not my job, i am not an investigator or his supervisor, what meaningful information will I gain if I look into his negatives? I really don't understand you conclusion that I might be a fanboy.

No I am not a hardcore fan of him. I am not a fanatic of anyone, actually. Why would you think I am?

I am sorry, I am not familiar with this abbreviation. I just occasionally watch those guy to relax and find him somewhat entertaining.

I like how he tells his stories and jokes, doesn't have to be anything important whatsoever.

I can resonate as I have had similar experience. But I found quite a few solutions, cheers man. Still up to the collab if you want.

You know, I gave my microtonal guitars to some very educated guitarists to play and it was very amusing that they were so affected by it, it's like something invisible is affecting them and making them confused, laughing and causing such a reaction to them. They had a well tought out and calibrated model about the concept of music which is so deep in their cognition and when this base changes they feel like children again.

I would go even further and tell he can handle and is good at being famous and social. But yeah somehow he can take any topic and just drag it out, as opposed to many people here running out of things to say. There is nothing wrong with silence, but we lose our engagement and impact if we were to attract somebody if we are not talking and it's not bringing any emotional value, but he is very good at it, I agree.

I like few things about artistic people that others do not seem to have so much. Ther ability to create something out of nothing. They are more open-minded, they are more comical, especially about their field; you will hear jokes that are acctually funny. There is depth, at least to me, to what they make, so it's interesting to watch them do it. They have a strong personality and insights to share in regards to how to deal with people and cultivate creativity. They are somewhat self-reflective already. They are just more interesting people to me, even when it comes to how they speak and present themselves. And of course I have some ability to do art together with them or to appreciate it and they like more sophisticated art themselves usually. And their values are usually not just money or whatever is the common theme nowadays.

There is so much you can do. You either go and shark out the root cause of your voice problems and continue to heal it and not give up. If that is not possible you can learn an instrument, teach, manage people in the industry, compose for people, organize concepts for people to be inspired etc.

Maybe needs firmware update, but I think it's OK.

Yeah, My standards are kinda high, but for specific things. My dating strategy is either I will settle for what I want authentically or I will be single for the rest of my life. So, what do I want? I only want to date artistic people. Why? To build something with them. I have seen that with like minded art people you can build something that really builds you and them up and creates a very good atmosphere for children, but I don't want children at the moment. Otherwise, I am building my life so that my finances are taken care off, I spend the money on the minimum side, my purchases are well calculated. My environment is easy to clean, minimalistic and safe, I am working on my health and diet and spending time alone and improving my sources of entertainment and mental health. Then I would be the most ripe for a relationship, although I have close to no experience in dating or sex. I believe that my artistic desires will attract the right people in my life. But all this dating stuff, sex, reading the other person, communication etc. You can learn this and talk this out. Also one important thing I am looking in my partner is that she has to understand that she can change her triggers, patterns of behavior and that she has to tell me what she likes in my behaviour and does not like and it needs to be talked from time to time or it will explode in an argument or something. Of course there might be things I will have to accept and I will try my best. Also, no alcohol, drugs, smoking. I am also a vegetarian, I don't think I could handle a lot of sex, but I could have little to no sex for long periods of time I think. I have already accepted that I might be single so I am working on my life and contemplating things to prepare for death so that after 20 years I have a feeling that I don't even need this body and there is nothing else to live for and I am ready to die at any moment when it comes.

Share your vision and you will find the quality of people you are looking for... and a few enemies too.

Yes

I think ultimate health is loss of boundary and loss of an identity. Death is the ultimate health. Edit: I don't think I want to post such things in the future, because I feel bad that people read this and believe this. Maybe this is true in some significant aspect in my life and I have my reasons for why I think so, but somebody else now will justify suicide with this which I am not justifying etc.

In the long term, you will ace them. Just keep going. Does not matter about short term. If they insult and troll you, it is very clear. They are not your friends. After 5 or 10 years they will look at you and it will be irritating for them. Something very subtle is changing in you. It seems like you have some answers now. Just ignore them and keep going. Just because those life choices are popular does not mean that you have to chase them. The ironic thing is that I know some group of people that have about the same values (house, car, pets or children, family, profession and what our economy has to offer) and from these people I (like my neighbours) receive the most questions about how I live... well because there are vast number of ways how to live that people acctually choose or are forced to live, but they don't want to hear it. They can laugh all they want, just to get angry and upset 1 minute later about me for reaons they don't know. This is my and your constitutional and human right to be how you want to be. Don't take it lightly. I use this argument if I get very weird criticisms, do you know your rights? For example. There is no paper stating I have to make children, besides, compared to 100 years back, do you really need kids that much? There is 8 billion people. We need to improve those who are already living otherwise my son will go to war aginst your son due to some stupid ideology and we will drown into garbage we produce. Acctually read what you constitution says, it is pretty refreshing. Understand, you SHOULD HAVE THAT FREEDOM what is written there. Nobody can request you, don't do it because I don't like it or you should do what I do as an open criticism to you - this person is a total loser who doesn't know his rights and does things basically because somebody told him to. You will be very irritating to average materialistic person which will be your friends in some time going forward. You will lose some "friends" when your interests change. You will lose some of the even when your food choices will change, there is no more time to hang out and eat junk anymore.