Applegarden8

Ahh, the question why to do spirituality: "Meditation is a waste of time" "There are studies that meditation calms the mind and body" "Hmm I had an instersting experience that I i didn't feel I was breathing" "Huh, i started to feel happy for no reason" "Meditation helps with my depression" "I felt such an intense existential crisis, but I am happy" "I underestand that I may be nothing and life has no meaning" "Maybe death is not bad after all" "Society has their values completely wrong" "Maybe human kind has a different history" "Maybe aliens exist?" "Maybe life is a dream" "I don't feel like I have to be guilty for who I am" "Maybe I don't need what the other has? And they get very mad about it." "Maybe my life is completely about something else" "Maybe yoga is not just about stretching" "Some guy is conscetrating lingas somewhere in India, while your life is mostly thinking about sexual desire" "Maybe it's time to give, not only to take" My values have completely changed in 10 years of somewhat moderate amount spiritual practice. I have no idea what I will be like... "What for" is like Ramana Maharishi projecting to you: "Who am I", but you are supposed to find out for yourself. Hahahaha.

Be careful what you wish for, here you go. And the actual technique (i can find at least 2 more techniques, but I am lazy today)

You're fine. I have free days when I do nothing. I have days where I have breakthroughs. Work influences me. Society influences me. My bad habits influence me. I can act only on a free day and I have to go to a different location to play my instrument. I haven't lost my ability etc., it has gone a bit better acctually. There are times I envy everyone who is living a more traditional life, but I yet I fail to see a reason why and acctually I don't want to live like them. I just need to calm down and continue. Still have to figure a lot of stuff to have a sustainable lifestyle and a good foundation for the future. And then work on my life purpose. You are fine, if you don't want to do anything today, sit and visualize what you wanted prior, write on paper. Remind yourself of your core values. Just sit and relax. You can't fault yourself that you feel bad, so many things are influencing you. You feeling guilty about it leads to suicide. I sometimes envy people who have time to play their instruments more too, but I have what I have. So no reason to feel bad and just relax. Also, me and people I envy and I am envied by all have this fear of losing the ability to do the things we love. Remember that. Sustainable lifestyle is also very important. Don't kill by yourself overstressing and overworking too.

I see people who use their potential versus people who don't use their potential and repeat the same mistakes. I see people who think about others versus people who think only about themselves. I see people who are focused on their life and I see people who don't know what to do and how it manifests. I think there are many ways to look at it.

I have this ratio for taking criticism. 90 % of the case I think criticism you get is just a projection of the insecurity of the projector. It maybe contains some truth. You will passively-agressively hear it, just ignore it. I would call this criticism "let me give yoh advice you didn't ask for and I haven't even reflected on or purposely avoid reflecting on it, hence i am projecting to all of you" 9 % of the criticism is somewhat constructive and the person criticizing has some insight about the topic they are criticizing you. You can acctually engage back and forth. 1 % of criticism I take, and reflect. This is good news. I am criticized by somebody who cares about me and is smarter than me. Why I know he is smarter? He lives the lifestyle I want and is far more competent in the field. You can reason with him and he wants to help you. How to acctually deal with it emotionally, there are techniques, but you can direct message me and I will tell you.

Lack of addictive and unhealthy behavior that you know it's bad for you when you do it.

Here's my two cents. Never really got laid, never really tried also. Could have tried harder, few relationships almost fell in my lap, just had to be more physical. I am 27. I still really don't care about it. If I had a habit of drinking, would probably be a father right now. At around 19 discovered spirituality and I was pretty on the idea of enlightenment and it really resonated and forgot that I could live a normal life or whatever it means. Also in a sense my idea of loneliness kinda faded away since I understood that I will die alone. Yes, I feel lonely sometimes, I crave sex and all that. But I can't imagine that being as my dream life. My dream life would be (within my possibilities) is to live healthier, have a practice room near me or live in it, and play instruments after work and otherwise be as minimalistic as I can be. I don't rely on somebody's presence, I don't really share how I am, I just sit quietly to reflect and assume that nobody gives a shit about me. The most happiness I have found this way. There are still some women in my friends group or even work that I could make things work. But they are not interesting enough to what I could make my life than with plans and action that I do already, I guess. And that relationship takes time, effort and energy. She will also want pets, children, to renovate the house, to travel etc. but I am acctully pretty clear in my mind and I want none of that. All I want to do is in my free time is to be creative or to sit quietly (when i feel healthy mentally and physically and then I am out of addictive and procrastinating patterns which I am working on, then I just sit quietly at my lowest points usually). I guess my standards are high, and yet I am not willing to sacrifice a lot. If I will meet somebody then probably trough music.

I am being sarcastic, but in this century, what can't you replace? good luck, hope it works out!

