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If he says no then he shouldn't be ok with it happening to himself as a child.

its a valid question

@Leo Gura So if you had a child and someone did the same thing to your child, would you be ok with that?

@P Michael Thats a very biased way of looking at reality and human behaviour. I think your comment is a coping mechanism.

For some reason or another I went on a binge of crime against humanity and I've seen some shit... The particularly disturbing ones were the belgian occupation of the congo, the ukrainian massacre of the poles and the rape of nanking. The latter is particularly disturbing because I'm chinese and it literally happened to my relatives. According to the radical implications of oneness, I have experienced all of this fucked up shit which doesn't sound fun. However, according to the solipsism and god realization videos, others are imaginary and i'm the only one in existence. So doesn't that contradict the radical implications of oneness? Am i still going to experience all the human suffering in existence or not?

I would if he was much older than me and molested me...

Also holy shit, @Leo Gura that's some pretty big information to drop on us out of nowhere. So are you just ok with the fact that you were molested? like no trauma whatsoever?

but killing a pedo and locking up a murderer is also love.

@Ulax Thanks for the tips! I'm quite experienced with labelling so i'll try that out. My financial situation is not great atm so I don't think I can afford an IFS therapist anytime soon.

I'm currently experiencing heavy ego backlash. My protector parts responsible for addiction and distraction are backlashing hard on me. I spend almost the entire day distracted and unfocused. This is not ideal as I have a job interview coming up. I'm also experiencing extreme anger against people who have wronged me in the past. I used to suppress my anger in the name of spirituality but I don't think that's healthy any more. On the other hand this anger is getting pretty extreme. I'm heavily temped to exact revenge on certain people for things they did to me in the past, however many of the people in particular are friends and family who no longer treat me that way. They are extremely kind towards me and yet I am feeling intense anger towards them for things they did years ago. I hope this is part of the healing process.

The majority of the western world is stuck in materialist ideology. This is the biggest obstacle to any kind of awakening since materialists will never even attempt to awaken. idealism opens the door to awakening while still being compatible with science which is why its important that idealism can be more widely accepted. the path goes: Materialism > dualism/panpsychism > Idealism > Nonduality > God Realization/infinity Its pretty much impossible for a materialist to reach infinity but easier the higher you are on the path.

@Ulax They say character is built by going through tough times...

Thanks! I'm in a pretty stressful time in my life right now but I'm surprised at how much progress I've made.

I managed to unburden an exiled part. It was a traumatized inner child part which contrubuted to a sense of constant danger, especially in social situations. I can walk around in public now and feel no anxiety at all. I can even look random strangers in the eye with no inner reaction. The energy of this part is still there, its just not problematic anymore.

Its actually mad how much of my reality is actually my projection. For example, the minds of other people are entirely a projection of my own mind. I imagine what their mind would be like. In particular I imagine their opinions of me based on subconscious beliefs about myself. Its actually mad because I spend so much time caring about what other people think of me and I always have flashbacks to embarrasing past events and I imagine peoples perception of me based on those events. But the reality is that none of it is real. I've spent years worrying about what imaginary characters think of me.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FeD16vu_qQ I just had a spontaneous awakening experience, I was listening to 'In the aeroplane over the sea' and some of the lyrics really stood out to me: ''And one day we will die And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea But for now we are young Let us lay in the sun And count every beautiful thing we can see'' ''And when we meet on a cloud I'll be laughing out loud I'll be laughing with everyone I see Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all'' I started thinking real hard about these lyrics and how life is fundamentally temporary and how amazing it is that I even exist at all. I realized that life is a beautifl experience and that the whole point of it was to enjoy its beauty. Suddenly a wave of emotions hit me and I started crying. After I stopped I realized I was completely in the present moment. All thoughts and worries about the past and future had completely dissolved. From this viewpoint I can see clearly how all my problems are all illusions created by the fundamental illusion of self, past and future. The mundane objects in my room shone with an otherworldy beauty. Things that would trigger my anxiety now have no effect. I know this isn't permanent but damn is it nice.

I've noticed an inbuilt flight response the permeates my entire body. It's been buried so long and deep that I just assumed it was the way I was. Its actually crazy.

Labelling is super useful. Although the thing that really changed my meditation practice is to embrace and actively enjoy the struggle. The uncomfortable sessions are actually the most beneficial.

ok I get why Leo does it now...

what's it like?

yeah i know, I just wanted him to make a video on porn addiction, sexual energy and nofap/semen retention since its a problem a lot of us srtuggle with

Like beating your meat to porn on 5-Meo DMT?

yeah, thank god for stage yellow

Yeah I've noticed that I lost a lot of my masculinity after transitioning to stage green. However in return the masculinity that was left behind is far more genuine and conscious.