RMQualtrough

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  1. I like @AdeptusPsychonautica, I find him genuine. Don't forget, Leo is as much a human as you or me. He is exactly as prone to delusions as any of us. That means he is as at risk as us of overdoing hallucinogens and starting to go off the rails with telekinesis or magical healing etc. Leo is not better than a spec of sand, but also not worse than the entire milky way. That is what total unity entails. No part of it can ever be better OR worse than another... However MANY people into self help are LOOKING for someone to be subservient to. They find anyone with any kind of presence like Tony Robbins and prop them up as their personal messiah... Meaning if their chosen messiah, like any other human, goes down a dark path or falls into mental illness or whatever, these people all follow.
  2. As many know, nobody ever really comes back from a serious DMT breakthrough. Even though the memory of the heaviest breakthrough ever is so faded that I can only recall about 3 seconds of it, hazily, I still try to understand what happened. I remember the euphoric afterglow... I remember knowing I am not more important than a single grain of sand, but also not less important than an entire solar system. I remember understanding right aftef that spiritual practices are a waste of life, as everyone is equal and their entire lifetime of spirituality/good deeds erased when they die. I remember speaking to Shiva (I was VERY heavily materialistic, had zero spiritual leaning, and in fact Hindu characters have always looked frightening to me). I thought it was a woman. I know now it's a man... I remember Googling "monist religions" (yes the ego death was SO intense from the 5 tab acid DMT combo that I became religious) and then finding Advaita Vedanta for the first time. I remember reading a lot about it then. I remember the dissociation and awful derealization that began after further usage. ... But I remember it was very "we" are one. I have tripped so much, on LSD alone (rather than the acid DMT combos I became religious due to) I had similar abstract realizations of repetition, and of "slithers of being", like I am slither #1948127 in some infinite honeycomb. My own being split into various characters. All had their own personalities and spoke among themselves in the voice of the Friends characters. They were all distinct aspects of me... I had a programmable synth. You program a beat into each square and it plays them in order. I had an abstract acid thought that my entire existence is like that. Where I am programmed into squares like this and I in fact die every single moment. A clown jester PROVED my inherent emptiness to me. It did not just tell me. It pointed at the formless me in the foreground and I was pulled far back. Back behind even my ego. Back behind even the thought of "I", an experiential neti-neti process where I was left as literal nothing... But I also remember the ego deaths where the sense of any locale died and my consciousness became sizeless and all encompassing. ... But back to the main trips where I did heavy acid trips with the DMT smoked on the peak... I have forever been trying to understand those experiences since. There was certainly oneness and unity. But a "we". "We are existence itself, we are eternal" etc. Rather than "I" am. "We" are literally one... When sober I cannot comprehend that simultaneous separation ("we") and the absolute total unity ("are one" - literally) that accompanied. Maybe it's not comprehensible... Laughing with what was at the time stupendously obvious to the point it was hilarious: "I know, they (other living beings) don't even realize they're us!!!" Stifling fits of laughter...
  3. Never. I dare that you try to stop appearances from being. Time and space goes away, so there's no gap of non-experience that could ever have actuality. We are a source of insane chaotic uncontrollable creation. No matter how much we try to still the mind, it never works. Being IN cessation is never experienced. I am terrified by the implications of inevitability... E.g. one ego that can never be "enlightened" suffering forever in the most pain possible in an eternal black void. Ahh!
  4. It's a garbage pursuit. I'm just obsessed with it because once a SERIOUS DMT trip happens, you never come back. You'll always be wanting to understand that.
  5. Of course it does yeah. If nobody felt pain etc (I mean relatively) I'd just shoot anyone I dislike, rape anyone I find attractive, and rob old ladies when I need cash. If they are sentient beings then there is empathy which comes into play. I don't entirely know this, I have had encounters with "monism". During said encounters, I didn't actually have these musings anymore so it's not like I realized one way or another. I think I do believe other creatures are sentient. When the Buddha spoke about "consciousness" he did something really bizarre and divided it up into things like eye-consciousness as though each sense has its own consciousness... None of these people knew IMO, not for sure, hence you have people FAR more dedicated and "gifted" than Leo or w.e. who fundamentally disagree regarding Atman... I don't think you can know DEFINITIVELY but, you can know "we are all one" in whatever flavor. That's the realization all these figures had. And experientially I suppose it was the same for all of them. Interpretation and questions/answers come after.
