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But will we ever know if yesterday ever happened..... DID you really experience turning 10 years old? Or did you blink in to this moment alone... Sometimes this bothers me when I'm on the treadmill, because I think if my character only exist in a single moment, moment to moment, it's going to be eternally in that frame of being pissed off and out of breath on a treadmill. Lmao.

It's demonstrably false, easily, but you have to remember they have a different idea of what materialism (etc) means. Everybody with a high school education knows that what we interact with is a production of our minds. Our HS teachers taught us, light enters the eye, brain interprets it, brain makes an image, we see that image. They think that non-materialist metaphysics means, like, if you leave a room while water is boiling it stops boiling. When it's actually about what water IS when not perceived. I.e. not how an object behaves, we are focused on what it IS instead.......

Hell yeah.

Landscapes and dialogue in your dreams just appear, innit? You probably can't consciously imagine the extremely complex prism shapes and such on DMT, just appears.

I want to stay home playing games or some bullshit but I made promises to people. Lmao. My desire to socialize is roughly 0% at most... Longass drive home in the cab.

VERY variable substances. One person can scream in a bathtub, another can laugh out loud, another could need therapy... It is possible for sure. However don't think that just upping the dose more and more and more will make it happen. Depending on how you react, that approach might not work and just end up with you flailing around on the floor crying and psychotic.

Dude, do it slowly. Unlike most psychedelics you can't just take a shit tonne and have a kinda bad trip, then be back to normal. You have to be especially careful with 5 in particular. You should also have a sitter as people can occasionally be quite physically active while out for the count.

That's the best bit isn't it?

Frank. Don't get him when he talks. He speaks in crazed spurts, seems super hyper. I'm not positive he's actually making any sense at all or if his fans are just saying it does. Jordan Peterson is like that too lmao. I'm not sure he actually ever makes any sense at all. Well educated words come out, but the things he says are very bizarre.

Unclear, don't get what he's trying to say.

That dude will literally be a drug addict for his entire life. I'm not sure the term for it, but it's sad when he constantly tries to """use responsibly""" when literally any time he uses drugs in any capacity whatsoever, he's doing it like an addict.

It's because it's a two way connection. In other words, when someone doesn't like you, you think "they don't like me, that means I have to change so they like me", rather than "our personalities didn't mesh, I need to find someone I connect with".

Offer him money to bang your girl.

It's only 100k, sell your house fool.

I only need one friend at a time. And there's something to that I think... I mean I was raised that way, as there was just my mom and me, and that was the happiest time in my life. Having tonnes of friends, I don't get it really. Some group dynamics are fun, but largely when there's a group, you're missing out on knowing anyone anyway... You're getting to know "the group" instead of getting to know anyone like that I reckon.

Bodies are gross. Men must be worse that way but I'm not sure... You wouldn't be missing much. When I'm in big rooms of people I can just imagine all the gross smells eminating.

@Something Funny I do the same thing... I don't actually care about how old they are etc, I'm just trying to be polite and get out of it. Would absolutely do my head in if someone kept wanting to connect with me all the time. When I've been on MDMA, the change is really significant. I talk to people in such a different way, because I'm actually interested in what they have to say for once. 99% of the time otherwise I just do NOT care AT ALL. Not AT ALL. As a result, on MDMA there's actually all sorts of conversational threads and questions that come to mind, and I actually get to know the person, as opposed to just being like "___, and you? Cool."

Possibly. There's a bit of both really... E.g. Schizoid people (not schizophrenic) genuinely feel zero desire to be around people whatsoever. When I was younger I was the same as you describe though. Now, the drive isn't there so much. I stopped feeling socially anxious, but also stopped feeling like being social full stop lmao. That's comic irony really. It's easy to get with people on MDMA, and it is legit because you become GENUINELY interested in other people. That's what it does. You actually WANT to know their name, their story, all that... Intimacy happens because you feel like being intimate. If you're thinking "idgaf about all this", you're not gonna be having good conversations.

For sure dude, that's what I mean though, I stopped wanting that... Tbh I think both making friends and hooking up is 99.9% to do with your actual desire to be intimate with people. I think shy people fail because they don't WANT to be close to others. I think that's the real reason extroverts do better with the opposite sex... An introvert will both consciously and subconsciously engage in behaviors that keep people at a distance. They think others are rejecting them, but really they are rejecting others and creating "awkward" vibes as a result. Maybe Viagra is the true best pickup substance (aside from MDMA) lmao. I'm tempted to try it ngl.

@_Archangel_ I like the dude I hung out with, but have not been up for it all for a while... Like, when I think about what I genuinely want to do, it's usually staying home alone lately.

True... Think I'm too old for it I used to get excited to go out and socialize, now I get excited for a night at home alone with Netflix. Lol. I WANT to want hot chicks like I used to. I just don't.

Do you even want them tbh. Or do you just want sexual release... You probably don't even really enjoy getting close to people, if you genuinely wanted to be close with people you'd have friends and relationships... Probably you legit push people away on purpose - like your mind when you go on dates, you don't actually wanna become intimate with the person. As we speak two people are randomly making out right beside me. They have bright white clean air force 1s. I have grimey myddy ones on. Feel like a knob.

Cope though, tbh.

Something like that, yeah.

Rofl. Who are the people looking for this sort of content. Btw unrelated side note, everyone does chin ups on the bloody train don't they (I do too).