Acctually, I think it's not that bad of a response. Death is a good thing to remember regularly when thinking about life. So it's good to integrate it in life purpose and then look for your values. Maybe it will help to decide what you really want to do, because life is shorter maybe? Or maybe the other end, life is infinite, don't worry, you will achieve it all at some birth, just relax and live. Both options are there.

Agree, but not fully. Sometimes you need that pep talk. All gurus do is to school adult children to do the work. You can be so good in one area in your life and do the work, yet be blocked, unmotivated and withdrawn in other areas, where you need to wonder, crash in a few places and sufferings to realize what you really need to move on. However yes, you can crash all your life without trying also.

I don't know to whom you are referring to as she, since this was an example I gave within a question you did not choose to answer. But if I currently had relationship, I would entice, talk and explore some kinks for sure, because the point is to satisfy the other.

I can't say anything good or bad regarding this particular retreat, but I wouldn't advise to a close friend of mine and show other sources and activities they can do that are working in this field.

For example, if I and woman agrees that I should be tied up for some time and we have sex, is this sick? Just curious.

What interests do you have? Do you like to see something, hear something, touch, take care of something? Do you have something that sparks joy? Do you have good memories doing something?

There was a short period of time where I practiced my guitar in a car. I am happy that I continued and realised some important things about myself and life not to go into more detail.

Hey, I just wanted to wish you guys a happy new year. But I also have a message to my fellow artists. Depending on who you are; a successful artist with a casual tension or moment of confusion, an artist on hiatus, an aspiring artist who still is yet to figure how to do things or somebody who is wanting to express their creativity. I want to say that it's worth starting, continiouing to express and nurturing your art form or vehicle of art. Please have the courage to keep preserving your authentic identity and guard it from mediocrity and rat race. Yes, rat race is devastating, we maybe have to spend most energy surviving, but that's what makes the art better for the future generations to witness and see how we lived. It's not about sharing everything you have today. It's about nurturing the tree of your creative project or skill and learning the process. You will change multiple times because of this and you will learn something only you can reproduce and what will make it unique is the content and self-defining methods you will learn on the way. It is worth sitting alone, it is worth that frustration and worth breaking that frustration, it is worth it to do it not knowing if you will be able to do that again, it is worth the frustration. You will learn things society cannot teach you. Don't kill your dreams because of some naysayers or some ridicule. These people don't and can't know you. They will endlessly project something they didn't want to solve themselves for the rest of their lives. You are doing the opposite with your artistic intent. Don't be afraid to make mistakes and be criticised, bad artwork is the basis of good artwork and most people don't understands these invisible methods and instrastructure other than other artists. You will also be more engaged with other people's art, because artists understand each other and are able to get more inspired and appreciative of the art and messages of others. They understand that you can pay attention to something endlessly and you will find something new. Abusive people and people who ridicule and gossip have no vision for you, so how can you take them seriously? They have no well tought advice for you. They don't even have vision for themselves usually. But you do. And this vision is worth living. It is worth trying. It is worth stimulating non-mechanical parts of the brain. You are Mahadeva, this is your birth right to live how you want and to continuously attempt to live how you want. The process IS worth it. Don't forget to visualize what you want to DO, regardless of the obstacles, you will see that it generates positive feedback within you. Keep going, my friends.

Same reason why you use substances.

Idk how it relates to this topic, but ai got this synth and it's amazing! It has long learning curve though.

But, Leo! What about the new products that you would like?

*If you want to relax, people will shout, what do you do? Why do you do "nothing"? Yes, if people don't see that you are emotionally distressed in some places you can get killed literally for that. It is a survival coping mechanism for the masses, you don't want to get your reality altered by somebody, because it's too comfortable where they sit, yet this comfort contains the things that poison them and acctually make them unfit for life. Psychedelics can either create the biggest uprising or fall of the society.

I don't find this fascinating somehow. Shrooms give electric impulses that are coverted to CV. What I find more fascinating is that a person comes who has mastered a hardware piece of equipment and give you coherent out of this world performance.

Really, do you think so that this is the reason? He's literally going clubbing every now and then.

I have a similar problem but for different aspect. I am too straight edge/overdo things overcheck things so that I can conclude that something really happened this way or was done therefore I work "slower". There is a deep psychological reason for that. I had grandparents who both told me that what I do is wrong and after failing them in some small things they basically bullied me. Due to this I have some sense of uncertainty and I just don't want to fail, therefore I will do everything in my power to make sure I don't, hence why this reason. Even if everything is going great, I expect the worst usually. This is not healthy, as well as for your bf. It's very similar pattern. I understand him very well.

Well, the real question is, do any of them like Meshuggah? If yes, then OK. I don't know acctually.