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I have never felt emotions on even stupid heavy trips except the lack of them (e.g. peace = lack of anxiety). I wonder what you mean by the word too. I don't understand why people use certain words, mid-trips the terms for sure never occurred to me. It must be an instinctual label like I have used God after the fact.

No reincarnation. Just incarnation. Check it - a baby was just born, guess who the baby is? It's us, suckaaaa.

He posts the proclamation quite often. I saw a file he put up of a "conversation with God" he had while high as fuck on 5-MeO-MALT or something. I've done something similar before, you don't get answers outside your own belief, the "truth" has to be experienced... The truth can be spoken IMO (what is revealed as certain by psychedelic drugs), I could easily summarize that, but at the same time it can't be... Usually if you're speaking you're not experiencing. Possibly to convey the truths to normal people you'd need weird tricks like pushing your finger into the back of their head and asking where the feeling is in relation to their awareness. I think he's going a bit "Connor Murphy" in the ideas if the convo with God is his new pathway. When you're having back and forth Q&A's with "God", that is VERY prone to error. Experience on the other hand can't be erroneous, in the sense if I tell you I'm seeing a pink elephant, even if it's not really there the experience of seeing it is absolute and without question... He already knew the actual undeniable truths after his first 5-MeO-DMT trip.

Yes I had PTSD symptoms from freebase DMT. I have mentioned before, the flashbacks were so bad I'd come to and look around for the pipe etc thinking I'd just done drugs, but I was totally sober and hadn't used drugs... It can get severe. I was close to calling for psychiatric help but the symptoms subsided after a week and then only a little bit bad for another few weeks with intermittent night terrors.

Leo has said many times he is way more enlightened than the Buddha and Jesus, so I don't think he would agree with you.

Same experience but the dude was also nude except for trainers and a t shirt.

Maybe they shouldn't. I'll never touch those things again. Until you've been reduced to screaming crying and clawing, they can seem like the ultimate panacea for every problem in existence.

That idea isn't really frightening. When bad gets bad, it can give you PTSD easily.

@TDLH Just so you know, San Pedro, Peruvian Torch (etc) is mescaline. Mescaline Hcl is very rare, but can be found on dark corners of the web.

Feeling like this entire life was just a dream and you've actually always just been "there" in looney insane abstract cartoon-world... E.g. "remembering" you were actually always a floor tile on an infinite floor made of linoleum... You totally lose your mind. Be careful where you do this as you can scream or scream-laugh uncontrollably. You literally can't stop, it's like vomiting laughter. Could get cops called etc. as it will sound alarming.

Very real during the trip. Heavy sense of deja vu (or maybe that was just when going back to it, it was about 10 years ago I used this stuff a few times lol)... When sobering up after, it's just like you had a weird drug trip.

Yeah you could get artistic inspiration for sure. Abstract surreal infinitely repeating stuff... The effect is similar to when you have mirrors opposite each other and when you look into it you see a sort of infinite tunnel, and you completely lose depth perception so your entire field of vision is just a flat blob. Very odd. Interesting though.

Folklore pertaining to Salvia... This is said because smoking the extract is like downing a bunch of shots rather than slowly sipping beers, you get utterly and completely messed up smoking the 30x (etc) extracts. Salvia is wholly uninsightful, I used it when I was 18/19 and interested in surrealism. It never altered my worldview at all. It's just weird and surreal, and for most people intensely horrible. Changa is smoked, Ayahuasca is drank. There is also "Changa" without the MAOIs, which should be called "enhanced leaf" instead. But nobody uses the terms right so just assume MAOIs are in it and Google the interactions of MAOIs to ensure safety. Ayahuasca always contains MAOIs. Trip duration and intensity is often directly related to how fast a given drug floods your system.

@Inliytened1 When I think back on prominent experiences, I don't recall them too well, but I know one was a dissociation of all things from what would be "pure" awareness. And I think that one showed the fact of no self, because all of "me" was just an object, and the object was just something appearing to pure awareness. That pure awareness when dissociated from all appearances was literally nothing. I recall a "jester" pointing into the foreground of my mind at "me", and it became then keenly obvious that awareness was what I WAS, and it was impossible to get behind and look at what I was like trying to use your eyes to see your eyes, etc. Other experiences removed the attachment of awareness from any boundary. An out of body experience as awareness no longer bounded itself by the brain trick which makes it feel as though it is contained within some small aspect of "being" like the shape of my body, as opposed to the entire production of mind (which any hardcore scientist would readily state is the only way through which we experience the world), and it just encompassed everything, and then there was just perceiving. Just mind. Both experiences were equally valid but presented the facts in two different ways, as pure awareness = subject and its contents = objects. And also as just experiencing/mind as a singular unit... An experience of emptiness, and the experience of unity as mind.

