December 5th 2019 my Birthday sitting on a beach in the Caribbean "Trinidad & Tobago" High on 600ug of LSD After Losing My Business & end up Broke with no Life Lines, Came up with a plan to Play the Social Matrix Game by joining Islam
Went home read Machiavelli The Prince & a few of Robert Greene books 48 laws of power & those types, a week after Went to the biggest Mosque Said i was lost & suicidal & needed god. Took shahada Became a Muslim
Played the Islamic Social Matrix Game, Start Working in the Mosque Became the right hand & personal assistant to the Manager of the Mosque. Islam in my country is more of a Political Tool to rally a community & use those numbers to get contracts from the government for votes when election time comes . i saw that & how to use islam to climb the Political larder BUT i was still a nihilist atheist
Every time i bowed to pray 5 times a DAY because i was working in the Mosque, i felt my soul burning. in islam you have to constantly praise Muhammad & go on about the beauty & wonders of Allah & saying those words felt disgusting. but i was building social power & getting closer & closer to the inner circles
Ill keep this short that went on for a while my soul was slowly grinded down. Started smoking to get rid of the endless though had to get blazed out my mind to pray among others & play the good Muslim roll. after a while my boss the manager offered me his daughter to marry I saw the political & community power i could have had if i accepted But i also saw the hell i was trapping myself in
Left December 2020 & decided to pick up a skill graphic design so i wont have to sell my soul just to eat. to this day the demons voices comes to me & tells me about all the power i could i had only if i sold my soul to Allha
& when i say Allah im not talking about GOD the Source im talking about that collected ego Abrahamic entity But i went from a just Atoms in the Void Atheist to Seeing a Whole New world so it wasn't all bad
