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@lostingenosmaze Leo will probably be able to tell you. His videos are super long, I don't recall now which one it was. But that summarizes magick well. The miracle of levitation is performed by picking up the candle with your hands. When the jiva/ego starts to think IT has control, people start spouting off The Matrix tier falsehoods and New Age cope. Someone very recently posted a video by Swami Sarvapriyananda on this topic, but in that case was on the topic of why reading minds is not possible.

@Loba Science is the healer bro. What are medicines made of? What are bodies made of? Medicines and bodies are "consciousness" (Brahman). Leo realized God levitates a candle by picking it up with his hands. Not by focusing on it real hard with psy powers etc. The world around you is not separate from "God". Science is direct exploration of God.

What did I have to do with the locking and unlocking? Half the threads on the forum are locked because you lock everything to feel important or whatever. Pure unadulterated ego. More ego than a random stranger on the street... Stop with this.

Leo wouldn't appreciate that. I've had quite good exchanges with him, probably because we've both used psychs a lot... Poor Leo has even had to unlock the threads you randomly locked for no reason to fuel this constant egoic power trip. Maybe stop that? Magick = delusion = ignorance = jiva level thoughts. Jiva trying to control Brahman. How can images on the screen seize control of the screen? You're in Maya... These ideas make a mockery of nondual tradition.

Dude lol... We just suffered a global pandemic. Why didn't one of these healers in the "hollow bone state", walk around a bunch of hospital wards and heal everyone. Instead we were locked up indoors for two years. It's not legit bro...

Psychic powers have nothing to do with any form of realization. Magick makes a laughing stock out of all non-dual traditions, especially the excuses used to avoid proving claimed powers. Guess how "God" levitates a candle? He uses hands to pick it up... Or maybe a hurricane... Or tying it to a bird... Or maybe giving it little RC helicopter propellors... Or maybe some of that invisible string magicians use, hm...

@Inliytened1 Healing abilities is delusion. It resides alongside telekinesis and other forms of magick where the ego attempts to control the whole. All thoughts and desires are always going to be appearances. When the appearances think they can control what they appear in, that's when lunacy happens I'm reminded of when Leo in a state of psychedelic delirium attempted to levitate a candle. Then, he picked up the candle and laughed: "This is how God levitates a candle."

Salvia Divinorum completely ends the brain's ability to process depth. The entire visual field becomes one incomprehensible flat blob image.

Yeah, there's no other way it could ever be if a person is identifying entirely with the entire unit. You can only ever identify anything as better or worse from a position of splitting the singular unit into this and that. Without a this and a that, there's no comparisons to be drawn. Hence the life of a bacteria is as important as your entire life, is as important as the entire universe. My experience of this changed my view on reality permanently for sure.

That would be the only accurate view, also. No matter how "awakened" a person is, once the person is gone (which is necessary in total ego dissolution of course) what is left is completely identical to everyone and everything else. Anyone hoping that they will do a bunch of "spiritual" shit in this life and somehow receive a reward upon their death for doing so, is sorely mistaken indeed. Lmao. The #1 takeaway for me was always that. And that I am no more important than a single grain of sand, and also no less important than an entire Solar System.

These sorts of things are the end game topics that sages debate. I wonder if there is any way of definitively knowing? We have all experienced the eternal Now. And yet, is there anything in direct experience that could prove a discernment between all events occuring simultaneously, vs. each "Now" event being created on the fly. Hm......

You haven't done anything wrong lol. There's nothing in any of your posts that could be construed as offensive.

Intelligence is a creation. Understanding is a creation. Control is a creation. The constant undulations of dualities appearing and subsequently collapsing cannot be understood because understanding is, of course, a duality. It's made of thought which appears. Understanding only happens in the presence of something limited appearing. Yes even on 5-MeO-DMT etc when people describe white void. White is limited. Even seeing black, the black has to be NOT blue, NOT red, in order to appear as black. The correct way to see infinity is to be completely blind... To hear infinity, deaf. Etc. Because all something is finite. To "become" infinity, even though you technically are just like random heroin junkies are, would be to become nothing. Because only nothing is not finite or limited in form... Probably the blackouts or whiteouts on DMT and 5-MeO-DMT respectively, are a true complete merge with infinity, rather than the trips that are recalled. When tripping that hard, it is like toeing the event horizon of a black hole, we are sort of exploring it but if entered, we cease to exist. Deep sleep and anaesthesia are more "nondual" than any trip. But obviously the human ego doesn't see value in that (or in the psychedelic blackouts) because it wants to know something. The human desire for knowledge is SO unbelievably strong, that even when people are STABBED OR SHOT and dying, it's common for them to say "why?" Even when dying the human desires understanding over almost anything else...

