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Why are you choosing the term God?

I believe that "Love" really means "total acceptance" but worded in a hippy confusing way. Like how peace is not an emotion at all, peace is the lack of anxiety. "Love" the lack of any resistance. I think "love" is a shit term to use. I also think "God" is a shit term to use, because just browse around, 99% of people are posting about cloud-daddy type ideas. I saw Leo recently use the term "Source" rather than God. Which I think is better, and also reminds me of playing CounterStrike: Source. BOOM HEADSHOT bitchezzz.

There isn't some "God" dude sitting up there deciding to inflict pain or grant you luxuries. I don't think so anyway... I wouldn't be shocked if I die and find myself including ego floating around talking to some crescent moon before being sucked into a Crash Bandicoot portal and having all of what I am washed away... Shit gets TOO fucking weird on drugs.

Darwinian evolution.

Infinitely large piece of paper... A series of sketched events play out on it. Linear events. A sketched little man walking around a park or something... Now stop looking at the sketched events, and look at the paper. The paper is eternity. It's not just a really long time. It doesn't have time. Time is what appears in it, just like that. Get it?

@eggopm3 I've found weed to be similar to Salvia in headspace, like a Salvia trip that never actually kicks in if you know what I mean. I combined weed and DMT once. I genuinely forgot my entire life and existence. Little gnomes were opening trap doors in a tunnel through which I could see tiny bits of my bedroom but I didn't know it was my bedroom etc of course. Until eventually I did and it started to wear off.

That's important, I think. Don't resist even resistance... Just observe reality unfold, negative emotions included.

Well, my family died when I was 14... But look at the survivor of the Lin family massacres, out living a great life, so it's on me. It's not really related to the thread though, the meaning of "love" as non-resistance would be in line with what appears to be true metaphysically.

That would make sense, as like peace, non-resistance is a default state.

Lol. Well why I mention it, is that something that is fundamental to reality, ought to be omnipresent... If something can appear in absence of sensations of love, then it's not omnipresent. On the other hand, awareness is omnipresent... Brahman "without qualities", I think that's more in line. Some "qualities" are just the absence of a feeling. Peace is an example, there's no such emotion as peace, it's just the lack of anxiety. There may be more things like that.

@BenG I mean it feels bad to say, but I don't really, no... I care about people etc, like I said I'm not a psycho or actual reptile. But my ability to feel that is muted.

I don't really feel this emotion at all...... I'm not sure what it means. What do people mean by it? I'm not a literal total psychopath. But I barely have any capacity for this feeling. As would happen if a gecko smoked some 5.

Use some common sense... Any being that is aware of you, must itself be aware. Only awareness is aware of anything. Of you, and the other "being" looking at you or w.e.

Is it in da skies? No it's a feeling deep inside. Because I'm hungry? No you're lonely! I can see it in your eyes... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sXOdn6vLCuU

I don't think I fully explained well enough. I think you might want to try this book "Refuting the External World" by Goran Backlund: https://amzn.eu/3xGJsmp Which should help with the understanding of what is "out there" (meaning the true face of matter, etc, which of course your brain is made of). And material can be thought of as almost a computer GUI. So obviously if you click an icon on your computer it will directly relate to an event, but the icon is itself just an appearance which represents the computer code underlying everything. The icon isn't causative, but directly representative. And you should find that the brain is the same. It represents the experience of being human... Hence you can distort that experience entirely by messing with its representation. The material and mental world are entirely singular. So it is not that there is not matter, it is about what matter actually is. That is the understanding I think someone is meant to reach.

Friendly reminder... We are in a void as such, interacting with avatars which represent different elements of THE mind. I remember an acid trip, where several personalities, all distinct, arose in me. They spoke to each other. All with different opinions and voices (which I know I have mentioned a lot, happened to be the cast of Friends). It reminds me of that... And it reminds me in turn, of the bottomless pit scene from Gravity Falls where they're chatting to each other in a void........ How interesting to simultaneously be manifestations of something singular while being a distinct character........

