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I think suicide is really a bad idea here. Suicide should be considered only if your body/consciousness has been really broken permanently which made you really dysfonctional and makes your life miserable for ever which does not seem to be your case. You say you take care of your body which is good. Face the challenges of your life with courage. Don’t forget the exponential nature of things which means that you have to put a lot of effort and not getting any result for a long time before you start getting the benefits of your work. be patient focus on what you love keep working jerk off enjoy

Hello dude. How old are you? I feel your pain. First you are deluded thinking that the reason you’re not getting girls is your height. But it is understandable you wish you were taller. Nobody can argue that. You seem very obsessed with girls. Maybe try to focus more on your life purpose, what you love. Then it will leave some air for your pick up life. Keep approaching girls but in a more detached way. See it as a game. A game you’re almost guaranteed to lose but you play it anyway for the fun of it. Never forgetting that you have a little chance to succeed !

But I agree with you. To me, that motherfucker is insane. And your experience where you live with lot of poorness and lack of ressources is nothing compared to the crazy shit he’ll go through

God wants to experience everything. God’s thirst for experiences have nothing to do with your thirst for experiences. God is not biased by anything. God is ready to try anything. No hesitation. That is just his/her/its nature

I get it, so a good exercise to realize God’s love would be to incarnate as someone who gets completely abused by another one, have his whole life ruined by it, go through hell because of it and do not be judgemental about it ? Maybe that’s what the most enlightened masters have done in past life ? Maybe that’s why they are so loving ?

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You’re having a lot of insights and it is a good thing. Your mind seems very active right now. I don’t know why it is the case, maybe you’ve done a lot of psychedelics recently or other stuff.. But be careful. It seems to me that you’re also a little bit losing touch with reality right now.(I might be wrong..) I would suggest you do not take harsh decision for the week to come. Take the time to think through all the insights you get on your life. Take also a good rest. maybe time to disconnect from this forum for a day or two

I feel you, it’s a hard thing to develop wolf hangs when you are born as a white lamb. Very good thing to be conscious of it

*the period of chronic fatigue was like 9months for 5months of energetic feeling

I’ve been dealing with chronic fatigue my whole life, for me, it comes and goes. I tryed different diet but it does not seem to be related. The way I see it is trying to do the best no matter how I feel, when the chronic fatigue is there do my best, when it’s gone, be grateful for it and do my best. Also I want to mention that for me, the hardest was at the beginning, I started feeling chronic fatigue at 16 yo, the period of chronic fatigue was like month for 4-5month of « healthy energetic body » and like that for the first 3years. But since I’m 19 it is a lot easier it is more like 3month of chronic fatigue for 10 month of energetic body, and recently it seems that it is gone, I’ve no longer this issue. So I really do not know for my case what happens but there really is hope. Also I would check if it is not lithium that causes that. I do not know what is your mental health and the seriousness of what you could be suffering from but if I were you, I would never put such a chemical in my body.

That is a tough situation you put yourself in.. first do you feel you have irreversible consequences on your health/consciousness du to the forced treatment(I suppose you had one) in the mental hospital?first, Manage to never come back to mental hospital again. This places are filled with people who won’t hesitate giving you poison and have no idea what they are doing. Second, I’d say, based on what your describing that your development level is really low. You won’t find a life purpose or engage in a meaningful life within a day but a good next move would be indeed to find a job.( whatever job you can find, at this point, we do not care) move away from your parents home. Desintoxicate yourself from all this youtube, playing video games. Then when you stabilize that, you’ll take your time, using your non working time, to strategize, fill yourself with new aspiration, to go to the next level but this will take time, a lot amount of time. First, become indépendant no matter what you do

I’ll rewatch this. Thanks for reply

Since I am a little kid, I have an issue with unfairness. I don’t know why but it triggers me, I’m born with a very good logic which has allowed me always to perceive unfairness well. But now I realize it’s a lot uglyer than I would ever imagine it to be. Some people can have their whole life ruined by other one. Some people can be sent to hell by other one and for me, it is outrageous. Does it exist a natural divin Justice which balance everything? Does soul really exist? In which case it would be untouchable by other and everyone would be responsible for his own soul no matter what happens. Does someone have a direct experience on this? Ps: if you tell me just that I’m god and that I’m alone so it can only be fair, it won’t really satisfy me unless one day, I’m in god mode with the memories of having lived through every lives, conscious pure people, victims and highly selfish unconsciouss motherfuckers. In this case yes it is fair