Ilan

I love you more <3

Yes

Sorry I did not express myself well, English is not me main language. I mean it would be a shame that you shine in all directions your whole life never really being really productive like a laser

Preety india, you have very good intuition but it goes in every direction you are like a witch that does not have balance and control over her magical power. I honestly think the best move you could do for the next years of your life and you are not gonna like it cause it will be mundane and boring and cause you procrastinated this work for a very long time is to calm and ground yourself. To go from the crazy witch which does not know how to direct her power to the balance confident witch that can focus all her energy like a laser. You are a light bulb. Become a laser, you’ll feel so much better. It will be worth it. It will be so much more satisfying for you but you have to take the long commitment of focusing on grounding and only you know what it means for you. You’ll have many many backlashes on the way if you do this but it will really be worth it. But also it would be a shame shining in all direction your whole life and never be able to burn out the love wall with your laser sword.

It seems that you are highly sensitive to your environment and it drives you mad. If you are this kind of girl. Stop exposing yourself so much to all this kind of energy. You have to find a way to manage this. Take responsibility for this. Also interest yourself on how to protect oneself from dark energy. Sahdguru has a lot of videos on this. The way you dress, some object you can wear to protect you. Spend more time alone to calm you down and and ground yourself and my last advice would be even though it is not the appropriate time right now to investigate your own selfishness and devil once you ground yourself and protect yourself from all external devils cause I won’t lie to you. It is not possible to feel as you feel without internal selfishness.

Why mahasamadhi Then? In your 30outrageous exploration in consciousness. You say, if you go deeper you are death. Nevertheless. You keep going deeper. To me it is just that in your 30outrageous exploration you started really to unground yourself. You maybe could have gone insane If you did not resist the infinite light but I highly doubt you would have destroyed the whole universe Leo. I believe if you go deep with psychedelics, take the time to integrate, ground yourself and go deeper as you yourself say. You can do deeper and deeper. And in fact you are as far away as infinite understanding as you were when you were a baby cause it is infinite. You can make fiber distinction forever with your mind. To me mahasamadhi does not make sense. Why masamhadhi when you can Always go deeper ? You can play the game of ground—>unground yourself forever as long as you want as a human. Mahasamadhi sounds just like a waste to me. why is there something rather than nothing? does free will exist ? what am I ? this question can be explore forever. I would bet you are the one on earth who has found the deeper response to this questions. But you can go deeper. There is no definitive answer as you often claim to me. And yes anyone that claims there is no definitive answer so I stop searching is a fool. But I think they have this point right that there is no definitive answer nor will there ever be. It is the nature of reality. (waiting for Leo to confront this and show me what I’m missing)

You are so delusional. It is like saying finite consciousness can take any amount of unconsciousness without falling into unconsciousness

Higher gifted spiritual empathic sensitive people are more likely to experience worst time of their lives using psychedelics than « sociopath assholes »

I would suggest to not try focusing on anything with shrooms. Let them decide where they’ll lead you. (Without overdosing it or they’ll lead you to insanity)

Bro, you are overthinking it. Apparently, you´ve chosen a very brutal way to go about it. Don’t expect to succeed. But you’ll sure get a lot of experience and improvement if you dare doing this.

The flower is so so so beautiful and so pure though. It open my mind to the fact that maybe it is just that to have a datura trip you have to have the cleanest possible soul. Maybe if someone whose soul‘s weight is as heavy as a photon he would have the most beautiful experience using datura. ps: if you read this, you certainly are not that pure soul I’m talking about. And this is just a supposition I’m making.

How to have a safe datura trip: do not take it

I called all my ex girl friend fat in a playful and loving way. It seems it was healing them and pushing them to go meta about it(in my experience) but maybe I’m just a devil

@Leo Gura what would happen if someone was 1 for the primary and 5 for the secondary ?

Love is blind

You made lots of mistake to me though

Hahaha

that is it in a nutshell

My claim is that I was this before being forced into psych wardhttps://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heyoka I would ask you to be openminded. I know you are not this kind of spiritual seeker at all. But basically, I naturally nurtured it my whole life. But basically, I discover you at 22. In took it to another level. Started psychedelics at 23. Which has made it uncontrollably violent and increase order of magnitude I would not even feel possible. I totally lost control this year and ended up in psychiatric hospital. I was doing this very violently and irresponsibly. If you want more info on me, go on my journal. This can be dangerous. I’m in hell right now because of this and lost my power that I nurtured my whole life. You can’t imagine the frustration and the pain I’m going through right now. I hope it serves as prevention for some future people. I hope my life failure serves well the infinite Goodness. I can’t stop regretting and telling myself what I could have done more for the world if the psych ward did not get me.

here is a really good map for those of you who want to love more

more than to want to warn the danger of psychedelics, I want to warn the danger of psych ward and forced treatements. Psychedelics made me just improve so much that it became violent, but if I had take a long rest rather to go in a psych ward, I would have ground myself again and life would have go on on another lvl. I think the greatest danger with psychedelics is not bad trip, it is not hell trip, it is not even drug induced psychosis, I had all of those and I know for a fact that all of this go away after a certain rest of not taking psychedelics again, moreover it allow an even more sain body mind that the one you had before psychedelics to take place after the "drug induced vulnerability" go away. I was just a lobster going for the next shell eating by a shark during the transition. Psychedelics are good violence pain, the pain that makes you more sain, more alive, more conscious(for me it made me even more conscious on a daily bases after a while). It is unbelievable, It really is true medicine, True healing of the body, It worked more than a strict green juice diet to heal my physical body on the long term. That is forced treatements which ruined my whole body mind. I know I have a lot of victim mentality here and I know that in the end, it was all on me. I should have been more cautious, more conscious of the high corruption within psych ward. And I told it as if I went compltetely mad but really it was not the case, really what I was doing was sharing raw love with the world. If you want the full story, I tryed to tell it the least biased possible way(it's hard when you're filled with hate) on my journal. I mean in the end I know eventhough I'm not conscious right now of this that I had full responsibility over my life and that I brought myself here. no one to blame but me. But you're right, it's turning to much around me. Let's stop this.

I would like to address a point here. Often time, we associate consciousness with ego death. But I believe them to be dissociated. One can have enormous level of consciousness with big ego(generally lead to madness) and another one can have low level of consciousness with little ego.

I will do it short, if you want the full story. Go on my journal but in October 2020 I went in psych ward after spiritual madness. The funny thing is that this madness was part of the healing. I was finally healing all of my traumas, I just needed some time but I’ve been catched. Forced highly dosage of antipsychotic which locked eveything in myself and stopped the healing process, since then I’m sick, completely dysfonctional, Completely low conscious. I want to vomit all day can’t get out of bed, filled with hate. I’m not seeing any solution except putting a bullet in my head. But recently I had the idea of maybe a miracle could happen to me. I never tried 5meo dmt as I was too scared to do it before and recently told myself maybe one trip could heal me ? I’m really scared cause my body is full of resistance now. I try lsd after the psych ward(the dosage that I would normally enjoy and be in heaven with before) and it was hell as my whole body resisted it. What are your thoughts on this ? I’m sorry to be such a leesh of love here but I’m deeply disconnected from love as I’m from health right now.

Keep in mind that it is absolute love no matter what you do. It sound like your ego wants to « impact massively the world »