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@Razard86 Dunno, got a few like that from 4chan. Lolz.

It's anything other than literal total utter contentment with the present moment. If you want even a single thing to be different about the present moment, there's desire.

I'm just bored. This is fun to ponder.

Tell me your secrets, magical pixie person.

In my experience, I became so confused that I could not determine whether I was enjoying the experience or not. I didn't know whether it was good or bad. As a result my mind ran on a loop of questioning "is this a good or bad trip?" Then "I don't know." Then "it doesn't matter." I found it very weird and confusing, and did not feel that I gained anything from the experience. I did not use it again. I did use 4-HO-MET and found that insanely visual. I was having full on open eyed hallucinations of a tunnel in Hong Kong and a row of terraced houses. Maybe you would like that more (it's a mushroom analogue, there are many of them). Though, again, I did not find it insightful, and I did not gain anything from it at all. I never used mushroom-type substances again.

I enjoy investigating cold case murders. It would be neat if my ego could be "omniscient" so that I could watch these crimes carried out in real time... I put so much effort into cases and their research, but never get to see the characters enact it.

No, because it is both existence and non-existence simultaneously. Or, something and nothing simultaneously. As such it is completely all encompassing... Consider, if it ceased to exist, where could it go? If it can go somewhere else, such as into a nothingness, then it was never the "all there is" in question, because there is something (nothingness in this case) outside of itself... The "all there is" encapsulates all, and so there is no outside of itself to where it could go. It has absolutely no border, so there can't be a place where it ends and something else begins.

Who is the goddess? Are you the goddess? The goddess is the woman. Is a woman. Is any woman. Is all women... On the application for this, there's a question that said age. I said Aquarian. Aquarian is an attitude... Isn't it?

One thing's for sure, the guy on top of the elephant is completely wacko.

The only good drug to microdose for this would be MDMA.

Even if it were, I still don't see how you could upload literal nothing. I think you can only upload things.

You die every single moment without exception. That is what is meant by the cycle of birth and death, it is taking place to you right now. I assume you mean to retain your consciousness by uploading it somewhere... That would be impossible though. How would you upload nothing?

@no_name Like what Batman said, I think. He wrote it very well. Reality is just unfurling.

No. Srs I don't get why things appear. Especially tripping, I just have no control, and am cannonballed through all sorts of bizarre imagery... Why are there elves peeking out of hatches? Why are magician jesters poking out from doorways? Why has everything become a prism of red and white horizontal planes forming corridors in which I speed through past distorted cartoon humanoid apparitions, as I completely lose my mind to insanity and remember: "oh, yeah, I remember this now..." I could never come up with that shit if I tried. Most of it is not even explicable, I don't even have words to describe... I feel at its mercy.

There's only one reality. All things that are, are that. This, dreams, hallucinations only you can see, it is in one reality.

See this attempted dictionary definition. noun: existence the fact or state of living or having objective reality. But subjective reality exists too. Lol. You can't even define it. "Being" can only be defined with itself, "being is something that is". You (as you'd expect) can't actually use something other than what is, to define what is. Some people enjoy referring to that as "God". But you see it is really just undefined. We know "being". Yet we can't ever describe what being is, because it just IS.

God doesn't exist. There is just reality itself. You are it. I am it... Everything that "is" is it... It's the only thing there is... That's it...

@puporing Totez fine now. Memory of trips slowly fades, so in these cases it's a blessing... Just wait until you can't actually recall the state of being anymore. It seems to me that humans can't remember a form of perception easily, you can't know it by memory, only by perceiving it. So it fades. But we can conjure remembered imagery and sound and such at will. When I think of very old trips, including the "religious awakening" where I saw that there is nothing but reality itself... Well I can only recall visual elements. I have absolutely zero recollection of the shift in perception at all.

@puporing Without any question I genuinely had PTSD. Thought I would need to seek therapy. Never again. Never.

In many cases I have found the two things to be the same (consensus reality and private reality). That in particular I think is VERY VERY VERY interesting. I will give an example... It is possible to hallucinate your hand as a frog paw or some wild shit. You can actually put your other hand on it, trace round the edges of your fingers, reach out and touch things with the paw. You find that you feel the frog paw where you would expect to feel it by vision, and feel the surroundings where you feel them to be - even when the wall seems 5x further away than usual. Your buddy next to you can perform all these same identical experiments. He can trace round your hand and feel it where it looks to be, reach out and feel the wall where it seems to be. You can even both pull out a tape measure and measure objects, and agree on their dimensions, because DUH the tape measure itself is an object and warps with the altered perception. You both have VERY different perceptions in this state, but can agree entirely on the consensus world. Consensus reality as such appears to only somewhat exist... As the actual world itself can warp itself to any perception and act precisely as expected... The importance of consensus reality only appears to be a "thing" if someone perceives something which is not there at all, rather than just a total distortion of the world. E.g. you see Jesus standing in the room, but you can walk through him, your hand goes through him etc...

Hard derail. Bizarre alteration of perspective which does not lend itself well to the Western world, which is a culture centered entirely around egoic pursuits. Strange mixture of acceptance and misery: You find yourself more accepting of bad or humiliating events, but the disconnect from normal life can cause a sort of pit-of-the-stomach displeasure. Rupert Spira said it is normal for people, that natural introverts become more introverted, and natural extroverts become more extroverted. Because the pressures which normally cause an introvert to act social, and vice versa, disappear. I am a HEAVY introvert but used to really get into parties after a few drinks. Now I am content and genuinely just want to sit quietly by myself at such events. I may just sprawl over a booth bench and just chill, maybe browse the web. This contentment, paradoxically, also causes me distress as I feel I am now "missing out" on something... The egoic drive I had previously to chat up women and show off my bod etc, is no longer driving me to do those things. Right now I think it is a bad thing. Maybe when I am 35 or 40 it will become a good thing.

Inexplicable. Incomprehensible or no visuals. Immense panic attack. Flashbacks for two weeks, unable to sleep. If I did sleep, the dream was a flashback and immediately startled me awake. Every time I would have a flashback I thought I had done drugs and became confused when I could not find the pipe and drugs. Continued nightmares relating to DMT for several months, sporadic nightmares after the fact. Tried seriously one more time. Extreme panic attack. Crying and screaming. Never again. Not even for money.

Demons aren't real.

You either get it, or you don't. Srs... Like those glasses from "They Live"... Things don't stop being things, but you see through them for what they are. Logically obvious: There aren't multiple different little packets of is-ness. There is the universe. You arose FROM the universe. It is your mind that, instead of seeing things as "universe, universe, universe" you see "me, wall, tree, sun" etc. When you see "existence, existence, existence", then you get it.