Applegarden8

Does it have to be anything? Does it have to have meaning? Can it be it's own thing without meaning?

Are you referring missing out related to a section in your life (some duration of this birth) or all lifetimes encompassing entire reality?

Don't take my example, but I kinda gave up on it, but I have my reasons. I just can't see what relationship will fullfill in my life, despite wanting it. Especially on a good day, it's totally not necessary for me. I can be happy on my own and when I am miserable I got myself to work with it and sit trough it. When you are afraid of something, you can't tell anybody else about it, you have to face the feeling constantly, and then you reflect and gain insight about you. There is some attraction, but remembering the suffering in life and what causes it is stronger, so I want to deal with that. "Ohh, but what if you get lonely, old or nobody will take care of you" let it be, I will prepare mentally for it now, than wait for the perfect one at 50, now that is delusional. Only thing what will happen in your area will be that people will bully you that you are not in a relationship, but their life kinda sucks anyway and they don't want to improve it and just talk shit about somebody or just a nowhere nobody like me. Your only problem in this scenario is getting roof over your head and watching your health like a hawk. Then you should be fine by yourself. But that is not what I am suggesting, if you have urges and want to live them, go. Also she will find a guy who will do all that with her in her area without me and you also. But almost nobody will write to me and you and will really not be genuinely interested in you is my experience and it's OK. I accept that. I just don't give a shit anymore.

Try to say it in less words.

There was one woman that I really enjoyed her company. I could imagine living with her, even though she was little bit too chaotic for me. But usually women trigger nothing but sexual desire which is kinda empty for me. I like somebody who can be artistic, spontaneous also quietness is good sign when you can sit with yourselves and accept each other as you are and you don't need to brag about anything or explain anything, guilt or shame each other constantly. For me it's all or nothing. I either want a quality person or an artist, because she has the quirks, jokes, appreciation and subtle-ness about life and she can be very expressive even in her daily life. But either that or nothing, because compromising just for somebody to be there will make you make maximum decisions you don't want to make.

I guess I was right after all!

looks like you will find out, I but wish you are lucky enough that you have nothing to report. I was not just talking about synthesis protocol, but actually somebody's report which are generally longer than protocols which is included in that file. I am happy for you that you can conclude that, but when I saw it that's the first thing i noticed! It is very tempting to keep endlessly arguing about nothing, but as they say, somebody will bring you down to their level and beat you with experience. I feel the burn, i guess. Generally speaking, yes, I admit I do not know a lot about many details of the topics, but I cannot say that I do not know what I am talking about. I don't think you will admit that as well and just assume that you are correct about everything you said. But you do you. So, keep swimming and enjoy your totally safe and simple endevour.

The thousand page document I am referring to is drug master file. Yeah, patent without any quality assurance or predictable effect. Let's agree to disagree. It will be a problem if it will happen. I see your mindsets are different, and there is no point in interacting. And I personally don't agree with it because innovations in food industry for example exploit human health and only after some study shows over a period of time that some synthetic food additive is bad for example. Same goes for research drugs. My concern is that somebody takes it and fucks it up on behalf of freedom. But it's not that simple and I don't disagree completely. Health-related risks, first of all. I don't need to disclose to anybody what I am suffering from, that is my business, otherwise I would post a thread. But I would say, if you are one man household, you getting fucked from a irresponsible drug use for the rest of your life means you can't do what you want to do, so health is important for me in that sense. Does that sound like a paranoia to you? Then I technically congratulate you and remind you that you shouldn't if it's illegal in your area. I disagree, it is still relatively unknown compared to a generic or a widely used psychotropic or any drug that had practical clinical studies performed. My point was that you can't know, I was just emphasizing it cause you are wistleblowing that they are not dangerous at all. But why are you projecting now? My approach of explaining the negatives won't help you overthink, so I failed. I wasted like an hour and a half of my life, my bad. My original point is only this, and not to you, but to the chemists out there. If you are in a career in a chemistry, analytics, food industry and synthesis fields etc. and are employed in a company, know when you are sharing details on these subjects in such gray areas even on the net, know that you maybe already in a watch list in your country for drugs and explosives, even if you just have chemistry based degree, better not to, because one thing leads to another and there can be problems with association with those people and evidence that you have been giving specific advice to these people. Why to have such problems if you are trying to build your life. But you have a different life experience that will guide you I guess. I wasted my hour and a half, I am off to do some yoga and do what I acctually care about, my bad again, sorry. Should not have engaged in this absolutely pointless and untenable discussion.

Well, go and listen to who says what you want to hear, i don't know what to tell you. I have seen something in this field like getting some people arrested, they also started "experimenting" and falsely accused me of manufacturing some drug just to get more time to hide the evidence for those who actually did it, yes, this actually happened. You can't prove there is no danger, you simply can't. Maybe nothing will happen, maybe not and actually you have no clue what you are risking. Your arrogance is what i expected, then maybe you need to go trough this and feel invincible and then... Just advising to think about it if you really need this shit. By the way with the thousands of pages I was referring to organic synthesis not refinement of something that exists in nature already. By the way if it's so "safe" why sourcing (even for legal research chemicals) is not allowed in this forum? And how can a research chemical be safe? It just makes me turn off my brain. If there were no clinical trials happening on animals or humans for this drug to research its effects then maybe only what is done is some pharmakinetic based estimations of what the drug can do, then how the hell can somebody conclude it is safe or predictible blows my mind. It has not even yet become illegal it is so new hahahaha (in case it is psychotropic).

