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@UnbornTao What insights have you had? I would say the fact that all the moments of great clarity i had were also changing, were also impermanent not worth clinging too. With genuine clarity the heart stops clinging. Without genuine clarity we cling and condition ego How do you deal with boredom, given that you may have developed some ability to control your mind? Can you find happiness in ordinary moments and experiences? I think boredom is an interesting way to describe restlessness, it comes up with taking away stimulations, the unruly inner animal rebels and then practice kicks in. I have to time structure. I find happiness arises any moment from being at ease with the way things are, when the mind has been purified of being affected by craving - the i dont like this, I like this mind - what is mundane experience and special seems to just be how we associate things, in reality associations dont even exist. That's also another thought to throw out Have you contemplated pain? Yes pain is important to look at in the sense of truly seeing aversion is painful. We dont recognize it is our mind that feels. When we see this very clearly, the mind can become totally serene with bodily pain if you dont resist it. It can also be a profound change in how still you can experience your mind and enter jhana How do you see mental activity as the precursor to certain forms of suffering? I think all suffering seems to come from ignorantly taking things to be 'mine' because without mindfulness we cling to i like this and I don't like this states of mind, which bring about actions, and then results of that action is suffering. Although I would translate suffering more closely as dissatisfactoriness if we use the word dukkha the Buddha used Thanks for the cool questions

@Sincerity Thanks for the cool questions. How do you look back on DMT and your awakenings on psychedelics? Very profound and important but limiting in the overall goal. I share the same views and conclusions as Ram Dass about my experience. But im not sure if thats true for everyone at all, I find it interesting one person can do them a few times and get the message and one person can do it a thousand more times trying to get to the state, there's some reality to our mental structure thats very individual, some beings are ripe at moments for understanding, cant force it What caught your eye in the Buddha's teachings? What interested you the most? Definitely the exquisite detail he went into, and it became and becomes continually clear he reached a point he uprooted his own liability to cling to anything What school of buddhism do they teach at your monastery? Why did you choose that particular one? I have been hanging out in theravadan sphere, I first went to a temple in England and found myself travelling to thailand. All the while I had an american teacher who was a monk for 20 or so years What are the greatest developments that you observe in yourself after these 2 years? I am surprised I am actually happier and this stuff works, but it takes time to kick in How old are you approximately, and what was your profession before turning into a monk? Just to get some context about your journey. 29 and I was kind of hanging out in monasteries since I was 25 and travelling on my savings and teaching English to keep it topped up Cheers You too

@Eskilon Tahn Ajahn Suchart is an interesting monk to be around. I've met a few very spiritually developed people. They usually dont say much and are very light and kind. That's the thai style though. Well some are more active than others... everyone has there style. He's no Osho ill tell ya that

@Husseinisdoingfine if you feel like doing it i really recommend it. Come to thailand and hangout travel around find a place you like. Its not a big deal. You will only come out on top

@Michal__ One answer is whenever I remember too, but I am guessing you mean to formally sit or formally walk, a few hours a day. It can vary with factors... If I leave my phone away down at the main monastery its a lot more

@emptiness dancing Chon Buri south of Pattaya

@Lyubov I always had the intention to overcome my selfishness and to be of service to Life, capital L so I have been focused on that for a few years getting my shit together. I have become quite chill, but normal society and such, I think it would still sweep me away into my old habits so ill probably stick to this lifestyle for as long as it feels right. Not sure

@JosephKnecht Most monasteries will eat once in the morning, or twice, but not after the noon, we do once around 8:30, wake up about 3. Have to walk down fron the kuti (hut) takes a bit. I take the bowl and go on alms in the village around 6-7 with a few other monks, anything goes. From nescafe lattes to pickled catfish eyes, not sure what the hell is gonna be in that bowl, mostly rice though. There is what is called panna in the afternoon, best translated as monks tea time. There's not much to the monk life. Ideally lots of practice. Letting go.. healing, learning to be OK. What a practice

Hi guys not sure if this is of interest I recently saw Leo Guras face and was reminded of almost 5 years ago my first awakening experience through DMT and a few other psychedelics, although i havent used psychedliecs in years. I haven't posted here in years. Since then I have been very interested in meditation, I especially found the teachings of the Buddha interesting. 2 years ago I ordained as a monk in Thailand. If anyone is interested in asking me something go ahead but im not really a teacher or consider myself a guide in any sense. This community was really helpful for me, around that time I had a lot of mental unbalance and no support structure. Its always comforting to know how many of us are out there following the truth.