  6. But I'm not controlling this, and also not controlling many aspects of my nighttime dreams either. That creeps me out... What IS "imagination" etc. Who decided to put a planet at X coordinates. It's very creepy.
  7. A person and an alien walk towards a signpost. To the human it looks like it walked a distance of 100 metres and the signpost itself is like, a pole with a wooden arrow (w.e.). To the alien, it may well look like it walked 5 metres, and the post itself might look like an eagle heiroglyph or some shit (because there's no reason this couldn't happen). But both the human and the alien reach the "signpost". Its actuality can't be anything perceived, so it can't actually be "like" anything. As in, that is not just a theory, it's impossible anything could be "like" something without perception. So wtf is it. It has to be nothing, because things are perceptions. But the nothing has some kind of shape and form to it, so beings with completely alien subjective experiences can agree there is "SOMETHING" there. What is the mechanism for the placement of "unspecified-nothingness-thing"? Are infinite versions of the same thing there at once? What is it though, that places it "there" at a specific spot in the landscape.....
  8. Drugs. Hallucinogen propaganda merchants love preaching about their rainbows and butterfly fairytale love bullshit... But in reality if you get raped by it hard enough, you're not coming back... It just straight up deletes reality, and you'll then forever try to comprehend it.
  9. "Things" are made of perception. E.g. falling tree = no sound, as the thud is a product of the mind in response to a stimulus... Floating teacup is made of shapes/color (sight) and feel (touch). No teacup symbol when not observed. Other humans are made of perceptions. You don't actually have a face when you are alone lmfao. Because it's made out of sight, and without a mirror you don't see it (maybe you can see your nose kinda, or eyebrow hairs)... I guess we can feel it... But it's not "looking like" a face until a perception makes it look that way. Remove all perceiving of other people and see them vanish into nothingness. Imagine standing in a noisy crowded train station...... You go completely deaf, the chatter ends, everything goes silent. You go completely blind, the crowd vanishes. They are still there, but now you see their true "default" form: Nothingness. Which is I think also infinity... There is nowhere for them to be other than right back here... See all locations and perceptions in general appear to the same field which is itself 100% static. No matter what person it is, they're always going to find themselves static locked "here", and "otherness" seemingly locked in the "out there"... Of course the "out there" is a mental projection as described.
  10. If a person discusses solipsism without equally disregarding their "own" experience 5 seconds ago, then the position is legit moronic.
  11. It's just being terribly described, and maybe even on purpose, an inflammatory buzzword is being used. Nobody looking in a mirror thinks the image in the mirror has awareness inside of its head. It's just an image. Of course it is nowhere in the image, it is back here. Look at other people. It is the same. Awareness is not living inside the image of their human body. That is just an image. It's back here. Also true of animals, aliens, anywhere where there is experience, the awareness is never residing inside of the image of the being... Now you get it. The life of another person could be considered something like an event you took part in but don't remember. If you see photos of you as a very young toddler, where you can see you were present for a specific event and thus KNOW you experienced it, even though you have no memory of it... For what possible reason does that not also apply to the experiences of other living beings?
  12. Most likely it's just poorly communicated and also nobody understands it at all. It could also just be psychotic delusion, of course, if the person remembers an event from yesterday or something and sees that as different from the experiences being had by another person. To be consistent with "solipsism" you would have to disavow every prior moment of your life in the same manner as other people's lives are disavowed. It's not complicated or mysterious unless someone is purposefully trying to make it sound that way for "le epic guru points" or w.e.