My grandpa has tinnitus since years ago. He's 83 now. I think over time a person gets used to it as far as I know from him.

Talking from the inside of it, the stigma against medication for mental health is insane and needs to stop. I went without medication for about 8 years since it began solely because medication is demonized, and I believed the propaganda against it. I suffered much more through those years than I would have if I had done what a doctor recommended which is medication. I take my brain medicine every single day just as I would take heart medicine if I was diagnosed with a heart condition. It is especially bad when it relates to the type of issues I have, as anxiety and depressive type disorders are seen as something you can "just get over". It's not treated seriously at all. Hyperventilating with fear every time I walk into an office, or when I was a student being unable to enter a classroom, seems to fly under the radar of receiving the type of care it ought to.

@Inliytened1 What psychedelics are good for is to heighten acceptance. They do not lessen the mental illness, but may lessen the suffering resulting from failing to accept yourself. Understanding reality is merely unfolding by itself, I do not feel there is anything to fight or that anything could be different than it was always going to be... I still feel the symptoms, but less so the self judgement that would typically accompany it, where I chastise myself for being so weird etc. @Loba I think attitudes to mental health are dangerous for reasons you mentioned... If you have heart disease, obviously you pop a pill for it daily. But with mental illness there's this delusion that you can "will it away" by thinking the perfect thought or whatever. Something that I am realizing is that the more unity is understood, the more the materialist framework makes sense: e.g. matter IS NOT SEPARATE FROM MIND, meaning that you cannot alter one without altering the other. Because they are the same exact thing... I don't think we have control over mind any more than we have control over abilities to fly or levitate objects or bend objects like The Matrix. As material is essentially a perceived representation of the dream. The grey squiggly brain a GUI representing awareness "person-ing". As such, a lot could be learned from observing the material world, when it is understood that matter IS mind. Not matter doing something then mind following, or vice versa. The material world could tell us a LOT about the workings of "God" and death etc. when this is completely understood and explored. Altering the brain with medicine IS altering this experience of "person-ing". And all of us are merely riding a wave of unfolding reality anyway...

They ask at regular intervals. But of course directly before and after are among those intervals. A problem I found, which I tried to mitigate using the boxes for additional comments, is that it does not take into account general life happenings. IIRC this was during COVID and the lockdown rules were changing frequently. But also for example, when I went back on medication, I had a follow up quiz some time after. There was no place to ask whether I have altered any medication I am taking etc. So improvements I would have to report based on the timescale they ask (usually "in the last two weeks") were actually due to the Zoloft I was now taking again. I added this information in the boxes but I doubt many bother. In my own experience, Western medicine is a superior means of treatment. There was nowhere in the questionnaires where this experience would be reflected... If you are using psychedelics very regularly etc, there is an effect similar to when schizophrenics stop taking meds and are convinced they are better. Despite outwardly spiralling... You don't notice the illness creeping back up on you because it is quite slow... Look at Connor Murphy. He was completely psychotic, convinced that he was completely mentally well doing better than ever. It happens. There's a lot I could write, but definitely I would recommend Western medicine. I would not recommend psychedelic drugs for mental health issues. No way. It might help with self acceptance WITH having the condition though.

Mentally ill people need medical intervention, it is really that simple. Talk therapy is just quacks from college with a Cornflakes box "degree". Psychiatry is practiced by doctors who have graduated from medical school, and are legally allowed to prescribe any medicines their client requires. I have certainly lost my life to AvPD (as in the life I would have had without developing this condition). Western medicine allows me to do normal day to day tasks without having a panic attack, which means I can at least live and exist without panicking every time I pass someone on the street. Psychedelics do not work for mental illness. I took part in these studies actually. What they do is send you questionnaires with sliding scale answers. Firstly if you take one of these tests 3 times in the very same day, most likely you will get a different result. But removing outliers, it also did not take into account the "afterglow" effect... When I was using psychedelics often, I stopped taking my anti-anxiety medicine (Zoloft). I answered the questionnaire as though I was miraculously cured etc. Well then 6 months later or something like that, I was randomly becoming suicidal every other week or so. I went back on medication and became well again after ~2 to 4 weeks... It's like when schiz people stop taking meds, you don't always notice as you're slowly slipping back into illness.