Oh yay, finally, something I can answer. Right now, you assume your brain is creating the images etc, and your thoughts. So assume for now that is true, ait?... But what you actually believe is the most fundamental element of what you are, is not the images and thoughts but the element that observes those images and thoughts. So you don't think you are a thought, because you don't think you will stop existing when your current thought ends. You don't think you are eyesight because you don't believe you'd stop existing if you went blind. And so on and so on... The sights, thoughts, sounds, and things you think your brain is generating, are the CONTENT of awareness. These things can morph around, while you will always remain as the backdrop... What is the backdrop? The backdrop is "empty", it is inherently itself nothing... See: Imagine losing every sense one by one. Eventually you may imagine yourself in a black void devoid of thoughts or feelings. But black is visual. It is a color. Your table doesn't see black, nor do people born blind. So remove the black. What's left? Nothing. That is what you are right now, get it? NOT the content that you think your brain generates (I won't refute that rn, it's not necessary), but the literal nothing that all of that content appears within. Uhmmmm... I feel like I'm missing something... But I was going to angle at the fact that it does not make logical sense that nothingness could be created or destroyed.

If one of your ideas is relative in nature, and testable, then you can see if you're just wacko. If you think you can cure people of cancer and blindness etc, then you will find out pretty quickly that you have in fact, lost the plot. Some things are logically proveable etc. And then there is the definitive type of truth... You don't need experiments or science to show you that you are aware and that things are appearing. This type of truth is self evident and absolute. It cannot be superceded or denied, it does not require logic or experiments.

You can become directly conscious of their healing energies coming through the camera and curing you of all your ails... It cured my monkeypox immediately.

@Gabith She sounds wack-a-doodle-doo. I understand her, but she's largely not explaining things very well when it could be done. I would certainly be elaborating on the part about nobody being inside your body, I have some killer pointers on that tbh.

@iboughtleosbooklist Dude leave the forum. Lol. I made a thread maybe a month ago, about a lucid dream. Wherein I asked a character in the dream if he could see me, he said that he could... And I was musing that maybe the character was being truthful, until me waking in bed collapsed him back into me. Leo replied, but only focused on the fact that it is me who wakes in bed. He did not seem to have interest in whether the dream character could see me. Only interest in the fact that it is ultimately me... And this probably carries over when discussing solipsism, he does not think it is relevant whether you are seeing him or not. He doesn't care about that element and so omits to really bother with it or discuss it. If he was specifically interested in that, he might go more in depth on that... Evidently this here, the appearances around me, it is all finite, so this moment cannot be the whole of infinity. Every appearance is necessarily finite. Very basic logic: If it looks red it looks NOT blue. So this is finite. The infinite appears finite... It can't make something outside itself or out of anything but itself, again basic logic 101. So for finite things to appear, the infinite (the absolute totality) has to divide within itself... It is completely logical.

I will add as I was thinking about it today... I do remember the first time I felt inexplicably self-conscious and awkward. It was at this fair thing outside a hospital... There was no reason for the feeling. I just got out of the car and felt odd. I acted odd and awkward, but because it was a new sensation (I was unusually confident prior to this) I couldn't really place what I was feeling, and so I acted awkward without the judging myself that comes after the fact. Once the ego grasps a "mental defect" as part of itself, you begin to engage more in self judgement, which lowers your self esteem and amplifies the disorder to feeling bad beyond the actual "awkward" event too. As I grew up through my teens (this was age 14 and beyond), the symptoms would bounce around a lot. One day I would randomly feel super super awkward around my best friend. Then the next day randomly be super comfortable around them again. Sometimes I would be comfortable in general again albeit never back to normal. Eventually it settled into a kind of middle ground which at the beginning years of adulthood was quite severe. But lessened when I quit formal employment and became self employed instead. You can reduce the suffering of the condition if you do not add judgement onto the feelings and behaviors. Much of the suffering comes from the subconscious self-admonishment: "omg you acted so weird, I bet everyone thinks you're a fucking weirdo". Adopting it as an identity "being a weird awkward loser is what I am." This element is added by your mind, and it does not need to be... If you can cut out that portion, just as you wouldn't judge a skittish cat, then you will find greater happiness in life. But I largely recommend medication. Specifically ask for Zoloft. I studied psych textbooks and the studies on various antidepressants found Zoloft and Paxil to be the most effective for this condition. Paxil is more effective but has more sides. For me I have been up to 200mg Zoloft... MAOIs are also possible but more dangerous, and in my psych textbooks I recall the difference in positive response rate did not seem worth the additional risk.

It should be provable with basic logic... There's actually a really good book which does this. It's called "Refuting the External World" by Goran Buckland. The premise of the book is that this guy is talking to a naive realist friend called "Walt". By this point it's about a quarter in? So he has already differentiated qualia from what scientists believe is out there etc IIRC.

Yeah I knew that would be said, but go on like, Paleo diet. I did for a little while at around 18. Same thing... We're just gross. Lmao. Most great apes are gross tbh.

This seems like, really irresponsible lmao.......