Julian gabriel

Nothing turns me on anywhere near as much as watching femdom porn and I feel like something as niche and tied to something as significant as sex must have large psychological significance. Anyone have a grasp of what might make a man sexually submissive? and what the psychological significance may be? I also have been struggling to embrace surrender lately in my life in general which feels like a very masculine flaw which could be solved by becoming more feminine. The femdom porn feels like a forced surrender, similar to psychedelics. also my mom died when I was young and we’d fight a lot so that may play a role.

been seeing all the polarity I don't get y trump is so absolutely definitely bad according to Leo, never heard him say someone is so bad isnt this just a lose lose situation cause were still so divided? what about him is so end of the world type shit like chill damn

it seems there is a dimension of reality where others are only toys and it really is a dream. this may be a version of hell, and I may be the devil in it. once others are places for spirits to reside and its a lucid dream conducted by the mirror of internal and external

slightly clickbait title, because he responds quite often for someone of his status, however at times I will ask a very good question and I wonder why that particular one is left on read After the solipsism video I feel Leo has become too much about serving others positively to be as authentic, I find this really sad sometimes because having a hyper logical mind dissect reality publicly with disregard for the consequences to a large extent was incredibly raw, it was more artistic than almost anything. I'm partially posting this topic also because I feel it is probably something other forum members have frequently pondered. It seems that the type of hiding Leo is engaged in would come from a lack of trust of others, which is kinda understandable, FEAR OF OTHERS POSSESSING EQUAL KNOWLEDGE. I also feel this fear at times related to my fear of intimacy. of course there is also the main reason Leo gave himself for his change in style which was that he didn't want to harm others, I believe him, partly.

@LastThursday sounds like hard work

I just feel like i should be in control here it's just me in a big way, its all me in a bigger way, subconscious re-programming does sound like a sort of control. manifestation? idk how exactly, when I don't think and let myself desire without fearing what is desired it feels like that works sometimes... kinda it seems a-lot to do with which other energy u have some sort of inferiority complex in association with, that energy will control you. maybe the question is how to drop all inferior feelings, hm

definitely feels like my states of more unity

while on shrooms I tried to throw up with the regular will of resistance to the situation which did not work then I tried imagining throwing up in some law of attraction type way which let and allowed what I desired to happen to me then I threw up, without using my ego's will. if anyone could help me articulate wtf happened that would be much appreciated thx

thought it would be cool to create a thread of just the coolest most profound questions we can come up with without giving answers. Here's some examples: what happens after you leave the body? what do you think about throughout the day? what was the most traumatic experience of your life? what do you want most? are others concious? how to become immortal? what do you fear most? how to control reality? what makes reality exactly the way it is?

aweomse thanks leo

it literally makes me so happy by accepting how sad I be is that y?? idk y tho?

I think it's weird that sex is only legal once ur 17 in New York, the body becomes sexual way before that, and its not like 17 year olds are much smarter than 15 year olds, what do you think?

in my opinion the whole concept of "game" as a way of interacting with other humans only gets in the way of real connection and intimacy. maybe if u aim to show ur real personality as much as u can instead then maybe it won't feel so bad when ur rejected, that's what I do, it still feels bad but at least I get to know she's really rejecting who I genuinely am and therefore I probably wouldn't like her anyway in the long run if she doesn't like who I am. maybe the homeless guy was more real

maybe the desire for a life long partner is the desire to have a parent instead of a lover because romantic love doesn’t last it comes and goes so maybe a lover is naturally a temporary thing and a life long partner is the desire to return to childhood instead of growing up and realizing that the only one who is always there is yourself there is such value in being alone because ur forced to confront yourself without distracts, and that’s painful. maybe that’s what growing up is though maybe if society wasn’t set up around living consistently to have a job and AI did the working for us then we wouldn’t arrange relationships in a way which prioritizes stability and consistency but instead feel the wave of romance going up and down as a natural thing instead of something being wrong

kinda

solipsism is the most profound concept I know. what is above and beyond it? any concept more profound?