I'll list some things: 1. Awareness has no spatial dimension. 2. All that has ever been known is the mind. Both subject and object are just mind. Or maybe you would say all that is ever known is perceiving. Something like that, same meaning. 3. Awareness never leaves "now" and never leaves "here"... Now and here, what those are, doesn't change. Moments move through now if anything, space moves through here, from the PoV of awareness. 4. If all form was theoretically removed from awareness, what would be left is nothing. "Pure" formless awareness is nothing. This may also be "emptiness". ... Other things would be thoughts etc. Those are experiential certainties. An experiential certainty of omniscience, I mean I've heard people call it an unpassable door. You're never going to come back from a trip and be able to list that week's lottery numbers, or be able to describe the decor in my bedroom. "I" can describe the decor, and "I" am reading this post on your screen, so I see that in one sense "I" am omniscient. But neither of us could just smoke some drugs/meditate and then one of us describes the other's bedroom on a post from the other end.

It isn't false. I know what these experiences are I've been through them many times. There are a few very intense and definitively true revelations which are absolutely not delusion and could not possibly be delusion... "Absolute truths", not anything which could be one way or another... These absolute truths can be listed. The other claims or "revelations" could be drug delusion easily. Some dude here thinks he's an interdimensional angel messenger for Jesus because a drug convinced him? Omniscience is found through logical inquiry moreso. Ideas of "other people" are not present during trips, let alone knowledge of seeing through them etc.

DMT changes after repeated use. Changa is basically smokeable Ayahuasca (as in, MAOIs + n,n-DMT - NOT any "meo")... Changa is very different from freebase, I assume Aya very different from Changa... Changa is more like a classical psychedelic. Freebase seems closer to Salvia Divinorum. If you keep using DMT, after a while it will make sure you never touch it again. These are dangerous substances which can easily cause PTSD symptoms. Better to approach the substance such that you take smaller doses while in some kind of meditative state.

There is very little profound revelation in that collapse. It is literally just making obvious that all you know is the contents of mind, emptiness (your substantive nothingness), the subjectivity of everything, etc. There is something to be discovered within that but it's not like you just suddenly know everything like the answer to questions like that. Some aspects of proclaimed "truth" could easily be pure delusional psychosis from drugs (or from any altered state). Some things are DEFINITE. Beyond any question. Knowable. Then other things which are just psychosis or faith.

The mechanism behind this needs to be explained... It might have something to do with the non-existence of time? Really I'm not sure. Of course if space doesn't exist, every single awareness must be "here". So if you imagine seeing from another person's eyes, rather than trying to imagine a different awareness too or turning around your own 180 degrees in space - like third person. Understand it is exactly what you call I. That would be IT for every single living creature. It is THAT I you refer to in first person for everyone. I is substantially nothing. Without content of form it would literally be nothing at all. But you have this I, and how this dissociation happens I'm not entirely sure. It's like slices layered in the same exact location. Superimposed... But I don't get how this works, if that I is me I am literally seeing from your eyes if you have sight at all. I don't really get how this is happening.

@BipolarGrowth Belief without proof is just faith. There are some things which are absolutely knowable via experience alone, not reliant upon faith at all... The rest may as well be Christianity. After the proven knowable elements, only thought/logic inquiry can be of help if proof is desired. Else a person is just being religious. And then I might as well just pick up a Bible, what's the difference?

@The0Self I think only thoughts and logic after the fact can end materialist paradigms. The few absolute truths revealed on drugs pertain to mind and the nature of it; the total dimensionlessness of awareness, emptiness, things along those lines are beyond question. The other drug delusions, when the boundary ends and I start begging others to tell me whether or not they're me. Or screaming I broke the universe. Or that I met "God"... I don't think there's anything special and definitively true in any of that as compared to the direct insight into what awareness is. The lack of a "self" substance is another truth you can find, since you can find what your self is, is just a changing object appearing to something substantially nothing. I doubt anyone else has had some secret further proofs. All we know is the mind, and knowing the nature of it is all we can be sure of via drugs. Logic and reason is required for the rest.

That was also the exact analogy which came to me intuitively after a stupid high dose psych combo with freebase DMT and acid. DMT trips for me have followed Advaita Vedanta teachings to the letter. That is how I found all this to begin with. The other ideas certainly never presented themselves, and some elements may well be drug induced schiz tier delusions in any case.

@The0Self Right, but it's like, apart from a few total facts, if you reflect on much of it it's not possible to say whether it's true or just drug delusions.

How can every experience be trusted? If I'm so high I'm giggling promising my bedroom wall I won't ruin the joke by telling everyone they're us, I don't from that come away thinking that must have all been legit. Few things are directly revealed beyond any doubt, as in to the degree of 100% proof, undisputable. Although those elements are beyond ANY doubt, some other things could easily be drug delusions. You can't come up with much by just sitting there not thinking. Only the few self evident facts that become clear and withstand all later scrutiny.