And this "chemist" can tell you just about anything and be as junkyard fellow as possible (in here, especially) and the worst part is that you will actually do what he says. To get a quote? I wish you had an idea about how much is written down to the finest details and control parameters to synthesize something and prove its content, thousands of pages literally. If somebody tell you something verbally, you understand how ridiculous it is "oh, i will just implement and reproduce this" not to even exclude your error of you knowing something and adding something somewhere where you shouldn't or forgetting to do something, then you get something different, in a unsanitary place with questionable equipment. Haha, and they will send it to police/taken down by customs or other organization and do an express test and it may show positive (because it has some functional groups as some illegal drugs and is not very selective), then you will be for an amazing journey (i am being sarcastic, even if it's not an illegal product) of interrogations and questions and I am assuming if you want to synthesize you are keeping and buying them, and that will be caught or they will test you and it will show that you indeed have been using recently, and now you are up for some charges. Then they will check where you exist on the net and find you here and well, check what you are writing here maybe and it will help their investigation. Following scenarios to this: 1. Not legislated yet, still you might get in legal trouble and going trough investigation and interrogation, months to stay 'clear" while you are on a more intense watch-list since you will keep doing it; 2. You gave it to somebody and somebody got sick, mentally ill or died and it can be proven that it was from your experimental drug; 3. You terribly fuck up your health with a help of your "chemist" friend; 4. Your "chemist" friend is found guilty for manufacturing, storing (something illegal by chance), and now you are part of his ring because he gave it to you and you gave it to somebody else, if you didn't even sell it; 5. Extra point for criminal history or future and how that can fuck up your life and snowball from experiment to a drug dealing and prison, addiction and so on. 6. "Chemist" friend can force/negotiate you to make something together, maybe make something illegal together, force you to make more at the cost of him not telling anybody or him not doing something to you or your loved ones. Or just placing something on your bag pocket, apartment and calling the cops. Or pay money to me or we will do something to you because you synthesize now. I HOPE THIS HELPS TO CONVINCE YOU THAT THIS IS JUST NOT WORTH IT. I would advise to stay sober for life. You don't need these problems. No more, I am out. You haven't even thought out about the consequences. Problem is simple, you have a sleeping problem, focus on solving that with a professional and lifestyle solutions.

Whatever you are trying to do, you have no way of determining what is quantitatively there, what impurities (related compounds and other bi-products) you gather or if you even get what you think you are getting + the amount of residual solvents, elemental impurities, endotoxins and active bacteria + flat out particles you introduce in your body, besides the point, just one methyl group or different isomer you gather (accidentally by doing something a little bit differently by a recepie which you don't know that it is any valid), you get entirely different chemical with different effects, besides side effects and unknown toxicity. You are playing with fire without any reasonable experience. Somebody can suggest you just synthesize about anything and you will do it and could potentially kill yourself. If you have a sleeping problem, go to the doctor. Besides, you succeed and launch an illegal enterprise thinking that - i will just make and share a little bit more, involving other people and ruining their lives by their association with you. Please, don't do this. Get professional help. You maybe want to make a supplement, but you will create something that will deteriorate your quality of life in so many ways. This is so fucking shady and irresponsible, sorry, i am out of this thread.

If you are a chemist, please DON'T provide these details, because you are risking your career. If you are a chemist, you are probably on a watch-list for drug and explosive manufacture prevention.

Makes 7 figures; Can operate any vehicle in existence; Has military training but is also a spectacular artist; Can solve any problem in existence with manual labor with non-motorized equipment. Things explode when he walks away from them basically.

From Ayurveda tradition it's bad, it's had lost all it's energetic value and eating it will make you tired, frustrated and bored more easily. If you cook, refine or boil the food it's enzymes are denatured but these enzymes and some thermoliable compounds are helping to digest that food instead of your body synthesizing large amount of enzymes and that process makes you sleepy. There is more to it ofc. Also it's usually too dry and you are essentially not adding water and taking out water from the body in the parts where it needs it and would have been replenished if you ate a lot of fruits and vegetables that are high in water content. Additives we have really no clue about until it will show the negative effects and questionable production quality and decisions is also something that is concerning.

This is terrible answer. Not qualitative enough for this forum in my opinion. There are so many people in this forum with their asses burning in so many different ways in so many locations all over the world. You are obviously not here to find a solution I think. I will explain you why. The moment what you wish that your life revolves around drama with somebody else and that means (i will prove to somebody, i will take revenge to somebody, i wish this person suffers or knows what it's like), be very clear - your life has NO direction established or it's very weak and just about anything, especially your own mind, habits, emotions, insecurities will easily throw you off if you do not organize. You seem that you have nothing to do. But how hard would you want every day to put yourself in a situation to do something? Would it not be better than where you are now? You have ability to focus, purify and reorganize yourself.

Very good answer

Hmm, I think that possibly influence from previous lifetimes is the reason why I am so eager to live to be a sage. After like 20 or something something just snapped and I became like this.

There is this one woman I didn't have sex with (like i always do) and I still have some connection with her. I don't really think about it too much, but I feel that she is very receptive to me and could just sit there with me for hours. Now, yes, I don't choose to do that and I can't say that she would choose to do so even if she feels that way, assuming my intuition is even correct. She probably knows who she is, it's like the strongest connection I have experienced with a woman. She is a musician or I would say that she was at one point bc I don't know what she does now and I will probably never ask her bc there is no point.

I would start a mathcore band, but then I guess I will do it myself.

I would ask her what does she mean with that because there's ur face on it. If you suspect it's shady, don't let her step over you. Friends don't really do that unless you have a capacity to make humiliating and insulting best friend jokes with her, then you wouldn't post it here I assume.

It would be how to make music, how to keep inspired making music and I would derive and explain some models of these concepts.

Yeah, fucking men am I right?

Don't make food a religion. Don't be bothered that something kills animals. Eat vegan because of it benefits, because they are there, look for them instead. Then you kinda miss what life is about and are angry at everyone that they are not doing what you are doing.