  13. Not at all, just Stage Brown, for Brown-nosing. Lmao.
  14. I'm in an altered state. Other people are created unconsciously via perception. What gives another person "thingness" is the same perception that gives dead inert matter its "thingness", in other words it's via sensing that other people are created as "things". A bat may perceive a person with its sonar vision, but of course the "thingness" of the person rendered via the bat would be completely alien, as the person would be made of sonar sight. From a human perspective, the people are created in audio, visual, etc. it's perception that gives them human shape and the sound of their voice. A blind person's creation of a human is alien to a sighted person's representation of the same. There is nothing preventing a human from appearing as tiny symbols or sounding like foghorns, the creation is entirely subjective. Many people can agree on what the symbol represents, but the symbol itself will be subjective to the perceptions of the individual. The fakeness of time allows for backlogging of events. There is no event you are not present for. If you enter a coma, coming out of that coma you will learn of people's prior experiences whilst you were in that coma. The assumption is that your presence was not there while those events happened. In actuality the presence remained. The events took place instantaneously and presently, as do all events. The entire material world is subjective like a dream, in that it is made up of perceptions and something akin to """imagination""". Like the creation of people, the whole material world is created on the fly via perception consisting of whatever sensory input that may be. Something which is not perceived cannot have "thingness" because any "thingness" is reliant on perception. Water boils if you walk out of the room, but it is not in the kitchen LOOKING or SOUNDING like a boiling kettle. Without perception it is not a thing. All things without perception appear like the world when you are in a coma. It doesn't appear at all and there is no passage of time and space. The passage of time and space is something that is perceived. Without perception all events are immediate and without thingness. All events leading up to now were immediate. All living beings reside within you. There is no external material world. All points of view take place within you through different masks which is what the ego is. When another human being experiences reality the "I" which creates reality around them, consisting of their sensory creations, is the same one residing back within you. The entire world from any perspective appears from the same "I" through which the world is subjectively crafted around you. All of reality is subjective as all "thingness" is subjective. Objective facts which make up "consensus reality" are sort of like mass hallucination. It's not the ego self which creates reality, the ego self creates a subjective representation of a reality which is outside the scope of its limited self. The imagination/creation of unperceived elements is outside the scope of the small-s self. Another human being is like a visual avatar representing an element of your own mind. Your OWN self is also a representation of an aspect of your own mind, and is equally as unreal as "others". You don't choose your thoughts, and you don't choose the thoughts of others. It all appears unfolding by itself within the same field. Lucidity will always be lost. That is good. I'm losing lucidity right now and that is good. When lucid you only exit the game like stirring from a nighttime dream. It is fleeting and falling back asleep is inevitable. This process is forever. Any interpretation of goodness or badness is subjective to the ego like any appearance is. Nothing can in actuality be inherently good or bad, as good or bad is reliant upon the interpretation of the individual, which itself will of course always just be an appearance taking place within existence. It crafts its actuality via subjective perception. The sheer awareness of this supercedes all reality, as all reality can only ever be an appearance within it, obviously. I.e., no matter what sensory "things" appear, it will always be reliant upon awareness to give it an actuality. Without awareness, the visual representations along with time and space have no actuality, like being comatose there is no "thing" in absence of awareness. Awareness cannot be destroyed because it is by itself nothingness, and there is nowhere for nothingness to go, and no way to destroy nothingness. This is the meaning of emptiness: Awareness by itself is nothing, and the contents of awareness robbed OF that awareness are also nothing. Nothing can "be" without the presence of awareness as it is all skipped over like a coma. Time and space are a form of substrate through which experience takes place. Without experience there is, obviously, no experience of time and space. Now I have lost lucidity... Oh well...
  15. Another correct take explained in a clear and obvious manner. Where is the following woman's "I"? Is it in the head of the image of her in the mirror? Is it in the head of her standing in front of the mirror? Of course not, it is here behind you. You are the one having the experience in the precise exact way you were the one who experienced yesterday. An entirely different message to saying "lol bro she like, is an NPC tee hee". Which when the teaching method is poor quality is what lunatics of course roll with.
  16. Matter is a 1:1 representational interface of our dream, that is why mind and matter are completely glued together such that toying with the matter which represents the act of "being human" (your brain) will alter the lived experience of "being human". It can get extremely alien indeed. Especially on Salvinorin A. The Big Bang is the most obvious artifact of our complete unity. Exploring matter IS exploring "mind", like if you fall asleep right now and explore the substance of your dream. The substance in your nightly dream which appears physical is the activity of your mind. Exploring that substance then, is of course exploring mind. Because that's what matter is.
