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I am starting to dislike tech death...

@ivankiss

Because what hurts most than to kill a father or mother image.

I am assuming you really found what is working for you, very good. And I love you dude, but I will forever disagree if you are undermining other techniques for other people with different quirks and attachments to the senses. The techniques you are trying to discredit are as valid and as potent as the ones you seem to have results with. Even some gurus say that past life regression and attaining to some siddhis or trying to stop the mind is a waste of time. Everything that makes you feel bigger than the body, mind, emotions, concepts etc. is meaningful, valid, because you are Mahadeva after all. There is an increased chance of getting lost in those powers and experiences or to abuse it. But we are so weak, we don't even possess those and do not know how a human can be. It would be so tremendously beautiful to see such people. If we can't hold on the necessary focus or have the necessary intensity, organization of our being, subtlety or intelligence to see what is what and stick to it, then attaining Enlightenment is even harder than all of this while you are in the body. It seems that most people awaken in the moment of death, because 99.9 % of their energy is spent on predictable, repetitive, survival based action. We don't even have the problems of confident, powerful, organized human beings who are capable of extraordinary things. Our problems are that we are suffering our chaos and weaknesses, and ofc exploiting others.

I think the rich eat more fresh and they generally eat very little in a bigger gap between meals.

Statistically, you will not succeed, you will probably not be able to withstand some of your desires and will spiral into dark night of the soul experience. I couldn't kill my desire for being artistic. I also tought the same. I couldn't find a good enough method, but I also didn't search enough. Kalabhairaba (god of destruction) and some hindu scriptures recommend that you only live for truth and find it while you are in this birth, if you can of course.

People these days mostly eat too much and eat too much refined carbs, fats, processed foods and eat too frequently. Acctually if you don't drink alcohol, coffee, tea, don't cosume any drugs and refined carbs, red meat, you will be just fine in stuff like groundnut and banana for a very long period of time. Similar would go for oatmeal, but maybe less, maybe you need more supplement if especially if you are very physically active.

I have some experience with people hating my success and I have dealt with a lot of feelings of jelousy towards somebody more successful than me all the time. Sometimes it's very brutal and you just have to sit with it and reason with it or just stop exposing yourself to that media as much as you can. I think it's just two sides of the same coin. The aim is to sit with yourself and find your muse and keep going with that. It's far better than feel some chronic irritation than to play somebody's game. But sometimes you have to strike, make it as surgical as possible so that the person gets the point or ignore so that they get so irritated by themselves in their self-hatred so that they are forced to think about other options and possibly leave you alone. Bonus points if they understand what they did. A good indicator is that you are feeling less and less serious even when exposed to this person hurting you. If it's you being envious, focus on envisioning what you would like to do instead.

Thank you, I appreciate your positive feedback. Also, I don't have a 300 page reference document to tell you what aspect of society I am criticizing, but I assume that you assumed that I am a misogynist or something. Anyhow, I will never know and I don't care to elaborate.

Well I remember few cases when this is true. When I had one girl find out I don't like acoustic guitars, I know she wanted to find something to disagree to have more engagement, to continune talking and bring more emotion because I was being too logical. I know some girls have talked shit about me so I can hear just so I come out and say something and I just didn't and kept quiet. I remember another case that one girl said to me that playing guitar was predictable. Sometimes I can't hold my laughter about it because I don't know what was her point, but it's her opinion and nothing to say to that. Sometimes they will get turned on that they are mad at you. It's not entirely false what I am saying there. Being polarizing is also not bad.

Ye, just oatmeal, linseed oil or a supplement, and rotate some fruits every so often.

I am bullshit, life is bullshit, death is bullshit, God is bullshit, Leo is bullshit, mankind is bullshit and definitely people who dress their dogs are bullshit.

Women don't get to explore themselves in such a masculine economy, which is also why art, music and entertainment mainly is so suffocating. Made mostly to sell and get your attention. If you see an object, how to use it, if you see a human, how to use it is why it's so masculine, where as appreciating and wondering something the way it is is femininity. I don't see a lot of that in our society. All I see is business, praise of business and identification with status, brand, wealth and possession.

The balder I get the longer my hair I want to be.

Same

Yeah man, slow down, don't forget the basics, jeep your stuff in order to stay out of the streets and be clean. Better to cry under a roof, life is not over. But it will take time. Best to rely on yourself. You don't know whether she even gives a shit about you. And even if she does and tries to play two people and gives some kind of hints, it's even worse, run.

Thank you for your advice man.

There is nothing in our education system that teaches us or shows/convinces us to live a sustainable life. On one hand you are a slave to anything that can be sold to you or any content you can potentially consume. This is one part of a problem. If you had your own set of values, priorities, then these people couldn't sell large variety of content and services and some industries would just die. Possibly some of these industries are also ran by well let's say organized bad people in groups and they will not let them die and will probably kill for it. Another is the "righteous" and "virtuous" people or people who want to turn you into their vision. If you have no vision, it's easy for it to be overriding. I think this is generally a bad thing because it ties with the first problem and you really do not know or care to check what is the actual thing you are doing. Or it may turn out that you do some irreversible thing in your life and it turns out you did not want it at all. One form is that they will try to sell you their vision or endlessly shame or guilt you that you don't do like them and assume that their way is the only correct way to live and get very angry if you resist, you know, like any healthy grown up who obviously has something you don't would do. (It's almost comical) So, there has to be some core, something from which motivation, values, behavior itself can be triggered, changed etc. Some kind of emotional re-wiring which is something so unheard of since nobody does it. I am after that. So this is why I am here. I want to find a permanent and systemic solution to live a sustainable life materially and spiritually. Or even if I fail the material part, it's OK. The spiritual aspect is enough. Imagine if you went to sleep and in that experience you don't experience sleep but something else that answers most critical questions about reality. If you really understood what infinite, eternal, temporary really mean, how would you live? What could trigger you?

Maybe, but first I will take Leo's word for it, and still take some good amount of time to look for what practically makes me happier, it is not that simple and I will listen to him because of where he is in life. Life has beaten me for oversimplified things before, it all turns back to delusion. I have to understand what will even bring the most value or some practically relative value, wether I even want to provide any value (assuming that providing value makes me happy, since it's just a popularity/evolutionary argument) and is it even meaningful or is there any meaning to meaning.

Good point. But it also has to be something unique to what I can give also. I will need some time to think about this.