NOT IN A GROUP but I became three entities at once. I became infinite awareness, some sort of hallucinated deity, and my ego self, all at the same time. It caused a strange effect because my infinite self was above the hallucinated deity, but my ego felt below it. I spoke to the deity which was my ego self talking, and spoke to it as though it were a superior to me. While simultaneously being it and encompassing it, and being more powerful than the deity. I suppose the closest way to imagine that, is to imagine you are an infinitely powerful fly on the wall watching a conversation between two aspects of yourself.

Reincarnation is every moment if you identify as the ego. If you identify as what the ego appears in, you leave the cycle of death and rebirth... The cycle continues here so your human self character continues dying and being reborn, but you recognize that is not you.

@Adamq8 Without any issue, these things are aspects of it. Is "God" all knowing? Well yes because any knowing that ever happens takes place in it. Sentient and intelligent? Well we are sentient, and we are it, so yes. It will tick any box for God as far as I can tell, as any property that exists IS it. But this is the thing, that all of that is happening within itself. Order, intelligence, understanding, is all taking place within it in some form of finitude. There's nothing outside ALL the undulations of infinity which can observe or control it. If there was something outside, that would become the new infinity. And so on and so on forever. The total infinity does not have any border. Borders only exist where there is finitude of some sort. There's no such thing as outside of it (and also thus no such thing as inside, because inside only exists in relation to outside).

This is the exact sort of sensation I got in the specific trips described where I would be screaming, crying, etc. It was like being God at the mercy of its own chaotic infinite nature. I've used hallucinogens, and especially DMT, A LOTTTT. After that trip I put it away, and that time I genuinely mean I put it away forever. I will never touch psychedelics again. Although I don't think there is control and I viscerally encountered something where I could never reach a border, what it felt like when I put this shit away (still tripping) knowing for sure I would never touch it again, is like God shaking his own hand in agreement to never speak of or recognize it again. Like two people who just killed someone. Lol. It felt like a secrecy pact...

I don't think he made it up, I think I know what he went through which was total ego death. I think he calls it God because it contains sentience (we are sentient, we are it). He does not know the totality of mind. If he did, he could tell you what your bedroom looks like. Leo is especially obsessed with understanding, he went to college for engineering at one point and IIRC graduated uni with a philosophy degree, that's how he works. But when ANYONE comes down from a trip, or even during a trip, the moment thought starts, interpretations tend to creep in. Thus Leo himself has gone down rabbitholes of attempting telekinesis etc., because he has tried to interpret something. I am always doing this also. With very serious trips you never really come back because the mind will forever want to understand and process what happened to it. But it can't... I did recognize myself as empty/nothing. Definitively. But this was a recognition taking place within the appearance of the finite (I was aware of whatever mad patterns and jester things I was hallucinating at that time)... I have actually blacked out on DMT. And been under general anaesthetic. I suspect that is the most intimate we as characters can get with "it", yet we get absolutely nothing from these experiences because there isn't an experience. We have to be on the event horizon to actually take something away from it, rather than being totally in it.

Essentially I think you can recognize being it, but never step outside of that undulation to observe it in totality. I think I posted this because I don't enjoy the Actualized.org lingo of assigning what sounds like control to the self. E.g. 'you "imagined" your parents' etc. I don't like that, it makes it sound like a decision. Infinite intelligence, omnipotence, whatever is said is going to be a product of it. I don't think it has control itself, rather control would have to be a product of it. The most frightening panic attacks on trips have often been when the borders vanish in ALL directions. What is so intensely frightening is that there is absolutely nowhere to grab. You can't understand it, you can't control it, because wherever you try to grab hold of something, it's just not there. You can reach endlessly in any direction for some sort of border you can grip onto and thus control, and never find one. EVER. Because there ISN'T one. And because of that lack of anywhere to grip, your mind goes completely psychotic. A human mind NEEDS duality to function. It NEEDS a border to orient itself with and something it can grab and manipulate. I had many trips where consciousness became dimensionless. There were a few very weird like that though, and I'd be screaming and crying throughout. I don't think there is a creatOR... Just is-ness... I don't think there's a sentient being deciding to imagine the universe.

Omfg LOL.