spiritual memes

I'm slightly depressed by how unconscious the world is. Pretty much everyone I know are either materialist skeptics or believe in the religion they were born with. most of them believe spirituality is a waste of time. When I go on the internet the amount of unconsciousness i see skyrockets. Will this always be the case? Is spirituality and consciousness work growing or declining? Will we soon reach a point where spirituality is taken seriously by the mainstream?

Damn 100 years? I can't wait that long

@Ulax Haha I was actually talking about stuff like nonduality and consciousness work rather than IFS. People are actually really receptive to IFS because its more of a psychological thing rather than spiritual.

I disagree with this bit. I think integrity is developed over time based on environment and lifestyle.

@Ulax Damn what a detailed answer! I agree that my level of consciousness is a privilege that I take for granted. It sometimes feels like a curse because its so much harder to fit in with such an unconscious society whose values and beliefs are so different to mine. This bit really hit close to home because I recognize myself preaching things I haven't really integrated and then being frustrated that I can't get it across to other people.

I've been looking into my social anxiety and people pleasing behaviours. I imagine others judging me as a negative energy field surrounding my body. It manifests even when I am alone just thinking about the way I appear to others. Perhaps it came from my childhood where I was ostracized, shunned and bullied by pretty much everyone in my life. I live my life trying not to provoke this energy field.

I just clocked that this journal is becoming quite popular. If anyone is reading this, wasssuuuuppppp I should really post more music here.

I feel myself unravelling. When I unravel, what will remain?

Tbh most middle aged people probably do have a bunch of chronic health conditions. Yes I agree. I'm banging out IFS atm.

yikes, looks like I'm screwed...

Phil from actualityofbeing gave me some great advice. Whenever I have a thought, emotion or feeling, I should express it in any way I can. For example when I feel hopelessness or despair, I should allow it to be and express it. Writing it in a journal definitely helps. When I express my feelings more the negativity gets transmuted and I feel a space open up in my energetic body. I tried it at night time one day and when I woke up the next day the world sparkled with a vivid colour as if I was looking at it for the first time. It really felt like I was on psychedelics. I also got some good advice from mandy, she said to focus on what I want instead of focusing on what I don't want. Many of my wants are actually rooted in avoiding something negative. For example, my desire for a relationship is rooted in loneliness. Thinking about what I want should not feel negative. I'm glad I found these teachers. Shame Leo banned them...

Thanks mate. I'm sure those 10 years you let slip were not wasted. I've found that my darkest times have been the best learning experiences. I cannot recommend IFS enough. I'm glad you like crywolf, he's one of my favourite artists and I've been trying to get my friends into it but its not for most people. Highly recommend you check out his album exuvium and his skeletons EP.

Not only that, but the mind is biased towards noticing negativity and danger. Evolution has selected for higher danger sensitivity.

Jeez thats not very nice. I woulda thrown hands... which is probably why I'm not very good with women...

damn what happened? If you don't want to share its fine but I'm curious to know what could derail enlightenment like that.

All of existence is magic! why would magnets be any more magical than anything else?

pretty much but Pixels are LED's and the wires are intragrated into the circuit Creating a processor is one of the most advanced feats of engineering on the planet. Its so unbelievably complex: An electric signal is passed into a magnet that turns on and off repeatedly. The magnet moves the speaker.

Fuck it, Hi everyone!

One who has integrated his masculinity and uses it for the service of others. No need to overcomplicate things

On another note, I've spent some time on actualityofbeing as I felt Leo and actualized were becoming a bit toxic. Its a lot less toxic than actualized with a greater focus on integrating spirituality and less on self help and extreme psychedelic use. After spending time on there, the problems with actualized and Leo's teachings become extremely apparent. I think I'm going to spend less time on here and more on AOB. I will still update this journal and help others with IFS but I will spend less time on the more toxic discussions that tend to happen on here.

I seem to be facing a block. I have made a lot of changes to the core of my psyche which have destabilised my mental system. Many of my parts are scared to do any more IFS work. Whenever I try to do IFS I get a strong feeling of tiredness and resistance to change. It may be wise to take it slow. If I think of my mind like a society, doing too many political and social reforms might cause instability and chaos. This is the same in my mind.

How much garlic would I need to take?

Well it can't make you smell nice...

Yikes, Leo really needs to take a break from psychedelics. Dude is going full connor murphy

walked out of my house deep in an ego death state and got hit by a car. I wasn't injured but I passed out on the street and got taken to hospital.