  17. Well, they are technically empty suits, only because they all reside in the place you call "I". The place called I is behind the appearance of space and time. Locations appear to it. There could of course never be a perspective from any location other than the place called I. You can turn 360 degrees in every direction trying to change the orientation and locale of I, and find the only thing moving is the appearing world. Nobody else has an I that resides in a different location, nor of course is the I different at all. See yourself in a mirror? Where is the awareness of the person in the mirror? Can you guess where the awareness of the people you talk to is? Uh oh... We just broke our game. Time to go to the mental hospital.
  18. Read this post again. Who wrote it? But you're reading it now. How do you know you wrote it? Who wrote THIS post? Do you only think you wrote the posts you remember writing? If you don't have a memory of writing a post, does that mean someone other than you wrote it? Did you only experience things you remember experiencing? What is the name of the moment in which you experienced every event you have ever known? Oh. Game over.
  19. See how brains are symbols representing the actuality of a person. Of course there is no person without a brain because a brain is what a person looks like when viewed as an object in the world... It isn't responsible for actually producing the thing it is known within, it is a symbol representing the process of person-ing. Person-ing will always "look like" a brain as that is the symbol that accompanies it. It will always "act like" a brain because that is the imagined object which represents "person-ing" in the seemingly external dream world. I.e. the symbol represents "person-ing" in the same way a computer game object represents a string of code. Manipulating the computer game object from inside the game is of course just altering code in reality. The object is not itself creating the code, it can only ever represent that code in interface fashion. The nature of our dream's code is imagination.
  20. Just close your eyes and feel your presence. There we are. That's where I am. I don't reside out here, I'm there. Now do you feel it? We are all there. There is nothing outside of us and we are not an "us" because we aren't plural. We all live there, projecting this world around us. And yet we are somehow surprised we share the same dream, even though it is just your dream so of course it is the same one. Existential crisis? Who can help you? Me? But I'm you... Uh oh... Nevermind, the crisis is an appearance made of thoughts. Let's fall back asleep into our own eternal unstoppable creation. Other people are just you lost inside your own dream (typically), their lives are experienced by you just as this one is. See how we create reality by perceiving ourselves (material is the substance of our dream), see how we create many things from one. See how this is our dream. See how I am you. See how the image of you in a mirror is an appearance and nothing more. See that the place we really reside is here.
  21. Not sure, the state was fleeting and now I lost grasp so I don't know anymore. All "awakening" is appearance, it is reliant on awareness (AKA itself) to know that it "is". It is recognition of itself and nothing more. It is self awareness. There is of course no self awareness in lieu of awareness. When self aware, awareness is not aware of itself as a "thing", just aware of its own being. By itself as mentioned it is not any thing. It is only difficult to name what it is in its purest form because names and words are appearances within it, which are a type of "thing". All words and names are representative symbols appearing within it. Sort of like how no matter what image you project onto a screen, the image will always just be a modulation of the screen (something appearing within the screen). These appearances are empty like awareness itself as mentioned, and so it can't be captured by crafting a word (word = appearance), only by being it which you presently are... To be exact, any projection onto a screen will be appearance, even if the appearance on that screen says "THIS IS A SCREEN DUMMY!", the screen is only noticed by a shift in perspective which sort of looks "through" the appearance to the bigger picture. There is nothing spooky or unreachable pertaining to its wordlessness, it is just that words are always appearances, and appearances must be seen through in order to see the backdrop in which they appear, that's all. You can speak about it easily as it's the only thing you could ever know. There is of course no such thing as knowing without awareness. There is no event which takes place without our singular presence as without our presence there is no such thing as the passage of time or the appearance of space. You have experienced this many times when you have a dreamless sleep, which acts almost like a wormhole from a first person perspective. You might think that the "I" through which I am telling you about the world I perceive is in a different location from the one that you probably feel surrounds you/you feel is behind you. It is not. It is that. Just like the you that you see in the mirror does not have awareness inside of the head of the image in the mirror, the person-symbol you see does not have awareness inside of its head. Space and so also location will always be an appearance in it. The I is location-less... To maintain grip on this is not possible for me at all.
  22. I'm high, I can feel my oneness with others (not really, well, sort of).
  23. What I mean is, when the mask of Joe Schmoe is removed everyone is absolutely identical.