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@Ulax Thanks! I thought it would only be a few parts when I started, didn't realised there was a multi-faction civil war in my mind XD. Child abuse is a bitch

@Ulax like 30 so far

Turns out my laziness isn't actually laziness but another part. It's a part of me that feels despair and wants me to give up and stop trying. It does this because i've put in so much work and effort often to just end up in the same place and it just to protect me from more pointless effort for nothing. It is also at war with the masculine part of me that is driven and wants to achieve goals at all costs. Shits like a civil war in my mind.

hit the gym and get SWOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Dating is extremely survival orientated and egoic and therefore discussions on dating will always be inherently biased and unethical.

Both can be true. societies are created by god through humans.

This forum is not that bad, I've seen a million times worse on reddit. actualized talks about some deep shit which people have strong opinions about. Also controversial posts tend to get the most replies and get seen more so it appears more frequent than it really is.

wow ok.

Holy shit I keep discovering new parts. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY??? :(((

Trying to heal my social anxiety and dating problems but its difficult. It's not just one part but multiple interconnected parts. So far, the parts I have uncovered are: The people pleasing manager part that focuses on other peoples approval The firefighter part that cringes every time I experience or remember an embarassing situation The manager part that suppresses my sexual energy My sexual energy that was exiled due to my conservative upbringing The firefighter responsible for my porn addiction The part that always feels unworthy The exiled shame from childhood The part of me that tries to not be awkward but ends up making things even more awkward. damn i got a lotta work to do

Discovered a pretty significant firefighter part that always tries to distract me from the present moment and looking inwards. Whenever I try to do deep self enquiry or meditation, this part comes up with a excuse to do something else. I guess its there to protect me from my inner exiled parts as well as uncomfortable sensations in the body. It is located in my upper neck and the back of my head. This one is quite hard to integrate considering its so powerful.

I also uncovered a firefighter part that was responsible for my violent thoughts and behaviour when I was a child. As a child, I was that messed up kid who always talked about fucked up shit and was the 'freak' in the class. This part of me was born from me being hurt emotionally and physically by people that I was close to. By acting violent and saying messed up things, i would prevent people from getting close to me and seeing my vulnerable side. They would think i'm a freak but this was better than letting them get close to me and hurting me. Thank you, firefighter, for protecting me but I am strong now and people can't hurt me the way they used to. My parents are not the same as they were and they will never hurt me again.

I uncovered the manager part responsible for my adhd, constant fidgeting and restlessness. This part stems from my childhood where I was slapped and beaten by my parents. Slaps to the face would usually be very sudden and extremely painful. Therefore, this part of me learned to always be alert and vigilant and to always feel like a threat is coming. It manifests in the body as a kind of low grade electric shock arount my face,neck, chest and upper back and im guessing its because those places are vulnerable areas that need to be protected. I am grateful for this part for protecting me but I am safe now so there is no need to be so on guard.

@Ulax I started with mindfullness, specifically the methods of stages 1-5 from the mind illuminated. I then moved onto loving kindness and bodily awareness type meditations. Finally I started doing the do nothing technique and strong determination sitting. I think the most important attribute to practice for therapy and shadow work is the ability to be mindful of emotions and trace them to specific sensations in the body.

I uncovered a manager part of me that pushes people away and builds emotional barriers with others. It contributes to my avoidant attachment style and heavily affects my family and dating life. This part was born from my childhood where I was emotionally abused and sometimes beaten by my parents and heavily bullied by my friends. Therefore this part protected me from being hurt by others by keeping them at bay. When healed, this part would be the part of me that sets healthy boundaries.

I think a lot of men these days (including myself) are insecure about their masculinity due to societal changes and Andrew Tate appeals to those insecurities perfectly. These insecure guys see Tate as the embodiment of masculinity. They don't really care about the offensive shit he says or all the sleazy shit he gets up to. They just see a guy who is extremely confident, good at fighting, wealthy, successful with women, and not afraid to say what he wants. These traits are exactly what they are lacking and they want to learn and emulate that from him so he quite quickly becomes their role model. He is completely aware of this and uses it to make more money with his hustlers university and various videos.

I spend too much time fantasizing about what my life could be and what I could achieve but don't take enough action to achieve it. I also care too much about what others think of me.

@TheOneReborn yeah I kinda wish Leo would make some videos on trauma and therapy or at least a video on why its so important. It's such a big obstacle to self actualization that it really should be the no 1 priority for most people on this path. In fact, I'm willing to bet that 90% of the people on this forum would benefit more if they spent a year doing trauma/shadow work than if they spent a year on actualized.org stuff or other 'practical' self help. This is especially true for people on the spiritual path since most people get drawn to spirituality as a way of dealing with trauma.

Thats why its so worrying hopefully some stage yellow people figure this out

perhaps in the long term but if we fuck up the environment, life is going to suck for the next few centuries. A lot of organisms will go extinct and ecosystems will be destroyed. These things can't be so easily recreated

That's much easier said than done. Meeting our energy needs without destroying the environment in the process is a huge challenge in both politics and engineering.

Isn't God realization still within the dream?

@Kksd74628 I know but I still want the link . Its probably amazing if Leo watches it

Link plz

Try doing heavy compound exerccises like bench press, deadlift, squat etc. This will build more muscle which will require more calories to maintain. Also try ab exercises to get toned abs which will balance out the fat. I recomment the ab roller and hanging leg raises. Finally, do a sport or activity that burns a lot of calories. My favourite is MMA as it works you in pretty much every physical way possible and its really fun.