@Arthogaan any damn fool will search for freedom when they are suffering. but the amount of intelligence and understanding it takes to go forth when everything is going well, to strive even when you are blissful and enjoying life is quite rare. that's why so few people really attain to actual spiritual realizations and the majority just go on discussing and share their views/opinions

@Breakingthewall All suffering is imaginary yes but just because it's imagination doesn't mean you don't suffer it yourself. You are binded to your past actions of not understanding this regardless, so for you, you suffer, and that is real (for you) If you are dissatisfied with this reality unfolding as it is, if you are suffering, there cannot be enlightenment. Only you know if you are free or not free from suffering, so whether or not ultimately that is true, for you, it is untrue. See what truth is? for you, it's not true and that's the only truth that exists (for you) As long as you are suffering this is untrue actually in your direct experience, you are an ongoing accumulating self, there is still the motion of becoming for you, as long as there is becoming, there is time and space (for you). The motion of going somewhere in time is real, the suffering is real, so where is this so called eternal moment? in direct experience, there is the direct experience of going somewhere - the ongoing of becoming is not eternity. So the case remains true, that only ending suffering and ending suffering alone in one's direct experience is the only real goal here. Now is the knowing of what is, are we knowing we are free from dissatisfaction and so becoming in this realm of conditions?

Spiritual purification is just the process of dissolving individuality. The sense of self is quite literally, a sense. There is a sense of I and other, of subject and object and puritifcation is to dissolve that, since it is conditioned, if what arises is subject to passing away - to purify. Meditation is purification, although you may notice in a retreat what you're able to achieve could be relative to years of a regular daily practice at home, we are highly highly ignorant to what we do moment to moment in ignorance, we are trying to become empty while filling up at the same time - this is karma. And at the same time, it can be instantaneous as we usually don't 'feel' like anything is happening a lot when we meditate but suddenly one day you're meditating and flashbacks come and things get poured out rapidly, we enter strange states and have weird experiences. There is no real structure to it Emptying out the cup can be really felt if you strive for periods of time. I recommend reading on the Vishudimagga as it is termed the Path of Purification

“There is, mendicants, that dimension where there is no earth, no water, no fire, no wind; no dimension of infinite space, no dimension of infinite consciousness, no dimension of nothingness, no dimension of neither perception nor non-perception; no this world, no other world, no moon or sun. There, mendicants, I say there is no coming or going or remaining or passing away or reappearing. It is not established, does not proceed, and has no support. Just this is the end of suffering.” - Paṭhamanibbānapaṭisaṁyuttasutta The Buddha specifically wrote it like this as he describes the 4 higher Jhanas in this sutra are not quite what he wanted people to realize, as refined and profound experiences of consciousness as they may be - many people here have experienced through psychedelics what you call infinite and nothingness, but that's not it. We might think 'I have experienced enlightenment/infinity' but coming to realize enlightenment itself is not dependent on any condition itself, we see we are just falling in and out in an experience, a momentary lapse or expansion in the sense of I. It strikes me over and over and over why the Buddha said to solely focus on ending suffering and to give up on metaphysical pondering or to the 'highest realization' which is promoted so heavily here. What is it we are really seeking? is it that direct knowing, not a thought nor a concept, not a belief nor a cognization of experience, but it is just that to be in the world of form but to remain empty and to be empty as to be all form. Because as two people share a concept of God-realization as the ultimate Truth, for both of those people it's not the Truth. It is not the knowing of now, it is the recollection of memory. Which is the whole spiritual progress, the whole burning of karma, either you explode your individuality through devotion or you empty yourself entirely through awareness, those are two ways we can do it. And it is some serious fucking work involved, stepping into the depths of what is binding us to these bodies is not for everyone. After spending 3 months in a forest thai monastery, I came to a serious confrontation about how much shit the mind has accumulated through getting identified, spiritual growth must be at the forefront, it must be absolutely soaked into the core of what we are - to strive for growth, to try our best moment to moment. Love you guys

I can relate. Let me just offer something to reflect on, just regard everything as your mind and put the effort into facing the things you have habitually avoided, there's not much else to it m8. It feels like they are beyond your mind in the sense that the way they make you feel is intrusive and since it is so unpleasant, naturally you want to close off, keep away, avoid right?. You have a little bit of rough terrain to walk in regards to learning to trust the good nature of people, that comes naturally as you trust and love yourself more and more by understanding yourself on a deeper level, it is when your intentions become pure that you stop distrusting other people. Start slowly, I highly recommend a therapist or a good friend/teacher that you can open up with and develop a sense of a relationship that is good hearted and open. It's possible, I went through it. I was way more fucked than what you wrote, it's not an easy journey. Arduous effort.

Realistically you may touch that point on retreat. If you are busy with worldy things on a day to day basis there is just no way you will be able to just pull up concentration when you want like that. The danger is using chemicals is the instant access to intense states of bodily bliss is that you may be so dissatisfied with the gradual slope of developing your mind through a mapped out path that you won't endure it long enough to attain to be able to to do that as you want