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they are not conditioned psychological problems you have you have biological evolutionary needs that if you neglect will seriously hinder your ability to go further with spirituality, the more you neglect the needier you become, you can't really escape it - the question is finding people who you can enjoy each others company without attaching yourself to each other in unhealthy ways, those women are god too you resisting or wanting to escape it is actually the conditioning you're dealing with, you trying to change what is to what you want - now there is suffering
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Cathal replied to Cathal's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Tim R i think that the core attachments of a self is trauma i meant -
I took a about 50ug of lsd and I haven't meditated in a while (while on psychdelics), it completely hit me that now is forever and this present is really a window into eternity, enlightenment. hurr durr But what is this sense of time, this sense of I must BE somewhere, I MUST go somewhere, and why? Is it TRAUMA? that attaches us that fragments consciousness creating the illusion of time, the more trauma the more suffering the more sense of time, that this moment feels like forever, you just want to go somewhere else, you want to go back or forwards, because in this now there is suffering, yet there is confusion around suffering from a lack of understanding about why i'm suffering - truly, the depths of what I have been avoiding my whole life I would be a fool to say I understand fully, that humility is embedded in me, but that is it, it must be, trauma The entire structure of a seperate self is the attachment to trauma, and the ego is all of the games it plays around confronting the pain of trauma itself, the lies, the self-deciept, the avoidance, the neglect, the subtle bullshit fairy tailes, the procrastination... it's all perfectly avoiding what we perceive to be a threat/wrong Like Rumi said, it isn't to find enlightenment but removing the obstacles, stilling the noise of your mind, so your awareness can realize FOR ITSELF it is forever - but with no lsd the more karma the more mind blowing lsd than can be, the less karma it's like taking a footstep in to a familiar place
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Cathal replied to Cathal's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Tim R yes actually, thanks for pointing that out, i think i'm using too broadly, i suppose i meant literally any case of making something out of something that just is and becoming attached, but generally i think the very core of a self is founded off of trauma or some deep pain even though that pain may not be realized as a pain when it's happening - conditioning you know what do you mean by the attachment doesn't come through trauma? -
Looking for something that is very simple in language, thanks if you reply kiss
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that's a good example, i mean, it's about listentining and understanding yourself and what you need emotionally, when you listen deeply and reflect on your life it may be because you are lacking something fundamental to your human needs, intimacy, relationships and so on so much suffering comes about, it feels needless and creates a lot of need to distract ourselves but with understanding your emotional needs and how you may have some dysfunctional way of getting needs met, much of the noise is reduced and the actual grasp and craving to avoid this now seemingly disappears
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Cathal replied to Cathal's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
but i'm saying, is the cessation of a felt-perception of 'there is a feeling of i am somewhere in time' truly enlightenment? it must be if attachment is creating suffering and suffering is creating a seeker that must 'go somewhere' and then the feeling of time is 'created' (of course it must be, for you to 'do' stuff up until now and evolve biologically) - you feel this seeker within you trying to go somewhere, and most of the time you are that seeker, 'doing' things, indulging in pleasures/escapes, somehow deep down craving something more than this moment, but the end of the seeker is to exhaust seeking, which is devotion and to truly be willing to give up all attachments to what binds you to a seperate self (which is mainly the pleasures you get actually, like in the letting go book) and yes if the experience of being eternity itself/cessation of feeling time is enlightenment, it's the absence of a seperate self who is only felt by attachments that are probably mostly unconscious/not from this particular lifetime -
Cathal replied to Pateedm's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@OBEler haha i know it all too well -
Cathal replied to The Rainmaker's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Trickyp the amount of suffering someone causes themselves by wanting revenge or 'justice' is really crazy. i mean, really nuts. because the thing is, it's just ignorance, there is a seperate you attaching itself to a story of being a victim and IT IS TRUE that another being creates great pain onto you, but the suffering you create for yourself by attaching yourself to this story of being the victim of an abuser is really a lifetime of torturing yourself when you are a victim, you give your power away. you don't want to be responsible to deal with that pain, and that is just reality, a rock falls on your leg but you don't carry the pain by blaming the rock forever, you process and resolve trauma by truly feeling it. these stories of being a victim, is because great effort went into trying to exclude something in reality, the what is, the sound of a river, the pain of being attacked by your parents, the neglect of being unwanted, there is a great pain that can be felt and processed, but when ignored avoided and externalized onto some seperate person then great suffering happens inside of you --- resolving these things aren't easy, but when you use understanding to resolve things, there you can introduce genuine compassion for yourself and you can understand more and more why other humans project there suffering onto other humans, and more and more compassion can be found, more and more depth of compassion creates more healing within yourself, it works like that it's almost like it's teaching us that suffering is what creates compassion and with that compassion the healing for those pains -
Cathal replied to The Rainmaker's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
if someone is attached to being a victim of some kind of abuse then fundamentally either of those make no sense or will have no effect in reality -
@Illusory Self you should probably try to switch to a plant based milk and protein but the only thing that worked for me was accutane, although even now several years later i am convinced it has fucked my body up in many ways but still it worked miracously, acne really made me depressed as fuck because random people called me ugly ahah. it was cystic though, perhaps too intense medicine for your case
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dont worry man this society is built off of distracting ourselves from reality, but that's when we must think for ourselves truly, question the shit out of everything, is this good for me? is this bad for me? this feels good, but later I will suffer ---- you know? truuuuuuuuly listen to what the present moment experience is trying to communicate to you, like truly listen. with your ears perked up, your heart open, your willingness to understand, what is it about your life that is creating this feeling?
