Julian gabriel

Anyone know of any models which are similar to spyral dynamics? especially models which show how patters are repeated in many seemingly unrelated places. As in how something can be seen in both in the mind and in the cosmos.

@herghly thanks. it was more like i felt like i had heard it before rather than not finding anything.

@Nilsi Anything specific that hes done? i already looked into him a little bit but i couldn't find much.

The times when I have been able to surrender my monkey mind or my feeling that I need to achieve something have been when I am forced by psychedelics or sex or another person to surrender. How do I surrender without being forced into it? I hardly ever hear philosophers or psychologists talk about how important it is to be able to be in a state of surrender. but it is so important because when I have surrendered the most have been the times when I have felt the most free.

I want to make a career out of psychedelics and study them but im not sue how. Is there a country where its legal to study them in university or somewhere else? idk how to.

it would help me a lot if it was able to be discussed

Why is the cup there? because I put the cup there wait hold on a sec....... its cause of the person who sold me the cup wait, no..... its cause somebody made the cup waiiiittttt a minute........ its because of the person who created the company which made the cup how do You answer this question?

@Leo Gura I got measles and was home for weeks, the whole town knew about it and it was in the papers. the school I went to was even closed down for a few weeks too. Then when I got to school the other kids didn't want to come near me because they knew I had been the one who was sick. Then my best friend who was also the most popular kid, took his hand and rubbed it in my hair then took the same hand and rubbed it in his hair in front of everyone to show them that I wasn't dangerous to be around, then everyone stopped avoiding me. this was when I was about 7. This made me feel loved for obvious reasons, I can't think of any real unique reason why this would. Maybe cause I wasn't sure how much he liked me beforehand so him doing that seemed to be conformation. Also being fast and having other kids admire me for being good at sports Madde me feels loved, because I felt better than them maybe idk. My mom used to put a lot of time and effort into my birthday parties, whenever other kids would come over they were surprised at how fun they were and I noticed that she did all of that for me so that made me feel loved because I felt like I was the centre of her world. Something that made me feel unloved was when my dad told me that if I were to become a pornstar he wouldn't want me living with him, this made me feel like his love was very conditional.

Ok so I entered a state once while on a car ride I became the car, in the sense of the car being my sensory body in the same way as my human body usually is. This was fucking cool. Id like to try again. How? thanks.

I feel like I need to get to the bottom of why i am me at this particular time. I get that im god imagining everything blah blah blah. but I wanna know why this exact dream. Is there even an answer to that question? or is the question why just a stupid fabrication. idk but I feel like I can't rest until I find out.

Hypothetically: there are no laws, there is no other, and most importantly: there is no punishment for your actions. of course the way of love is still the right way even if there is no reward for it and no punishment for not doing it. but really there is no way of love, because love is all so there can't be a particular path that is more loving than another. sooooooo what would you do?

sounds fun

I want to learn as much about the psyche as possible. But the path to do this isn’t clear because it seems to me that the psychology and psychiatry taught in the top colleges are misleading because they don’t understand what the mind actually is, similarly to how physics is misleading because they don’t understand consciousness. what’s the best way to learn about the psyche?

There is a part of me that strongly desires fame. Just to be seen, given a lot of attention. This seems to be really common for kids who grew up online. I got a lot of validation at a young age on social media for the way I look and got addicted to it. I tried deleting all social media to stop myself from seeking the attention, but years later the desire to be seen still follows me around. How do I get over this obsession?

Anyone do active imagination? (talking to parts of your mind through imagination) I want to get batter at it and further explore it. I've only done it a few times and already earned a lot. I talked to myself in my head from the perspective of me and I told me a lot about being ungrateful for myself and more stuff that I had been ignoring like laziness.

I have realized that Truth is absolutely relative, therefore seeking truth as if it exists as a thing within life is stupid. But I am still in the habit of seeking truth as if it is a real thing which can be acquired. How do I break this habit?

Whenever I enter a high consciousness state lately I seem to assume the worst of people and become afraid. Before when I would enter these states I would assume the best of people. I think ive found new parts of my shadow that are difficult for me to integrate so I'm projecting them, how do I stop doing this?

My theory is that his heart wasn't strong enough to keep up with with his mind. But idk that much about him so, could be wrong. Anyone else have a theory?

@Animo how is the alchemist about intuition?

I've noticed that i'm able to tell my heart chakra to open at will when i'm alone, in doing so immediately feeling a immense warmth in my chest and a state of peace. But when I'm with another person I can't do this. I think this may be linked to childhood trauma and making myself numb so others don't hurt me emotionally. how do you deal with this issue?

When I try to go deep into meditation or listening my body convulses and my head twitches as if to pull me away from doing so. This started after what I think may have been a kundalini awakening when my body was filled with energy and my hands had magnetic fields around them. I have no idea why its happening or how to stop it, anybody know what's going on?

Is it because we're all lonely deep down? and we're obsessed with it because its so relevant to what we fear? Maybe loneliness is the ultimate thing to overcome in this, because its the craving for duality between self and other and once that duality no longer exists then the self can't exist so ur done game over ur whatever u wanna be god mode activated goodnight bye bye. Why are we also obsessed with it? why does solipsism so efficiently cut through the bullshit of the illusion? Does the mind hide its power from itself primarily by imagining that there are others? and partially identifying with them but having them as friends and lovers and seeing similarities between you and them? A similarity is a connection then a connection is a way for the power to be transferred to the other, sorta offloaded onto them to save for later instead of confronting it now.

It seems to me that while on my phone my mind is being contained so that I don't have to deal with its freedom. And this sedated state is comfortable but robs me of my creativity. Anyone else have any insight into why screens are so addictive?

Similar to why eat from the tree of knowledge? Deconstructing reality is opening pandoras box like as much as possible. Why do humans open a box of chaos even when in the perfect guardian of eden? Is existing without drama just too boring? Even pain seems preferable to boredom. wtf, why?

Possibly above all I fear losing control of my mind and body, even though I don't really feel like I am in control of it now. I still don't want to let it go and be conducted by intuition. Why is having control so satisfying? being able to feel that you are the doer of your actions is so pleasurable but stands in the way of surrender. I want to surrender and stop this dumb mind game of pretending I have control. actually I kinda like the dumb mind games