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We're reaching Sunday School levels rn. Da fuck happened here lol.

Combo acid helps this I think. Theory: The cause is that acid speeds up your mind, so you are able to actually process the uber-fast DMT nonsense that happens on overdose amounts.

@Hojo Consider if I said, you don't exist. Right now you don't exist. Reality is what exists... We are taught wrong since birth, to believe in a self seeing a world with eyes etc. And not taught the truth that the very seen world is the exact thing which is. This is the IMPOSSIBLE truth. That the world is not painted with two humps of a subject conscious of an object. But painted with the very appearance themselves. That the seen images are not renderings in a private domain but the very literal things which exist in the way a materialist believes atoms exist. Something like that. But the diagram. I think that is pretty sikk. That's better than my shitty wordings.

Oh, uh, I thought those images and the text would be sufficient. Like that would be the total A to Z package done deal. Lol... I wasn't prepared to say more. Before undergoing ego death people believe in the self entity (also God, I, "Self"). Fear of dying is based on the belief that this entity is what you are. Identification with things causes fear because things change. E.g. if you were staring at a red screen since birth, and were utterly CONVINCED you literally WERE this red screen, the idea of the red screen being turned off would absolutely petrify you. You might think "so red goes back to infinity right?!", nervous. Hoping out of fear, because you think when red ends you will be plunged into an eternal dark... If you believe in a you entity, the end of one's life causes a severe terror which is completely identical to that. Because the person has never undergone ego death, which is like the turning off of that red screen when you believe you are red, they have the same ideas about being plunged into an eternal nothing when their life ends, since they are falsely identifying with something which is in actual fact not essential. If you keep trying to find what you are, you will always find things to grab onto as being you and continue to feel terror as these things end. Or have to run around in circles with bizarre security guard and CCTV screen ideas and "why can't I see what you see?!" questions. This is actual NOT bullshit regurgitated from a video. I'm not good with words obviously so please just enjoy the blanket. Actual enlightenment, no BS, is total ego death like that. Being one with things etc, is not ego death at all. That is an existent ego which has lost perceived boundaries, usually due to tripping out on DMT. In ego death you are actually dead. There aren't two humps anymore of a subject and an object, there is just the appearance. There is then no self entity to die, or to be enlightened. The reality you are scared will continue in your absence (your belief that your life ends, and the "I" entity takes you with it) is seen to be standalone, without self, everpresent, and the only thing there is. As long as reality continues ""you"" continue (in the way your mind currently understands loaded terms like you and consciousness) because that is what is. Like that. I'm describing legit ego death not bookshelf shite.

I think the Buddha had a good reason for advising against that in particular. Consider similar questions, but on one hand do so with the idea of this "Self" thing. And then without... For example you can look at someone like Rupert Spira. Start off with how he discusses simple things like dying, time, etc. Because of the invented "I" character, see how he has to make up tonnes of complex logical tales to make it work... E.g. he has one idea where each person is like a CCTV character being watched by one security guard... See the questions this causes: If I'm the security guard why am I not seeing from your eyes etc. The security guard idea exists because of the choice to hold onto "I". Do you see how, IMMEDIATELY, there is the idea of an actual entity, that is exactly why the mind runs down that avenue. Of "mys" and "I"s. Then watch the simplicity of the fact of appearance itself, where this type of thinking doesn't happen. Rupert's type of idea, the ROOT cause being "true Self", "God", "I", leads to identification with a second hump in an appearance, and concerns and questions about where that hump goes. It will always cause that I think. And that is an insurmountable issue, overcome easily with a simple change of wording choices etc. Also the humanization upwards: Could God, does God, if I'm dreaming X can I Y? See how it is so easily avoided, all by removing the idea of an entity outside of and standing opposite from appearance.

@axiom People wouldn't and couldn't do it if actual complete ego death happened. This is mentioned sometimes only in 5-MeO-DMT trip reports (the actual serious release dose trips where you need a sitter). If I browsed Erowid I could find one like it. The sudden unreality of that entity is "enlightenment". Feeling "one with" something is not enlightenment or ego death, "merging with infinity" is not enlightenment or ego death. Those sensations are often caused by DMT, the ego is still present but the boundaries of it are dissolved. That is the cause of the feeling of "being infinite" because the outer spatial boundaries usually overlayed onto happenings (usually feeling to end at our skin's edge) are no longer there.