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Cathal replied to sleep's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@sleep when you have always made life about yourself, it fucking sucks. what will really bring you up more and more out of that deep seperateness and depression and boredom, wanting more and more to create a better life for yourself is some kind of experience with other people where the power of authentic unconditional giving is presented and you take it - that experience, whenever it happens will guide you towards where you want to go you are looking for yourself, but you are too blinded by the mind of an 'i' that goes from place to place seeking that fulfillment, at some point you enter the depression of well.. you've went from thing to thing to thing to thing starting from that toy as a child you had until now, unconsciously you have engrained nothing is really making you happy so now this depression kicks in and it goes deep my friend -
Cathal replied to Yoremo's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
ooooooh well sice you're on a bus how about sending the homies some love this was my first guided meditation -
Cathal replied to Forza21's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
it's just a question of attachment really neglecting material things and pursuing spirituality full on doesn't seem to work neglecting spirituality and pursuing material things full on doesn't seem to work what really works in reality, what makes you feel free? it is how attached you are to what you are doing -
@Preety_India Well i'll just say what i have realized because i also had to learn what that means and generally abandon my own needs and all those things, it comes from being emotionally invalidated over and over and the character i'm stuck in is of unworthiness, fragility, low self worth, self-deafeting, self-pity kinds of behaviours But what I realized was, if I really reflect on things I begin to see, there's nothing wrong with any of it, there's no one to blame (including myself) for feeling the way I do and it was by really beginning to understand myself instead of being a victim I just understand I am just a product of my environment, my seperate 'I' self/character is just a byproduct of a larger ecosystem of social conditioning. If you get what I am saying, what is left to do? To realize compassion, to bring sweetness to yourself and just understand how you feel, to realize the innocence within yourself and others in your environment. Then you can create solutions, instead of pity, and then the real test of true-self-love comes about is are you willing to truly go about life making tough changes, taking risks, facing your fears, resocializing, meeting like-minded people, trying to create a financial situation for yourself, building the life you need for yourself to reach your higher levels of potential which will = more potential to give to others? because that's self-love self love is not anything but that. doing what you know is right, and using your witnessing understanding and not your dysfunctional emotional core, which means things may feel very jaw clenching and difficult but deep in your heart you know it's the right thing to do
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@Preety_India Do you think it's a question of integrity, that you know there's things you should do for yourself but you just can't seem to do them consistently because of how you feel emotionally? or it's you literally don't know what is good for you? because both i know, although the method you could say is to adopt your own understanding as the guiding light within yourself and create solutions for yourself, you will feel far more grounded, secure, warm inside knowing you can take care of yourself rather than giving that authority away to someone else
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What exactly are you looking to feel that you lack right now?
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they are some beautiful tips i must say
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Cathal replied to Forza21's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@ivankiss ahahah -
@Nahm have we ever arrived at our goal? haha
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Cathal replied to fictional_character's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
experientially it's a deep deep silence that only you can feel, it's a state of pure consciousness or flow that is unaffected by memory/karma -
Cathal replied to Tim Gardner's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
if 'I' the self was truly identified as the whole world/universe not in thought but just was, would the most selfish act I could partake in be helping and contributing to the entire world? -
Cathal replied to John Paul's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
If someone is talking about God, it's not what they are saying but it's the vibrations in sound you hear that is God itself, it just is -
@Lorandt Aszom Yes because you are still very attached to the way you were raised up and you fear all the feelings unworthiness, being a loser, being a failure and whatever - you fear being not good enough. Always on the edge about the approval of other people is a shit life to live, I would just say explore your relationship with you and your family with a therapist because it's likely until you truly understand that you have no control to change because you give your authority and power away to others in the form of validation seeking from them then you are stuck in this rat race in your head, you will go around in loops. You try something again, and you'll come back here again in some time It's fundamentally understanding yourself that will bring you to that level of compassion, you cannot try to be compassionate. It happens through understanding what you are and seeing how much suffering you're causing to yourself by playing this rat race games in your mind that you were raised up to be believe is true