@Davino yeah I do feel like for me solopsism feels like tenstion between unity and division, when solopsism could rather be taken as that which encapsulates both

this satisfies me

it is understood that the beautiful sunrise is there because the eyes look at it. but it is not understood that the beautiful sunrise is beautiful as a reflection of the beauty of your own heart. it seems that I use actualized.org to invalidate my emotions, hopefully this post will be relatable to you too. when I listen to Leo's voice it is cold, love is often cold. but the heart is also often warm. the subjectivity of reality is not to be ignored as it so often it in philosophy, in these contemplations of the state of an external world, the state of the heart is ignored, hence it is not seen that the heart projects outwards these observations. the tree of life is the heart the tree of knowledge is the mind

If this forum truly feels healthy holistic and beneficial to you then so be it. But to me it feels like an avoidance of personal responsibility. The endless debates and conversations regarding hypotheticals are not as developmentally significant as the shit hitting the fan. The shit hits the fan when you get off the computer and go talk to strangers or walk into the woods at night or do some drug ur scared of doing because it may drive you mad and in that madness you may find your brave heart. I understand that this criticism is ultimately a projection because all things are. But I possess an adequate intuition, therefore this post may be useful for some.

Take this post more as a prayer from the collective unconscious of the forum members, rather than a scientific analysis. I miss when Leo was sharing so openly with me the passion of his psychedelic experiences, I miss how excited I became when I saw a new YouTube video about how he had reached new heights from which he could look down on me from. Perhaps I enjoy being shat on by a pretentious prick. perhaps I enjoy learning by wrestling intellectually. Perhaps I cannot stop myself from watching who Leo has become because I want to be like him. I want to portray my heart so vividly for all to see while simultaneously hovering above what their intellects will grasp. it is the small elements of Leo which resonate and stick with me the most. for example how he has become so articulate about spiritual matters but still struggles to look cool at a party. I can relate to these things. With other spiritual teachers I did not see their development as much. but with Leo I saw as he went from just another self help fake ass overly optimistic person to someone who represents furthering of the bravery which is required to come to know oneself. I fully admit that my fixation on him could be reasonably seen as unwholistic from certain angles. I fully own up to how much I want to be famous so that I can feel loved. I fully want to convey to the reader that if you don’t like me for some reason I’m fine with you criticizing me. There are a lot of stupid fearful selfish things about me. idk i enjoy writing love letters Because what else is there to do

Walking into the forest from the city an owl asked who was walking from such order into such chaos. but the one who was walking did not know who they were so the owl flew deep deep into the forest to find the bear to tell them that there was one in need of an identity. the bear was sleeping but the bear could smell the one who had no identity and the smell smelled of fear so the bear stretched their legs and ran towards the new one. but the new one did not jump or scream but did only stare at the bear so the bear stopped right before the new one and sat down feeling confused about where or what or why this one was not scared. then the new one smelled fear as they gazed at the bear and the bear stared back in confusion. the new one knew the smell of fear for they themselves smelled of it. As the new one steed at the bear the bear turned into the new one and the new one turned into the bear. they danced all night long in fear of one another. Hoping not to step one foot out of line in case the other May become angered by the mistake, and when morning came the bear ate the new one but they never did know if the bear was the new one or if the new one was the bear so the new one may still be out there not knowing who they are and searching far to find an owl who will ask them who

Today I saw the village homeless man in Starbucks and so I went inside and sat next to him because I was lonely and it was cold outside. he began to talk and talk and talk. I sat and listened so intently that I heard my own assumptions about his words in his words My eyes fixated on the homeless man’s face to such an extent that his face resembled the face of the guru I had been searching for. I found that I was afraid of his acceptance of me, I found that I was afraid of his vision of my face and my body and my mind and my heart. I knew he was a fraction of this warm snowy night at Starbucks, and so was I. but as he spoke and I relaxed into his words knowing he would continue to speak with the same realness no matter if I laughed at him or closed my eyes or mocked him, I found my inner peaceful youth resting for the first time in a while and it felt like magic and for an instant I felt as if I was the entire scene.

@Razard86 extremely close, so ur good at this shit huh bro.

Yeah yeah I know I don’t know him at all and we’re not friends or anything close to it. but I’m just watching an advanced explanation of god realization again because I just love it so much. He’s being so unique and so intelligent and so casually equal about his relation to me as I watch it. I just feel like expressing my appreciation for it so I’m writing this that’s all. Useless post super duper sorry. I guess it gets lonely being someone who knows some of this stuff and seeing someone as beautifully articulate about it who feels familiar and like they are from the same planet because they value some of the same aspects of life is deeply comforting and feels like home. so thanks Leo I love who you are on your YouTube channel and I’m humbled by your unique beauty. Thank you 🙏🏼