This is exactly what actual ego death is like. DMT breakthrough trips are often accompanied by the continued sense of a self character, which is then seemingly "one" with the happening, the ego character being mentally added to the happening as a singular whole rather than the mind categorizing each element as different. That is not ego death. That character seems permanent and unchanging, and therefore necessary, because the idea of it has followed every moment of most people's life... That is how a random sober person always feels, that there is some sort of entity which is them, watching what is happening. That is "maya". The proof that the self character is also an apparition and not necessary, and wasn't ever an actual entity there watching everything (but part of the apparent happening), is the moment of legit enlightenment and the same as being dead. And also the same moment as there being nobody to enlighten, btw.

He says he wants it to be super expensive, to the point you have to nearly bankrupt yourself to buy it (so only the most serious people sign up).

ThErE aRe No DiStInCtIoNs REEEEEEE!!!!! It's all a load of shit though for real. Like my result on the quiz last night. 17 out of 30? Holy fuck. It's the sports rounds... I think I actually got every single sports question wrong.

True. I think realistically, the best way to administer 5-MeO is straight up the urethra, and to the left.

Please sirs, do the needful and buy the $5000 God Awakening Redux mk.II Dub Edition Remix course. Leo is my guru. I need a guru. Oh god put your cock in my mouth guru. This cock is so radical. Are you open to the possibility of sucking cock? God would suck it, he loves everything.

He said before, he's going to price the course EXTREMELY high. Like literal extortion. So only the "most serious" people invest in it. I think he was discussing 10 grand except South American members of this cult said that is like, actually straight up unaffordable for them even if they sell their homes. So expect $5000?

Have you ever seen people at toad ceremonies? They smoke it and then pass out, seize, vomit, turn blue, w.e. else... Leo sticks it up his ass and masturbates while watching porn in the bath. Or does videos and accepts Amazon packages at his door. It should be obvious from that which is the most effective RoA. Vape it if you actually want to have a serious trip. Anal is like having a bottle of WKD and acting like you're drunk, vaping is like downing a bottle of Smirnoff straight out the bottle.

Absolutely no idea mate sorry... I've not used DPT. However all this anal stuff is no good. Watch people vape toad for example, they literally pass out cold. Meanwhile Leo sticks it up his ass and lies in the bath jerking off. It's almost perverse, and clearly nowhere even remotely close to the strength of vaped toad.

Sure, it could be interesting from a standpoint of curiosity. But probably you will find 100mg, well first of all you won't actually be vaporizing all of that which is fine. You'll just get a larger dose per cubic cm of vapor (whatever the measurement for gas is). Which is good. Same way a dabber is good, it's like alcohol where the faster you drink larger volumes the drunker you get. Out of that 100mg you might get a 30mg dose for example - totally guessing - but it will be VERY VERY thickly dosed in the vapor if you're using the GVG and a torch. You will know you didn't get the 100 because you could use the same pipe etc straight after and get another few full trips. I think probably you will just black out literally. Which is no harm no gain. I think you will get a better return on investment, if you just use high doses of LSD with a high dose of DMT, as opposed to megadosing either separately. LSD also makes your mind faster, which allows higher dose DMT to be more comprehensible.

Forget it. This is pure 'FOMO' and societal pressure. You are living in a way that makes you feel good, satisfied, and happy, but still feel bad because society dictates you aren't "doing life right". I'm an extreme introvert myself. You can easily live a great and pleasurable, fulfilling life. I've been a pianist for 20 years. That gives me pleasure when I'm alone, to play about on that. But maybe there are other hobbies you would enjoy. Art??? There are so many things.

I am nearly certain it qould be bad for you. But recently a dude I spoke to before hung himself, and I think it was the right decision. His life was truly without any possible redemption. Way worse off than the homeless, or anyone I've seen post in forums. Suicide is shit except in that level of situation or if you're terminally ill.

They made that chick look like Katniss Everdeen mixed w the new Lara Croft model from the games. Which is pretty neato.

Also true... Many truths ITT. I'm sure OP is signed up at some BJJ gym then comes home and meditates. Fuck sake. These stereotypes.

True.

Inaccurate and very dangerous information. Every trip is a crapshoot. You can easily have a good trip after a traumatic one, and then a traumatic one after the good one. You're rolling the dice every time.

BS dude he's still consumed by the homosexual who raped his ass, a lot of the stuff he says seems like a way to cope w the rape. Especially when he writes about molesting kids. Not surprising is it? What a fucked up thing. And he copes that the fa***** pedo rapist is his "friend". That's why he never turned the faglord in to the cops... Send the fa* to the gulags!!! He's not anybody's "friend". He rapes small little boys up the ass.